Just like a swaying boat on a stormy sea, eager to find a home port where it can dock safely and escape the storm.
For the former "Mo Ming", even the place where he grew up rejected him, so what other place in the world is there for him
He searched instinctively and finally found another small group that could accommodate him. If he was abandoned by this small group again, there would really be no place for him in the whole world.
Maybe from an outsider's perspective, this is a bit exaggerated, but for a teenage kid, this is the most realistic way to describe it.
This is a kind of fear mentality. "Mo Ming" wants to prove himself through these gangs of dudes of the same age and let them identify with him, but at the same time he is very afraid of being abandoned by these gangs of dudes.
Because in his heart, he has been abandoned by his family. If he is abandoned by these little dudes again, then there will really be no place for him in this world.
He was afraid of the feeling of being abandoned, of being abandoned by everyone.
And how can we not let these little dandies abandon us
Only by constantly gaining their recognition of themselves!
The things that "Mo Ming" did in the past are actually very stupid to outsiders. He is a descendant of the Yan family, the largest family in Yunzhou. His mother is the most powerful elder of the Yan family, his sister is the most talented girl in the Yan family, and his father …Forget it, let’s not talk about his father.
Apart from anything else, with this status and background alone, is it necessary for him to hang out with those playboys from other second-rate families all day long
Why are other Yunzhou families said to be second-rate
The reason is very simple. As long as the Yan family is in Yunzhou, all other families will be second-rate regardless of their strength!
It's not that other families are not strong, it's that the Yan family is too strong, at least in Yunzhou. Whether it's their own influence, strength, influence, power, etc., these are things that other families can't hope for. that is, existence.
Therefore, there has always been such a class distribution in Yunzhou: ordinary children of the Yan family can accompany outstanding children of other families when they go out, and outstanding children of the Yan family can accompany top children of other families when they go out.
This is the gap in identity and background.
With the background of "Mo Ming", there is no need to associate with those gangsters, let alone do those thankless things, to blindly please those low-level gangsters from other families.
To be honest, no matter how you look at it, this is a bit putting the cart before the horse.
In the past, Mo Ming was like an outsider, thinking that this child was stupid, stupid, silly, and hopeless. He seemed to be getting along with gangsters from other families, but in fact
It's just being used as a weapon by others and being played around by others.
But later, after looking at those memories carefully, Mo Ming suddenly understood the child's state of mind. He hung out with those low-level gangsters because they were willing to accept him.
For a child whose family has abandoned him, what could be more touching than being "accepted"
Obviously not!
The age of ten is when a weak soul needs to rely on. For children of this age, nothing is more important than "reliance".
Whoever can give him support will give him the whole world.
Moreover, there is one thing: these low-level gangsters will give him a false sense of "identity".
What is a false sense of identity
For example, these gangsters were targeting someone in Yunzhou City today, and they spent a day investigating where this person lived, whether there were any practitioners in the family, and what the background of the family was.
If the other party has no ability or background and can be bullied at will, they will decide to take action tomorrow. If the other party has some ability, or there are some powerful big shots in the family who cannot be offended by these little dudes, then they will Will immediately change goals.
After confirming everything, they will call "Mo Ming", and then brag about "Mo Ming" to make "Mo Ming" feel happy, and then take the initiative to take them to bully others.
When bullying others or after bullying others, they will brag about "Mo Ming"'s awesomeness, such as "Ah, Mo Xiaoming, you are so awesome", "Ah, Mo Xiaoming, you are so good at fists and kicks", "Ah, Mo Xiaoming, you will be our boss from now on"...
A child's growth requires self-confidence and encouragement. Unfortunately, these two things need to be given by outsiders, and the people around "Mo Ming"... don't hit him. It's good. He never expects anything from others.
Mo Ming's father and Yan Ningxue had been childhood sweethearts since childhood. Unfortunately, due to various reasons, they could not get together. Although both of them were fulfilling their responsibilities and obligations in life and morality. , but I'm afraid there is still a trace of attachment to each other and dissatisfaction with fate deep down in my heart.
This kind of resentment accumulated in their hearts, and suddenly one day, the man died of his wife, and the woman died of her husband...
To be honest, let alone the two of them, even Mo Ming couldn't help but wonder if this was God's will when he saw this scene.
Then, this pair of men and women got together naturally. First they were dependent on each other since childhood, and then they were forcibly separated by reality. Finally, with the help of fate, they came together again. The relationship between this pair of men and women has reached the level of an outsider. beyond comprehension.
Even though the two have been together for more than ten years, they are still like a man and woman who fell in love for the first time. They are inseparable and tired of being together all day long, which also leads them to neglect their care for Mo Ming.
In addition, the Yan family is a big family, and the daily affairs are so many that many family elders are unwilling to stay in this position after only serving for a few or more than ten years.
Although Yan Ningxue doted on "Mo Ming", she couldn't spare the time and energy to deeply understand "Mo Ming"'s heart in the face of family affairs that kept piling up every day.
As for Yan Qingcheng…
Yan Qingcheng has been different from other children since she was a child. She is not only mature and smarter than children of the same age, but also quieter than children of the same age. She knows very well what she should and should not do.
She spends most of her time practicing. Although she protects "Mo Ming" in front of others, she doesn't get along with "Mo Ming" too much, so if she expects him to do whatever he wants to "Mo Ming", that's fine. no good.
Not to mention the other Yan family members...
The family around him could not give him what "Mo Ming" needed while growing up, so he could only instinctively look for it from others.
And the compliments of these young dandies just gave him a wrong and false sense of "recognition and encouragement!"