There is always a good feeling that comes without warning and inexplicably.
This feeling is lower than the so-called love at first sight, but higher than familiarity. It's like every move of the other person is attracting your attention. When the other person appears within your sight, you will subconsciously get closer. Observe more carefully and even want to communicate more.
Bai Xiaobai couldn't understand this feeling, but he was experiencing it.
In fact, in every sense, she is not an easy person to get along with.
It's not that she's rude or sarcastic.
But her sense of proportion.
Her origin cannot be said to be from a scholarly family, but her parents are both top intellectuals. She has had a good family atmosphere since she was a child, has received a higher education, has rational thinking, clear goals, keen intuition, and financial freedom.
Such women are the best prey in the eyes of many people, but this also means that such prey is often the most difficult to get.
Bai Xiaobai has a somewhat cold temperament, and this coldness is the superficial impression she has left on many people, growing up.
When she was in elementary school, she would give love letters written to her by boys to her teacher.
In junior high school, she gradually learned to ignore the attentiveness of boys and carelessly threw all the snacks and love letters in the drawer into the trash can.
By high school, she had become more familiar with the skill of ignoring.
When she walks on campus, she will calmly face the eyes of the people around her, and then exclude all of them from her own safety range.
At that time, she really didn't understand why the boy walking across the street would suddenly wrap his arms around the neck of his companion and push him down when he was approaching her. She also didn't understand why someone walked over to her with nothing but empty hands. Why wouldn't the opponent feel ashamed and childish when doing a fadeaway shot
There is also a whistle in front of the classroom door.
At night in the dormitory, someone shouted her name over and over to the girls' dormitory.
Countless times it sounds like the fights started because of her.
When she first entered high school, in the top high school where she attended, group fights were held almost every day. At the busiest time, there were several group fights a day for Bai Xiaobai, from morning to afternoon, and during evening self-study. There is a decisive battle.
Top high schools gather not only some top students, but also some top students with excellent family conditions, top studies, and "prestige" among the student community.
When I met the most attractive girl at the most restless age, my pure hormones naturally couldn't be suppressed.
And the reasons for those group fights are very ridiculous.
For example, if the 'boss' of a certain group learns that the 'boss' of another group likes Bai Xiaobai, then there is no need to say anything, just greet the brothers and have a fight first.
She wasn't anyone's girlfriend, she didn't even know them.
But those boring people can really fight over the right to 'like'.
If you are brave enough to write her a letter, take your brothers and stand at the door of the classroom after studying in the evening and ask her to invite her to dinner and watch a movie. If you are more subtle, you may ask her to give it to a friend to get to know each other first, or to become a pen pal. If you are more subtle, you may borrow her. Take a note, borrow a pen or something.
Those who don’t accept letters don’t mean they don’t read them; they don’t even accept them.
I don’t want to make friends, I don’t want to get to know you.
If you don’t do it as a pen pal, you don’t have the time or the time.
Borrow a pen or take notes or something.
The attitude is clear, the rejection is straightforward, leaving no room for fantasy.
As for those who blocked the door with her brothers, she pretended not to see them and walked past them. She remained unmoved in the face of the booing, and even did not respond when someone spoke to her with a shy face.
How far is it from the classroom to the dormitory
She didn't say a word or react, and she could get rid of these flies in five or six minutes.
This process was not without some brainiacs who wanted to use tougher methods, but when a certain eldest brother reached out forcefully to put his arm around her shoulders on the way back to the dormitory, she threw her over her shoulder and caused a concussion. There are fewer people who dare to pay this kind of attention.
Then he returned to blocking the classroom door every day, following Bai Xiaobai and talking to her shamelessly but getting no response.
She originally thought that the flies would find it boring to disperse on their own after a long time, but her attitude made the flies even more itchy, so different gangs fought for the right to "send Bai Xiaobai back to the dormitory".
The school infirmary is busy.
The school nurse is even busier.
But the school couldn't do anything to Bai Xiaobai, and it couldn't do anything.
Because she didn't pay attention to those so-called suitors at all, and she didn't violate any discipline. Not to mention boys of the same age, even some young teachers couldn't control her kind of attraction.
There were several fights in the school a day, and they had something to do with her, but they had nothing to do with her. How could the school deal with it
You can't fire her because she's too beautiful, right
In fact, it wasn't until Bai Xiaobai entered college that she found out that when she first enrolled in high school, the teacher in charge of admissions at that high school really sent her information back and did not intend to accept it.
The admissions teacher valued Bai Xiaobai's grades very much, but he valued her appearance even more. The first time he saw Bai Xiaobai's information, just by looking at the one-inch photo, he knew that this was the most troublesome student. One reaction is that you can't have this student, otherwise something will definitely happen. You can have a beautiful female student, but if you are so beautiful, there will definitely be big trouble.
If this high school wasn't affiliated with the university where Bai Xiaobai's parents went, and its influence was there, she probably wouldn't have been able to get into that high school in the first place.
In this way, Bai Xiaobai spent three years of high school and then entered college.
The troubles she experienced from the fifth and sixth grade of elementary school, to junior high school, and to high school finally became relatively less.
It's not that she isn't beautiful anymore.
But her father is the vice-president of that university, and her mother is also a senior professor at the university. They are both people who enjoy special allowances. When she has made it clear that she resists certain things, her parents who are close at hand have enough ability. Take her under their wings.
Then her parents started getting annoyed.
Old colleagues and friends began to propose marriage to their juniors.
Students who thought they had enough capital also began to do everything possible to get close to them.
There are many people in universities, and there are even more outstanding talents in top universities. This group of young talents is like crazy. They almost flock to Bai Xiaobai and her parents in batches, taking no trouble.
Having a daughter who is too beautiful is a happy worry, but when this beauty exceeds a certain critical point, the happiness is no longer visible and it completely becomes a worry.
Before and after graduating from college, her parents had not tested her voice. They also selected the best among several relatively good candidates for Bai Xiaobai's reference.
But Bai Xiaobai never considered this at all.
Growing up, she never held hands with any boy, never fell in love, and never thought about getting married and having children. She liked her life, relaxed, free, and able to do what she wanted.
After graduating from college, she opened an advertising company, which was not big or small. Her father's connections were there, so she randomly found a student to take her under her wing for a while, and the company got on the right track.
She doesn't have many attributes of a strong woman. The company has been running for several years, and the brothers and sisters her father has brought out in batches over the years also know her. Everything goes smoothly, and even medium-sized advertising companies have With tens of millions of assets, at this point, Bai Xiaobai stopped the pace of expansion and began to live his life at a more comfortable and calm pace.
She fell in love with photography and traveling, and became more and more Buddhist in the management of the company.
Last year, she drove alone through the 318 National Highway, which many people longed for, and then walked the 219 again. She never took selfies, leaving many photos of the beautiful scenery and delicious food in her circle of friends.
She plans to spend more time walking north next year. It doesn't matter where she goes, as long as she's on the road.
Things like marriage and love have slowly become dispensable concepts in her mind. Her parents have become more and more anxious in recent years to urge marriage, which is a troublesome thing, but she still prefers freedom. .
She plans to go south after her thirtieth birthday, slowly walking through the great mountains and rivers of the motherland, and maybe visiting other parts of the world. She is looking forward to the beautiful scenery she has never seen before, the full picture of the world, and the ordinary. The amazing roads, lakes, mountains and seas.
She wants to keep all this in the camera, and when she gets old, she will take out the photo album and slowly recall it.
Because she has never met the right person, she likes to be alone.
At the age of twenty-nine, Bai Xiaobai is still stunning and exquisite.
But her life has slowly changed from being in full bloom to being about to settle down.
The cold temperament on her body is gradually disappearing little by little, replaced by the elegance of a woman and the reserve that comes from the bottom of her heart.
She skillfully keeps a distance from everyone, which is a true sense of restraint, neither far nor close. At a safe distance, she can passively become friends with anyone, but she will not let anyone People really get closer to themselves.
Li Xiaohei was the first member of the opposite sex that Bai Xiaobai met that he wanted to take the initiative to contact.
Because of this inexplicable goodwill and familiarity, the initiative she showed made her feel a little flustered and unfamiliar.
The reserve seemed to be broken unconsciously.
There is also confusion in the sense of proportion.
It's all a bit baffling.
When she was twenty-nine years old, on an ordinary day, she met a man who seemed to be living in an extremely miserable state. Then in her various behaviors, Bai Xiaobai saw a somewhat unfamiliar version of herself.
She even couldn't help but want to give the other person a candy.
Just because Li Xiaohei said life is too hard.
She didn't even try to distinguish whether the so-called "too bitter" in Li Xiaohei's words was the complaint of a loser, or whether it was really the truth.
"Candy?"
Li Xiaohei shook his head: "I don't want sugar. If I can, I want to drink."
"here... "
Bai Xiaobai looked at the surrounding noodle restaurants.
The small noodle shop opened near the school has a small environment, is very clean, and has regular business hours. It is obviously not a place for drinking.
As for going to the bar...
Bai Xiaobai had never been to that place.
"How about going to my house?"
Without being mentally prepared, she subconsciously made a somewhat bizarre suggestion.
As soon as these words came out, Bai Xiaobai suddenly blushed when she realized how outrageous the content was. She felt that her reserve and sense of propriety were crumbling at an unprecedented speed. She thought she was crazy. What was even more outrageous was that, Until now, she didn't think there was anything wrong with inviting Li Xiaohei to her house for a drink. She subconsciously thought about whether the other party would think she was slutty after she made such a frivolous suggestion.
"I... didn't... I didn't mean that."
Bai Xiaobai was hesitating a little. She didn't know where her sense of propriety had gone. This inexplicable ambiguity and confusion made her feel confused and at the same time feel an unprecedented novel experience.
"I got you."
Li Xiaohei looked at her blankly. This was his fiancée in his previous life. Of course he knew what kind of person she was. He even knew better about Bai Xiaobai's home, which he had not been to in this life.
He missed the smell there, missed the light blue mattress in the bedroom, and even missed the bed that was still firm and didn't creak.
Bai Xiaobai bit her lip. She instinctively wanted to ask Li Xiaohei if you wanted to go, but when the words came to her lips, her final reason allowed her to restrain herself.
But after the atmosphere was interrupted, the relationship between the two seemed somewhat awkward.
"Is it convenient?"
Li Xiaohei's gaze shifted slightly: "I mean... go to your house..."
"Nothing inconvenient."
Bai Xiaobai shook his head: "I usually live with my parents, but I bought the house downstairs from my parents. I just don't go there very often, but occasionally, I still... um... do you want to go?"
"Okay, okay."
Li Xiaohei stuttered.
Today's harvest has reached an unimaginable level. He came here originally just to see his mentor and fiancée in his previous life. But now, not only are he and his fiancée sitting at the same table eating noodles, next, he even wants to Went to her house for a drink.
"Then I'll buy some wine."
Bai Xiaobai stood up.
Li Xiaohei also stood up.
My knees still hurt a little, but if I walked slowly, I would be able to move.
Bai Xiaobai supported him naturally.
At this moment, she may not even realize that since she grew up, except for her father, this is the first time she has had this level of contact with a person of the opposite sex, and she herself does not reject this.
"Your injury..."
Bai Xiaobai pursed his lips and glanced at Li Xiaohei.
"fine."
Li Xiaohei said: "It's just a fall. I can walk by myself."
Bai Xiaobai said nothing more, just tightened the hand holding him slightly.
The two of them bought some cooked food and side dishes near the school, and then bought wine in a small supermarket, which was medium-priced, including liquor and beer. Bai Xiaobai paid for it.
But at the final checkout, Li Xiaohei took three more bottles of orange juice, and then took out the few dollars left in his pocket.
Bai Xiaobai's face turned red again. She wanted to say that she could also drink some wine, but she felt that this kind of rhetoric and even behavior were too unreserved. She looked at the few yuan that Li Xiaohei took out and silently made up the difference. , the two walked along the school and into the residential area again.
The elevator goes up.
Bai Xiaobai, who was taking a man home for the first time, looked at the changing numbers in the elevator. He was surprisingly no longer nervous and his mentality gradually calmed down.
Bai Xiaobai, who lives with his parents, rarely goes back to his home, but his home is kept very clean. The house is not big, with a three-bedroom apartment of more than 90 square meters, and it is very warmly decorated.
Li Xiaohei, who had an injured knee, sat in front of the dining table, sniffing the smell of the home cautiously and almost greedily.
Bai Xiaobai, who had no time to take off his coat and was inconvenient to change clothes, was busy putting the food and drinks he had bought on plates and cups. His soft and perfect body curves kept dangling in front of Li Xiaohei.
"You drink, I drink orange juice."
Bai Xiaobai placed everything on the dining table, raised his cup and touched it with Li Xiaohei.
She squinted her eyes slightly and said with a smile: "You are not allowed to get drunk, so there is no excuse for drunken sex. I am a black belt in Taekwondo, so... hum..."
"I have no other ideas."
Li Xiaohei shook his head with a smile and took a sip of wine: "Today, thank you... your face, your wine..."
"It's all trivial." Bai Xiaobai ate peanuts. It was her first time drinking with a man. She was a little uncomfortable at first, but the familiar feeling in her heart continued to increase her affection. She held her face with one hand. , looking at the other person's face in his eyes, which although dark, can still be called handsome or at least pleasing to the eye: "You seem to have encountered some difficulties now, can you tell me about it?"
She carefully worded her words, trying not to sting Li Xiaohei's self-esteem: "I mean... um... I don't know why, when I first saw you, I felt very familiar, and... and... I also like your name very much, Xiaobai and Xiaohei... We are very destined, so...
I mean, everyone will encounter difficulties sometimes, but difficulties are temporary, there is no need to be discouraged. If you don’t think I am being abrupt, we can be friends, and friends can help each other.
Although I may not be able to provide much help, I am willing to give it a try, what do you think? "
Li Xiaohei silently picked up the wine glass and took a sip of wine.
He was actually not good at drinking, no matter in his past or present life, so after two sips of wine, he was already blushing.
He looked at the appetizers on the table and laughed for a long time.
Bai Xiaobai looked at him quietly.
The laughter didn't make her feel uneasy, and she could hear a deep sadness in it.
"You can not help me."
Li Xiaohei whispered, his voice was very slow, but extremely sure. "If we are really friends, as long as we are willing, we can at least help a little."
Bai Xiaobai's voice was soft: "But if you don't want to say it, it means you refuse to help. I can't help. And you refusing my help are two different things, right?"
"actually... "
Li Xiaohei thought: "I quite agree with what you just said."
"Which sentence?"
Bai Xiaobai was a little confused.
"Difficulties last a lifetime, really."
Li Xiaohei said seriously.
"I'm talking about a moment, not a lifetime."
Bai Xiaobai was speechless. Watching Li Xiaohei pick up the wine glass again, she also picked up the orange juice and took a sip, then continued eating peanuts.
Li Xiaohei put a piece of pig ear into his mouth, swallowed it, and took another sip of wine.
His eyes were already a little dazed: "But to me, there is no difference, it is the same life... me... you..."
He shook his head, as if he didn't know what to say.
Today's encounter was just an accident.
Opposite me is my fiancée from my previous life.
He was willing to tell everything he could, without leaving any traces.
"Hello?"
Bai Xiaobai shouted.
"Um?"
Li Xiaohei looked at him with somewhat confused eyes.
"You are so decadent, you are not a man at all. I can't think of anything that can make a man use despair to describe his situation, and I don't know what experience can make someone say that difficulties will last forever.
I can help you, but if your mentality doesn't change, what's the point of having others help you? "
"You don't believe it, do you?"
Li Xiaohei smiled.
"You didn't say anything, how can I believe it?"
Bai Xiaobai was a little dissatisfied.
"Actually, there is a way to prove that what I said is true..."
Li Xiaohei's tone was a little confused: "For example, if you stand up now, leave the house, then go downstairs for a walk, and then come back up, you will probably know."
Bai Xiaobai looked at Li Xiaohei blankly, and after a long while, she nodded: "I understand, you deliberately pushed me away because you wanted to steal something, right?"
"It's not like this."
Li Xiaohei didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"Mysterious."
Bai Xiaobai snorted, stood up and said, "Then I'll cooperate with you, go downstairs and come back up, right? Go ahead."
She pulled up her chair and headed for the door.
When passing by Li Xiaohei, Li Xiaohei suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed Bai Xiaobai's palm: "Don't go."
He wanted Bai Xiaobai to verify something.
But countless examples in the past have proven one thing, that is, Bai Xiaobai cannot verify anything.
He was very grateful for today's accident and cherished the time now. He didn't want this wonderful accident to turn into a dream in a short time.
"You...I...I'm a black belt in Taekwondo, I'm very good!"
Bai Xiaobai was a little panicked, looked at Li Xiaohei, and struggled slightly.
Li Xiaohei subconsciously let go of the woman's hand and shook his head violently: "Don't go, I was joking just now."
"I have to go."
Bai Xiaobai glanced at Li Xiaohei provocatively: "I want to see what you are trying to do by being mysterious."
She walked around Li Xiaohei, walked out of the room, and closed the door.
The restaurant became quiet again.
Li Xiaohei drank up the wine in his glass and sat blankly on the chair, letting the alcohol impact his reason. His eyes gradually dimmed and the light became less and less.
He knew what would happen if Bai Xiaobai left the door, but he couldn't stop it.
Time passed by minute by minute.
Three minutes later, the door was opened.
Bai Xiaobai walked in and closed the door again.
She walked into the restaurant and stood in front of Li Xiaohei, looking at her curiously: "I went downstairs and came up again, what next?"
Li Xiaohei looked at Bai Xiaobai blankly, unable to react at all for a moment, and the question he subconsciously asked was: "Why are you back?"
"This is my home, okay. Why can't I come back?"
Bai Xiaobai sat down in front of Li Xiaohei again.
"No... no... no..."
Li Xiaohei murmured to himself: "How is this possible... How can you come back?"
Bai Xiaobai rolled his eyes at him: "Are you drunk too much?"
Li Xiaohei raised his head and looked at her directly, pointing his finger at his nose: "Do you still remember my name?"
"Do you think I'm an idiot or have amnesia? Li Xiaohei?"
Bai Xiaobai stared at him.
"But... how is it possible..."
Li Xiaohei leaned on the chair and murmured to himself: "You have already gone downstairs, how could you come back?"
Bai Xiaobai became more and more speechless: "Yes, I went downstairs, but if I don't come back, where should I go?"
Li Xiaohei hesitated for a moment, looked at her, and said with a wry smile: "You said you live with your parents, which means you rarely come back here. Even if you get into the elevator, you will subconsciously press the button to go upstairs. on the floor.
So under normal circumstances, after you went downstairs just now, you should go directly to your parents' house. "
"What about you? You're a living person, and I just left you here? Do you call this a normal situation?"
Bai Xiaobai couldn't understand.
Li Xiaohei took a deep breath and said quietly: "Yes, under normal circumstances, you wouldn't remember me at all."
When he spoke, there was only calmness in his tone, or in other words, numbness.
Ten years after his rebirth, he was not a fool and had noticed certain phenomena long ago, but he had no way to explain them.
Because it’s useless to say it.
No matter what he said, no matter how many times he said it, no one who heard it would believe it, and they would soon forget it.
This was fate. After rebirth, he didn't want to accept it, but he had to accept it.