Before Chu Yan retired, the relationship between the two had always been very good. As a result, the good mentor and student cut off contact after retiring. Chu Yan only left a sentence on Q: "I am busy with work, and I have to change my number when I arrive at the new unit. , I won't contact you often in the future, take care of yourself."
Naturally, Zhu Qingyue was reluctant to cut off contact with him, so he called him immediately, but the number was empty, there was no reply on WeChat, and the Q number was not logged in, as if he was about to disappear from this world. Asking my uncle, Zhu Ran only said that Chu Yan went back to school to get a degree and was preparing for his graduation defense. Zhu Qingyue thought he was busy, so it was not good to bother him...
However, Chu Yan didn't tell Zhu Qingyue where he went after he got his degree certificate. The two gradually became strangers from a close master and apprentice, which made Zhu Qingyue puzzled.
If Chu Yan didn't contact him because he was angry with him or hated him, why is there a picture of him on the bedside table
This photo has a special meaning to Zhu Qingyue. It was taken at his 18th birthday party. He still remembers that Chu Yan was very proud when he held that birthday party for him. The hotel booked the next floor for a buffet, and ordered a big cake on the third floor. Chu Yan personally pushed the cake and walked to Zhu Qingyue, smiled and said: "Qingyue, you will be an adult from today, I wish you a happy birthday."
The birthday song was sung around, and Zhu Qingyue was so moved that his eyes turned red, then he closed his eyes and made a wish under Master's gentle gaze, and blew out eighteen candles in one breath.
That was the happiest day for Zhu Qingyue since he was a child, so although the boy in the photo smiled shyly, the joy in his eyes was almost overflowing.
Why did Master keep this photo
Just as he was thinking about it, the man lying on the bed suddenly made a "huh" sound, frowned, and impatiently tore off the towel from his forehead and threw it aside. Zhu Qingyue noticed that he was awake, immediately picked up the towel to change the cold water, went back to the bed and carefully put the towel on his forehead, and asked, "Master, are you awake? Are you still uncomfortable?"
Chu Yan's consciousness is actually not clear. The high fever made him seem to have hallucinations. He saw the person who was thinking about it sitting by the bed, looking at him with concern, his lips moved, and he didn't know what he was talking about. , Chu Yan stretched out his hand, touched the man's face lightly, and asked hoarsely, "Qingyue?"
Zhu Qingyue smiled: "Let me take a look at your temperature..." Just as he took the thermometer from his armpit, before he had time to look at it, his body suddenly fell into an embrace, Zhu Qingyue was stunned, trying to break free , As a result, Chu Yan's arms hugged his waist tightly like an iron hoop, pulled him into his arms, and then kissed him forcefully.
"Hmm...????" Being kissed by hot lips, Zhu Qingyue's mind was completely dazed.
Chu Yan was already very irritable under the high fever, and his consciousness was not clear. He was very greedy for the cool temperature of the other person's body. Stroking back and forth on his smooth body, the tongue also took the opportunity to pry open the jaws, unceremoniously poked into his mouth, twirling frantically.
"..." The rough and passionate kiss made Zhu Qingyue's mouth tingle, and his body completely stiffened. No matter how dull he was, he could still feel that Chu Yan was running a fever at this moment...
"Hmm... Master... Master... You..." His tongue was entangled repeatedly by him, and the scalding temperature from the tip of Chu Yan's tongue almost melted Zhu Qingyue's mouth. flushed, struggling desperately in his arms, "Master... let me go..."
However, Chu Yan's mind was not clear either. The more the little apprentice struggled, the more he wanted to suppress him. He rolled over and pressed the restless guy on the bed, and took off the other's clothes indiscriminately, and began to kiss unreasonably.
"..." Zhu Qingyue turned pale with fright, not knowing what to do.
His strength was not as strong as Chu Yan's, and he couldn't break free for a while, but he knew that the other party had a fever and was confused, so he didn't dare to use heavy hands to injure him.
Chu Yan's hot lips kept kissing his body, leaving a string of bruises.
Zhu Qingyue resisted for a while, and found that the man still showed no sign of sobriety, Zhu Qingyue finally couldn't bear it anymore, picked up the cold water on the bedside table with one hand, and poured it down Chu Yan's head!
"..." Chu Yan, who had been splashed with cold water, seemed to have regained a bit of reason, and his movements suddenly stopped, as if his dream had been awakened by someone, and his eyes were innocently dazed. Zhu Qingyue immediately pushed him aside, found his own clothes in embarrassment, put them on, turned over and got out of bed, his face was so red that he was about to bleed.
Chu Yan froze for a moment, then closed his eyes and continued to sleep.
Zhu Qingyue: "..."
He has never been in a relationship, let alone kissed anyone, but this bastard master kissed him for no reason while he had a fever. What's going on
Looking at the man lying on the bed with closed eyes and frowning, Zhu Qingyue really wanted to kick him, but Chu Yan continued to sleep, and Zhu Qingyue didn't want to argue with a burnt-out guy, so he had no choice but to go to the bathroom to tidy up the mess clothes, and then wiped off the water on his body with a towel.
I poured a basin of cold water on his head just now, so as not to make the cold worse.
Thinking of this, Zhu Qingyue hurriedly removed the wet quilt, took off his shirt, let him sleep on the side where the sheets were not wet, and then found a blanket from the closet to cover him.
As soon as it was covered, the man frowned and muttered in a low voice, as if he was calling someone's name.
Zhu Qingyue didn't hear clearly, and put his ear close to him: "What did you say?"
After a long silence, Zhu Qingyue finally heard what he said—
"... Qingyue... I... miss you so much."
Zhu Qingyue's heart trembled suddenly, he never expected that he would call out his own name when he had a high fever and was unconscious!
"... Qingyue... Qingyue..."
This low murmur after another shocked Zhu Qingyue completely.
He calls himself by his name when he has a fever? He keeps a picture of himself on the bedside table? He just... kissed himself
Although Zhu Qingyue has never been in a relationship, he is not a fool. Connecting all these, an unbelievable fact is almost revealed——
The fact is... Chu Yan likes him.
Does Chu Yan actually like him? !
Zhu Qingyue stared blankly at the frowning man on the bed. Over the years, the firm belief built up in his heart finally began to slowly collapse.
He trusts and respects Chu Yan so much, and has always regarded Chu Yan as the closest person besides his uncle. How could Chu Yan have such thoughts about him? Is he mistaken? But how to explain all this
Thinking of the scene of being kissed on the bed by the master just now, Zhu Qingyue was ashamed and angry, wishing to leave here immediately and never ignore this person again.
However, Chu Yan still had a fever and looked extremely uncomfortable. Zhu Qingyue felt bad for leaving a patient alone, so he could only sit by the bed and silently convince himself—what a person with a fever and a confused person says and does. It doesn’t count. It is said that some people hallucinate that they are killing people when they have a fever. Chu Yan is unconscious now, so he can’t just draw conclusions like this. He must be thinking too much...
After reluctantly convincing himself, Zhu Qingyue turned around and went to the bathroom to change a towel, and continued to apply cold compresses to Chu Yan.
…
It was not until five o'clock in the afternoon that Chu Yan's fever finally subsided and he woke up.
Seeing him open his eyes, Zhu Qingyue asked calmly, "Are you awake? Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"
Chu Yan frowned and sat up, with a hoarse voice showing a hint of indifference: "Why are you here?"
Compared with the lunatic who hugged and kissed him just now, Chu Yan who was awake was simply too calm.
Zhu Qingyue explained: "You passed out directly in the company, and I sent you back with my uncle. You have a high fever, don't you know?"
Chu Yan said lightly: "It's okay, it's just a small cold."
Fever, fainted, confused, and a little cold, that's all
Zhu Qingyue glanced at him, and found that his expression was calm, and he seemed to have no memory of what happened just now. Maybe he was just being supercilious? Thinking of this, Zhu Qingyue breathed a sigh of relief, and asked, "Are you hungry? Let me order some takeaway." When this topic was mentioned, Zhu Qingyue suddenly remembered that he hadn't had lunch at all, and had been staying with him all afternoon. Taking care of him so much that I almost forgot about it.
Chu Yan was hungry after sleeping, nodded and said, "I want Kung Pao Chicken and Spicy Boiled Fish."
Zhu Qingyue said angrily: "You have a cold and your throat is so hoarse, and you still eat spicy boiled fish? Eat some light vegetarian dishes."
After all, I decided on my own, turned on the phone and ordered a vegetarian stir-fried lettuce, stir-fried bamboo shoots and pine nut corn, and two bowls of preserved egg porridge.
Chu Yan glanced at the serious young apprentice, but did not refute. I got up and wanted to go to the bathroom to wash my face, but when I lifted the quilt, I suddenly found that my body was not covered with the familiar quilt, but a blanket that I seldom use. A large piece of the bed sheet under him was soaked by water, and there was a basin of cold water and towels for reducing fever on the bedside table. Zhu Qingyue was wearing a low-necked sweater, and on the exposed collarbone, ambiguous hickey marks were faintly visible.
Some memory fragments suddenly flooded into his mind, Chu Yan's back stiffened slightly, and his eyes looking at Zhu Qingyue became deeper and deeper.
…
When Chu Yan came out after washing his face, the takeaway had already arrived. Zhu Qingyue arranged the three dishes one by one in the restaurant, went to the kitchen to look for tableware, and found that the kitchen was empty. I had no choice but to unpack the disposable chopsticks and spoons sent by the merchant, and said, "Do you not use them in the kitchen? There is nothing."
Chu Yan came over and sat down, picked up the disposable tableware, and said: "This single apartment is only for transitional use. When I get married in the future, I will definitely not live in such a small house. I haven't renovated the kitchen well, and I don't usually cook here. "
Sure enough, I think too much, right? He also plans to start a family.
Zhu Qingyue breathed a sigh of relief, didn't ask any more questions, and ate in silence with his head bowed. Chu Yan didn't speak. Both of them were obviously hungry, and they quickly emptied the three vegetarian dishes.
After eating, Zhu Qingyue packed all the lunch boxes into plastic bags, got up and said, "Master, I should go."
Chu Yan looked at him with a half-smile: "Why did you call me Master again? Didn't you still argue today that you will have nothing to do with me in the future?"
"What I said was just angry words." Zhu Qingyue said with a smile, "When I cared about you, you always blocked me. Remember, I'm not the kind of ungrateful person. How can we break up our mentoring friendship for so many years?"
Chu Yan stood up from his seat and walked up to Zhu Qingyue: "Even if I bully you, you don't want to break up with me completely?"
Zhu Qingyue was startled, and turned his head in embarrassment: "I don't know what you mean..."
Chu Yan smiled, stretched out his hand and gently twisted his chin back, and then, under Zhu Qingyue's shocked gaze, possessed him and kissed him.
Zhu Qingyue: "..."
This kiss was very light, not as rough and crazy as when he was in a coma just now, but with a hint of tenderness.
After the kiss, Chu Yan pulled away, looked into Zhu Qingyue's eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Aren't you angry when I treated you that way just now?"
Hearing this, the hairs on Zhu Qingyue's whole body were about to stand on end - he thought that Chu Yan was only in a coma to treat him like that, but it turned out that this person remembered everything! His poor acting skills have long been exposed by him! Zhu Qingyue took a step back abruptly, looking at the man in front of him in disbelief.
Facing the clear eyes of the young man full of panic, Chu Yan took a deep breath, and said calmly: "I've been wearing this mask of Master for too long, and I'm tired too. I don't want to make any more excuses for the stupid things I did today. Excuse yourself—that’s right, Qingyue, you see clearly, this is your master, who will kiss you in my dreams—the reason why I avoid you is actually very simple, because I am afraid that I will not be able to bear it. Look, you delivered it to your door today Come on, I really couldn't resist kissing you."
Zhu Qingyue's eyes suddenly turned red, and he was about to shed tears.
To him, Chu Yan's personal admission was like a bolt from the blue, which stunned him.
—So the so-called deep love between master and apprentice has long been an illusion
Zhu Qingyue clenched his fists hard, and asked in a trembling voice: "You, when did you treat me...?"
Chu Yan smiled lightly and said, "When? It was probably when you were eighteen years old. At that time, you just became an adult, and you still crawled into my bed and hugged me to sleep all day. Do you get up early? Because I have to take a cold shower to put out the fire. I have to endure the middle of the night not to be a beast to you, but also to pretend to be a gentleman in front of you and play the role of a good master. You don’t know how hard I have endured these years... "
"Enough!" Zhu Qingyue interrupted him with red eyes. Chu Yan's words made his hair stand on end. At that time, he really liked to get into Chu Yan's bed. He had a low body temperature since he was a child, and he was very afraid of the cold. Master's bed was very warm. He was very innocent at the time. I didn't think too much about it, I felt that it was quite comfortable for two people to sleep together.
However, when he was simply sleeping with his master in his arms, Chu Yan had been suppressing the idea of invading or offending him? This is simply too scary!
Thinking of this, Zhu Qingyue's face was instantly pale as paper, and his lips trembled and said: "I, I didn't expect this to happen... Let's have nothing to do with each other..."
As if fleeing, he quickly put on his shoes and ran out of the room, pressing the elevator with trembling hands, like a frightened animal.
Chu Yan looked at his back, and his heart was instantly cold.
Yes, I had expected such a result a long time ago, so I didn't dare to say anything.
Instead of making you hate this master, it is better to leave you with some good thoughts...
Unfortunately, things backfired, and those good memories will eventually be completely shattered.
Chu Yan stood at the door for a long time, until the sound of the elevator sounded and a young neighbor came out. He finally came back to his senses and closed the door with a smile under the surprised gaze of the other party.
He took a deep breath, took out his mobile phone and sent a long text message to Zhu Qingyue's WeChat: "Qingyue, I have watched you grow up little by little these years, and I fell in love with you unconsciously. I I like you, I like you very much, and I want to protect you for the rest of my life. But I know that you only see me as a master. In order to maintain the image of a good master in your mind, I have never dared to say it. But I I don't have such good acting skills to control myself in front of you, so I chose to distance myself from you. I didn't expect to meet this time, but I still couldn't hide it. In fact, Master is not as perfect as you thought. I'm sorry to disappoint you. "
Zhu Qingyue was sitting in the taxi, looking at the message that popped up on the phone, the tears that he had endured for a long time finally came out of his eyes.
He didn't know why he was so sad, his whole heart seemed to be crushed into pieces by a pair of hands.
He finally realized today what it means to be heartbroken like a knife.
Chu Yan has always had evil thoughts towards him. He should be disgusted, but Zhu Qingyue found that he was not disgusted. Even the kiss was more shocking than disgusting.
He didn't know how to reply to this message. This was the first time in his life that he was confessed to by someone who he respected and admired the most...
It turned out that Master avoided him for this reason. If he had known this, he might as well not have contacted Chu Yan, at least they could still maintain a beautiful mentor-student relationship.
Now, what should he do
Zhu Qingyue looked at the bustling lights outside the car window, his heart was in a mess, his mind seemed to be completely frozen, and he couldn't think of a way to deal with it.