Uncle Qiu and Aunt Qiu knew that this nephew had always been taciturn, and seeing that Qiu Zongping was silent, they had no doubts. But Qiu Zongyue clearly felt that his younger brother was very depressed.
— that was not the usual reticence.
Usually, although Qiu Zongping seldom talks, he will take the initiative to provide you with some reference opinions on key choices, such as which places are not fun and there is no need to go; which places are not famous but have very beautiful scenery and are worth seeing. Sometimes, he will take the initiative to help his uncle and aunt carry luggage, and help his sister carry bags, which is very considerate and sensible. This is the most important reason why my parents invited him to come here this time. Qiu Zongping is a very rational and assertive person. With him, everyone will avoid a lot of wrong roads in Bali. Not to mention, you can still play I am happier.
After all, he has been to Bali and stayed for a long time, and he is very familiar with this place, so it is also necessary to provide advice to his uncle's family.
But today, he was completely dazed, listless, and always lowered his head as if thinking about something.
Fortunately, the arrangements for this day are all in the water sports center. Many fun items can be experienced repeatedly, and you can buy them directly at the front desk. It doesn't matter whether Qiu Zongping follows or not.
Qiu Zongyue didn't know what happened, and didn't ask too much, and accompanied his parents to experience the water parachute again.
Until dinner time, because the old man was not used to the heavy food in Indonesia, and his stomach was not feeling well these days, Qiu Zongyue took the initiative to ask: "Ping, do you know where there is a Chinese restaurant? The one with a lighter taste."
Qiu Zongping thought for a while, and then took everyone to a Chinese restaurant near the hotel for porridge. When ordering, he asked everyone what they like to eat, and ticked off the menu while asking. After finishing five ticks, he ticked crab porridge again.
Qiu Zongyue couldn't help asking: "We five people, why do we order six servings of porridge? I think the servings of porridge here are quite generous, do you want two bowls?"
The pen in Qiu Zongping's hand paused slightly, then quickly erased the last checkmark, and said, "I counted wrong."
—He subconsciously ordered one for Yuan Xi.
Crab porridge is Yuan Xi's favorite. The two of them came here to drink it last night. Yuan Xi said it was delicious.
Qiu Zongyue didn't believe in the explanation of "wrong number". She watched her brother grow up. He was calm and careful since he was a child. He seemed to be able to handle everything with ease. How could he make such a low-level mistake as "five people ordered six servings of porridge" —Elementary school students can’t count wrong, but Qiu Zongping can count wrong
Obviously, when he was ordering just now, he was distracted.
There were elders at the dinner table, so she couldn't say much, but after returning to the hotel, Qiu Zongyue immediately pulled her younger brother to the end of the corridor, found a place where no one was around, and asked in a low voice: "What's going on with you today? No, I'm still distracted, what are you thinking about?"
Qiu Zongping looked calm: "I didn't think about anything."
Qiu Zongyue smiled and said: "We grew up together, you can still hide it from me? Your sister and I have sharp eyes, and I have already seen that something is wrong with you, and the whole person seems to have lost his soul."
Qiu Zongping remained silent, but frowned slightly.
Qiu Zongyue was a little helpless: "Your temper is really unlikable sometimes, and you are as calm as an old man at a young age. Can't you tell if you are unhappy? You have to support it by yourself You are only in your twenties, right? Why are you like a 40-year-old uncle, without the youthful vigor of Yuan Xi at all!"
It would be good if she didn't mention Yuan Xi, but when this name was mentioned, Qiu Zongping's expression changed slightly.
After a while, he lowered his voice and asked, "Is my personality really annoying?"
Qiu Zongyue was joking, but when he saw that he was serious, he was taken aback, and hurriedly explained: "No, I just made a few remarks, you are too serious. Everyone has different personalities. As the captain, it's okay to be steady. Wrong... I just think that you are too tired from life, with so many burdens on your body, you only have the team, the game, and the results in your eyes, and you can't relax every time you go home from vacation. Maybe you care too much about the captain's responsibilities? Instead, you ignore many other things. s things."
In fact, Qiu Zongyue didn't know about his relationship with Yuan Xi, but felt that his younger brother was under too much psychological pressure, so he wanted to relieve him and let him come out to play to relax.
But what she said gave Qiu Zongping instant enlightenment.
— Yes, he really cared too much about the duties of the captain.
Ever since Moshen and Team Yan retired successively and put Fengse's burden on his shoulders, he has been thinking about how to lead this team well every day, how to bring Fengse team back to the first-class echelon, and how to live up to the entrustment of his predecessors be the captain...
Later, he entered Dubujianghu as the captain, and what he thought about in his mind was how to make this new team achieve good results.
Every time a problem arises, his starting point is the team. Therefore, when Yuan Xi fell in love with him and confessed to him, he refused without hesitation, because he felt that Yuan Xi's state would affect the team's performance and he had to come out as soon as possible.
—He ignored it, the relationship is not like anything else, it can't end just by saying it's over.
Human feelings are the most complicated things in the world, especially the feeling of "like", which is so precious that it can be bought by thousands of dollars.
What he did hurt Yuan Xi, and the way he dealt with it was too indifferent. He considered the problem from the captain's point of view and forced Yuan Xi to let go, but he didn't think about Yuan Xi's feelings.
Thinking about it from another angle, why did Yuan Xi listen to him? Why do you have to let go of this relationship? What right does Qiu Zongping have to interfere with other people's feelings
Yuan Xi has the freedom to like someone. No matter who you like, it comes from his own heart. He wants to let go, or doesn't want to let go, that is his own business, Qiu Zongping has no right to ask. Putting pressure on him as the captain, tactfully forcing him to get back to his form, enter the game and let go of this relationship, is actually very cruel.
It's like, you fall in love with someone, and you like them very seriously, but the other person uses various methods to make you understand: you shouldn't like me, it's wrong for you to do this, give up quickly.
What would that feel like
Must be very sad, right
Yuan Xi is a relatively simple person, and she didn't think about it carefully, and even felt guilty because she fell in love with Qiu Zongping.
In fact, there is nothing wrong with him.
He just fell in love with someone, so what's wrong with him
Change to someone with a slightly more irritable temper—you love to be the captain, if you go to be your captain, I won’t do it anymore!
Yuan Xi has many choices, such as returning to Miracle's team to play with Xiaochen, or even transferring to another team on Dubu's side. With his strength, if he wants to transfer, many clubs can rush to ask him. But because of his deep affection for the Fengse Club, he did not leave, but chose to suppress his emotions, and stayed by Qiu Zongping's side despite his embarrassment.
…
Qiu Zongping gently covered his eyes with his hands, because his eye sockets were a little uncontrollably sore.
He suddenly understood one thing—in fact, Yuan Xi didn't do anything wrong, on the contrary, he made a big mistake.
Yuan Xi likes him so seriously, but what about him? What is he doing! He put on the captain's posture all day long, and repeatedly hurt Yuan Xi in various ways that he thought were very tactful.
The more he puts on a righteous attitude as the captain like this, the more Yuan Xi will blame himself and feel guilty.
That's why Yuan Xi was depressed and lost weight quickly during this period of time.
That night, he choked up and said: "Please believe me, I will definitely let go."
Thinking of that person's red eyes trying to hold back tears, Qiu Zongping really wanted to slap himself twice.
***
Qiu Zongyue kept looking at his younger brother, and found that his face changed again and again in just one minute, obviously a battle between heaven and man was in his mind.
She thought she had said something wrong, so she couldn't help but patted his shoulder lightly: "Hey, are you okay?"
Qiu Zongping came back to his senses, and asked with some hesitation: "Sister, what do you think... that a man likes a man?"
Qiu Zongyue was taken aback, because they grew up together, and their siblings talked about everything. Regarding this kind of problem, she was more open-minded, so she said directly: "It doesn't matter. I am a medical student. Our "Psychiatry" The description of homosexuality as a disease has long been removed from textbooks, there is nothing wrong with liking the same sex, and if two people like each other, I am very supportive of being together."
Qiu Zongping didn't listen carefully, and only caught the key words: not sick, no problem, very supportive.
Then he asked again: "Then, what does it feel like to like someone?"
Looking at his serious expression, Qiu Zongyue couldn't help laughing "poof"—she is currently a Ph. I got married after graduation, so I asked her, after all, she has more experience in love.
As for Qiu Zongping, it can be said that there is a blank in terms of feelings.
Embarrassed by her laughter, Qiu Zongping pretended to be calm and said: "I also asked casually."
Qiu Zongyue said with a smile: "Like someone? I just worry about him. I can't help thinking about him. The more I think about him, the more I feel that he is good everywhere."
Qiu Zongping: "..."
is that so
He has been thinking about Yuan Xi all day today, and the more he thinks about it, the more he feels that Yuan Xi is good everywhere, and it is all his own fault.
When he thought of Yuan Xi being sad, his heart couldn't help but ache.
When playing parachute, I thought that Yuan Xi was afraid of heights and could not play this kind of sport; when playing snorkeling, I thought Yuan Xi would also like it; when drinking porridge, I thought whether he had dinner? Where to eat, don't eat bad stomach again.
— worrying.
Qiu Zongping realized for the first time what this word meant.
He was a little surprised. According to his sister, could it be possible that he also fell in love with Yuan Xi
This cognition made Qiu Zongping a little confused for a while.
He was silent for a moment, then turned around and left. Qiu Zongyue stared wide-eyed, seeing that he was going in the wrong direction, and finally couldn't help laughing: "Hey, what's going on with you, it feels like your soul is out of your body all day long. It's not as calm as usual!"
Qiu Zongping's back stiffened, and when he realized that he had made a mistake, he immediately retreated calmly and said, "Maybe I have a headache, I'll go back and rest first."
He walked back to the room at a calm pace.
But no matter how calm the surface is, the monstrous waves in the heart are still uncontrollable.
He likes Yuan Xi.
He actually likes Yuan Xi? ? ? ?
Could it be that, as my sister said, he was too obsessed with the captain's duties, forcing himself to think about tactics and strategies all day long, so he ignored the deepest feelings in his heart
Thinking about it carefully, he actually had a good impression of Yuan Xi when he was young, and the two of them talked about everything together and imagined the future together, and they often appeared in his dreams a few years later. Qiu Zongping also admired Yuan Xi's courage to confront Moshen face to face, and he also admired Yuan Xi's passion for playing games. Even if there was a estrangement later, he has been working hard to maintain the relationship between the two, hoping to fight side by side with Yuan Xi.
As for when did the feeling towards Yuan Xi start to change
Maybe it was hidden deep in my heart, but because I was the captain, I suppressed my sensibility with reason, and it only came out recently
Or maybe the experience of being forced to kiss after being drunk that day stimulated him so much that he suddenly realized that he didn't hate Yuan Xi's closeness...
Qiu Zongping sat on the sofa and carefully sorted out the chaotic thoughts in his head.
In any case, he is only sure of one thing now.
— He likes Yuan Xi.
It's ridiculous, when Yuan Xi said "I will definitely give up" yesterday, he didn't do anything, but today he was seriously slapped in the face and found that he also likes Yuan Xi.
Is it still too late to tell Yuan Xi "Don't give up"
***
That night, Qiu Zongping couldn't sleep because he tossed and turned, so he simply sent a message to Yuan Xi's WeChat: "Yuan Xi, are you asleep?"
Yuan Xi didn't sleep, but he didn't want to pay attention to Qiu Zongping's "condolences". He glanced at WeChat, locked the phone screen, and threw it aside.
As a result, the screen quickly lit up again, and it was a string of texts sent by Qiu Zongping: "Does the wound hurt? Did you change the gauze today?"
Yuan Xi pretended not to see it, and continued to press the lock screen button.
Then, he heard ding-dong, ding-dong ringing in his ear—
"I recommend some fun water entertainment for you. You can experience it after your arm is healed. Walking under the sea is very good, and you can see beautiful marine life when you dive underwater. Speedboats, banana boats and the like are also more exciting. Flying fish and Parachutes are all high-altitude events, if you are afraid of heights, don't try it."
"In addition, the water recreation center is very far from the hotel where we live. You can directly ask the front desk to book a special car, and the driver will pick it up."
"If you go to play, you must bring a change of clothes and a swimsuit, otherwise it will be uncomfortable to get wet."
"It's better to go there earlier, otherwise there will be traffic jams, and you can eat lunch directly there."
Yuan Xi was very irritated by the ding-dong noise, picked it up and glanced at it, and was stunned—this is Team Qiu
Has team Qiu's account been hacked? Why are you so wordy!
In order to confirm the identity of the other party, Yuan Xi also clicked on the WeChat circle of friends and looked, and it was indeed Qiu Zongping. The last circle of friends was still a very official sentence: "This season is over, and the results of Team Yunxiao are not very good. Let’s continue to work hard this season, everyone, come on.”
Yuan Xi: "..."
So is he taking the wrong medicine
Mingming told him last night not to meet again, he wanted to stay alone for a few days, calm down and give up this relationship.
Doesn't he know the meaning of this sentence
He was already in a bad mood, and he kept sending WeChat messages. Yuan Xi became angrier the more he watched, and replied directly: "Thank you, Captain, for your concern. I'll check where I'm going to play. I'm sorry."
Qiu Zongping: "..."
This polite but alienated reply made Qiu Zongping feel a slight pain in his heart, as if being pricked by a needle.
But Yuan Xi's reaction is also very normal. Anyone who has been rejected in the confession suddenly sends a message to care about you. Anyone will be upset, right? Just like playing with people.
Qiu Zongping took a deep breath and said, "Can we talk? I have something to tell you."
Yuan Xi had already turned off her mobile phone and did not reply to this message.
Qiu Zongping waited for a long time, but didn't get any response, and couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.
When Yuan Xi had a crush on him before, did she often do the same, nervously holding her phone, wondering what to say to him
It's really a turn of events, now Qiu Zongping's head is in a mess, and he took the initiative to send a message to Yuan Xi, but the other party turned off his phone and ignored him.
Captain Qiu, who has always been calm, suddenly realized that this time, he seemed to have encountered the most difficult thing since he was a child.
And all of this was done by himself.
No sympathy at all.
****
The next day, during breakfast time, Qiu Zongping walked around the dining room with his dinner plate. He walked around almost every corner, but he still didn't see Yuan Xi's shadow.
Aunt Qiu smiled steadily: "Ping, what are you looking for? You have been searching for a long time, did you find it?"
Qiu Zongping thought: I didn't find it.
—He drove away that Yuan Xi who liked him. It's not that easy to get it back.
Knowing that his younger brother was in a bad mood, Qiu Zongyue quickly changed the subject and said, "Have you been to Lover's Cliff last time? How's the scenery?"
Listening to his sister asking about the scenic spot, Qiu Zongping came back to his senses and replied: "In fact, Lover's Cliff is very famous because there is a legend about a couple jumping off the cliff there. There are many tourists there, and the scenery is not particularly beautiful. It’s just a cliff with the sea below.”
Qiu Zongyue nodded: "Well, it seems that it was blown out by the story, so shall we go?"
Aunt Qiu is very energetic: "Go, go! Since you're here, let's go and have a look. And I don't have any other plans for today, I don't want to stay in the hotel anymore."
Others also agreed, and Qiu Zongping said: "Okay, I'll go to the front desk to rent a car, and we'll set off after breakfast."
After a group of five people came to Lover's Cliff by car, they found that there were a lot of people here, and there were many domestic tour groups. Those flags saying "XX Travel Agency" were flying everywhere, making people feel that this is not a foreign country, but a domestic tourist. The illusion of sights.
However, the elderly are very lively, and uncles and aunts like to take pictures wherever they go. There are a lot of Chinese people here, but the two of them felt friendly, so they picked a place with a good view and leaned together to take pictures. Among the three juniors, Qiu Zongping had the best photography skills, so he naturally took the role of photographer.
Qiu Zongyue also loves beauty, and today she specially wore a beautiful red beach dress, and Qiu Zongping also took many photos of her.
People don't have a time limit like a travel agency, so they don't rush, and take pictures slowly while strolling.
"Ah Ping, get me a picture over there. The scenery over there is nice." Qiu Zongyue posed under a tree, with one hand on his cheek to make a face, and the other hand lifted up the hem of the skirt, She was already pretty and photogenic, and the photos she took were really good-looking.
Qiu Zongping took a few shots in a row, thinking of changing the angle, he took a few steps back to take a picture of her from the side.
As a result, the focus of the camera was just right, but I saw a figure walking by not far away—that person was wearing simple beach pants and short sleeves, and a pair of sandals on his feet. Dazzling white gauze.
It's Yuan Xi!
Even if he just passed by, Qiu Zongping recognized him immediately.
He couldn't hear what his sister was saying at all. Like a robot whose start button was pressed, he chased Yuan Xi and walked towards the corner.
Qiu Zongyue: "..." What's going on
I was taking pictures, and suddenly left with the camera in my arms. Could it be that my brother has been bewitched
***
Qiu Zongping walked around a corner following Yuan Xi's back, and then he froze in place for an instant.
Because he saw a very dazzling picture.
Not far away, Yuan Xi smiled happily. Standing next to him was a very cute girl with twin ponytails and exquisite facial features.
"Hey, last night you asked me on WeChat if Lover's Cliff was fun. Didn't I tell you that it wasn't fun? Why are you still here?" There was unconcealable joy in her eyes.
"It doesn't matter, anyway, I'm bored staying in the hotel. Didn't you say that you happened to bring a group to Lover's Cliff today? I just thought, maybe I can meet you here." After Yuan Xi finished speaking, she handed an ice cream to She said, "Come and have an ice cream, just now I heard you yelling at the tourists in the group for a long time to pay attention to things, and your voice is hoarse."
"Thank you! You are quite considerate." The girl took the ice cream with a smile, and the two tore open the plastic bag together, eating the same ice cream, talking and laughing.
Seeing this scene, Qiu Zongping felt extremely uncomfortable.
He didn't know how to describe this kind of discomfort. It felt like someone had suddenly snatched away his precious items that originally belonged to him.
The relaxed smile on Yuan Xi's face was very dazzling, and what made his heart tighten even more was that Yuan Xi and this girl were a perfect match when they stood together.
"If you travel freely, will you feel a little bit at a loss and don't know where to go?" The girl took a bite of the ice cream, looked back at him and said, "Why don't you just follow our group's itinerary! Tomorrow we have to go to the sea. Temple, do you want to go together?"
"Okay." Yuan Xi paused, then scratched his head and asked, "However, your team must be acting together, how can I find you?"
The girl smiled and said, "That's easy! Tell me the time and place, and you go straight there, won't you be able to meet me? If you can't find it, you can send me a WeChat message. There are professional tour guides like me who can explain some scenic spots to you by the way. An anecdote, it's better than you running around like a headless chicken."
Yuan Xi nodded: "Then it's settled, I'm a casual person, I'll leave it to you, Director Ying."
Yingying covered her mouth and smiled: "Why do I feel like I picked up a stray puppy?"
Yuan Xi rolled her eyes: "You are a stray puppy! I am so tall, how can I look like a stray puppy?"
When she saw him, he walked forward silently with his head down and listless. He really looked like a stray puppy, and she almost didn't dare to recognize him. Seeing him standing beside a stone in a daze, she walked closer and took a closer look, and then she was sure that he was the young man sitting next to him on the plane, Yuan Xi.
Yingying could not bear to think about it, and said, "We're going to the beach to watch the sunset at night, why don't you go with us? There's space in the car, so let's take you by the way."
Yuan Xi said excitedly: "That's great, thank you!"
"You're welcome..." Before she could say the words, she found a sharp gaze staring at them. Yingying was startled, glanced at Qiu Zongping, and asked Yuan Xi in a low voice: "That person seems to be looking at us all the time. ,do you know him?"
Yuan Xi looked back, his back was slightly stiff, and then he pretended to be calm and said: "Cough, I don't know, let's go over there."
After finishing speaking, he hurriedly looked away, then pulled Yingying and turned around to leave without saying hello.
Qiu Zongping's eyes almost burst into flames.
Because, he discovered that Yuan Xi actually grabbed the girl's wrist.
He wished he could chase that girl away and take Yuan Xi's hand into his own.
But thinking of Yuan Xi's "I don't know", Qiu Zongping was immediately discouraged.
——Yuan Xi clearly told him that night that he didn't want to see him again, so after meeting him at a scenic spot today, Yuan Xi also chose to avoid him.
—Why did he bother himself and break the happy atmosphere between Yuan Xi and that girl
Who is that girl? Why did Yuan Xi treat her so well? Take the initiative to buy ice cream for her, and follow her in the next few days
Does he like being with that girl that much? When chatting, there are smiles all over the face.
Qiu Zongping clenched his fists tightly, standing there suddenly feeling at a loss.
If Yuan Xi really let go of him and fell in love with someone else, what should he do
He, who once rejected Yuan Xi, hurt Yuan Xi, and only brought Yuan Xi pain, what position does he have to interfere with Yuan Xi's start of a new relationship
Qiu Zongping stood where he was, his back was as stiff as a statue.
He finally realized what it meant to be "heart-wrenching like a knife". At this moment, his chest was so stuffy that he could hardly breathe.
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