She actually cried, for a man who killed her brothers and sisters and imprisoned her for many years.
She still clearly remembers that morning, when the bad news spread to Zhuge Mansion, Yue Shisan rushed into the gate of Qingshan Courtyard covered in dust, followed by the servants of the main courtyard, before they had time to react At that time, the entire Qingshanyuan was searched up and down. Then, the general judge of the Shangluyuan, the yamen arrester of the Dasifu, and the inspector of the elders' house were accused of various crimes on the man who has always been glamorous and proud. Cause major military mistakes of the army, even treason.
The Qingshan Courtyard, which used to be superior to the entire Zhuge Mansion, suddenly fell into pieces and was driven into the bottomless abyss. The Moon Guards ran around, begging Zhuge Yue's old friends, brothers and sisters, begging them to clear up his grievances, begging them to send troops to Yanbei, begging them to continue looking for the young master, even if it was just a corpse. However, in the face of the failure of the war and the criticism and opposition from the whole country, no one is willing to lend a helping hand to them except the Seventh Prince Zhao Che, who also lost power because of this battle. Wei Shuye also put up a thank-you card to them, and never saw these old troops who were loyal to Zhuge Yue.
Finally, even Zhao Che was dispatched to the north, and Zhuge Yue's body was returned by Yanbei. Although he paid a large amount of ransom, the Zhuge Clan expelled him from the house. Whipping his son's body to show his determination to break with his son. After Zhuge Yue died, he was not allowed to enter the ancestral temple, and was thrown into a mass grave, reviled by thousands of people, and removed from the army. And they, the former female slaves of Qingshanyuan, were also driven out of the mansion, and after being sold several times, they finally fell into prostitution.
Even though it has been so long, every night, she can still think of the first days of laughing. Because of her refusal to comply, the brothel owner hired two strong men to open her buds. They were so close to her that she could see their yellowed teeth and smell the alcohol in their mouths. Their strength is so great, and their palms are covered with black calluses. As soon as they stepped into the room, they couldn't wait to untie their trouser belts, and the trousers just drooped at their feet, letting the ugly thing be exposed.
All the struggles and asking for help were unnecessary, even though she had learned horse riding martial arts from Zhuge Yue, the few tricks she had learned while full of dissatisfaction were useless under the drug. She could only watch numbly as they tore her clothes apart with grim smiles, and watched their faces getting closer.
Next door to her is Lan'er from Qingshanyuan, and next door is Zhuge Yue's nanny's daughter Zhizhi, all the cries and grinning laughter echoed in her ears. She thought that after so many changes, she was numb and strong enough, she thought she had enough courage and backbone not to beg these shameless scum, but the moment her body was pierced, when the pain swept through her whole body, For a moment, when tears of shame spread out of her eyes, she still cried out the man's name like the other servants of Qingshanyuan.
She cried and shouted "Zhuge Yue save me", she cursed those two people crazily, saying, "The young master will avenge me, and you will all die badly".
However, those people just laughed indifferently, and then told her cruelly that Zhuge Yue died long ago, in Yanbei, and now his body has been stuffed by hunting dogs.
At that moment, she really cried in despair. She suddenly remembered a lot of the past, he taught her calligraphy, taught her to ride a horse, taught her to deduce the art of war, and taught her to practice martial arts and self-defense. Sometimes he just told her to sit by his side without doing anything, no matter how sneering and sarcastic she was, he just ignored her and just drank silently, occasionally glancing at her impatiently.
He killed Lin Xi, he killed Xiao Qi, he imprisoned her for ten years, he beat her and scolded her, he and her had a sworn feud. However, he had never insulted her like this. He rescued her from the brink of death several times and gave her a place to settle down. Despite her embarrassing status, even though she knew who it all belonged to, he was indeed protecting her. When she was the youngest, in this difficult time, when she was a child with nothing, he protected her for so many years.
When she was suffering the most humiliating thing in her life, she instinctively called his name, hopelessly hoping that he would come to save her.
But, he couldn't do it after all, he died, he died in the ice and snow of Yanbei for her sister, and died under the iron hooves of Yanbei's army.
That night, she cried loudly in despair, like a cub that had lost its mother wolf, lying on the dirty ground, her voice was broken like a bellows, which was chilling.
However, it was only for one night. After that, different from Zhizhi's resolute suicide, different from Lan'er's depression, she seemed to have a sudden enlightenment, and began to learn piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, how to seduce men, and all the knowledge and skills to be mastered in this place. Since she can no longer count on others, she can only rely on herself. Since she is destined to live here all her life, she must find a way to make her life better. Since she wants to do it, she must be the most popular girl.
So, two months later, she personally designed and framed those two strong men who had raped her. She watched them die before her eyes, feeling indescribably happy and crazy in her heart.
She thought her life would go on like this forever, like a puddle of stinking sewage, which would continue to stink dirty. However, she saw him.
The day she met Zhao Song, she was accompanying a wealthy businessman on a lake tour. The overweight fat man in his fifties was born to be an exhibitionist. On the flower boat, he tore open her clothes in full view of everyone. In her haste, she accidentally scratched his face, and he was so angry that he threw her into the lake on the spot.
Zhenhuang in May is still very cold, the lake has just been opened, and the lake is extremely cold. She was wearing heavy clothes, her hands and feet were cold, and she couldn't swim yet, so she could only thump a few times, and let herself sink a little bit. The sun gradually moved away from her, the sky and the earth were dark and desolate, the sky and the clouds could not be seen, and icy water poured in from all directions. Her breathing was getting slower and slower, slower and slower. At the moment when she was about to die, she suddenly wondered if Zhuge Yue felt the same way when he died. The surroundings were so cold, but there was only a tinge of heat in his heart, but now, even that sliver of heat was gradually dissipating.
However, at the moment she was about to die, someone hugged her waist. She was pulled all the way up, and after an unknown amount of time, she suddenly rushed out of the water. The sun shone brightly on her body, she was coughing and panting heavily, and the excitement of coming back from the dead made her want to cry with joy.
Zhao Song was standing beside her, talking to his drenched little book boy. Seeing her look, he just turned his head, looked at her calmly, seemed a little surprised, frowned slightly, then smiled in surprise and said, "What a coincidence, you are very similar to an old friend I know."
He obviously said it with a smile at the time, but she clearly felt the loneliness and sadness in his tone, like a wild goose that cannot fly south due to illness in winter, with calm eyes, but it seems to have grown a large piece of barren weeds , Cool Qinqin, sad.
She was taken away by him like this. Even though she was a down and out prince, she was still a relative of the emperor. She had a clean identity and the freedom she had dreamed of for more than ten years, but in the end, she still voluntarily became a slave in the palace. After he knew about it, he didn't stop her, but just gave her a light look and respected her choice.
In a blink of an eye, so many years have passed.
She may not be able to explain her feelings for Zhuge Yue, the feelings that have become deformed and broken under the accumulation of years and years, under the friction of hatred and attachment, are too complicated, she can't understand, and she doesn't want to see Understand. But she clearly knew her feelings for Zhao Song, she didn't care about repaying kindness, she didn't care about being grateful, she just wanted to be with him, hoped that his eyes could see her, hoped that his heart could remember her. But even this small wish could not be fulfilled.
She had fallen in love with two men in her life, but these two men loved another woman, and that woman was the elder sister who had been kind to her.
Destiny is really ridiculous.
That's why, in the long years, she had so many complicated emotions about that shadow who was always strong and brave in her memory with a tough face, so that she could hardly control her reason when she saw her.
However, that doesn't matter anymore, everything is over, she is going to follow him, and everything else has disappeared.
So what about the disparity in status? What about the broken flowers and willows? So what if the heart belongs? She just wants to follow him, anyone and anything can stop her, but it can't destroy her determination to work hard for it.
She looked up, and it was the first time in four years that she was wearing women's clothing in front of him, and it was the first time that she used elaborate makeup to face this noble but fallen prince. Her eyes are so bright, her facial features are exquisite and beautiful, she grinned, shining brightly in the sun, and said with a smile: "I'm not making trouble, I just want to follow you."
Zhao Song refused coldly, "Why are you following me? Go back quickly."
Xiao Ba didn't even look at him, he just handed him the knife and said, "You can kill me with one knife."
Zhao Song frowned, and said to the book boy, "Ah Jiang, get her out of the car."
"Anything." Xiao Ba turned his head bluntly, raised the document in his hand, and said in a hearty voice, "Anyway, I already have a full set of customs clearance documents, and with the legal walking bid, I am no longer a Slave with limited mobility, I have money and horses and food, you can drive me away, but you can’t stop me from following you. I will follow you all the way to Qianghu, if you don’t want me, I will find a place to live around you Come down. Although you are the prince of Daxia, you can't stop a law-abiding commoner from going out to play."
She looked at him very calmly, with a very comfortable expression, without a trace of embarrassment, anxiety, panic or loss. She just looked up at him, her eyes were clear, her small chin was a bit stubborn, but also a bit angry, like an angry child or a wayward gambler.
Zhao Song suddenly felt a bit sad, looking at her like this, it seemed that for the first time in many years, he waved away the shadow of that person, and actually saw this same stubborn and stubborn girl. His voice was a little low, like the autumn wind sweeping through dead leaves, with a touch of depression and defeat, he said quietly: "Do you know, after all, I'm no longer the Prince of Great Xia that I used to be."
Xiao Ba's heart seemed to be cut by a knife suddenly, and it hurt a little. She looked at Zhao Song's lonely face, and there seemed to be a fire burning fiercely in her chest. But she didn't show it, but snorted indifferently, and said indifferently: "Who are you? What does it matter to me? Don't let me pull you down. I'll leave now. At worst, I will follow behind." After all, turn over and jump out of the car.
At this time, a slender hand suddenly grabbed her delicate and fair wrist. The man had distinct phalanxes, slender and powerful fingers, a little white skin, and calluses all over the palm. Although it was his left hand, he was extremely dexterous.