The scenery between heaven and earth stretches continuously. There are dense wild flowers on both sides of the hillside, the sun is hidden in the peaks and valleys, and Lu Chenfeng looks at the river reflecting the flowing clouds, which is vast but not barren.
There were a few smooth stones in the open space under his feet. Lin Chaosheng didn't care whether it was dirty or not. He pulled off his jacket and sat on it. He didn't walk a few steps, but he sweated a lot.
In the back left is the winding mountain road leading to Huadianba. In front of it is a vast valley and plain. There are only the two of them around.
Lin Chaosheng raised his camera: "I can't walk when I see the beautiful scenery."
Lu Chenfeng understood his voice: "Do you want to rest until the off-road vehicle picks you up?"
Looking away from the viewfinder, Lin Chaosheng bit his lower lip embarrassedly, looking a little obedient: "Well, do you agree?"
Lu Chenfeng took off the tent bag, opened the backpack and took out the lunch prepared by Lin Chaosheng: "Whether I agree or not, remember later, acting like a spoiled child will work for me."
Suddenly, his wrists softened, and he almost lost his energy. "Crack", Lin Chaosheng's expression was very helpless. Lu Chenfeng handed him the milk covered in his pocket, the surface of the carton was covered with a layer of warmth: "Is the picture blurry?"
Who is acting like a spoiled child, Lin Chaosheng's ears are hot when he is wronged, but he can't blame the initiator and always say things that upset him. He took the milk and suddenly froze: "Why is it hot?"
Lu Chenfeng said lightly, "I can become magic."
Lin Chaosheng said with a "squeak", "Come less."
The sun was shining on his back, like a natural oven. Lu Chenfeng was afraid of heat and cold since he was a child. He took off his jacket, which was pure black cotton short sleeves. Bite down the straw.
"Have you traveled often before?" Lin Chaosheng took the lead in finding a topic. The place with beautiful scenery is very suitable for chatting.
"I've been to a few Southeast Asian countries." Lu Chenfeng quickly drank a carton of milk, threw it into a garbage bag, and continued, "But he didn't stop there very seriously, and it was clear that Dali was the first city he went to for the purpose of 'travel'. "
After chewing two bites of bread, he felt full. Lin Chaosheng picked out the white medicine bottle in the inner pocket of his backpack and swallowed a few pills with milk.
He didn't do it in secret, Lu Chenfeng naturally had the opportunity to ask. Seeing Lin Chaosheng cradling his backpack into his arms, his eyelashes drooping lazily, Lu Chenfeng reached out and touched the back of his hand: "I have read all the articles published on your official account."
Lin Chaosheng's clear pupils had no scenery: "Well."
Lu Chenfeng: "The song "FLOWERS" recommended in the second article, I added it to the playlist."
Lin Chaosheng smiled and said, "I like to drink the same wine, but I didn't expect that I also like to listen to the same music."
"Lin Chaosheng." Lu Chenfeng decided not to go around in circles, tilted his head and said softly, "As long as your mood allows, I want to be that listener at any time regarding your past."
At the end of the field of vision stood a gradation of dark-colored mountains. In the still picture, Lin Chaosheng's breathing was the only sound in Lu Chenfeng's ears. Junya's delicate face showed a faint sense of sadness. When Lin Chaosheng raised his eyes, his story also began.
"I'm here..." Lin Chaosheng removed his backpack and pointed to Lu Chenfeng's chest, "A tumor has grown."
Lu Chenfeng frowned and stared at Lin Chaosheng's pale fingertips, his throat tightened for a moment.
"Didn't you ask me what to do in Beijing?" Lin Chaosheng paused for a moment and said bluntly, "See a doctor."
"At first, I was busy with work, and my body felt strange. People who worked overtime and stayed up late often experienced chest tightness and shortness of breath. It was quite common. I had a hasty chat with the doctor who was doing the physical examination. He suspected that my parietal pleura was slightly inflamed." Lin Chaosheng recalled calmly, "After all, I am young, and I can bear the pain occasionally, but I didn't pay any attention to it."
"It wasn't until the attack became unbearable that even breathing was painful, so I went to the hospital in Beijing for a detailed examination." He omitted the tedious medical procedure and told Lu Chenfeng the results directly, "Thymoma, the location of growth is not optimistic, close to Heart and blood vessels, the risk of surgery is high."
The more calm and meaningless Lin Chaosheng acted, the more distressed and sad Lu Chenfeng felt—it would even hurt to breathe. How many times had he been tortured by the disease over and over again to make it so plain.
"Ordinary CT can't finally determine whether the tumor is benign or malignant, and further needle biopsy is needed, but I didn't do it." Lin Chaosheng said in a relaxed tone, "There are six or seven kinds of medicines, and I can't even stand the bitter taste. , and even put a needle into my chest."
He pouted and said, "I know myself too well. I can't bear this kind of psychological fear and physical pain, so I fled back to Kunming."
The cigarette pack changed shape in Lu Chenfeng's palm, and Lin Chaosheng eased the serious atmosphere with a smile. Clouds piled up in the sky, the light gradually dimmed, and for a while, Lu Chenfeng said with difficulty: "Do your parents know?"
Lin Chaosheng rubbed the camera lens with his fingertips, his silence already gave Lu Chenfeng a bad premonition. Sure enough, Lin Chaosheng lowered his face and whispered a date: "November 30, 2015..."
After a while of silence, he turned his face to look at Lu Chenfeng, different from the calmness before, Lin Chaosheng must gain a trace of courage from this person that can support him to continue his memories.
He didn't explain what happened to his parents in detail. He only used a brief summary, which was enough to make Lu Chenfeng's back go numb and chills all over his body.
Lin Chaosheng: "There was an explosion in the tableting workshop of the Kunming Pharmaceutical Factory, where my parents work."
The light words are like a feather, but they weigh thousands of pounds. Lu Chenfeng closed his eyes in pain, holding his knees in silence.
Suddenly, an electric current swam frantically from the tail vertebra to the limbs and bones. Lu Chenfeng's heart throbbed, staring dumbly at a void, and two dates flashed quickly in his mind.
In November 2015, Lin Chaosheng's parents died unexpectedly. In January 2016, Lin Chaosheng was diagnosed with cancer in Beijing.
The pain was crushing Lin Chaosheng, Lu Chenfeng gritted his back teeth and couldn't help complaining, God is determined to drive him to a dead end.
But today's Lin Chaosheng... Lu Chenfeng stared blankly at the people around him, with a state of mind like a cloud and a wild crane, doing things lightly, being gentle and sincere, kind and optimistic, it was impossible to detect the slightest sadness or depression in him.
He recalled the words Lin Chaosheng wrote in his notebook in a timely manner, "I long for gods and time to wipe out everything" - only when they are most helpless, powerless, and helpless, people will beg for gods and time.
How did Lin Chaosheng survive these two years
There was a vehicle passing by behind, and the tires rolled up with fine dust. Lu Chenfeng sighed in a complicated mood: "Tumor is a hidden danger after all, but you don't plan to undergo surgery, do you?"
The edge of the cliff was covered with pieces of chrysanthemum, pink and white, and Lin Chaosheng answered his question: "There is a place in Beijing called the World Trade Center, right?"
Lu Chenfeng nodded: "One of the more prosperous commercial streets."
"When I found out about my condition, I got on a bus in a daze, and the last stop was the World Trade Center." Lin Chaosheng said in a gentle voice, "I found a bench, sat for a whole day, and carefully observed There are people coming and going in front of you.”
"Children are laughing and scrambling, parents are struggling to run around with them, couples go shopping and take pictures hand in hand, stores are vigorously promoting the discounts and promotions at the end of the year..."
"The world is alive." Lin Chaosheng said, "But I found that I don't seem to have a particularly strong desire to survive."
"No matter how brave people are, they are also afraid of the 'what if' the doctor said." Lin Chaosheng straightened his body and raised his shoulders, relaxing his tense nerves, "If the operation is successful, the tumor is malignant, and there is still a long wait for me. chemotherapy.”
"In the future, even if I am cured, I will live with fear that the disease will recur at any time." When the wind blew, Lin Chaosheng smiled and looked at Lu Chenfeng, "For me, there seems to be no such life. The meaning that has to be experienced.”
"So I changed my way of life." Lin Chaosheng said, "I died."
"I want to use the best state to face the last time of my life."