Lin Chaosheng's words didn't surprise Lu Chenfeng much. Lu Chenfeng even expected that Lin Chaosheng would take the initiative to bring up this matter. His ideas and plans were made long before the problem appeared.
Lu Chenfeng knew that Lin Chaosheng had his own explanation, but he did not respond and listened patiently.
"This is my home, but not yours." Lin Chaosheng let go of Lu Chenfeng with nostalgia, and warmed his palm with a cup of tea.
He took a sip of tea, moistened his throat and warmed his stomach, then looked at Lu Chenfeng apologetically: "No one wants to be a burden on the other half from the beginning."
"If I'm by your side, I'll definitely distract you and affect your work." Lin Chaosheng shook his head and said, "If you're entangled in your emotions and you focus on me, how can you be so reckless? 'All over again'?"
Lu Chenfeng just listened without saying a word, and didn't refute it, because from Lin Chaosheng's point of view, his words were true.
"You're used to running around, maybe Jiaxi Inn can be a base where you want to take a short rest." Lin Chaosheng slowly approached Lu Chenfeng, shoulder to shoulder, he said contentedly, "I promise, I will take good care of myself, and I will always waiting for you."
Such a request was selfless and cruel, but for the two of them, it was the best arrangement Lin Chaosheng could think of.
Lin Chaosheng knew that Lu Chenfeng was an extremely rational person. They were not eighteen years old. They both weighed and considered their relationship. How to choose is to truly consider each other. These few words are his answer.
However, Lin Chaosheng did not ask Lu Chenfeng's opinion when he made this decision. He had his stubbornness, as well as his forbearance and helplessness towards reality, so all the reasons could only be turned into a short confession, with Lin Chaosheng's apology and guilt—
"I hope you can understand and forgive me."
Before the trip, he glanced at Lin Chaosheng's room, Lu Chenfeng carefully looked around the interior decoration, pushed open the narrow door embedded in the partition wall, and there was a small cubicle inside, with a small area, less than ten square meters.
Cardboard boxes are stacked in the corners, containing photo printing paper and photo frames of different sizes. A desk is placed on the top window, with a laptop and a color printer on it, which are used for retouching pictures, editing official accounts, and printing photos.
After obtaining Lin Chaosheng's permission, Lu Chenfeng approached to look at it, and opened the drawer on the right side of the table, thinking that it would store seldom-used sundries. The result was beyond his expectations. It turned out to be Lin Chaosheng's award certificates for participating in various competitions in college, evaluation reports for participating in various project planning during his work, and a registered surveyor qualification certificate.
Lu Chenfeng stared thoughtfully at these "achievements" that Lin Chaosheng treasured. Their existence seemed to confirm one of his thoughts. The next second, he began to reject and reject what Lin Chaosheng just said.
If it is difficult for Lu Chenfeng to stop himself, Lin Chaosheng may not be willing to stop here. Although they are the most ordinary people, they have no great ambitions, but they also have a determination to keep working hard and go up.
Lu Chenfeng finally understood why Lin Chaosheng could always say words that resonated with him, because they were the same kind of people.
So this should not be Lin Chaosheng's home.
Standing still for a long while, Lu Chenfeng picked out Lin Chaosheng's college graduation photo from a pile of old photos. This young man wearing a degree cap with a gentle smile is handsome and lovely, clean and sunny. He is so good and so dazzling.
When the night was deeper, the two people who had finished washing lay flat on the adjacent beds, tacitly keeping silent, as if enjoying the peace of mind of having each other, and neither of them was willing to say "good night" first.
Facing the ceiling, Lu Chenfeng was speechless for a long time, then turned his head and called out with a smile, "Engineer Lin."
Lin Chaosheng also smiled: "Can't Designer Lu sleep?"
Lu Chenfeng asked, "Have you ever measured the distance between these two beds?"
Across the thick darkness, even if he could barely see Lu Chenfeng's blurry outline, it was enough to comfort Lin Chaosheng: "No."
He stretched out his hand towards Lu Chenfeng: "In order to satisfy your curiosity, let's measure it now."
In the darkness, Lu Chenfeng firmly grasped Lin Chaosheng. The man who was once stuck in the quagmire held his life-saving straw. The driftwood floating on the sea came to the shore in an instant, and the haze opened a crack.
The two arms rested on the edge of the bed naturally, and the steady sleepiness climbed onto Lin Chaosheng's eyebrows, accompanied by the other's soft breathing, Lu Chenfeng couldn't fall asleep for a long time.
Early the next morning, Lu Chenfeng got up a little later than Lin Chaosheng. It wasn't because he was lazy, but because he was insomnia.
Dressed neatly, Lu Chenfeng took out his mobile phone to check the e-ticket he bought last night. The return trip is scheduled for 11:30 in the morning, and he will arrive in Beijing today.
There were shredded footsteps at the door. When Lu Chenfeng raised his eyes, Lin Chaosheng pushed open the door and walked in, asking him to go to the front hall for breakfast. The suitcase stood unsightly by the wall, Lu Chenfeng got up and pulled out the lever, and nodded to Lin Chaosheng.
The door was closed, and Lu Chenfeng was standing at the end of the corridor. Before he could take a step, he was attracted by the photograph hanging on the wall—it was the group photo that the young couple took for them in front of the gate of the ancient city of Dali.
Lu Chenfeng didn't know when Lin Chaosheng printed it out, let alone when he secretly hung it in the corridor.
The picture of Lin Chaosheng's illness flashed through his mind, Lu Chenfeng frowned, his heart seemed to be suffocated by an external force, and his internal organs were instantly chilled.
The sound of the rollers on the carpet stopped abruptly, and Lin Chaosheng, who was walking in front, turned around and looked at Lu Chenfeng with emotion.
"I still have the last few words." Lu Chenfeng's low voice echoed in Lin Chaosheng's ears, and the originally painful expression slowly became calm, "Give us some more time."
The stairs spiraled up, Lin Chaosheng opened the door to the rooftop, and there were a few dark brown sparrows around the fence, twittering for food. He came to the bench and sat down, patted the seat next to him, but Lu Chenfeng waved his hand to refuse.
The sun was thousands of miles away, the blue sky was cloudless, and the mountains and sea were clearly in his eyes. Lu Chenfeng looked at him for a moment, lowered his eyes to look at Lin Chaosheng, and squatted down in front of him.
Lin Chaosheng suddenly felt distressed.
The corners of his clothes were rubbed against the ground, stained with dirt, but Lu Chenfeng didn't care. He looked up at the person he liked the most with a low attitude. This action alone was worth more than a thousand words.
"I barely slept last night." Lu Chenfeng said softly, "I stared at the ceiling and thought about a lot of things."
He took a long deep breath, and then slumped his shoulders: "Sorry, I may not be able to follow this arrangement."
"To separate me from you, whether objectively or subjectively, I am reluctant to convince myself to accept it."
Lu Chenfeng frowned and choked, and honestly threw all his heart to Lin Chaosheng: "I'm afraid from the moment I fell in love with you, the focus of my life has changed, this is out of my rational control, and I don't plan to violate it. Reverse it."
Lin Chao vividly pursed the corners of his lips.
The courtyard of the inn accommodated the laughter of tourists, and Lu Chenfeng heard all kinds of mixed voices, including his own heartbeat.
He tried his best to appear calm and calm, but he was still flustered and fearful. He was afraid that Lin Chaosheng would not go with him.
"This trip of ours should not be your end point." Lu Chenfeng restrained his emotions and said word by word, "but your starting point."
He stretched out his hand to Lin Chaosheng, and the other party immediately held him back. Lu Chenfeng said, "I hope you can say goodbye to the unpleasant past. In the future, you don't have to be alone. I allow you to be vulnerable, but at the same time, I long for that you can rely on me."
"I know that surgery carries great risks, and I also understand your worries and concerns. I understand your thoughts that have been deeply ingrained in your heart for the past two years, and plan to live with the flow."
Lu Chenfeng swallowed and said, "What I want to say next is selfish and arrogant, but I beg you to make another choice after listening."
Lin Chaosheng's warm palm was slightly warmed by Lu Chenfeng.
"For our relationship, please believe in me as you believe in yourself."
Lu Chenfeng closed his eyes, put aside all compromises, and said firmly: "No matter what happens in the future, good or bad, I promise you."
The moment they looked at each other, Lin Chaosheng's eyes were completely red. He heard Lu Chenfeng's pious tone, betting everything he had, and said with a smile, "I, Lu Chenfeng, have only Lin Chaosheng in this life."