Lu Huai held the paper with his fair and slender hands, and the knuckles were slightly white due to the force.
He once asked her with a smile, Shen Tangtang, what kind of wish did you make, even I can't say it, keeping it so tight
It turned out that this was what she wished for.
It turned out that this was all she had hoped for.
"This sugar bowl was bought by my grandma when I was a child."
The bright sunshine in the afternoon shone, reflecting on the transparent glass, showing gorgeous colors.
"At that time, she said that when the candy in it was finished, my parents would come back."
but none.
So since then, she no longer likes to eat sugar.
And the glass sugar bowl has been empty for many years.
Until one day, she met a man.
He gave her candy and told her, you little friend, don't you know it hurts
Since then, that sugar bowl has been filled with his sugar.
"It used to contain all my dreams, and later, you became that dream."
she said softly.
"Lu Huaiyu, I did only see you twice in my dreams, but... fortunately, I already knew your name was Lu Huaiyu at that time."
She sat down on the sofa and kicked her foot lightly.
"You are the second son of the Lu family in Beijing. Your high school is Beijing No. 1 Middle School, and your university is Xijing University."
"You have participated in the international equestrian competition in Liland, and you should be number one."
"You spent a year at Pheno Lab in Baicheng."
"You have been sick in Yunzhou for more than a year, and you have a very close friendship with Cheng Xiyue."
"You and Gu Tinglan had a car accident on Linchuan Road together, and you have recuperated for a long time for your injuries."
"In an interview, you said that you like the sunset after the rain in Lilan the most."
…
She looked down at her toes.
"So then I went to Beijing No. 1 Middle School by myself, and saw you at the age of sixteen in the alumni column, and also saw a video of you playing basketball on the No. 1 Middle School's official website."
"So I watched the video of that equestrian competition many times."
"So my first choice to be changed was Xijing University, and before being sent to a nursing home by Ye Ci, I was still preparing to apply for a place in Fei Nuo's laboratory."
"So when I met you in Yunzhou, you invited me to Mr. Cheng's birthday banquet at Cheng's house, and I agreed so easily."
"So that day I interrupted the observation, came out of the National Planetarium, and went directly to Linchuan Road. I didn't turn to his clinic until my uncle answered the phone."
"So in the years when I was still free, I secretly went back to Liland alone many times. Liland was rainy in summer, and I was drenched many times, just like the day after I gave you the umbrella to go back, I also went home in the rain The same. But you're right, the sunset in Leland is really beautiful after the rain."
The air in the room seemed to freeze, and the quiet needle drop could be heard.
There was a faint smile on the corner of her lips.
She used to dare not tell him these things, for fear that those loves that almost overflowed her heart would be swayed in the wind.
But only now did she know that he liked her earlier than her.
It turns out that all the girl's thoughts hidden in those years have already echoed.
"Fortunately, you are very famous, whether it is Beijing No. 1 Middle School, Xijing University, Fei Nuo Laboratory, or later Lu's. Although you act low-key, you can always see some relevant content more or less."
"For this reason, I often feel lucky. Although I like a star so far away, I can always see it when I look up."
No one knew that during those days when chewing and swallowing would cause her chest to be bloody and bloody, she relied on that star to survive.
Even if you know it's out of reach.
"In addition to these, the others...you told me. After you brought me back here, you told me a lot."
In fact, she was drowsy most of the time, but she still tried her best to remember what he said.
"You said you like Japanese food, but you don't like fugu sashimi; you said you like black coffee best, but Mandheling is also good, and Irgasi is a bit more acidic, but it tastes sweet; you say you hate onions, drink Soup picky too…”
Of course, these extremely personal and intimate contents cannot be known by watching an interview or looking for a photo.
The only one who knows Lu Huai and his preferences best is himself.
"You like to take me to watch movies, but sometimes it's a documentary. You said that the remote control is placed in the left drawer under the small table."
"I stayed in the master bedroom the longest, and spent most of my time there. You said the night light by the bed is very nice."
"But you were always smoking. Even though you weren't smoking in front of me, I could smell it."
She paused and smiled again.
"Do you know that your beard really hurts me a bit."
But at that time she couldn't open her mouth, couldn't speak, so she had to let him go.
Speaking of which, she sat up a little bit, and pushed the painting on the coffee table towards him.
"There is also this painting, which was actually drawn a long time ago. I didn't intend to show it to you, but now—it doesn't matter."
Lu Huaiyu folded the paper, put it back into the sugar bowl, and then took apart the painting.
The first time he saw the painting, he understood why she said she didn't intend to show it to him before.
Because this is an abstract painting in Launay's style, and because... it is him.
No, to be precise, there is him on it.
It's just a vague figure sitting by the window, the outline is faintly visible, but the face is slightly sideways, no face.
It was raining outside, and the sky was dark, but there was another star in the night sky.
What was placed on the table in front of him was not coffee, but a glass of fruit juice with mixed colors and a dark water mark on the bottom of the glass.
A mirror hangs on the wall, and a clock running backwards is reflected in the mirror.
The pockets of his windbreaker seemed to be full, with half a candy sticking out.
…
He looked at the painting for a long time.
It seems that all the pictures are interlaced and blurred, and all the sounds are completely annihilated.
All that was left was that too dazzling bright light, which almost made his eyes sore.
His thin lips moved slightly, and his voice was hoarse:
"So, you already know that I love you."
Long before they met, long before that dream.
"Lu Huaiyu, you are not the end of my dream."
He heard her voice, so light and yet so heavy, each word clearly fell on his heart.
"You are everything in that dream."
It was as if something was pressing on his chest, making it hard for him to breathe.
He finally looked up.
Time seemed to have passed for a long time, and the sky outside the window was smeared with a large area of warm orange, overlapping with the deepest part of his memory.
It was such an evening that he couldn't break free and fell off the cliff.
In the same evening, he wandered between life and death, leaving a shadow of a person in his heart.
And now, it was such an evening again, and she was here.
"If I really lived that life."
She opened her mouth softly, the shattered light in her eyes flickered, and finally fell.
"Lu Huai and."
"This is the tenth year I love you."
This book has been written for a long time. In the very beginning, many people said that Ah Li was slow to develop, that she was not enlightened, and worried about her. But it wasn't. From the first moment she saw him, she knew she was doomed.
Now, it can indeed be said that this is a two-way secret love essay!
good night~
(end of this chapter)