I had a bold guess that I would not even believe it myself, but when this idea really appeared in my mind, it was inevitably verified and perfected.
What if Ning San knew of my existence
For a long time, Gu Tang and I have assumed that Ning San does not know my existence and that I can hide in the dark as a shadow, but is this idea too much for granted? Even the third Ningchuan might appear, what else can't happen? No one knows how Ning San appeared. Did he appear as his "original body" or "Ning Da" as his original body? When did he appear? How much memory has been inherited? These are unknown.
If Ning San knew about my existence...
I got up from sex, opened the curtains and looked out the window.
If I were Ning San... What would I do? I know there is another self in this world, what will Ning San do? Is it like that Yuanzhi who died underground in Longshan held an absolute contradiction view, or
Human beings are always selfish animals, and empathy is an extremely difficult thing. I have only experienced it now. Even if the person on the other side is myself, even a few months ago we were still one, with the same memories and the same experiences. However, in the past few months, different experiences and moods have made me unable to grasp or grasp what Ning San's mentality is.
I even want to light a cigarette. In the second phase of the third year of junior high school, I also thought that I was sad to light up cigarettes in the toilet with other juniors in the dormitory in the middle of the night, looking at the dim moon outside the small ventilation window, for the upcoming senior high school entrance examination. I was worried about the last big problem in mathematics. In the smoke and ammonia, I felt that my life was over and there was no hope.
Later, I got a little addiction to cigarettes, but after the high school entrance examination, I had quit the crazy play that lasted for a summer vacation. At this moment, I try my best to forget my own experience over the past few months, to empty everything out and let me become the Ning San who has just appeared in the world.
He appeared in this world. He realized that he was not the only Ning Chuan. He met Li Yuanyi in Chongyang City. They returned to the ground together. They parted ways and returned to Yuanshan Garden with Chongyang.
He opened the door. He felt the fatigue of the journey. He went back to the room to sleep. He wakes up. He fell asleep.
Chongyang said he recalled something. He summarized all this in a sticky note. He felt someone watching him. Chongyang might have some disputes with him. Chongyang leaves Yuanshan Garden. He lives alone in Yuanshan Garden. He often feels being watched.
He started taking selfies.
He found a dark shadow behind him. He found black shadows more and more. He began to think about how to deal with the current situation. He will first guess who the shadow is. Then he will associate the dark shadow with the experience of Longshan. He would think of the person in the mirror. He would think of another Ning Chuan that might exist, that is, I, Ning Er, who lay thousands of miles away in a corner of Beijing and imagined his behavior. He would think that Sombra was my Ning Er, but soon he would deny this speculation. After denying this speculation, what will he do? He has turned his thoughts on me, he has begun to face my existence, he will... (End of this chapter)