There is often his figure in the dream, taking him back to the scene over and over again, getting up again and again, asking questions that even he can't figure out.
Hengyang later told him that Tao Yan hadn't been to school for two days, and this was what his classmates told him.
Then came Saturday, and that was the third day...
Huai Xing was also walking on the boulevard, looking at the shining spots of light under his feet, he watched himself stepping on one spot after another.
It's like crushing them underfoot.
Loose clothes flew suddenly, and the tip of his nose smelled a scent of flowers.
Huai Xing also turned his head to look, his eyes were narrowed by the shining light, and through the slits of his eyes he saw the flying branches of the tree...
The petite flowers were shaken by the gusts of wind.
He withdrew his eyes and continued to walk forward. After a long distance, he seemed to be able to smell the refreshing fragrance of flowers at the tip of his nose.
It lingers in my heart and never blows away.
The eyes that used to be radiant were a little dull, the lower part of the eyes was black and blue, and his face was pale and tired.
The person who didn't say goodbye well left with a cloud of doubts, which people will remember for a lifetime, and even dream in their sleep.
…
Huai Xing also raised his head and sighed, stopped and looked at the surrounding street scene, he seemed to have arrived at a square.
There are children chasing and playing in the vast field, and there seem to be old people playing chess in the pavilion. When the wind blows, the trees will rustle.
Everywhere is filled with the breath of life.
He found a place to sit down, and then just stared at the square in a daze and did nothing.
His pupils seem to show a child chasing the ball and running past, or he sees an old man behind him calling out to prevent the child from falling.
A piece of joy, a piece of joy.
Just looking at it like this, a transparent liquid slipped from his dry eye socket, rolled down his face to his jaw, and finally couldn't bear the weight and fell on his leg.
Huai Xing also lowered his head in a daze to look at the dizzy marks on his trousers, his vision was blurred, and became clear again after the tears dripped down.
The halo mark that was originally a small piece gradually spread...
Huai Xing also closed his eyes and gasped for breath, he couldn't help but recall the pool of blood and the pink hair in the pool of blood.
The living are always tormented.
He didn't know how long he had been sitting here, and he didn't check the time.
There seemed to be nine children in the square, four of them were playing with a ball, and one child was sitting on the stone steps with his back to the sun and playing with a windmill while being watched by his grandma.
Two of them ran to the pavilion to watch the old people play chess.
The chess table with the most people was changed one after another until the people on the chess table cleared up.
The people who came to the square to sell the ball before seemed to have left long ago.
Even the people on the field have ended with time.
The bright moon hangs in my heart tonight, my voice falls asleep with your ears, my thoughts reach the dark abyss, I will sleep with you in my arms...
Whose voice is this
Wei Xulan's.
Huai Xing also moved his eyes, this is a sample of his unfinished song, only a short section...
It was something only he had ever heard.
Wei Xulan...
The song continued, and Huaixing also took out his phone, only to see the screen vibrating and showing the promised incoming call.
He answered the phone with a sigh, then put it in his ear and didn't speak.
"Lao Huai come quickly!" Xu Nuo's voice was hurried and excited, "Wang Ye has been dumped, come here!"
Why is he still showing a little excitement
Huai Xing also sighed and stood up: "What's wrong?"
"I don't know," Xu Nuo said, "Yu Feng seems to have dumped Wang Ye without saying a word? He is in a state of despair now, and it seems that he can't even contact anyone now."
"Oh..." Huai Xing also responded lightly.
He glanced at the trees in the afterglow of the setting sun.
Pink flowers? Not peach blossom, not like peach blossom, slender? The color is so deep, rose red
Not as good-looking as the cherry blossom light pink.
"Come on?" promised, "See you in the stars tonight."
Fanxing... Huai Xing also hung up the phone, looked at the screen in a daze, then put away his phone and left the square.
He didn't come home either, just wandering around.
Fanxing is the name of a bar, they have been there before, the environment is good, and the decoration style is also good.
After eating, Huai Xing also found a milk tea shop and sat in a daze. What he has been doing recently seems to be in a daze.
The brain is sleepy and the body is tired, but he can't fall asleep, or dare not sleep.
He was afraid that the person in the dream would drag his bloody body and ask questions that he didn't understand.
Thinking about it, he sighed and raised his hand to rub his head.
He didn't realize it was late until the phone call came back, and then he set off for Fanxing.
When he came, he saw a group of people who had already drunk.
Wang Ye, who was broken in love, was not as desperate as ordinary people. He just drank one cup after another without saying a word.
His brows were tightly frowned, and he lowered his head to cover his eyes. He might be thinking about it, but he still couldn't figure it out.
Why did the person who vowed to break into his life frankly and said that he wanted to be with him seriously leave without saying a word.
He was thinking, but couldn't think of a reason.
Maybe I was really deceived.
"The stars are here too." Shang Bei held his wine glass and looked here.
Huai Xing also nodded, walked to Wang Ye and sat down.
He sighed wearily.
Wang Ye turned his head and picked up the wine glass and asked him, "Drink?"
"..." His eyes were fixed on the liquid in the glass, and the wine became colorful under the light. This sentence was like the whisper of a devil, which was particularly attractive.
drink
You can relieve your worries by drinking it.
Huai Xing also took the beer on the table, opened the lid and drank it sullenly.
"Grass!" Xu Nuo was taken aback, "Bottle blowing?"
Seeing that the drink was about to run out, Wang Ye clapped his hands together: "Okay!"
As he spoke, he picked up the unopened beer and drank it with his head up.
Shang Bei and He Qingye looked silent, but guessed in their hearts that they were both in a bad mood.
bang—
He slammed the beer bottle against the table, and Huai Xing also lowered his head and stared ahead.
Wang Ye put down the bottle, opened the bottle of white and poured it into the glasses of two people. The alcohol content of this white was enough to make people who don't drink alcohol drunk.
A group of people came here to get drunk, so there was a lot of wine on the table.
"Come," Wang Ye put his arms around his neck, and handed the wine glass to him, "Drink."
"..." Huai Xing also looked at his appearance and suddenly smiled, lifted the quilt on the table and drank it with his head up.
The three of them silently watched the two who were competing for wine without speaking.
Shang Bei beckoned, attracting the eyes of the other two: "Xing Ye hasn't had any contact with us recently, what happened to him?"
Xu Nuo shook his head in a daze: "I don't know."
He Qingye turned his head to look at the two people over there. Everyone knew the reason why Wang Ye drank, but Huai Xing also couldn't see through what he did.
This person doesn't usually drink much, except when necessary.
It seemed like he'd been in less contact with them since the weekend that event ended.
But He Qingye, as the only one in the audience who knew that he was married, should be able to guess in his heart that when Huai Xing also had little contact with them, it was his boyfriend who came back.
Drinking like this today - one cup after another, have a conflict with your boyfriend
"Let me tell you!" Wang Ye collapsed on Huai Xingye's body, resting his head on his head, his mouth smelled of alcohol, "Yu Feng! She deleted me without even saying hello!"
"Why? What did I do wrong?" Wang Ye turned to look at his cheek, innocent, puzzled, and wronged, "I'm serious too, why did she delete me?"
"Didn't I do everything I should do..."
"Didn't she say she wanted to be serious with me?"
Huai Xing also glanced at the person beside him, asking questions one after another like a helpless child clinging to his shoulders, asking questions he didn't know over and over again.
He picked up the wine glass and drank the wine in the glass.
"Hey hey!" Xu Nuo hurriedly stopped Huai Xingye. When this man was drunk on his birthday last time, everyone thought he had an accident. not come out."
Huai Xing also raised the corners of his lips and smiled: "What? You still can't hold me back?"
As he spoke, he refilled the empty glass, and wanted to drink from the bottle as if he didn't feel satisfied.
"Hey, hey! Huai Xing is too much for you!" Xu Nuo snatched him over, "Can't a drink satisfy you?"
After reprimanding him, he put the wine in his hand away from him.
Shang Bei pursed his lips, and finally couldn't help asking: "Xing Ye, do you have something on your mind? What problem did you encounter?"
Huai Xing also supported the table and shook his head, with the weight of another person on his body: "I don't know either."
"What is it?" Xu Nuo frowned, "Are you fucking drunk?"
Huai Xing also pursed his lips and said nothing, he really didn't know.
Wang Ye was dishonest lying on top of him, and kept pulling or rubbing against him, making his body dangle.
"Don't drink, don't drink!" Xu Nuo pushed the wine away from both of them, "Look, you are all drunk."
"..." Huai Xing also lowered his head silently, and finally raised his head again and said, "I'm not drunk."
"Fuck," Xu Nuo scolded, "Which drunk would say he was drunk?"
Huai Xing also smiled helplessly: "I'm really not drunk."
He drinks very well.
"Did you encounter something that you can't solve?" He Qingye finally opened his mouth, and everyone stopped, "Or you don't know how to solve it?"
Huai Xing also pursed his lips.
"Grass," Xu Nuo looked back and forth between the two, "Is it right?"
Huai Xing also moved his eyes and didn't reply, took the white bottle and opened it to continue drinking.
"Hey," Xu Nuo leaned forward and poked the back of his hand, "Speak up, let's figure out a way together~"
Huai Xing also swallowed the wine, feeling the spicy wine go through his throat.
"Hey, tell me."
Wang Ye turned to look at him, stared at him for a few seconds and said, "Tell me and let me see if it is more difficult than my question."
"..." Huai Xing also pursed his lips again, and finally said after a while, "Is this the way this world is?"
"Or, has this world always been like this?"
Everyone was dumbfounded when they heard it.
What is the problem
"Are you engaged in philosophy of life?" Xu Nuo snorted, "Just thinking about such a stupid question makes yourself think of being autistic?"
Huai Xing also frowned and looked at him sharply: "This is not a problem."
Xu Nuo raised his hands: "Okay, okay~"
He Qingye said: "Why do you think about this?"
"I don't understand either," Huai Xing suddenly choked up, frowned and clenched his fists, "What I said was wrong, I don't know, I don't understand either..."
Seeing that he was still crying, everyone became more and more confused.
Xu Nuo was speechless: "How can you still make yourself cry with just such a question?"
He patted Huai Xingye on the shoulder: "Let Dad tell you that this world has always been like this, but people have changed the rules, and the world is like what people are."
"Yo~" Shang Bei raised his eyebrows, "Would Xu Nuo still say this?"
"Is that so?" Huai Xing also choked up on the table, and suddenly thought of Tao Yan's beautiful smile and closed his eyes, "It's not like this, it's not this."
If people are what they are, the world is what they are, so why doesn't the world treat Tao Yan kindly to him
"Hiss~" Xu Nuo pursed his lips, wanted to say a few words but couldn't bear to see him crying so badly.
Wang Ye sighed and poured wine: "If I understand it, the world will be like what I see."
He Qingye said indifferently: "All kinds of people live in the same world. What you see is only the surface. In such a huge world, there are many other sides that you don't know. So this world has always been like this-dirty, Chaotic, but also hopeful and clean."
"Everyone is different and all kinds of human beings make up the world."
Huai Xing also raised his head, staring blankly at the uneven wine bottle in front of him.
If he had replied to Tao Yan with this answer, would everything have changed.
In his heart, Tao Yan is the bright side of this world.
Shang Bei nodded: "Qingye is right."
Xu Nuo patted the back of his hand: "Do you understand now?"
Huai Xing also lowered his head, he always understood, but he was wrong.
He gave the wrong answer before the final question.
Xu Nuo watched him drink again, looked at the other person and said, "How do you feel, he is more stubborn in it?"
He Qingye rubbed the wine glass with his fingertips: "Let him alone, he will figure it out by himself."
He raised his glass and started drinking.
Xu Nuo looked at Shang Bei in a daze: "Why do you feel like you're autistic again?"
Shang Bei shook his head.
If it weren't for tonight, they might not know each other that well—it turns out that everyone's seemingly relaxed surface has a huge stone in their hearts.
Everyone doesn't know how long they can last or when they will be overwhelmed.