, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. "
Lu Baizhou said "hmm", without taking his eyes off the screen, Ling Chennan asked again: "In the future... for Bai Sheng's illness, are you still willing to continue seeing him?"
Lu Baizhou looked at him through the glasses: "You apologized to me because you were afraid that I would not see him in the future?"
Ling Chennan's ears were hot, and he said, "No, it's because I want to apologize to you."
Lu Baizhou looked at him for another short second, turned his eyes away, and said, "Of course, I finally met another personality, and I will continue to consult. You don't have to worry, some of his behaviors also make me a little concerned."
Ling Chennan asked: "So, what happened today, can you tell me?"
Lu Baizhou didn't say a word, and typed a few more lines, then closed the computer screen and turned to him: "Remember what I told you about Shen Yinchuan? He actively expressed his desire to commute his sentence and be released from prison."
Ling Chennan nodded, and Lu Baizhou said: "I told you on purpose, I thought you would tell him, but it didn't, so I can only tell him."
"The content of our consultations is different. According to the explanation you gave me, the mental and physical harm caused to him by Shen Yinchuan's predecessor was inflicted on Bai Sheng's personality, and the person who fell in love with him was also Bai Sheng. Others The personality has not been greatly affected, and it stands to reason that he should not be so stimulated, but the personality of Hummingbird reacts so strongly to Shen Yinchuan every time."
"He is the protector. When the master's personality is threatened and his existence is weakened, he will take over the body, won't he?" Ling Chennan asked.
"Then why does he dislike Shen Yinchuan?" Lu Baizhou asked: "The weaker Bai Sheng's personality is, the higher the chance of him appearing, isn't it?"
Ling Chennan thought silently, and Lu Baizhou continued: "Also, you also told me that Bai Sheng's personality was a bit different when we first met you. At first, he was more distant and indifferent and temperamental, but later he became clingy. , I just said that he happens to be the way you like, not deliberately spreading any conspiracy theory, but I think that Bai Sheng's personality, maybe it's the type that constantly adapts to the preferences of the people around him."
"For example, when he was a child, his parents liked children with good grades, and he gradually became like that. After work, he liked cheerful and confident colleagues in society, so Shen Yinchuan met him like that again, and then he met you, gradually. He found that if he was weaker, he would get more sympathy and attention from you, and he gradually became like this, so I said, don't get too involved and expose your emotions, this will give him a basis for self-adjustment, and you will It's getting harder and harder to see the real him."
Ling Chennan was stunned, this was something he had never thought about before, he asked: "Then what do you mean... Bai Sheng's personality may not be the master personality, but just a protective color?"
Lu Baizhou sighed, and said: "This matter is actually not that simple. What basis is used to judge which personality is the one that appeared first, appeared for the longest time, and has the most comfortable sense of existence? Which personality should be isolated separately? , and is no longer the complete person."
The two failed to continue this topic, and there was movement from the back room—the hummingbird kicked over the water glass on the ground. Although his movements were still sluggish, he sat up slowly, with a dull expression on his face.
"Hummingbird." Ling Chennan squatted down, resting his hands on his knees, and the other party frowned slightly.
It was the hummingbird, Ling Chennan couldn't laugh or cry.
Ling Chennan: "Send you home?" Then he added: "You can just nod or wink."
The other party nodded slowly, and Ling Chennan held up his arms to help him stand up. Hummingbird didn't say anything, although his expression was displeased. The whole weight of his body was leaning on him, but when Lu Baizhou wanted to help him from the other side, But was firmly dodged.
Lu Baizhou also smiled wryly, and raised his hands: "Okay, I won't touch it, but Hummingbird, are you leaving just like that? Don't talk anymore? You threw me a trophy and I haven't settled with you yet."
Ling Chennan looked back and forth between the two of them in a little surprise—did they talk about anything before the hummingbird went berserk
But Hummingbird just stared at him imposingly, and turned his head to ignore him.
And after returning home, he fell asleep exhausted, and after waking up, he turned back into Bai Sheng, and Ling Chennan didn't say a word to him.
[Fourteenth week? Wednesday? Night]
"The frequency of hummingbirds has really increased." Ling Chennan asked.
Bai Cheng held the water glass and thought about it blankly, then nodded.
After he was half-carried home, he continued to fall asleep for a long time due to the recoil of the drug. He didn't wake up until it was dark and the smell of oily smoke from dinner came from the community. Ling Chennan moved the big armchair in the study to the bedside in the bedroom, turned on a small bedside lamp to handle business, and sat for the whole afternoon.
From the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of the person on the bed moving, Ling Chennan raised his eyes, and Bai Sheng happened to turn his eyes back - the other side was expressionless, as if he didn't recognize him. Ling Chennan looked at it for a long time before asking uncertainly: "Bai Sheng?"
Bai Sheng blinked, then nodded.
Ling Chennan put away his notebook and put it aside, leaned forward and asked, "How do you feel?"
Bai Sheng wanted to speak but there was no sound, he cleared his throat again and then released a tone, his nasal voice was very heavy: "I don't have much energy, I can't use any strength," he sighed softly, "I thought I would never experience this kind of pain again." It feels like it’s still a familiar recipe.”
The forced joke was useless, Ling Chennan felt distressed without any suspense.
He stroked Bai Sheng's hair, then stood up and bent down to kiss his forehead, asking, "Are you hungry? Let's drink some water first."
Bai Sheng sat up, sinking into the cotton mountain made of a lot of pillows, took the cup and sipped it, his eyes were empty.
Ling Chennan looked at him for a while, then asked softly: "Did you talk to Dr. Lu before? When we met during the day."
Bai Sheng was a little dazed, as if he didn't hear him, but he slowly came back to focus, biting the rim of his cup: "He said, Shen Yinchuan is going to be released from prison early, and he gave me... a hummingbird slap." Telephone."
Ling Chennan's last bit of luck was shattered, and he kicked Lu Baizhou's ass violently in his head.
"Before that, he asked me about Shen Yinchuan. We didn't talk much about Shen Yinchuan. We were all talking about my childhood and myself. Before he asked me, I... I thought I would It will be very difficult to talk about these processes again, but it seems to be easier after I told you once... At least the severe, breathless feeling is gone. In short, I described Shen Yinchuan's control to him The extreme degree of lust, violent tendencies and paranoia, he has no restraint to do whatever he wants, he can't control his emotions, he not only wants to kill me, but almost kills me. I told Dr. Lu that if he gets out of prison, he will It hurts itself, it hurts me again, it hurts others in the future."
"I also know that his sentence is not long. Of course, it's also my fault that I didn't report the case in time, but I think it's still more than a year. Although I occasionally feel scared when I think about it, most of the time I subconsciously avoid facing it. , to comfort myself that it’s still early, there’s still time, don’t worry, maybe he will forget me by then, maybe I can forget all of this by then? So, when Dr. Lu told me that he would be released from prison early When I still didn't give up contacting me... I was really stunned, the nightmare until I finally found out that this is not a dream at all but a reality. What will happen if Shen Yinchuan comes out? What did he say to the hummingbird? He wants to take revenge Me, will he follow me and lock me up, he will definitely not make another mistake this time and let me go... "
"I feel like I can't think at all, but Dr. Lu kept asking me questions, he...he said he didn't want to tell me, and asked Hummingbird to come out and talk to him."
"And then..." Bai Sheng couldn't continue, not because he was emotional, but because he really couldn't remember what happened next. He looked at Ling Chennan with pitiful deer-like eyes, and said coquettishly unconsciously: " I'm a little scared."
Ling Chennan lifted a corner of his quilt, kicked off the slippers and got in, wrapped his arms around the back of his neck, first hugged him tightly, and then put his hands on him with a pretended relaxed smile: "We are so warm in vain."
Bai Sheng was squeezed to move inside, was held down and bullied again, his whole body was exhausted as if he couldn't run away, his gloomy aura was swept away, at this moment he glared at him angrily: "Don't make trouble, worry about it! "
Ling Chennan threw himself on him and scratched his neck and waist, seeing how angry and helpless he looked like a mermaid, he couldn't help laughing: "What are you worried about, tell your husband if you have anything to say."
Bai Sheng's eyes suddenly widened, his face turned red from his ears, he clapped his hands away and stared in disbelief: "What, why is this..."
Ling Chennan saw his subtext—rogue!
Pinching Bai Sheng's ears with his cold hands to cool him down, Ling Chennan's smile gradually subsided, and he asked softly, "The frequency of hummingbirds has indeed increased."
Bai Sheng nodded: "Although it's not as good as when I was a child, but it has become more and more in the past two months." He turned sideways and wrapped his arms around Ling Chennan's waist, buried his face in the hollow of his shoulder, and murmured: " The doctor smells it well... I feel sleepy again when I smell it." After saying that, he really narrowed his eyes quite comfortably.
Ling Chennan moved his shoulders slightly, and said, "Don't sleep anymore, are you hungry, it's time for dinner."
"If you don't sleep, just hold it." Bai Sheng said in a muffled voice.
another day