Fang Zheng nodded and said, "How long has it been since you took a good look at yourself?"
Huang Gaolan was stunned. There was a mirror in front of her. Looking at herself in the mirror, Huang Gaolan cried immediately! Isn't the woman in the mirror the same as a mad dog? Not crying loudly, but crying silently. She suddenly discovered a problem, something she had never thought about carefully. Over the years, she had always thought that Jiang Song had changed, but it seemed that the real change was not Jiang Song? But herself! After Wei Shuqiao died, she changed. She became suspicious, had nightmares, and didn't like looking in the mirror. She was afraid that she would see the legendary and unknown thing in the mirror - Wei Shuqiao!
So whether she puts on makeup or does anything, she doesn't use a mirror. Even if she occasionally sees the mirror, she will try not to look at it or ignore it. She had kept this habit for twenty years, but today she suddenly saw herself, and she understood... Sitting on the ground, shedding silent tears, she said after a long time: "I understand, it's not Jiang Song who has changed, it's me who has changed. Over the years, There is a ghost in my heart, and I myself have become neither human nor ghost. Jiang Song should have guessed it a long time ago, haha... He didn't say it, but he should hate me. Master Fangzheng, do you think, I What’s the point of living?”
Fang Zheng said: "Jiang Song didn't leave you, which means that he has always loved you, at least the you you used to be, the pure you who smiled like a flower. Not the you you are now. If you want to get his love, you just need to change back." That’s it.”
"Change back? This... is too difficult." Huang Gaolan said.
"Look at that stone. How about you push it up the mountain and let the poor monk help you complete the transformation?" Fang Zheng suddenly pointed to the stone under a mountain peak in the distance and asked.
Huang Gaolan looked at the big stone that was as tall as a person, shook her head repeatedly and said: "It's too big, I can't push it up."
"How do you know you're not good if you don't try? Or, for Jiang Song's sake, you don't even want to try?" Fang Zheng asked.
Huang Gaolan was stunned, gritted her teeth, ran over, and pushed the boulder with all her strength. In the end, even with all her strength, the boulder only rolled forward a little. But Huang Gaolan did not despair. Instead, she showed hope: "I can push it!"
So Huang Gaolan pushed hard, with only one thought in her mind: For Jiang Song, we must succeed! I don’t know where the strength came from, so I pushed the stone to the top of the mountain little by little. When I couldn’t push it anymore, I stopped and pressed against the big stone. It was blown by wind, rain, and thunder, and finally pushed the stone to the top of the mountain on the tenth year. .
Huang Gaolan shouted excitedly: "Master Fangzheng, I did it, please help me! How about you help me complete the transformation?"
However, Fang Zheng, who was standing on the mountain, asked back: "It's just a transformation to push such a big stone up. Is it difficult? Think about why you pushed the big stone up, and then you can tell me the answer."
Huang Gaolan was stunned, thinking carefully about the reasons for her firm belief in the past ten years. There was only one reason for Jiang Song to love her again, because she loved him! So for him, is it really not okay to let go of everything and become yourself again
This thought is like a year, the sun rises and the moon sets before my eyes, and the flowers bloom and fade.
Just when Huang Gaolan was confused, spring came, the ice and snow melted, and a flower bloomed again.
Suddenly, a figure appeared in front of him, white and flawless, with a smile as square as the sunshine.
Fang Zheng gently stroked the flower and said: "Last year it withered, and it was so ugly at that time. This year, it bloomed again, as beautiful as before. But this beauty has to survive the cold winter..."
When Huang Gaolan heard this, her eyes suddenly brightened, she stood up suddenly, kowtowed three times to Fang Zheng, and said: "Thank you, Master, I understand. As long as I can change back, I am willing to confess my sins! Wash away the sins on my body, I want Brother Song to see the most perfect me. We have been gone for a lifetime, and I don’t want us to leave this world with regrets, for him, for me, and for Wei Shuqiao."
After saying that, Huang Gaolan smiled.
Fang Zheng also smiled, looked up at the sky, and said, "It's thundering."
Huang Gaolan then raised her head, only to hear a roar, and suddenly woke up. The sound of wooden fish and chanting came to her ears. Everything in front of her disappeared, leaving only the Buddhist hall and the Ten Thousand Buddhas in front of her.
Huang Gaolan looked at everything in front of her in shock, then looked at Fang Zheng in front of her, and couldn't help but ask: "Fang..."
"Amitabha, donor, the temple is about to close." Fang Zheng stood up and interrupted Huang Gaolan.
Huang Gaolan looked deeply at Fang Zheng, and Fang Zheng smiled back. Huang Gaolan bowed deeply and turned to leave. When I was about to go down the mountain, I looked back and saw a young monk in white standing in front of the temple door, slowly closing the temple door. Finally disappeared from Huang Gaolan's sight.
"It's like a dream. When you wake up from the dream, it's time to face reality." After Huang Gaolan finished speaking, he went down the mountain.
On the way, Huang Gaolan met Huang Gaoping, Huang Gaoyu and others who were preparing to go up the mountain after eating.
"Sister, why are you down here? Aren't you blocking the door?" Huang Gaoping looked at Huang Gaolan distressedly. No matter what others thought of Huang Gaolan, in his eyes, Huang Gaolan was still his sister. If others didn't feel sorry for her, he felt sorry for her. But seeing Huang Gaolan getting worse day by day, as if she was mentally ill, and having a weird temper that was good and bad, he also had a headache. He was not afraid of accompanying Huang Gaolan to mess around, he was just afraid that Huang Gaolan would be wiped out if something went wrong.
Huang Gaolan smiled sweetly and said, "Brother, thank you very much for these years."
"Uh, sister, you... what's wrong with you?" Huang Gaoping felt that Huang Gaolan had changed. Although his words became weird, his eyes were clear, without the usual madness and deathly gray color.
"I've thought about it, brother, younger brother, sister-in-law, cousin. From now on, I will still be Alan twenty years ago, and no longer the shrew Huang Gaolan I am now. I want to start a new life and take back everything I have." Huang Gaolan said with a smile. .
Huang Gaoping, Huang Gaoyu, Ding Qian, and Tian were all confused. What was going on? But Huang Gaoping smiled, hugged Huang Gaolan and burst out laughing, "Alan, do you know? I've been waiting for this for twenty fucking years! In twenty years, I'll be following you around. , people from all over the country regard me as a deadbeat, but I don’t regret it. If you get better, I’ll get better... Let’s be good people together from now on."
Huang Gaolan also cried...
Huang Gaoyu cried, Ding Qian also cried, and Tian Ye looked confused.
The family went down the mountain and returned to the village. Huang Gaolan called Jiang Song. When Jiang Song, who was working at the construction site, received the call, he ran away without saying a word.
"Jiang Song, what are you doing? I'm telling you, if you dare to mine, don't even want this month's salary! I've already bought you cigarettes!" the foreman shouted jokingly.
"No more! Haha... No more! No more!" Jiang Song laughed and ran all the way.
PS: Let’s play an additional update game. If the number of rewards exceeds 100, an additional update will be added. By analogy, it can be 100 points, it can be 1 point, everyone is free to do this, and rich people can have no cap. In this way, the number of rewards on the page can be updated in time, Huang Liang can see it at a glance, and prepare to add chapters in time. It can be accumulated and cleared every week. Currently 37.
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