"What do you want to eat?" Lin Qinhe glanced at Tao Xi's fingers holding the braided rope and asked softly.
Tao Xi still looked at Lin Qinhe and said, "I can do it."
Lin Qinhe looked at Chen Ting beside him, and Chen Ting asked clearly, "I'm going down to buy food, do you and your wife need it?"
Lin Qinhe said, "No need, just buy him one copy."
Chen Ting nodded and left.
Seeing that Tao Xi was still looking at him, Lin Qinhe bent down slightly, looked at Tao Xi's eyes with a straight-up line of sight, and asked in a low voice, "What's the matter? Stupidly hungry?"
Tao Xi lowered his eyelashes and shook his head.
Lin Qinhe stood up straight, his cell phone rang, and it was Luo Zhengyin's call.
Before answering the call, he asked Tao Xi, "Would you like to come with me?"
Tao Xi bit his inner lip and nodded silently.
He followed behind Lin Qinhe, and Lin Qinhe answered the phone and said, "I'll come right over."
The two walked in the direction of the ward and met Luo Zhengyin who was looking for Lin Qinhe on the way.
Luo Zhengyin looked anxious, she didn't have time to see the person who suddenly appeared behind Lin Qinhe, and said to Lin Qinhe:
"The doctor wants to intubate Lele. Lele has been crying because he doesn't cooperate. I can't persuade his grandfather and grandma to persuade him. Go and persuade him."
In the afternoon, Luo Zhengyin and Lin Qinhe went to visit Yang Duole's grandparents. Yang Duole couldn't help playing volleyball with a few neighbors' children. In the evening, he suddenly developed pneumothorax again. Lin Qinhe, who was going to go out, had to talk to him. They took Yang Duole to the hospital together.
Lin Qinhe frowned when he heard the words.
Only then did Luo Zhengyin find the boy behind Lin Qinhe. The boy raised his head and looked at her. She was slightly stunned when she saw those eyes, and her quick steps stopped.
Lin Qinhe introduced to her: "His name is Tao Xi, and he is my roommate."
Tao Xi looked at the tall, short-haired woman in front of him, guessing that she should be Lin Qinhe's mother, and said obediently, "Hello, Auntie."
Luo Zhengyin came back to his senses and showed a haggard smile: "Hello, I heard Qin He and Lele talk about you, thank you for coming to Lele."
She thought that Tao Xi was here to visit Yang Duole, but she felt a little strange. In her impression, Yang Duole didn't like this classmate named Tao Xi.
Tao Xi didn't know what to say, but fortunately, Lin Qinhe said to Luo Zhengyin, "Go to the ward first."
Before the three of them got to the ward, they heard Yang Duole's cry and the comforting voice of a pair of old people.
Tao Xi's footsteps are getting heavier and heavier, he knows that the old couple should be his maternal grandparents.
Luo Zhengyin was anxious and entered the ward first. Tao Xi gently pulled Lin Qinhe's sleeve before walking to the door of the ward.
Lin Qinhe looked at him and seemed to understand what he meant. He took Tao Xi to the bench in the corridor and said softly:
"You sit here and wait for me, okay?"
Tao Xi sat down on the bench and pretended to say hello calmly.
It was he who wanted to come, and he was not qualified to be sad.
But he didn't know that sadness and love, like love, couldn't be hidden.
Lin Qinhe looked down at Tao Xi, and from this angle he could see his low-pitched eyelashes.
He took out from his pocket a candy stuffed to him by a neighbor's child when he was at Fang's house in the afternoon, half squatted down, held Tao Xi's hand, put the candy with a smiley face in his palm, and said:
"I heard that all the children will become happy after eating this candy."
That's what the little girl who gave the candy told him.
Tao Xi looked at the candy in his hand, then looked at Lin Qinhe, raised the corner of his mouth and smiled, and said:
"But I'm not a kid anymore."
Lin Qinhe looked into Tao Xi's eyes, he was silent for a while, and said in a voice that Tao Xi could not hear:
"You are."
Then stood up and walked into the ward after Luo Zhengyin's urging again.
Tao Xi looked at the candy and squeezed it into his palm.
What does he have to be sad about, he thought
He has a healthy body that Yang Duole does not have. He will make a lot of money in the future, buy a big house, go to many places in the world, and have a very good life.
There is only one Lin Qinhe missing from his beautiful life.
But he still couldn't help walking quietly to the door of the ward, looking inside in the dark light beside the door to see what the person who should belong to him looked like.
Luo Zhengyin apologized to the doctors and nurses, then walked to Ye Yurong, Yang Duole's grandmother, who was wiping her tears, and handed her a tissue.
The grandfather Fang Zuqing, who was sitting on the chair beside him, was silent with red eyes. This old professor, who had been strong for most of his life, only loved his grandson, and he never said a single harsh word.
Tao Xi quietly looked at the two old men with tears and red eyes.
It turned out to be his maternal grandparents, he thought.
It turns out that when relatives feel distressed for a child, they will cry for him in pain.
Then he saw Lin Qinhe walking to Yang Duole's bed and asked him:
"Why don't you cooperate with the doctor?" His voice was serious, but gentle.
Yang Duole's face was pale and his face was full of tears. He had had this operation and knew how painful it was, but he never dared to disobey Lin Qinhe and said in a self-sacrificing manner:
"Brother Qinhe, it hurts so much, I feel like I can't go on, it's so painful to live like this."
Luo Zhengyin opened his face slightly and blushed when he heard the words, Ye Yurong stooped down and wept, Fang Zuqing hugged his wife into his arms.
Lin Qinhe's voice became deeper: "Lele, don't say such things, don't make your relatives feel sorry for you."
Yang Duole pouted and did not speak, only tears welling in the corners of his eyes.
Lin Qinhe gently held Yang Duole's right hand, there was an obvious red circular birthmark on the wrist of that hand, and a red peace knot strung with gold beads.
Whenever Yang Duole was unwilling to take medicine when he was a child, Lin Qinhe would hold his hand like this to persuade him.
And that string of red peace knots was Fang Sui's last gift to Yang Duole.
Lin Qinhe softened his voice and said slowly to Yang Duole:
"Remember the eighteen-year-old letter your mother gave you? I think she would have preferred you to have grown into a strong and optimistic adult when you opened the letter."
Luo Zhengyin couldn't hold back any longer and shed tears.
Yang Duole was silent, he could be willful in front of all his relatives, but he couldn't be willful to his mother, because she had sacrificed her life for him.
He finally agreed to cooperate with the doctor.
After that, the doctor and nurse held the instruments to intubate Yang Duole, Yang Duole cried in pain, Lin Qinhe kept holding his hand, and Luo Zhengyin wiped his tears by the side.
Tao Xi left the door of the ward and returned to the bench to sit down.
He tore off the candy wrapper from the warm candy in his hand, stuffed it into his mouth, and chewed it hard.
It was a very sweet peach flavor, but he couldn't taste anything.
He thought that there were times when Lin Qinhe was wrong.
He ate this candy and was not happy at all.
Not at all.
He quickly finished the candy, and Chen Ting walked up to him with a box of lunch and said, "I bought it at a nearby restaurant, I don't know if you like it or not."
Tao Xi took the lunch and said thank you.
He opened the lunch box and started to eat, eating faster and faster, gorging like a person who has been hungry for days.
Only then can he control himself, not to break into that ward, and say aloud to them:
I am Fang Sui's son.
You should all love me.
I am also suffering, my heart is also hurting, and I am living a very painful life.
Why don't you come to care about me
Why has no one ever shed tears for me
After eating, he wanted to vomit a little, so he took out a bottle of water from his pocket, raised his head and took a few sips before suppressing the feeling of vomiting.
Tao Xi put down the water bottle and saw a pair of long legs appear in front of him, then those legs were bent, Lin Qinhe half-squatted in front of him, looking up at him.
He rarely had the opportunity to look down at Lin Qinhe like this. The lights in the corridor fell on Lin Qinhe's face, and the shadows under the brow bone made his facial features appear more profound. There was obvious worry in those deep eyes looking at him.
Lin Qinhe stretched out his hand and twisted a grain of rice from his mouth, and asked him in a low voice, "Tao Xi, what's wrong with you?"
Tao Xi looked at Lin Qinhe in a trance, like a drowning man looking at the only driftwood, and a man in the dark looking at the only lamp.
He suddenly asked, "Lin Qinhe, if one day I get sick and it hurts a lot, will you come to see me?"
Lin Qinhe frowned slightly and asked, "Why ask such a question?"
Tao Xi asked paranoid: "So will you come to see me?"
Lin Qinhe was silent for a while and said, "You won't get sick."
His tone was so certain that it was almost childish, as if he could decide that his whole life would be free from disease and disaster, and he would be blessed and happy.
Tao Xi's heart ached, he smiled and said, "Lin Qinhe, I want to go back."
Lin Qinhe stood up and said, "I'll take you back."
"Don't you have to stay here with him?"? Tao Xi sat still and asked a cruel question to himself.
Lin Qinhe said calmly: "He has many relatives to accompany him."
He bent down and held Tao Xi's hand, pulled him up from the bench, and said in a low voice,
"But you seem to have only me now."
Tao Xi choked his breath, and he almost burst into tears. At that moment, he wanted to ask Lin Qinhe.
Do you also like me a little bit
But he didn't have the courage in the end.
He was afraid that it was just his own delusion.
And once you ask the exit, there is no room for manoeuvre.
Lin Qinhe carried Tao Xi's schoolbag and took Tao Xi to the Lin family's car. Chen Ting drove the car to Wenhua No.1 Middle School.
In the car, Tao Xi looked at the fast-flying neon outside the window, and at the silent Lin Qinhe beside him.
Lin Qinhe noticed his sight, turned his head to look at him in the dim light, the colorful neon reflected in his eyes, showing soft colors in the light and shadow.
Tao Xi opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but in the end he just said, "It's too late to draw a cartoon for you today."
Lin Qinhe said to him, "It doesn't matter." After a pause, he said, "Supply me tomorrow."
Tao Xi nodded and said nothing.
He looked out the window again at the neon, he thought.
The road should be longer and longer.
When he grows up to Lin Qinhe, he will always be by his side.
But after the evening rush hour, the city was no longer blocked, and the car soon drove to the school gate of Wenhua No. 1 Middle School. Tao Xi reluctantly followed Lin Qinhe out of the car.
Lin Qinhe still carried Tao Xi's schoolbag and took him all the way to the downstairs of the dormitory.
The campus was silent on Sunday nights, except for the soft hustle and bustle of the October night wind.
Tao Xi stood at the door of the dormitory on the first floor. The only light left was dim. He always seemed to have more courage in the dimness. He said to Lin Qinhe:
"Lin Qinhe, I am very sad today, can I ask for the mid-term reward in advance?"
Although he hasn't entered the top 50 at all, he can't absolutely guarantee that he will be admitted.
But Lin Qinhe seemed to condone him extraordinarily tonight, and said softly, "Yes, what do you want?"
Tao Xi didn't answer, he jumped on Lin Qinhe in the dark, stood on tiptoe slightly, put his hands around Lin Qinhe's neck, put his chin on Lin Qinhe's broad shoulders, and rubbed gently like a puppy rub.
Lin Qinhe's body froze, he subconsciously wanted to push away the person on him, but finally withdrew his hand.
Tao Xi's eyelashes trembled, and he said softly:
"Lin Qinhe, I will also try my best to be a strong and optimistic adult."
Just like what you said to Young Dole.
He quickly let go of Lin Qinhe, otherwise he was afraid that his noisy heartbeat would be heard.
"Okay, I'm not sad now, thank you."
Tao Xi took his schoolbag from Lin Qinhe and ran upstairs to the dormitory quickly.
Lin Qinhe stood motionless until the automatic response lights in the corridor went out one by one.
He walked outside the school gate.
Later, Lin Qinhe would always think of that night. If the time was wrong, let him go back to that time.
He will definitely hug back the person in his arms.
tell him.
You don't have to be an adult.
You just have to be my most partial child in the world.
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