For the next two weeks, in the eyes of others, Tao Xi continued to study and attend classes as usual during the day, and returned to the dormitory to paint at night, as if it was no different.
But only he knew that he would stare at the empty seat next to him in a daze, and would subconsciously ask aside when he couldn't answer the question, only to find that there was no one next to him.
The sudden loss, like a small pebble, silently fell into the deep well, only to hear the echo called missing.
Sometimes he would suddenly have terrible and absurd thoughts. Could it be that he hadn't known Lin Qinhe from the beginning to the end? Could it be that he has never entered Lin Qinhe's world
But in the next second, the red rope turquoise on his wrist will remind him that he is in Lin Qinhe's world.
He had never found himself so insecure.
Fortunately, he has a mobile phone and will send Lin Qinhe questions to solve at night. Lin Qinhe will reply to him in a timely manner most of the time, which makes him feel much less insecure.
Another thing that makes him feel at ease is that Lin Qinhe posts some photos in his circle of friends every day. The evening twilight, the birds on the branches, the dark green blackboard reflecting the sun... are the life in his lens.
Tao Xi liked every one, but he was very strange, why has no other classmates liked Lin Qinhe
Maybe no one else has Jialin Qinhe's WeChat account. This guess made him happy.
One day in the second week, Zhou Qiang announced that there would be a parent-teacher meeting on Friday afternoon, and the parents of each student would come.
There was a lot of grief in the class, but only Tao Xi didn't respond because he had no parents to come.
He has just finished painting the thirty moon paintings, and spent a lot of money to bind them into a collection of paintings. These two days he is thinking about another important thing.
love letter.
Tao Xi is very good at writing, but he doesn't feel good about writing love letters. He tore up several of them, and went to the library to search around, and he really found an ancient "Love Story".
He hid under the quilt and read the book with a flashlight. The more he looked, the hotter his face became. He thought it was too nauseous, but in the end he chose a few sentences and wrote them into the love letter that he didn't know.
On Friday afternoon, in order to welcome the parents' meeting, the whole class did a big cleaning. Tao Xi carefully wiped Lin Qinhe's desks and chairs several times, so that his parents could sit comfortably when they came.
Parents came to a class of classrooms one after another and chatted with their children in the classroom or in the corridors. Some mothers brought snacks to their children, while some fathers criticized their children for being disobedient.
Tao Xi packed up alone, and was about to leave the classroom to find a place to transcribe his love letter, when he saw Luo Zhengyin walking in from the back door with a bag.
At that moment, he suddenly felt panic and guilty, he thought, this is Lin Qinhe's mother, and he is going to confess to her son.
Tao Xi immediately shouted politely to Luo Zhengyin: "Auntie!"? So respectful that he was about to bow.
Luo Zhengyin was stunned for a while. She recognized that the nervous boy was the same table with Lin Qinhe, who came to the hospital last time. She seemed to be called Tao Xi. She smiled politely and said hello.
Tao Xi diligently helped Luo Zhengyin pull out Lin Qinhe's chair that he had carefully brushed over, trying to make a good impression on Luo Zhengyin.
Luo Zhengyin said thank you and sat down, and after a few words with Tao Xi politely, he didn't speak again.
Soon Bi Chengfei's father, Bi Qian, the director of brain surgery at Hannan Hospital, also came in. He and Luo Zhengyin had often held parent-teacher meetings together since their children's junior high school.
Tao Xi left with interest. As soon as he left the classroom, he saw Yang Zhengming and Yang Duole walking towards the second classroom together. The two seemed to have just had a conflict. With a helpless smile, he held a bottle of Yakult that Yang Duo Le had not finished drinking.
Tao Xi lowered his eyelashes and quickly turned around and walked in the other direction. After looking for a long time, he found a place where no one was there, and began to seriously transcribe the love letter for the last time.
He wrote slowly to make sure that every word was neat and tidy, a love letter that was only one page, it took him forty minutes to transcribe it, and then he carefully put it in an envelope.
The parent-teacher meeting was going to be held for a long time. Tao Xi took a file bag with love letters and strolled around the playground aimlessly, thinking about how to give Lin Qinhe the art album and love letters when he came back tomorrow.
The more I thought about it, the more nervous I became, and my stomach began to cramp.
But all the tension can't match the joy that Lin Qinhe will be back tomorrow.
He was so happy that he couldn't suppress the corners of his mouth.
When the time was almost up, Tao Xi began to walk to the classroom. He deliberately avoided the second class classroom and went up the stairs on the other side to meet Bi Chengfei who had just finished playing basketball.
The two walked to the first classroom together. At this time, the parent meeting had just ended. Some parents were chatting in the corridor. Bi Chengfei saw his father talking to Lin Qinhe's mother at a glance.
"Dad! Aunt Luo!"? Bi Chengfei embraced Tao Xi and walked to the two of them to say hello, "What are you talking about with Aunt Luo? You won't be talking bad about me again!"
Tao Xi also politely greeted the two of them. He thought that he should leave here and not disturb other people's father and son getting along. Just as he was about to turn away, he suddenly heard Bi Chengfei's father say:
"What can we talk about? It's not about worrying about your application to an American university. Look at Qinhe. The TOEFL has been taken a long time ago, and the score is still so high. At the end of the year, you will be interviewing a few top ten universities. How about you? What? When will I take the TOEFL test?"
Tao Xi took a breath, and suddenly squeezed the file bag with the love letter in his hand.
"I'm a god of learning, don't you always compare it to me?" Bi Chengfei took a tissue from his father's hand to wipe the sweat on his face, and said dissatisfiedly.
Luo Zhengyin smiled and said: "Don't worry too much, there is still more than a year to prepare, and Qinhe only started to prepare last year."
"Auntie, is Lin Qinhe going to study in the United States?"
As soon as Luo Zhengyin finished speaking, she heard Tao Xi who had not spoken to ask her. She looked over and was slightly stunned. She saw that the boy was looking at her with those red eyes that looked like Fang Sui, and his face was tense. But it seemed like she was about to cry.
She suppressed the inexplicable panic in her heart and said, "Yes, this is what Qinhe planned a long time ago, and he has already selected a few interested universities."
But Tao Xi didn't want to believe it. He clenched the file bag tightly, his throat vibrated violently, opened his mouth, and worked hard for a long time before he made a hoarse voice and asked Luo Zhengyin:
"Lin Qinhe, will he go to the United States with Yang Duole to go to college?"
Bi Qian felt that this boy was a little strange, but he didn't say anything. Bi Chengfei looked at Tao Xi worriedly.
Tao Xi gritted his teeth, staring at Luo Zhengyin, his eyes paranoid and fragile, like a dying person waiting for the last question to be judged.
Finally, Luo Zhengyin pronounced the result hesitantly:
"Yes, he and Lele will go to the United States to study together after graduation. This is what our two families discussed early in the morning."
The two of them negotiated.
what about me
Tao Xi bit his inner lip hard until the sharp pain spread in his mouth, and he tasted blood.
He pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled, trying his best to maintain his courtesy in front of Luo Zhengyin, and said to her:
"Thank you auntie, I see."
Then turn around and walk away, walking faster and faster, and finally just run.
He didn't know where he was going either. The school was so big, but there seemed to be no place where he could contain his anger and sadness.
He was uncontrollably angry, so angry that his vision began to blur.
How could he be angry that Lin Qinhe could lie to him
How can I go to school in the United States with Yang Duole
What is he who has worked so hard for so long
Is it a joke
Tao Xi didn't know when he reached the door of the concert hall on the top floor of Qiushi Building, where Lin Qinhe once played a piano song for him that only he could hear.
He didn't look at the door, and walked quickly towards the trash can in the corner.
He tore the love letter in the file bag, the one he had written countless times, and threw it in.
But it didn't feel much better after tearing it up. He looked at the pieces as if his heart was smashed and torn apart.
Tao Xi squatted down, hugged his legs and buried his face on his knees.
He still couldn't help but give Lin Qinhe a reason to lie to himself.
Maybe Lin Qinhe just told him a white lie.
Lin Qinhe hopes that he will be admitted to the best university in China and have a good life.
But Lin Qinhe will not have him in his life.
But, he thought.
I should have been in your life.
The one who grew up with you should be me.
I have nothing left, no mother, no father, no relatives' preference.
I was robbed of everything by Yang Duo Le.
I've worked so hard, why can't I even go to the same university as you
Bi Chengfei was going to chase Tao Xi and ask him what was wrong, but his father grabbed him: "I asked Mr. Zhou to talk to us in the office, don't leave."
"Dad, why are you looking for the head teacher again!"? Bi Chengfei lowered his head and said dejectedly. He had to follow his father to the office. After thinking about it on the way, he took out his mobile phone and sent a WeChat message to Lin Qinhe.
After the father and son left, Luo Zhengyin hadn't recovered yet. The eyes that Tao Xi had just questioned her appeared over and over again in her mind. A long time ago, Fang Sui also asked her a question with such red eyes.
Luo Zhengyin stretched out his hand and pinched his eyebrows, intending to go to the second class to see Yang Duole, but suddenly saw Lin Qinhe walking over quickly.
"Qinhe? Why did you come back early?"? Luo Zhengyin looked at his son in surprise. He hadn't had time to change into his school uniform, apparently he just arrived at school.
"Did you say something to Tao Xi just now?" Lin Qinhe asked Luo Zhengyin in a deep voice, frowning deeply.
Luo Zhengyin was stunned, she felt that Lin Qinhe was a little too harsh to her, frowned and said: "I just talked with Dr. Bi about your application to American schools, and Tao Xi was there at the time, and suddenly asked me if you wanted to Going to the United States to study with Lele, I said yes, he seems to be…”
She was about to continue speaking, but found that Lin Qinhe's expression suddenly changed, she had never seen Lin Qinhe show such an expression, as if his most beloved thing was hurt, and she seemed to be the culprit .
Luo Zhengyin saw Lin Qinhe turn around to leave, and hurriedly grabbed him and asked, "What's the matter? Did you come back early because of something wrong with the training?"
Lin Qinhe looked at his mother who didn't know, and could only carve his nails into the palm of his hand, as if this would relieve some kind of pain in his heart.
Why come back early
Because he knew there was going to be a parent-teacher meeting today, and everyone would have their parents over, and some would not.
That person must be sad.
And he will be distressed.
But it made him even more sad.
Lin Qinhe finally didn't answer Luo Zhengyin's question, turned around and left quickly.
The author says:
Fingers crossed, the next chapter will be together
But I'm very busy recently, the update may not be stable 555