He took a deep breath, stretched out his hand to help her pull the quilt that had slipped from her body, and said in a hoarse voice, "Nana, I'm sorry...it's me...it's my fault!"
The slightly warm touch of her fingertips brought Shen Wenna back from her trance, subconsciously raised her head, and blinked her eyes hard. What appeared before her eyes was still a boundless darkness...
"Pour me a glass of water, and then you can go back."
I don't know how long it took, Shen Wenna's dry and slightly hoarse voice finally sounded again, her tone was very calm, so calm that no waves could be heard.
"Okay, I'll pour it for you..."
Xi Mushan endured the unspeakable pain in his chest, quickly poured her a glass of water, and carefully brought it to her, "Nana, come on, be careful..."
Xi Mushan took her hand and carefully helped her hold the cup.
Shen Wenna took it, and her faintly beautiful face looked very peaceful. She lowered her head and took a sip carefully, and then asked calmly, "Am I always like this, so I can't see?"
As soon as this question came out, Xi Mushan was heartbroken immediately, and quickly stretched out his hand to hold her slightly cold plain hand, and said in a low hoarse voice, "No, Wen Na... you will get better, you will be able to see, I will always be with you, even if you can't see, it doesn't matter, I am your eyes... Nana... Don't be sad, I am your eyes... "
Shen Wenna listened, but there was an indifferent smile on Xiuli's pale face, and she shook her head, "No need, thank you, Xi Mushan... you go back, there is no relationship between us, you don't have to wrong yourself .”
"I'm not leaving, Wen Na... This time, I've made a decision. No matter what, I won't let go. It's been more than twenty years, it's enough. I just want to live a selfish life... I just want to be with you Together... You can reject me, loathe me, or even despise me, but none of these can stop my determination. If these can make you feel better, I am willing to accept them, at least you can live happier than you are now... "
After talking about it, bitterness welled up in his throat uncontrollably. At this moment, all the forbearance, uneasiness, worry, and pain in his chest... all collapsed like a sea with a broken embankment, and nothing could stop it.
"Don't reject me, Nana... I will deal with those bad things, and I will protect you alone... So, please don't reject me, otherwise... The only person who has not let go these years is you... I thought you would leave me , will make you feel better, so I let go, but I... "
Xi Mushan's eyes were slightly red, and he didn't finish the rest of the sentence, because he saw that Shen Wenna's face was stained with a lonely self-mockery, so don't look away...
"What's the use of saying this now? We have nothing to do with each other anymore. Let's go. You don't need to pity me."
Shen Wenna suddenly clenched the cup tightly, and lowered her head, "Now Yue Lingsi should be satisfied, and I don't have the ability to bother you anymore, so you should let me go, right?"
"Nana... don't say that... I have been pestering you all this time, it's not you who disturbed us, it's me who can't let go... I also know that the rest of pestering you is just hurting, hurting you, hurting Xia Ye, but I can't I control myself, thinking that I can forget everything by staying away... But when I calm down, I will think of you... If I had been braver back then, everything would not be what it is now... "
Xi Mushan held Shen Wenna's cold hand tightly with both hands, and said in a low voice, "Being together is just three words, why is it so difficult for us?"
"I just want to accompany you, Nana, to make up for the twenty years of absence. Even if you can't see it, I can still take you to see peach blossoms, go to the beach, tell you about the beauty of peach blossoms, describe the color of the sea at that time, seagulls How to fly through the clear sky... and stop worrying about other things... "
"Okay, stop talking, you go back, I want to be alone for a while, can you agree to this request?"
Listening to what he said, Shen Wenna smiled wistfully, and interrupted Xi Mushan's words, exhausted physically and mentally, and her tone seemed a little weak.
Xi Mushan looked down at her, and after a while, he took the cup in her hand, put it back, and left the ward without saying anything.
Hearing the sound of closing the door, the tears gathered in Shen Wenna's eyes immediately fell down, and the warm tears fell on the palm of her hand impartially. After a while, the palm of the hand was moist...
The cry she suppressed for a long time finally came out—
Will it never be seen again
All beautiful scenery has been drawn with a terminator. From now on, what will accompany her will be boundless darkness
However, she still has a lot of things she hasn't had time to do—
She hasn't seen Xia Ye marrying Ah Chen yet, she hasn't helped them with their children, she hasn't dressed up her grandchildren, and she hasn't finished tutoring the school children's graduation thesis yet, how could she just not see it like this? What
Shen Wenna wept aloud, aggrieved and in pain, the pain she had endured for more than 20 years finally vented at this moment with difficulty.
Why did she shrink back and forbear again and again, just to seek a simple and quiet life, and in the end, fate has a way to push her into the whirlpool of madness
I heard that love can make people blind, can make people desperate—
Could this sentence explain the many grievances and grievances between her, Xi Mushan, and Yue Lingsi
How many people have endured boundless sadness alone for many, many years because of the phrase "love is not enough"? As she is now...
They have been struggling in this vortex for more than twenty years. All the grievances and grievances have trapped them and cannot move. No one can forget...
Is it a mistake to stick to one person all these years
Perhaps, she should have looked for a breakthrough first...
The more Shen Wenna thought about it, the more tears condensed and dripped in her eyes. Xi Mushan, who was standing outside the door and never moved away, looked at Shen Wenna who was crying constantly through the window, and her eyes were red at the moment.
At this time, Xi Xiaye, who was standing behind him and rushed over, had a faint sparkle in his eyes, looking at Shen Wenna on the hospital bed inside, and at Xi Mushan who couldn't help lowering his head and covering his eyes.
After a long silence, he finally crossed over and pushed open the door of the ward.
Hearing the sound of the door opening, Shen Wenna quickly wiped away her tears, silenced her crying, subconsciously turned her head away, and blinked her moist eyes.