The air suddenly fell silent, only the sound of '嗞嗞' from the barbecue wallpaper could be heard.
Xi Xiaye looked at Mu Lingshi quietly, and saw that there was a little sense of sadness and depression on her cold face, so she reached out and patted the back of her hand resting on the table, "Sorry, Maybe I shouldn't mention it."
Mu Lingshi listened, smiled immediately, shook her head, picked up the wine glass in front of her with one hand, raised her head, and drank it all in one gulp.
"It's okay, it's just a thing of the past, and it can be remembered as an occasional memory when you mention it."
She said lightly, and after drinking a glass of wine, some blush began to appear on her face, which made the wound look a little discordant and hideous, and the gloom in her eyes became inexplicably lonely and melancholy, which made Xi Xia Ye faintly felt a little distressed.
"I heard that it wasn't long before my mother gave birth to me, because her depression got worse and she couldn't control it. In the end, she killed herself and left nothing for Ling Tian and me. I don't even know what she looks like. It was only after I grew up and became sensible that I learned what she looked like from photos or newspaper clippings."
When Mu Lingshi said this, she paused, staring at the pen in front of her, also lost in thought.
Xi Xiaye sighed secretly, and silently picked up the wine bottle beside her and poured it for her, not knowing how to comfort her, "Your brother said, my aunt is a very nice person, and I have seen her photo, I I think she must be an intellectual and good woman, and it was not her intention to die so young, maybe what she bears and how much pressure she bears, we don't know, so there is nothing wrong with it."
After Xi Xiaye's words fell, Mu Lingshi shook her head sadly, and a little sparkle could not be restrained in her beautiful eyes, "No, sister-in-law, she is not a good woman, otherwise she would not be a good woman." Ling Tian and I will not be born. Ling Tian and I are two bastards who don't even know who their father is! The family style of Mu's family has been corrupted by her, and grandma almost kicked her out at one point. However, she still defends that man so much, she does not hesitate to break with her grandparents. In my eyes, she is not worthy of being a mother at all. How can such a person be a good intellectual woman? "
Mu Lingshi took a deep breath, sniffed her nose, picked up the wine in front of her with one hand, and drank it down again in a few sips. The movement was so fast that Xi Xiaye had no time to stop it.
"After growing up, Ling Tian and I have never given up on finding that man, but because of her deliberate maintenance before, there is no information at all. My father told me that she fell in love with a man who would never marry her. so… "
"I really don't understand. Since I can't marry her, why do I still want to be with her? I can't give her any expectations and hopes, but still occupy her like this and give birth to us. You say, this kind of man is Isn't it shameful? Even I feel that the blood in my body is dirty, but there is no way to change this fact... "
Mu Lingshi's words are full of helplessness and forbearable anger. It can be seen that she must have resentment towards Mu Zixi's mother and that biological father who doesn't know who it is. This kind of resentment even lasted Many years, and it is possible that it will deepen day by day.
Xi Xiaye sighed softly, fell silent for a moment, took a sip of the wine, and then said in a low voice, "I've heard such a song before--"
"Or love makes people blind, passion is so desperate, love captures whom, love surrenders to whom, breaks into the loneliness surrounded by fire... unforgettable feelings can easily trap a person, no matter how stupid things are, maybe you can do it willingly This is the power of love, and it cannot help but make people feel emotional... "
Xi Xiaye seemed to empathize with her, and the smile on her beautiful face was also a bit awkward.
"However, these are not worth it. Even if she is willing to abandon everything, how did that man treat her in the end? When she gave birth to Ling Tian, gave birth to me, and finally died in depression, where was he? He didn't come out to see her At a glance, every time she needs it the most, how can there be such a stupid woman in this world? And I am the evidence of their stupid crimes!"
Mu Lingshi frowned and poured another glass, her cold voice full of disdain and sarcasm.
"Maybe, there's no point in whether it's worth it or not, it's just whether you want it or not. This feeling of struggle is not something ordinary people can understand. Therefore, we can't blame you too much. Ashi, Auntie may have a lot of regrets for you. , but I believe she must love you, otherwise, she would not have insisted on giving birth to you and Ling Tian."
Xi Xiaye's eyes were filled with a faint gleam, and he looked at her without blinking.
"I heard from your brother that you have always wanted to find your biological father, especially these days?"
Mu Lingshi closed her eyes, took a deep breath, opened them after a while, nodded happily, took a drink, raised her hand to wipe off the wetness from the corners of her mouth, and then said indifferently, "Yes, I am I want to see, who is this shameless and irresponsible man! Why did he treat us like this? He must know the existence of Ling Tian and me, but he can still abandon us like this. Mom's out of control self-sufficiency, leaving us alone .Grandparents and parents are worried about this, so that we don't feel any different from other children, and let us be named Mu directly, and become parents' children."
As Mu Lingshi said, her hands clenched into fists uncontrollably.
Xi Xiaye listened, and only nodded slightly, expressing her understanding of Mu Lingshi's thoughts.
She picked up the wine calmly and said to Mu Lingshi, "Okay, don't be sad, we will try our best to help you find him, but I still hope that you can cherish the present first, and then think about other things. This kind of peace, come It’s not easy, we should cherish it.”
Mu Lingshi met her faintly warm starry eyes, sniffed, then nodded, put away the brocade box, picked up the wine, and said with a smile, "Sister-in-law, thank you, I feel that every time I talk to you When you're done talking, you feel as if you're a lot lighter, you're a good listener... Love can be blinding, passion can be overwhelming... Who can explain these complicated feelings?"
"I can't tell... because they are not the only ones who are trapped."
Xi Xiaye smiled faintly, respected her, and then took a sip gracefully.
"Well, I'm afraid, even I'm trapped, otherwise..."
"Have you ever found out about my aunt's life? See if I can find any clues?"
Xi Xiaye picked up a piece of roasted beef and put it on Mu Lingshi's plate, asking.
Mu Lingshi nodded, glanced at her gratefully, and accepted everything.