Jing Yan had a long dream.
He hugged his knees and huddled in the corner, and some people stood at the door, wearing black dresses, whispering. He could feel their frequent glances, but he didn't want to pay attention to them, and they didn't dare to disturb him.
Jing Yan buried his head in his knees.
In the dream, he seemed to be submerged in a pool of black water, unable to see the surroundings clearly, cold, suffocated, as if he was on the verge of death.
"Jing Yan? Jing Yan!"
The anxious voice gradually increased in his ears.
Jing Yan slowly opened his eyes, and the warm light came, and in the warm light, Qiao Xi held his face and looked at him worriedly.
In an instant, the temperature returned to the body, and the heart beat again.
Seeing that Jingyan finally woke up, Qiao Xi breathed a sigh of relief: "I see that you seem to be having a nightmare, keep telling you to wake up, almost scared to death."
"..." Jing Yan came back to his senses, his Adam's apple rolled down, his voice was hoarse, "Qiao Xiaoxi..."
Her heart fell, and Qiao Xi moved aside, trying to put on her clothes, but she was dragged back as soon as she moved.
He suddenly lay on Jing Yan's chest and looked at him blankly.
"Qiao Xi," Jing Yan murmured his name and pressed him to his chest, "Qiao Xi..."
Qiao Xi was stunned.
Jingyan…
The next second, he reached out and hugged Jing Yan, snuggled into the man's arms obediently, and said softly, "It's alright, it's alright."
Jing Yan hugged Qiao Xi tightly, and her body was also tense.
After a while, Qiao Xi moved.
He raised his head and kissed Jing Yan's cheek.
Jing Yan didn't move, closed his eyes and let him comfort him. When Qiao Xi kissed the corner of his eye, he clasped Qiao Xi's head and kissed his lips.
The room was quiet for a while, and after a while, the two separated, and after a while, Jing Yan took a deep breath and sat up.
He took the quilt, held the naked Qiao Xi in his arms, and asked, "Do you feel better now? You have a fever and slept all day."
… Sure enough, I slept all day!
Qiao Xi touched her forehead and said, "I don't feel it at all, I just feel like I've slept for a long time, and I don't feel any different from usual when I wake up."
Jing Yan leaned over and tried the temperature of Qiao Xi's forehead with his forehead.
Qiao Xi looked at Jing Yan at close range, blinked, he hesitated, "Jing Yan, were you sad in your dream?"
Jing Yan said hoarsely, "How do you know?"
Qiao Xi: "I feel it."
Jing Yan: "Feel it?"
"Well, I just felt that you were sad, and then I woke up." Qiao Xi replied obediently.
"Are we two in tune?" Jing Yan asked softly.
"I think so." Qiao Xi said.
Jing Yan pulled the corner of his lips.
I finally laughed.
Jingyan was always happy every day, but the mood in the past two days was obviously not right.
Qiao Xi was worried and distressed, but besides being with him, she really didn't know what else to do.
Jing Yan took the thermometer again and put it in Qiao Xi's ear to measure it, and he was relieved after confirming that the temperature had really dropped completely.
Then he drew Qiao Xi close, hugged him in his arms, sat quietly for a while, and said, "You must have heard about our family, right?"
Qiao Xi nodded subconsciously: "Well."
Then it suddenly occurred to me that Jing Yan is... ready to tell him some things in his heart
Thinking of this, he restrained his face and said seriously: "In the past, no one in the bird tribe told me about the outside world. I only heard a little about it when I was there with Jingyu, and I know that your mother is... thirteen years ago. , a year after her death, the current queen..."
Jing Yan rubbed his head gently, but his eyes fell on the void point.
After a moment of silence, he said slowly: "Well, my mother died of illness. Although that woman only entered the palace a year after my mother's death, she was with that man when my mother was sick in bed."
Qiao Xi stopped.
Jing Yan said in a calm tone: "She and my mother grew up together, and my mother has always regarded her as a good friend. Before knowing the truth, my mother was sick in bed, and while she was having an affair with my father, she came here. When visiting my mom... I've always been close to her, calling her 'Auntie'."
Qiao Xi tightened her hands.
Above his head, the man's voice was indifferent: "The bloody and vulgar drama, every time I think about what happened during that time, I feel disgusted."
Qiao Xi sat up.
Jing Yan's eyes met his.
"If you really love someone, it's impossible to be lonely and derailed when the other person is sick, right? When did he stop loving my mother? Does my mother know?" Jing Yan paused and said. , "I thought back carefully afterwards, I think my mother should be able to feel the indifference of the man, but it is not clear that the man abandoned their feelings very thoroughly, and even betrayed their marriage. Because if my mother knew, With her character, this marriage will never continue."
"And that man, even if he doesn't love him, why did he have to find a new love when my mother was sick, and why is he still the woman my mother regarded as a friend? Why did she have an affair with her while allowing her to go to my mother's hospital bed and use her friend's name as a friend? Attitude to visit the sick?"
"What about that woman? Did you consider my mother a friend?" Jing Yan paused and said coldly, "No, this matter is not a question. Since my mother died, her attitude towards me has changed. The answer will be found."
Qiao Xi couldn't help it and asked, "What about your dad? Can't he see the queen's nature?"
"I also thought about this question, but I quickly figured out the answer," Jing Yan held Qiao Xi's hand and said slowly, "When he was with that woman, he must have known about her. The nature of the woman. It may even be the nature of the woman that intrigues him."
Qiao Xi was stunned.
Interested in straightforward hypocrisy
But no matter what, with such a woman at that point of time, has the Wolf King really never considered the feelings of Jing Yan Jingyi and his wife
Or, never thought about it at all...
Just thinking about it like this made Qiao Xi feel cold at her fingertips.
At the reception dinner of the Leopard King and Leopard Queen, he had seen the wolf king and Jing Yan standing together.
It doesn't seem like the wolf king's high regard for Jing Yan is fake, but while he values it, he is emotionally so... It can only be said that the wolf king himself is a person who is extremely emotionally indifferent.
"During that time, I had a lot of questions in my head every day." Jing Yan closed his eyes.
"After knowing the truth, I once left the palace with Jing Yi. I don't want to see those two people again, and I don't want to be a prince again. I also hate those in the palace who guessed the truth before I knew the truth at the age of six. When it comes to some things, I have always been treated politely by my mother, but in a blink of an eye, I can bow down to that woman, the flattering servants, guards, all the people," Jing Yan's hand gradually tightened, "Some people say that I am too naive, my lord. The world is so real, I'll understand when I grow up. But I still feel sick to this day."
"You're not wrong!" Qiao Xi also held Jing Yan's hand back, and seeing Jing Yan's appearance was very distressing, "Those who work in the palace may not be able to smile at the queen, but you will feel disgusting. It's normal. You didn't do anything bad like revenge, and no one has the right to ask you to be considerate of them. As for the rest—"
Jing Yan opened his eyes and looked at Qiao Xi.
Qiao Xi said slowly: "As for other things, the 'adult's world' and the 'reality' are just excuses, steps for yourself, and a fig leaf!"
Qiao Xi can't comment on things that have no choice.
But when there is a choice in front of him, Qiao Xi's inner answer has always been clear, this will never change because he is a child or an adult today, because he is always him, he has grown up, but his original heart never twisted.
And Jing Yan is just like him.
Why should Jing Yan be relieved? Having suffered this kind of thing that he would never do and would never understand in his true heart, nausea is normal for the rest of his life, but—
"But I hope your heart can be completely calmed down," Qiao Xi said softly, "I hope you can stop having nightmares and sleep well this night every year. I hope you are happy every day and don't be sad. "
Jing Yan hugged Qiao Xi again and bit his lips.
During the turbulent breathing, Qiao Xi whispered: "Jing Yan, does your mother want you to be the wolf king?"
"Hopefully, I have always regarded this as my goal." Jing Yan's silver eyes gleamed coldly.
Back then, he took Jing Yi back to his grandfather's house.
On the tenth day of shutting himself in the room, Grandpa knocked on his door, told him to go out, and sat with him in the hallway.
It was a quiet evening, and a full moon could be seen in the sky from the yard.
"What do you want to do in the future?" Grandpa asked him, "Do you want to study in a school outside? It's still too late, study hard, and then go to a good university and study a favorite major—"
Saying that, Grandpa turned his head to look at him, and then smiled: "No, you kid, are you still ambitious?"
He stretched out his hand and tapped the cub Jingyan's forehead: "If you want to be the king, this small yard can't hold you."
Jing Yan raised his head, opened his dry eyes, and stared straight at the moon in the sky.
He is not the protagonist in those novels, he is in the royal family but has the dreams of ordinary people.
He was born to look at the throne, he wanted to be the wolf king, and his mother, his grandfather, and his family all supported him behind his back.
He originally had many plans and wishes for his own future and the future of the entire wolf clan.
"Jing Yan, you have to understand that the wolf clan is not owned by the wolf king alone, the palace is not owned by him alone, and the throne is not owned by him alone," Grandpa said slowly, "that's not his private property, it needs you. Things to separate from the relationship. The throne represents ability and responsibility. What you should consider is not who is sitting on the throne now, but whether you have the ability to take this responsibility in the future. At the same time, you must also understand, As the prince of the wolf clan royal family, as the eldest son, every choice you make affects the future of the wolf clan."
Jing Yan trembled.
"Little idiot, you can't really do without the whirlpool of the royal family," Grandpa smiled, rubbing his head, "your father, the person who is about to become the queen, and many more people who are paying attention to you... They'll drag you in. Do you want to get sucked in by the vortex?"
Jing Yan looked at Grandpa, was silent for a moment, and shook his head.
"—Then don't be passive. Take control of this vortex."
"Think about things, think about the future, and then think about what you should do next," Grandpa got up and said, "Although you are only six years old, Grandpa believes that you can sort out these things yourself."
On that day, Jing Yan thought about it all night.
And five days later, he took Jing Yi out of his grandfather's house.
After waiting outside for fifteen days, the attendant sent by the man respectfully saluted him.
Jing Yan chose to return to the palace, but when he faced the wolf king again, he would no longer cry, and would no longer ask why he was unwilling. face that man.
It can only be said that the purpose of that man and him is the same, and that's why the two of them have been able to get along for so many years in such a cold, non-provocative relationship. Many times, the man just asks the guards to help convey what he has to do.
But the emotions that were suppressed in his heart did not disappear. Whenever this time came, Jing Yan thought of his mother, the woman who would live a free, wanton and radiant life if she hadn't fallen in love with that man. A smiling, cheerful, gentle, free and easy woman, the woman who lay weakly on the hospital bed when she was sick, and who still smiled when she saw her friend and her husband, he couldn't sleep at night.
Jing Yan wanted to be the king, but if he was born in an ordinary family, he would definitely have other goals of his own. But it was just fantasy, the past could not be changed, his mother fell in love with someone who was not worthy of love.
He even clearly remembered the six months he stayed by his mother's bedside. He was always thinking about why his father didn't come back. He complained to his mother, his mother chuckled to reassure him, and when his mother was in critical condition At that time, in a panic, he was pulled away by the waiters. He could only huddle in a ball outside the door, trembling, thinking repeatedly why his father didn't come.
That feeling is too torturous.
He also vaguely remembered that the woman came to visit his mother, and when he left, he said goodbye to her outside the door. The woman said, "Your father is the wolf king, so he must be very busy, so be considerate of him." After listening to this, he cheered up and said with a flick of his tail to the woman, "Well, I know, goodbye auntie!"
The sadness and pain when his mother died, the shock and anger when he knew the truth, the first time he recognized the essence of his father, and understood that the man who loved them very much but couldn't take care of his family because he was busy was just an illusion in his heart. The coldest and darkest period of Jing Yan's childhood.
And the memory of that time is always on these two days every year, stretching out his minions from the shadows and crawling out to find him.
He didn't want to affect Jingyi and Jiaoyue, so he always kept silent on these two days every year.
He also didn't know how to talk to Qiao Xi, because he knew that Qiao Xi would definitely feel down when he heard it.
But maybe it was a nightmare, and when he opened his eyes, he saw the person he loved was in front of him. At that moment, a great sense of security and fulfillment poured into his heart, which made his tense heart relax. He finally learned how to tell Qiao Xi about this.
Qiao Xi's mood is very complicated at the moment. He originally thought that the relationship between Jing Yan and the wolf king and the wolf queen was just a few problems that would inevitably arise after the arrival of a malicious stepmother. around.
He said: "Jing Yan, if your mother can see you now, she will be relieved. But she will be sad when she sees you now."
"This line may be a bit cliché, but it's what I have to say, and the other thing is—" He raised his arms, put his arms around Jing Yan, and whispered something against his ear.
Live happily, keep growing, and move steadily towards the throne that will eventually be yours.
"Don't go back to thinking about bad things. At this time of year, think about the happy days you and your mother had in the past, and then go to the grave with a relaxed mood, just like family reunion," Qiao Xi stroked Jing Yan's face , said warmly, "There are more happy times than sad times, right? I only think about the unhappy and forget the happy. I always go to see your mother with that heavy heart, and your mother will be unhappy too."
Jing Yan trembled.
Scenes from the past flashed before my eyes.
It was dark at first, with black-and-white portraits, the stiff, pale face of her mother, leaden clouds and cold raindrops hitting her face.
But soon, the warm light dipped in, and in the dense light, he saw his mother's frowning eyes.
His mother squatted in the flower field, smiled and waved to him, shouting, "Ayan, come here."
The flowers against her face were the most beautiful woman he had ever seen in this world.
The house was quiet.
After a while, Jing Yan's whole body loosened, as if he had completely unloaded a heavy load that he had been carrying for an unknown period of time to the ground. Although he was tired, at least his body was no longer stiff.
He tightened his hands, hugged Qiao Xi, buried his head in Qiao Xi's shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "Qiao Xiaoxi..."
Qiao Xi patted Jing Yan's back lightly and sighed in her heart.
Jing Yan.
Jingyan.
The next day was a sunny day.
The group got up early and took the speeder to the royal cemetery.
Chris, like Qiao Xi, woke up full of energy after sleeping one night.
After knowing that he was showing signs of transformation, he almost jumped up and yelled with joy, but after Jiaoyue told him what day it was, he immediately covered his mouth.
Although he came to live here not long ago, he has known each other for many years. It's just that although I know what year Jing Yan's mother died, I don't know which day it is. I didn't expect...
"Jing Yan seems to be in a good mood?"
In front of the tombstone, Chris whispered to Jiaoyue.
Jiaoyue also looked at Jing Yan's back thoughtfully.
Indeed, Jing Yan seems to be much better than previous years this year.
"But the dark circles are still heavy." Chris muttered.
Jing Yan heard this murmur, and he turned around and said, "...I had a nightmare last night, and I still didn't sleep well."
He glanced at Black Feather.
Butterfly was shocked and said, "Nightmare? Impossible! I even made a dreamless mode for you!"
"This means that your miracles still have a solution." Jing Yan said dryly.
The cracking method is the psychological shadow.
Everyone: "… "
I can laugh at myself, it seems that it is really in a good state.
After saying hello to Jing Yan's mother one by one, they consciously walked aside and gave the place to Jing Yan and Jing Yi.
Just as Qiao Xi was about to leave, Jing Yan stopped him.
Jing Yan smiled at him: "Qiao Xiaoxi, come here, I'll introduce you to my mother."
Qiao Xi blushed.
Jiaoyue smiled and said, "Go."
Everyone looked at him with a smile, and Qiao Xi walked over and stayed.
Jing Yi is closing his eyes, probably talking to his mother in his heart.
When he opened his eyes, Jing Yan spoke softly.
The breeze was blowing, and it was a little cold, but not the chill of the previous days.
Qiao Xi looked at the photo on the tombstone.
He had seen other photos of Jing Yan's mother on the Internet before. It was a woman with very similar eyebrows and eyes to Jing Yan, beautiful, elegant, generous and dignified.
The personalities of Jing Yan and Jing Yi are also inherited from his mother.
Qiao Xi felt that the aunt had really given the two brothers the most precious gift when they were born.
This gift allows them to support each other for so many years, grow up strong and happy, and enable them to walk along the straight road and stride towards the light.
Auntie, take a good look at them.
Qiao Xi said in his heart.
On the way back, because of exhaustion all night, Qiao Xi and Jing Yan cuddled with each other and fell asleep, no one came to disturb them.
I don't know if it was because of the topic last night that Qiao Xi had a dream.
…just the dream is a little weird.
In the dream, Jing Yan became the wolf king. He and Jing Yan got married. After a year of marriage, they had a child and they hugged each other.
When he woke up, the flying car had already landed beside the wooden house, and Qiao Xi was still a little dazed when her feet landed on the ground.
Jing Yan looked back at him and wondered, "What's wrong?"
"..." Qiao Xi tilted her head and asked him, "If the two of us get married, what will happen to the heir to the throne?"
He looked at Jing Yi who was squatting on the ground picking up leaves.
In the history of orcs, male queens are indeed rare, but since male queens have appeared, the heir to the throne is a question that needs to be carefully considered.
Will Jing Yan let Jing Yi come
... After all, he couldn't have a baby like in his dream!
Jing Yi stood up, noticed Qiao Xi's eyes, and was startled: "It has nothing to do with me! I'm not the beast king!"
Jing Yan stared at him: "Why doesn't it have anything to do with you?"
Qiao Xi was stunned.
Jing Yi immediately thought of something, patted his head and said, "Yes, it has something to do with me. My brother said that he will choose my child as his heir!"
Qiao Xi understood and said apologetically, "I'm sorry."
I always feel that it is still causing trouble for Jing Yi, and also causing trouble for Jing Yi's children...
"It's all right, my brother and I have discussed it a long time ago," Jing Yi said carelessly, "I like girls, as long as the other party doesn't want children, there will definitely be children in the future. I don't like being a king, maybe my child I will like it, anyway, my brother also said that we will see the situation when the time comes."
Although he was still young when his mother died, the memories of that time are still scattered in Jing Yi's mind.
He remembered how his mother was in bed, and how his brother had to take care of him and his mother at the same time.
It can be said that his brother has been protecting him, and Jing Yi also knows that if it weren't for his brother, he would not be able to live so carefree at this age.
His brother propped up the sky for him, so he could become the Jingyi he is now.
Therefore, his brother has found his own happiness, and he must support him unconditionally.
As long as there are no accidents, there will definitely be children in the future. Anyway, he believes that he has no ability and is not interested in being the wolf king, but his children may have.
When Qiao Xi was moved, she saw Jing Yi "hehe" and said with a smile:
"But brother, you have to help me introduce a few more ladies. I really like them the most!"
Qiao Xi: "..."
How to say, since Jing Yi went to the fox clan, he really exudes a fascination with stallion.
Jing Yan said with an expressionless face: "The introduction will introduce you, but there are no 'a few'. If you fail, I will beat you up."
Jing Yi shuddered and touched his pi subconsciously.
Auntie, sometimes it's okay to move your eyes a little bit. Oh, cough.
Qiao Xi thought secretly in her heart.