Everyone's pursuit is different.
Perhaps this is the greatest characteristic of human beings.
If Chen Xian is not Chen Xian, but another stranger.
Then maybe he doesn't care as much as Chen Xian about whether he is a human or an abnormal life.
Chen Xian wants to be human more than anyone else. This is an inferiority gene engraved in his bones, because he has an inexplicable sense of alienation from the world from the beginning of his memory, as if he had just left the Wushan Mental Hospital. To Muhe who is beside Chen Xian, this world is an unknown place for him... a place full of different kinds.
That's right, Chen Xian vaguely felt that he was "abnormal" when he was very young. Although he was still young at that time and didn't know what his abilities were, his subconscious mind reminded him from beginning to end that he was not Those humanoid creatures that can be seen everywhere around him, no matter how similar their appearance is, they are only skin but not bones.
Living in a world full of aliens, the kind of psychological torture is beyond the imagination of ordinary people. It is like a living human being thrown to another planet. The whole world is a group of aliens who look very similar to themselves. … Fear and uneasiness are only the initial manifestations, and after that, there is an instinctive vigilance, and one must live cautiously.
This kind of vigilance lasted for several years until Chen Xian entered the school and began to study and live. He kept in touch with people and learned about the world through various channels. He accidentally discovered that the world had an unspeakable attraction for him, as if he Should be born in this place.
The sunshine in early spring, the flowers in midsummer, the sky in autumn, the white snow in winter... Even the clouds blown away by the evening wind, this kind of scene that ordinary people have long been accustomed to, is better than the beauty of a beautiful day in Chen Xian's eyes. It seems that I will never get tired of watching it like this for a lifetime.
If you really want to elaborate, maybe Chen Xian loves this world more than most people. He has a soul-like love for this colorful and unknown world. It is also because of this. The psychology gradually turned into an unbearable inferiority complex.
He also wants to be like an ordinary child, able to enjoy all the beauty of this world without any scruples. He also wants to make some friends, to find someone to talk to when he wants to talk, and to be alone when he wants to go out and play. , although he is a person who can endure loneliness, it does not mean that he really likes this kind of loneliness.
Maybe it's because he was born with few words and low EQ, or maybe it's the sequelae left by long-term vigilance. His indifferent and calm attitude is not easy to be recognized by others. He is a quiet person who doesn't like to socialize with others, and he is often regarded as a high school student in school. From the point of view of cold aliens, it will be a little better after college, but it's the same... He can't find a sense of identity, he can't find a sense of belonging.
Until he entered the Secret Bureau and came to the Ningchuan branch, where he thought he found many of his kind.
But after all...
Sure enough, I am still different from them.
"What kind of monster is it?" The old liar slapped Chen Xian on the shoulder suddenly, and stared at him with a flushed face, "Don't talk nonsense to me, you boy!"
"Regardless of the form of life, all life in the world can only be divided into two types." Chen Xian raised his head, looking at the dark sky above his head, letting the rain fall on his face, his eyes were full of relief, "One kind One is a normal life, the other is an abnormal life, the alien is the former, you... should be the latter, right?"
Chen Xian always thought that the old liar was a strange person. At least before the Jiulingshan incident, he had never seen any flaws in the old liar, and he didn't think about the direction of abnormal life at all. It was only now that he happened to know that the old liar The inhuman identity of a liar.
Although it is impossible to determine which kind of abnormal life the old liar is, one can already tell from the gloomy ghostly aura on his body... The old liar's body should be just a high-level expression of energy accumulation, but in fact he has no Entity, this point is very similar to spirit body in the traditional sense.
"Grandpa Ge."
"Ok?"
Hearing this long-lost address, the old liar was slightly taken aback, but before he could ask any more questions, Chen Xian asked him first.
"As I said before, there are only two types of life in the world without exception, so what am I?" Chen Xian had a smile on his face from beginning to end, but this kind of smile was indescribably uncomfortable to the old liar, " I'm definitely not a normal life, but abnormal life...their aura can't be overshadowed, you have fought against me before, and you should know me quite well, do you think I am an abnormal life?"
The old liar didn't answer, but suddenly remembered a sentence that Lao Zhou said to himself many years ago.
He is the third type of life that appeared in this world.
"Is this... is this important to you?" The old liar asked with a frown.
"Actually, it doesn't matter, because from the very beginning, I didn't regard myself as a human being." Chen Xian shrugged with a smile, with an expression on his face that he had expected you to answer like this.
Hearing this, the old liar sighed, and couldn't help persuading him: "Don't think about it, live your life as you want, if you feel uncomfortable in the Bureau of Secrets, you can come to Yinshi, Grandpa is covering you!" you."
"I... I want to go home."
Chen Xian wiped the rainwater off his face, with a smile that could not conceal the tiredness.
"I've been living in the sub-bureau these days. I haven't gone back for a long time. I don't know if the house is dirty. Maybe I have to clean it again. Grandpa Ge, what happened before..."
"I don't blame you." The old liar frowned and said, "Don't take it to heart, boy, that unconscious state is similar to sleepwalking, and it has something to do with you."
Hearing this, Chen Xian was silent for two seconds before answering.
"Actually, I'm conscious."
"Are you conscious?"
This answer was unexpected by the old liar, because he couldn't believe that Chen Xian, who was in the state before... even had self-awareness!
"I never thought that I would be so dangerous..." Chen Xian's eyes faintly flashed a trace of unbearable pain, recalling the phenomenon that frightened him before, he was still terrified, "Actually, I know more about my body than you. what is this thing...it can control my body...it can do anything...but I just watch it happen..."
Attack Muhe.
Attack the old liar.
All of these are things that Chen Xian couldn't do even if he was killed, but he did them all, and he did it right in front of his eyes... No matter how hard he struggled, it was useless, even his own body couldn't do it. It couldn't be stopped for half a minute, that kind of psychological torture made Chen Xian dare not recall it, and only felt that all this was a living nightmare.
He had never hated himself so much.
Especially seeing the bite marks on Mu He's neck, and seeing the unhealed hole in the chest of the old liar.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Chen Xian kept repeating with his head down, and suddenly realized that he was so useless, and couldn't think of any remedy other than an apology.
"Chen Xian, don't apologize..." Mu He put his arms around Chen Xian's neck, and sat on Chen Xian's arms with his pink face pressed against Chen Xian's shoulder, as if he didn't dare to look at Chen Xian's kind Painful eyes, "I will feel uncomfortable if you apologize... I will be very unhappy... Chen Xian..."
"Apologize!" The old liar was also a little angry, but this kind of angry expression was just to cover up the worries hidden in his heart, "If you apologize again, I will beat you up, do you believe it?!"
Chen Xian nodded with a wry smile and said the letter, then fell silent for a second, then suddenly turned around and said to Mr. Skull.
"My knife and mask are still left at the villa. They should be buried in the ruins. You can feel their aura, and it's easier to find them... Can you help me get them?"
Mr. Skeleton nodded without hesitation, and then jumped out of the sinkhole and quickly moved towards the ruins of the villa.
"It's not a problem to stand in the pit all the time, Grandpa Ge, let's go out."
Hearing this, the old liar took a deep look at Chen Xian, and seeing that the expression on his face had become normal, he nodded and agreed.
After leaving the tiankeng with Mu He and the old liar, Chen Xian stood by the pit and looked around, and soon found Lu Yisheng and the others. He hesitated a little, and finally decided to take Mu He there for a while. After all, he is the main person in charge of this case, and there are some things that must be explained to Lu Yisheng and the others.
When Chen Xian ran to Lu Yisheng and the others with Muhe in his arms, the wooden man who was hiding aside and secretly watching Chen Xian suddenly turned on a red light, looking extremely alert, and Lu Yisheng and Xu Yanan were also almost instinctive. He took a step back, as if he was still immersed in the previous horror and couldn't recover.
"Boss... Boss... What's the matter..." Lu Yisheng was still trembling when he spoke, feeling that there was a deadlock in his mind that he couldn't get over. Seeing that familiar face, he could only think of those horrible scenes before, " Are you... are you okay now?"
Seeing this scene, Chen Xian was stunned for a moment, and as if realizing something, he silently took two steps back.
At this time, Chen Xian felt that Lu Yisheng and the others relaxed a little.
"This case can be closed. My initial judgment was wrong. It is not an anomalous device. Like this kind of target that produces self-awareness and can independently create supernatural phenomena, it should be an anomalous medium."
Chen Xian narrated important information about this strange case in an orderly manner. Mu He seemed to sense that something was wrong with the atmosphere, and couldn't help but look up at Chen Xian, then at Lu Yisheng and the others.
"After it is eliminated, the abnormal phenomena created by it should also disappear, and you and Mu He will not be in danger anymore. As for the detailed report of this case... I will hand it over to Director Huo in a few days."
As soon as the words fell, Chen Xian turned around holding Mu He and walked towards the old liar, but he couldn't help turning his head after taking a step.
"I scared you before, I... I didn't mean it, I'm sorry."
Chen Xian wanted to say something more, but Mr. Skeleton came back with a saw knife and a mask of the sufferer.
"I'm going back first, you guys go down the mountain and pay attention to safety, I'm really sorry about what happened before."
Chen Xian nodded apologetically to Lu Yisheng and Xu Yanan, then turned around and carried Mu He with him, took Mr. Skull, and hurried to the old liar who was waiting for them at the edge of the woods.
Accompanied by the continuous howling wind in the mountains, Chen Xian and his figures gradually faded away in the rain.
Lu Yisheng and Xu Yanan remained silent from the beginning to the end, looking at the direction where Chen Xian was going without saying a word. After Chen Xian's figure completely disappeared, they came back to their senses and looked at each other for a while, wanting to say something to each other , but suddenly I don’t know what to say.
In the end, it was Lu Yisheng who spoke.
He sighed with a complicated expression, and kicked away the wooden man hiding beside him.
"Let's go down the mountain first..."