Everyone is very repellent
Xu Yanan silently watched Chen Xian with a calm face. Hearing him say these words without any emotion, he suddenly felt a little uncomfortable for some reason... because at this moment, Chen Xian was acting like an emotionless robot. The words were all spoken in a very calm tone. If outsiders listened, they might think that Chen Xian was just an outsider from an objective point of view.
Only those who are familiar with Chen Xian and understand Chen Xian, only they know that what Chen Xian said is actually his feelings for many years. Behind his calm tone, God knows what he has experienced in his heart these years. This kind of torture, the person in his mouth who was pierced with holes and bruises by outsiders' eyes may be himself.
"You are different from me. You have a family. Even if you have a bad relationship with your mother, don't you still have a grandfather?"
Chen Xian leaned back straight on the chair, looked sideways at the dim desk lamp beside the bed, seemingly unaware of Xu Yanan's distressed eyes, and softly persuaded her.
"If you really become an abnormal life, your grandpa should be very sad."
Hearing Chen Xian's words, Xu Yanan couldn't help but see that familiar old face in his mind. Although he often appeared with a stern face when he was a child, forcing himself to learn this and that, but... the one who really loves me these years He is the only family member.
If he really turned into an abnormal life, a monster he once regarded as his natural enemy, what would his grandfather think
Lost? anger? sad? Distressed
Maybe both.
As Chen Xian said, Xu Yanan's situation is indeed different from his. Perhaps when faced with this choice, Chen Xian should be more free. He doesn't have to fall into this endless cycle of anxiety and dilemma like her. He can Make any decision you want, you can make any choice you want, but Xu Yanan can't, because she needs to consider too many facts...
Family, loved ones, social relations.
Because she was originally a human being, her bond with humans seemed to be stronger than Chen Xian's. From this point of view, Chen Xian often felt out of place...it was true.
In the human group, it is rare for Chen Xian to have a sense of belonging, but Xu Yanan does not have a sense of belonging, because she belongs to this group.
At this moment, Chen Xian couldn't help being a little curious, because he didn't know how Xu Yanan would choose
If she were her, she should choose one or two of these options, right
After all, the third plan is really not something that ordinary people can choose.
Transforming from a human to an abnormal life is actually similar to a living person suddenly turning into a zombie, not to mention a woman like Xu Yanan, but those male aliens of her generation... Those who belong to the major families or sects They can't make such a choice even for the radiant aliens.
After all, people are people, and Ye Gong’s love of dragons is also part of human nature. Even if someone occasionally shouts "the world is not worth it", when he really wants to be stripped of his human identity, the strong fear and anxiety will be in an instant. Attacks, because people are also afraid of aliens while rejecting aliens, and they are even more afraid of becoming the object they have always rejected.
Looking at Xu Yanan who was silently meditating with a slightly blank expression, Chen Xian couldn't help but sigh in his heart, people are really complicated creatures...
"Chen Xian, I... can I ask you a question?"
Hearing Xu Yanan's slightly nervous and frightened tone, Chen Xian couldn't help being startled for a moment, then nodded and said, you ask.
"If I become an abnormal life... will you get along with me like this?" Xu Yanan is like a frightened deer, and it is rare for Chen Xian to see that uneasy look, "You won't Think of me as a monster too?"
Chen Xian couldn't help laughing, as if he didn't expect Xu Yanan to ask such a stupid question.
"I always thought you were stupid, but I didn't expect you to be this stupid."
"I just wanted to ask..."
"Look at how I don't have an answer to the bones?"
Chen Xian moved the chair to move closer to the bed, and took the initiative to get closer to Xu Yanan, because in his opinion, the expression on Xu Yanan's face was really interesting, and this was the first time he saw her like this.
"In my eyes, there is no difference between human beings and abnormal beings. We are all beings that coexist in this world. No one side should be discriminated against, and no one side is more unattainable... Besides, I don't think I'm here. Of the two, from your point of view, I am the real monster, so why would I treat you as a monster?"
As soon as the words fell, Chen Xian asked with a smirk.
"You don't think I'm going to discriminate against you in the future, do you?"
"That's not..."
After getting the answer, Xu Yanan seemed relieved, was silent for a while, and then asked cautiously.
"Let me ask you another question... What do you live for?"
"Yanan, are you going to become a philosopher?" Chen Xian looked at Xu Yanan unexpectedly, but he didn't expect her questions to become more and more tricky, "Why do I live... I really don't know. , I should live for myself, right?"
After receiving this answer, Xu Yanan's expression became bewildered, and she said softly: "I haven't lived for myself...but I want to try..."
"Want to try?" Chen Xian was taken aback.
"I don't want to choose the first two options..." Xu Yanan said cautiously.
"Why?" Chen Xian looked at her confusedly, "Worried about your strength being affected?"
"No, I just don't want to be ugly." Xu Yanan shook her head and replied bluntly, "If the newly grown or transplanted arm is a unicorn arm with a bicep bigger than yours, then I'll just die Forget it."
"You... You're not joking with me, are you?" Chen Xian asked tentatively.
"Hi your size!" Xu Yanan asked angrily, "Do you think I'm joking with you?"
Hearing what she said, Chen Xian looked at her carefully for a while, and made sure that she couldn't find any expression on her face that should be a joke, but it was not as solemn as before, as if she suddenly thought about it and was completely relieved... What do you think? ! Is it really just a fear of being ugly
Chen Xian was confused and surprised, but all of this came down to his ignorance of women, especially a woman like Xu Yanan who has been admired by outsiders for many years... Although she made this decision not only because of this , but it is undeniable that becoming ugly is something she does not want to face, which is one of the most important reasons why she made this choice.
"Do you value your appearance so much?" Chen Xian couldn't understand it, and couldn't think of so much, and couldn't help muttering a few words, "Buddhas often say that this body is just a stinky skin. The choice...wouldn't it be unreasonable?"
"I don't want to think about it so much..."
Xu Yanan's voice was very low, it seemed that she was very afraid of Chen Xian talking about herself at this time, because this was the first time she had made a decision for herself on a major matter, although it seemed irrational and illogical, it was indeed A choice she made on her own terms.
I have to live for myself.
Don't think too much about things.
Just look at what's in front of you.
Even if doing so might seem short-sighted and reckless, but... She really didn't want to make herself ugly, and she didn't want an ugly and flawed self to stand beside Chen Xian.
These were all things Chen Xian couldn't think of, and Xu Yanan didn't say much about it.
She knows what she wants to choose, so she wants to be willful for a while.
"If I wasn't with you... I might not choose the third plan... Since you don't think you are human... It's okay if I become an abnormal life... At least I won't be alone..."
Xu Yanan's voice was so soft that even Chen Xian, who was sitting by the bed, could hear it vaguely.
Of course, Chen Xian doesn't care what she said, he just wants to find out whether Xu Yanan has thought it through, after all, this decision will affect her life 100%, if she chooses the third set just for "beauty" in a moment of recklessness Plan, then in the future, if the intestines regret greenness, there will be no regret medicine to take!
"Are you really thinking about it? Are you sure? You..."
"Can you leave your mother-in-law alone! I've already thought about it! Don't try to persuade me!" Xu Yanan interrupted Chen Xian hastily, and looked at Chen Xian with wide eyes, "I'm very soft-hearted! Please persuade me again Maybe I will change again!"