To be or not to be, that is a philosophical question.
To struggle or to submit, this is a philosophical question.
Lin Huai is now in such a philosophical realm.
He was pressed against the tree, and his whole body was in a posture of being absolutely controlled.
The two hands he was struggling with were grasped by Chu Tianshu and pressed against his head, and the backs of his hands rubbed against the rough bark as he resisted. His body was imprisoned between the tree and the opponent's body - under the anger of the opponent's out-of-control move, he wanted to bend his legs to block the opponent's movement, but this led to even more embarrassing consequences.
—His right leg was clamped around the opponent's waist, leaving only one left leg pointing to the ground, supporting his body with difficulty.
In addition to the crumbling leg, what supported his body was the upward friction between his back and the bark caused by the opponent's pressure. After the first round of breath-depriving kisses, he endured the pain on his lips, stretched his neck, and panted with his head raised, like a dying white crane.
"you this… "
Chu Tianshu didn't wait for him to say the second sentence, and bullied him again.
——What did that female ghost named Lan Xiang let him see in the lake
In this extremely urgent and fully controlled philosophical situation, Lin Huai thought of this question with a little pain, a little fear, and a little anxiety.
There is no doubt that Chu Tianshu's mentality is extremely out of control. The look in his eyes and his expression all speak for this problem.
Lin Huai even doubted whether he recognized himself at all—not that he misidentified others, but that he looked at himself now, as if he was looking at the person he saw in the water, who once made him so angry. The one who is suffering so much... the phantom of his past self.
He looked at himself like he was looking at a nightmare that made him angry, scared, and afraid of losing.
Chu Tianshu finally let him go. Lin Huai slid down the tree trunk and fell to the ground. He clutched his throat, his shoulders trembled, and he couldn't help panting.
The person who once oppressed him on the tree squatted down now. He stroked his cheeks with his hands first, patted his neck, and finally—
Then, his hand finally... grabs his knee!
Lin Huai: "What are you doing..."
Within a split second, he suddenly remembered his previous sentence—
"Break your leg."
Lin Huai: ... Brother, are you serious
In the same scene, a person will choose one of the two options equally possible. These two choices lead to different consequences.
Lin Huai restrained himself from kicking him away, trying to beat him up, and told him coldly to "let go of himself", which eventually led to his urge to roll over in the wild. He closed his eyes, ignoring the barrage of "Fuck", "What happened", "This guy suddenly became so scary", "Is this world fake" and other barrages pouring out of his heart, and walked forward—
and hugged his shoulders.
"... It hurts." He said breathlessly, "You hurt me."
The opponent froze. Sensing the change in Chu Tianshu's rationality, he made up his mind again, lost his face, and said in a lazy, nasal voice: "You are so fierce."
Chu Tianshu: ...
He rubbed the other party's neck: "What's the matter? How did that ghost offend you? I just came here and saw you getting angry...?"
Chu Tianshu shuddered, as if he finally woke up.
He looked at him seriously, his eyes made the scalp tingle. He seemed to be looking at every detail of him, and finally, he spread his hands and hugged him tightly.
"It's good that you are here." Lin Huai heard the other party's heavy, quivering voice, "I just saw a... nightmare."
Lin Huai: "... um."
"It's good that you are here." Chu Tianshu buried his hairy head into his shoulder, "It's clean, no bleeding, no injury... clean, happy, able to eat and sleep .I remember you, and you remember me, that's fine."
Lin Huai: ...
"That's enough." He said, "Don't run around alone in the future."
As he spoke, he raised his head, held Lin Huai's face in his hands, and kissed him hard twice.
—What the hell did he see in the lake
At that time, Lin Huai still couldn't understand why a fictitious, half-truth and half-false nightmare was enough to make Chu Tianshu, who was always happy, lose control of his emotions.
But he felt strong fear, anger, resentment, confusion and sadness from the other party... This strong emotion made him willing to stay in his arms quietly, and let him hug him hard, just like Imprisoning his lost and recovered treasures.
They hugged each other quietly under the tree for a while. Taking advantage of this opportunity, Li Gui stretched out a hand to catch the ice with difficulty, trying to escape.
"That ghost seems to be running away." Lin Huai leaned on his shoulder and said, "Aren't you going to catch her?"
Chu Tianshu: "Never mind him."
After a pause, he said with a guilty conscience: "Does it still hurt?"
Lin Huai: "It hurts."
Chu Tianshu: "Where does it still hurt? Shall I rub it for you?"
He said it like subconsciously. Lin Huai let him go and just stared at his face.
Finally, he pointed to the corner of his red and swollen mouth: "Mouth."
Chu Tianshu: ...
Lin Huai took his finger and put it on the corner of his mouth. They maintained the posture of sitting on the grass, facing each other, and suddenly laughed.
"I kiss." Chu Tianshu affectionately rubbed the corners of his mouth and lips with his index finger and middle finger.
Lin Huai: "... you are quite embarrassed?"
He bit the other party's mischievous finger, suddenly laughed and said inarticulately: "Did you almost cry when you lay on my shoulder just now?"
Chu Tianshu: ...
"I'm going to clean up that female ghost, hahaha." He turned his back with a hearty smile, "I finally burned all the aquatic plants in the lake, and now I can't let her escape..."
Lin Huai grabbed the sleeve of the straight ♂ man who was trying to escape, and raised his eyes to look at him: "Tell me, are you about to cry?"
Chu Tianshu: ...
Lin Huai had a faint smile on his lips, and he said, "Tsk, your voice just now is simply..."
Chu Tianshu: ...
The crisis was successfully resolved, and Lin Huai also started his happy provocation. Just as he was about to describe Chu Tianshu's vibrato vividly again, his shoulder was held down by the other party.
"Don't get too carried away, little friend Miki, otherwise..."
Chu Tianshu pressed his shoulder and looked down at him, Lin Huai continued to draw hatred: "Otherwise what? The big friend named Chu who was still crying on my shoulder just now?"
Chu Tianshu flicked his forehead: "Otherwise, after going out, it will be your turn to cry non-stop."
Lin Huai: ...
Chu Tianshu was in a good mood, and went back to the middle of the lake to deal with the ghosts. Lin Huai suffered a loss from his mouth. He sat on the rock, resting his chin and staring at the other person's back, and suddenly thought of something.
Chu Tianshu's cry, which he used as a handle, so far (in his opinion) is a real cry. And his cry as revenge is the cry of Schrödinger that exists in Chutian Shuzui Cannon. Schrödinger's crying and real crying, from the perspective of comparing each other, no matter what, he is considered to have won.
After figuring this out, Lin Huai was in a good mood. As usual, Chu Tianshu dealt with the female ghost severely and cut off half of her hair.
He raised his hair and returned to the shore. The female ghost crouched under the ice and looked at them with fear and resentment on her face. Her hair and skirt were reflected on the ice surface, showing a plant-like shadow, which looked like an orchid that had broken free from its shackles and was growing wantonly.
The surrounding tree shadows, which were like a cage, finally leaked a gap. At the end of the gap is a door of light.
"Get out of this light door, and you can get out of this dream." Chu Tianshu stretched out his hand to Lin Huai who was sitting on the stone, "Go?"
Lin Huai held his hand and was pulled up by him.
He frowned subconsciously.
Chu Tianshu noticed this small detail. He couldn't help but lift up the other party's sleeve: "Show me."
After seeing under the sleeve, he gasped for breath.
On Lin Huai's arm, there were still bruises left by Chu Tianshu due to too much force. Because his skin was very fair, the bruise became more and more obvious.
Although he knew that this place was just a dream, as long as he left the dream, the damage would disappear, but...
He still couldn't help it, distressed, and felt that he had gone too far due to losing control of his emotions.
He knelt down and rubbed the other's arm carefully: "Does it hurt?"
Lin Huai shook his head and said nothing.
"Are you angry?" Chu Tianshu said pitifully, "I didn't mean to..."
"Okay." He sighed resignedly, "I did it on purpose at the time... well, I couldn't help but think..."
Looking at the top of his hairy head, Lin Huai suddenly felt that this was a good opportunity to be honest.
"I don't get mad at things like that," he said. "I don't get mad at you for hurting me and hurting me. I'm usually pretty narrow-minded, but... uh, you're different."
This sentence made him a little awkward, but he had to bite the bullet and finish it.
"I'm only angry about one thing, and that is—" He closed his eyes, "You won't tell me, your truth."
Chu Tianshu: ...
"Tsk," Lin Huai closed his eyes tightly, and kept scratching the rock with his left hand, "It feels really awkward to say this, and it doesn't seem like what I usually say... But ah, I always feel... We have already Lived together, had sex, confessed love, met parents... We are already lovers, aren't we?"
"Since we're already lovers... Uh..." He rarely got stuck, "I always feel that it's not fair."
"What's not fair?"
"It's not about body position or anything, don't try to change the topic, you." He continued to close his eyes and said, "I think it's too unfair. You can understand me, but I can't understand you. No one can be happy all the time Yeah, don't you? Even a clown who entertains everyone has moments of pain. You'll find me when I'm sad, and you'll see all of my... sad, upset moments. And I just To see you smile, I can only see you happy...it's just so unfair."
Chu Tianshu: ...
Lin Huai: "Actually, you treated me like that just now... Well, to be honest, I'm not angry. On the contrary, I'm a little... because... I feel like I understand you better."
…
Tsk...
This is said, as if I am waiting to be shaken by a tree... Lin Huai closed his eyes a little tighter.
He kept his eyes closed the whole time, unable to tell whether it was because he didn't want to look at the other person, or because he didn't dare to look at the other person. These words made him feel... nervous.
Yes, he actually gets nervous about it.
It's also strange to say. He wasn't nervous when they confessed. He never felt nervous when they kissed. When they had sex without shame, he was rarely... well, occasionally, he would get nervous because of something the other said.
But all the heartbeats and all the tension that these words brought to him are far better than any one time, any one thing.
"It's like playing a game." He tried to be cool, "I don't want to play an unfair game with unequal stakes. I don't want to stand outside your basement and know nothing until one day... You strangle."
"I won't strangle you."
A hand landed on his eyelid.
The eyeballs under the eyelids trembled at the touch.
"I know." Lin Huai said, "but I don't want to go into the basement one day...and see you lying in it and strangle myself to death."
Chu Tianshu's black line: "...will it be that serious?"
Lin Huai shook his head.
"I don't know." He said, grabbing the other's hand, "If you don't tell me, how would I know."
"You are..." Chu Tianshu's voice was a little more smiley, "Threat?"
Lin Huai nodded, then shook his head again.
"You can take it as a threat." He still closed his eyes, "Since you chased me first, then you should..."
"Take care of me, forgive me." He suddenly opened his eyes, and smiled at the young man in front of him, "Satisfy all my curiosity, isn't it?"
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