"Ah... why did you abstain."
"Yeah, I still want to see them continue the battle."
"Is it because of the mistake just now that the mentality collapsed?"
"I don't know. Well, anyway, he is now the new male god in my mind, who knows which class he is in?"
…
The girls onlookers were somewhat disappointed, but Lu Yuan didn't care about them. His mind was in a mess, and even when Ning Xingzhou trotted to his side, he was a little afraid to look at him directly.
"What's the matter? Did you get hurt just now?" Ning Xingzhou bent down, wanting to see Lu Yuan's leg that hit the horizontal pole, but the other party shrewdly avoided it.
"It's okay, but I'm exhausted and can't jump anymore." Lu Yuan lowered his eyes and took the lead to walk back.
Ning Xingzhou was confused by Lu Yuan's attitude. He followed Lu Yuan's footsteps with doubts, poked his head and asked, "Hey, are you letting me go on purpose?"
"...No." Lu Yuan was already confused enough, but the other party was still swaying around him, he sighed, reached out and rubbed the other party's head hard, "I'm just tired from dancing, don't make up your mind too much." many."
You can't tell Ning Xingzhou that he abstained because he was thinking about the other party all the time and couldn't calm down, right? And... He tilted his head to look at Ning Xingzhou's exquisite profile, his eyes were dim.
There seems to be something wrong with his feelings for his deskmate.
…
During the lunch break at noon, Ning Xingzhou and Lu Yuan didn't go home. Usually Ning Xingzhou would lie down on the table and take a nap, but today he didn't close his eyes at noon.
There is no forum in their school, and the main channels for information circulation are the major QQ groups. Ning Xingzhou has added a lot, but he has always been a diving party and has never spoken.
The video of their competition was filmed today and spread to various q groups. Many students were blowing rainbow farts in a fancy way, and asked for contact information by the way.
Cinderella in the castle: Who is this boy! Please let me know! Want to expand, expand, expand!
It's a lemon: a copper ball! This boy is also the first in the 100 meters, so handsome!
The old lady is beautiful: take me one! It's my favorite!
Decadent youth: I know this person, Lu Yuan from class 22, from a junior high school. His father is a wealthy local businessman, and his mother is a three-year-old. Before that, his mother always wanted to rely on her children to get ahead, showing off her might in front of her original wife in various ways, but in the end, she was beaten in the face by her original wife. She lost her wife and lost her army. With such a family, he is not much better, his temper is very violent, girls who want to hook him up should take it easy.
Sand Sculpture: ... No, I just asked for a contact information, who begged you to break the news
The best in this group: That's right, talk about people when you talk about people, what do you want to do if you don't talk about people's parents? Start a war
Let's break up: Oh my god, it's him, ah, I feel like I won't be popular in an instant, family education is still very important, what kind of good can such a family raise.
It's Lemon: Me... Me too, I feel that I'm too unkind, but it's really hard to put my mind on it. Rationally, I know the child is innocent, but emotionally... genetics and family upbringing or something, alas...
Since it was an anonymous group, many people had no scruples about speaking. Ning Xingzhou was scrolling through the records, watching and watching, the corners of his mouth curled up.
He put away his phone in disappointment, stretched his hands forward and lay on the table, tilting his head to look at Lu Yuan who was still studying during the lunch break, his delicate eyebrows were slightly frowned, looking very annoyed.
He is obviously a very hardworking and excellent person, why do people have such a big prejudice against him
"What's the matter? Didn't you just have a good time?" Lu Yuan's mind was not on the book at all, he simply closed the book and asked with his head tilted.
He didn't like to see the other party smile brightly because of the flattery of those unknown girls, but he didn't want to see his deskmate get annoyed by it.
Ning Xingzhou straightened up slightly, half propped his chin, hesitated for a few seconds and then tentatively asked: "If you hear bad comments about yourself, will you be unhappy?"
"Huh? What? Someone said bad things about you?" Lu Yuan asked.
"No..." Ning Xingzhou didn't know why, his popularity seemed to be good. What really made him feel depressed was Lu Yuan's comments in the hearts of his classmates, "There are always people who like to talk about you behind your back, it looks so angry."
His mouth pouted unconsciously, obviously it wasn't him who was being said, but he felt wronged first.
Seeing it, Lu Yuan was both moved and amused, and his mood became uncontrollably joyful. As for the malicious comments made by his tablemate, he really didn't take it to heart.
"It doesn't matter, they are all irrelevant people, don't waste your emotions." Lu Yuan chuckled lowly, leaning back, the stool creaked because of the shaking.
"Whether people hate me or like me, it won't change my life. Some people have too much self-awareness. Ignoring them is the best way to fight them. Instead of wasting time being sad for their words, it's better to try to be good. Live your life."
What he said was not serious, and his hoarse voice revealed a mature atmosphere that did not match his age.
Ning Xingzhou stared blankly at the eloquent Lu Yuan, a little confused, "You speak in a bureaucratic way, like parents who like to talk about the truth. But it's best if you think about it, and don't care about others People with ideas are cool."
Lu Yuan chuckled, and said slowly, "Actually, it's not that I don't care about everyone's opinions..."
He paused, looking down at Ning Xingzhou, with complicated emotions twisted in his low voice, "If you hate me too, I might be so uncomfortable that I can't sleep at night."
"Hey, hey, why do you keep saying weird things lately?" Ning Xingzhou blinked, inexplicably embarrassed, but after thinking about it, he thought it was normal, after all, at this stage, the other party only had him as a friend.
However, as a tasker who will leave sooner or later, he doesn't want this kind of uniqueness.
"Of course I won't hate you." Ning Xingzhou sat up straight, put his hands on the stool and turned his body in a circle, and looked at Lu Yuan without hesitation, and said with crooked eyes: "However, I still hope that you can be more popular, don't always keep a cold face, and make more friends."
His voice was as soft as possible, hoping to make it less didactic. He had wanted to say these words to Lu Yuan a long time ago, but he never had the right time.
Ning Xingzhou is very emotional. He has been in contact with Lu Yuan for so long, and he has long been unable to treat him as a simple task object. From the bottom of his heart, he also recognizes such a friend.
He hoped that he could bring some changes to Lu Yuan. He didn't want him to stand at the top. He only hoped that after he left, he could be like ordinary people, stubbornly and purely fighting for his dreams, and live happily with friends in his spare time. .
Who knows that Lu Yuan didn't appreciate it, but raised his eyebrows lightly, and asked in a cold voice on purpose: "What? You want to push me out so much?"
Ning Xingzhou was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly waved his hands to deny, "I didn't mean that, don't get me wrong!"
Hearing the muffled laughter of someone opposite, Ning Xingzhou realized that he was being teased. He immediately puffed up his cheeks, and stared at the other party with no threat, "Why, is it fun to deliberately misinterpret my meaning? Are you childish?"
His cheeks were slightly powdered, and the autumn sunshine gave him a layer of warmth, making his appearance even more delicate and refined.
Lu Yuan stared at him fixedly, and four words suddenly appeared in his mind-beautiful and delicious.
He shrugged his shoulders, tried his best to retract his gaze on Ning Xingzhou, and drifted aimlessly out of the window, his voice wandering, "It seems that in front of you, I always do some childish things, and I don't even understand why."
"Huh?" Ning Xingzhou keenly sensed the other party's emotional changes, and added a guilty conscience: "I'm not criticizing you, you're cute even if you're childish."
Hearing this, Lu Yuan couldn't help laughing twice. He looked at the bare cherry blossom tree outside the window, and his tone was indescribably pious and serious, "If you want me to change, I will try my best to do it."
He will no longer fight casually, and will try hard to restrain the sharp edges and corners around him.
…
Going home at night, Lu Yuan lay on the bed and recalled what happened during the sports meeting during the day, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.
Feelings are complicated and there is no one to confide in.
After insomnia until the early hours of the morning, he finally couldn't help but bounced up, took out the cheap smart phone he found in the second-hand market a few days ago, tossed for a long time, and sent a post on the forum asking for help.
—I always feel that my deskmate is very cute, and I can’t help but want to look at him when nothing happens. Is this normal? We are both boys.
Netizens are always very enthusiastic about this kind of emotional issue, and received several replies within a few minutes of sending it out.
1L: Uh... gay? Disgusting.
2L: Wow, are you gay in real life? Seeing it for the first time, the rotten girl said she was happy to hear about it.
3L: The landlord likes you at the same table, right? Nothing abnormal, but homosexuality is quite difficult, the host should be mentally prepared.
4L: Secret love? Oh, come on, landlord! Fight hard, fight hard, and become a wife at the same table!
Does he like Ning Xingzhou
Lu Yuan's hand holding the phone trembled slightly, his eyes fell on the phrase "homosexuality", and he couldn't recover for a long time. A little confused, but more of a relief.
Yes, he likes it.
At this moment, he seemed to understand why his attention was always on Ning Xingzhou, why he felt uncomfortable seeing Ning Xingzhou smiling at others, and why he would rise up in such a weird and nasty manner during the high jump today. idea.
In the darkness, only the mobile phone screen flickered with light, reflecting his facial features eerily. He pressed his palm against his forehead, recalling the scene of the day in his mind, his blood boiled uncontrollably, and his heartbeat was unreasonably fast.
Is this what it feels like to like
With a "ding dong", the phone notified that a private message had been received.
Please call me a matchmaker: don’t say anything, just see for yourself. I still have a lot of videos of this quality. If you need them, just ask me. The price is negotiable.
Lu Yuan looked at the video file thrown by the other party, hesitated for a few seconds, and clicked to read it.
In the end, he didn't expect to see two men applauding for love at one click. The strange cry made his scalp tingle, and he almost threw the phone out without slipping his hands.
Lu Yuan deleted the video with a dark face, and blacklisted the person who sent the private message by the way.
After doing this, he threw the phone aside, forcing himself not to think about anything, and to fall asleep quickly. But people's thoughts are difficult to control, the more unwilling to think, the easier it is to think wildly.
He couldn't help but wonder what kind of feelings Ning Xingzhou had for him, was it just a pure friend? Then if he pursues according to his heart, will he not even be able to be friends in the end
After thinking a lot in a mess, when the consciousness was blurred, a ridiculous and shameful thought came up in the trance-the panting sound of the same table was a hundred times better than the chicken crowing on the video.
Perhaps influenced by what he watched before going to bed, he had an extremely eclectic dream. The tablemate in the dream was pressed under him, his face was flushed, his clothes were half covered, and his red lips kept letting out small, ambiguous panting.