Seeing Shao Junling's distraught appearance, Yin Chang sat down again, and said in a slow tone: "Today is your birthday, we shouldn't talk about this... If you really resist accepting father's property so much, I will save it for you first. When will you If you want it, tell me again, okay?"
As for the phrase "I want to be your boyfriend" that Shao Junling impulsively said just now, Yin Chang only regarded him as a momentary rebellious statement. That kind of thing is only because in the past eight years, this child has put all the attention on himself, so he is not used to being separated...
Yin Chang: "Now that you are grown up and go to college, you can participate in more social parties after school, don't keep running to me... Try to get in touch with different people, maybe one day you will meet someone you really like .”
Shao Junling raised his head slowly, looking at him with red eyes.
Yin Chang said with difficulty: "When the time comes, you will know that being with them and being with me may feel completely different..."
When he said these words, Yin Chang felt like he was taking a blunt knife to cut their tightly entangled souls. Every time he said a word, he cut them, and both of them were in pain.
But he acted so resolutely, as if he wanted to force Shao Junling to separate from him.
Shao Junling opened his mouth, and finally spoke again: "Then from now on, you won't care about me anymore, will you?"
"How come..." Yin Chang resisted the idea of pulling Shao Junling into his arms and hugged him tightly, and said softly, "Fool, you will always be the closest person in my life."
A gleam of hope seemed to ignite in Shao Junling's cold heart, but thinking that their relationship would never go any further, that gleam of flame was like a burning matchstick in the vast snowy field, which filled people with despair.
Always be the closest person, which also means that he will not be the person he loves the most.
Yin Chang's words failed to ease the atmosphere, but made the two of them fall into deeper embarrassment.
They sat facing each other, but they didn't know what else to say or do. They were close at hand, but seemed far away.
The whole birthday cake lay there motionless, and no one had any appetite to taste it again. Yin Chang sighed and said, "Go to bed early." He has to get up early tomorrow for filming, so it is impossible for him to continue to be depressed.
Shao Junling nodded obediently, but he didn't know if it was the stimulation of those words just now, he was a little slow, and he sat there for a moment before he numbly started to clean up the broken table.
After Yin Chang washed, he lay down first, and after a while, Shao Junling also got into bed, but lay down with his back facing him.
The room was so quiet that you could hear each other's breathing. Yin Chang knew that Shao Junling couldn't sleep either, so he couldn't help but whispered: "I'm sorry, I should make you happy today..."
There was no response for a long time, Yin Chang was feeling anxious, but he heard Shao Junling's voice faintly from beside him: "Brother, can you kiss me?"
The calm tone of voice sounded like a wounded breath, with a hint of indistinguishable prayer at the same time.
Yin Chang trembled all over, reason and emotion were at war in his mind, and finally propped himself up slightly, wanting to lean over and kiss Shao Junling's forehead.
But when Yin Chang's hand stroked Shao Junling's cheek, he felt a trace of dampness, and his chest was instantly filled with sourness, and Yin Chang's stomach cramped inch by inch due to the discomfort.
He slowly leaned forward, and kissed away Shao Junling's tears little by little, from the corners of his eyes to his cheeks, and finally his lips... After all, his heart was still soft. When he kissed him, Yin Chang almost sighed.
Shao Junling didn't taste the goodness of the birthday wine carefully prepared by his brother, but at this moment, he tasted it in the other party's mouth.
This was the first time Yin Chang kissed him in a sober state, completely different from the mischievous teasing when he was drunk, his brother's kiss was so soft and affectionate, like the gentlest lover in the world.
Shao Junling seemed to be tasting a spring of sweets and sweets, sweet but bitter. He knew he would get drunk and didn't want to stop, so he let himself fall into the abyss, and then the wine he drank would turn into other liquids, flow out of his eyes, metabolize Get rid of inner troubles...
As if feeling Shao Junling's sadness, Yin Chang was alternately restless and bewildered in his heart at this moment. His original intention in making this decision was to hope that his younger brother would live a freer and happier life, but now why did he feel like he had hurt him
Yin Chang couldn't figure out what he did wrong, so he could only hold him in his arms unconsciously, saying over and over in his heart: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...
I don't know when I fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, Yin Chang felt that the room seemed a little deserted.
Touching the side of his side, it was empty, Yin Chang suddenly opened his eyes, only to find that everything belonging to Shao Junling in the room was gone.
Yin Chang got up in a panic and searched around, and then on the bedside table, he saw a piece of paper held down by the AI——
"Bro, I'm back to school.
I have already upgraded Xiaoling's voice pack.
When I'm not around, you have to remember to eat yourself.
Drink less alcohol, you will do weird things when you are drunk, and you will forget when you wake up, which is not very good for others.
If you can’t fall asleep at night, you can chat with Xiao Ling, or ask him to read poems to you. I have recorded more than a hundred poems in it, hoping to help you fall asleep.
Also, don't get too into the drama, it's just a job to pass the time for you, no need to risk your life.
I have to go to class during the Spring Festival, so I will not come back.
Brother, Shao Junling"
Yin Chang slumped on the bed clutching the note, the tears that hadn't shed last night were now flowing out of his eyes.
***
Shao Junling didn't adjust the time difference in the first place, and he couldn't sleep all night last night.
After Yin Chang fell asleep, he opened his eyes and looked at his brother's flawless face, his mind was full of the words "I don't need you to repay your favor" that Yin Chang impulsively said to him. , it was my brother who made it clear that he no longer needed himself.
Shao Junling felt pain and resentment in his heart. He was afraid that he would do something irreversible to Yin Chang if he stayed any longer, so he left a note and left in a hurry.
The domestic car-hailing service is very convenient. As long as the bid is high, a driver will pick you up at two o'clock in the morning. Shao Junling did not go back to Huaihe Apartment, but went directly to Haicheng International Airport.
All the way groggy, as if lost three souls and six souls.
After arriving at the airport and buying the latest flight back to Los Angeles, Shao Junling sat in the terminal for four full hours with a cup of hot coffee in his arms.
During this period, he has been relying on recalling Yin Chang's kiss to numb himself, so as not to fall into despair.
I don't know if he was thinking too much, the more he recalled, the more he felt that Yin Chang was clearly reluctant to give up on him...
It wasn't until the plane soared into the sky that his brain started to rotate again. Thanks to his super memory, as long as he thought about it, what happened last night was clearly presented in his mind like a video, played over and over again.
It turned out that my elder brother knew his real life experience seven years ago, and also knew that he was the son of a murderer. But his elder brother still treats him well as before, and never looked at him with the eyes of a different kind... Therefore, even though Yin Chang hurt his heart, he will still put his elder brother in the most important position, and will never hate him for it he.
There is nothing wrong with my brother, it is because he wants too much, and it is indeed painful to ask for nothing, but no one stipulates that my brother must respond to his feelings.
But from last night until now, Shao Junling has always felt that his brother rejected him because he couldn't pass the test of blood relationship. Now that he thought about it, he felt something was wrong—what did his brother mean when he said that he was Yin Dong's "only blood relative" ? Isn't elder brother Uncle Yin's biological son
Moreover, Luo Chuan revealed at the beginning that Uncle Yin was probably gay. If Uncle Yin had never been with a woman, where did his brother come from
If brother and Yin Dong are not related by blood, then wouldn't he and brother not be related by blood
Shao Junling thought again that when Luo Chuan talked about Uncle Yin's past half a month ago, his brother was very nervous... Could it be that the reason why his brother rejected him had something to do with Uncle Yin
Could it be that... my brother loves Uncle Yin? Just a substitute
…
Shao Junling's complexion was like an overturned palette, with turns blue, red and white.
But no matter what the truth is, what Shao Junling can confirm is only his own heart, which has been clear since the age of fifteen, which is different from family love.
Looking out the window at a height of 9,000 meters, Shao Junling said, "Brother, even if you drive me to the ends of the earth, you still can't erase my feelings for you. If you don't believe me, let time prove it."
At that time, Yin Chang was eating NG repeatedly on the set.
"Yin Chang, what's going on with you today?" After Yin Chang was stopped for the fourth time because he forgot his words, the director said helplessly, "Why don't you rest for half an hour to adjust?"
Yin Chang came down wearing a costume, and said with an apologetic expression, "I'm sorry for delaying everyone."
The director joked: "Maybe there were too many emotional explosions a while ago, but now I'm exhausted?"
Yin Chang walked to the resting place and sat down, Lu Lingjuan handed over the thermos cup worriedly: "What's wrong with you?"
Yin Chang shook his head, didn't want to say a word, didn't want to drink water, but wiped his cheeks, forcing himself to cheer up.
After finally finishing the day's filming, Yin Chang knew that his performance was unsatisfactory, but the director didn't say anything to him, and asked him to go back and relax.
Mi Xiu didn't have many roles after the scene of Seven Step Poetry. Today he went out alone to make up an exterior scene. When he came back, he met Yin Chang and was still thinking about having dinner with Shao Junling: "Where's your brother? Have a meal."
Yin Chang: "He's gone."
Mi Xiu said angrily: "What? Yesterday I pushed today, and today I said I'm leaving. It's just a meal. If you don't want to invite me to eat, you don't have to play with me like this!"
"I'm really gone," Yin Chang smiled, hooked his shoulders and said, "I'll treat you to dinner... Oh yes, call more people, I haven't had a gathering with you for a long time, there are so many people."
Mi Xiu looked at him strangely, but didn't see any clues.
After a few months, it was rare for Yin Chang to invite everyone to dinner. A group of young actors were very supportive, but at the dinner table, Yin Chang ordered wine for everyone, but he didn't drink it himself.
Mi Xiu held up the wine bottle and wondered, "Don't drink? Have you changed your sex?"
Yin Chang covered the mouth of the cup with his palm and said, "I don't have a good stomach recently, so I'll replace the bar with tea."
Everyone also knew that he was deeply involved in the drama a while ago, and his mental state was not good, so they could understand: "It's okay, it's okay, we are so familiar, so you can do whatever you want."
The meal was quite enjoyable, everyone talked about the interesting things that happened on the set, talked about the gossip in the circle, exchanged cups, and laughed. After returning from the banquet after ten o'clock, Mi Xiu followed Yin Chang to the twelfth floor, and then stopped him and said, "What's wrong with you today?"
Yin Chang: "What's wrong?"
Mi Xiu looked serious: "I admit that your acting skills are good now, but don't pretend to be in front of me?... Did you quarrel with your brother?"
Yin Chang froze, and Mi Xiu rolled his eyes: "I knew it."