387 Only with you can I act on my own terms
Yu Zi took a few deep breaths and answered the phone, "Jingchen."
When he spoke again, he realized that his voice was extremely dry and hoarse. The two words that I could always blurt out naturally and habitually in the past were actually extremely jerky this time.
Yue Jingchen on the other end of the phone seemed to be able to feel it.
She heard a moment of silence, faintly, like sobbing.
Yu Zi did not rush and waited quietly. After a long while, the call stopped and Yue Jingchen said in a trembling voice, "Yu Zi, let's... let's talk. You are at your parents' house, right? I went to Qiuyuan just now, and there was no one at your house."
That's why he contacted her so late, because he had already gone to Qiuyuan to look for her.
"I'm outside your parents' house now. Come out and see me. Let's talk." Yue Jingchen begged, unable to hide his tears.
A grown man's voice was sobbing, and Yu Zi couldn't bear it.
It’s time to make it clear to him face to face. We were in Shengyue at noon and there was no chance to have a good talk.
Yu Zi lifted the quilt and got out of bed, stood by the window and looked out. She saw Yue Jingchen standing not far away, staring at her window, her shoulders shaking as if she was crying.
"Okay." Yu Zi responded, "I'll go out right now."
She hung up the phone, turned around, took out a thin coat from the closet, put it on over her home clothes, and left the bedroom.
Her parents and brother were still in the living room and were a little surprised to see her come out.
"Can't you sleep?" Yuan Hejing stood up, walked over, and held Yu Zi's arm.
Yu Zi nodded and added: "Yue Jingchen called and wanted to talk. He is outside. At noon... I didn't make it clear, just a few words. I'll go out and make it clear to him."
Yuan Hejing nodded, "Do you want your brother to accompany you?"
Yu Zi shook his head, "I'll talk to him."
Yuan Hejing sighed and patted Yu Zi's shoulder gently.
Who would have thought that a good marriage would end up like this.
Seeing the worried expressions of his parents and brother, Yu Zi said, "Don't worry, I'll be back soon."
She went to the door, changed her shoes and went out.
Coming out of the courtyard of the Yu family villa, they saw Yue Jingchen standing not far away.
Seeing her, Yue Jingchen stared blankly and forgot to move.
Yu Zi came over, and Yue Jingchen reached out and took her hand, "Yu Zi."
Yu Zi lowered his eyes and did not withdraw his hand. This may be the last time, I feel the warmth of his palm.
"Come with me, let's find a place to talk." Yu Zi said.
Yue Jingchen originally had some hope in his heart because Yu Zi did not break away from his hand.
But after hearing Yu Zi's cool words, when she turned around, she took her hand out.
Yue Jingchen also saw that Yu Zi had no objection before, so he felt a little lucky and relaxed, so he grabbed her without being nervous.
So when Yu Zi turned around, he just gently twitched his hand away.
Yue Jingchen's palms were empty, and his heart was also empty.
He followed Yu Zi to the southwest corner of the community. Because the corner was relatively remote and there were no good views, not many people came here.
After standing still, Yu Zi put his hands in his coat pockets, looked at Yue Jingchen, and said with difficulty, "I'm sorry."
Yue Jingchen froze suddenly, "Yu Zi, do you want to break up with me?"
"I'm sorry, I was too naive all this time. It turns out that marriage is not just about the two of us. Jingchen, I'm sorry, let's break up. We... we are still young, everything is too late." Yu Zi said, cheering Look at Yue Jingchen with courage.
Yue Jingchen's eyes turned red. The dignified man had tears in his eyes at this moment.
"I don't care. Yu Zi, after so many years and our relationship for so many years, I have never thought about marrying anyone else except you. Even before the proposal, I have regarded you as my wife. I don't want to break up. ." Yue Jingchen wanted to reach out and hold Yu Zi's hand, but she dodged it.
Yu Zi shook his head and took a small step back, "Jingchen, don't be like this. We were originally engaged today, but your parents won't accept me no matter what I do today."
"No, they will accept it. In fact, they... they just don't speak properly, but they still hope that we can be together." Yue Jingchen said eagerly, his eyes wandering around Yu Zi's face, trying to find a trace of relaxation, but in the end , but my heart became more and more disappointed.
"But I can't accept it anymore. Jingchen, I'm sorry, just think that I'm sorry for you. I can't be selfish with you and let my parents and brother endure that. And... and after being with you, I think, I You won't be happy anymore." Yu Zi said, the last words were too serious.
Yue Jingchen staggered back half a step, "Are you blaming me for not stopping my parents in time at noon today?"
"It's not just today at noon, this can't happen overnight. I know they are your parents, you can't say anything to them. If you could stop it, you would have stopped it long ago, and nothing like what happened at noon today would have happened. But, Nature is hard to change. Even if we get together in the future, who knows what they will say and ask for me and my parents?" Yu Zi smiled sarcastically, "It's just an engagement, that's all. Jingchen, please tell your conscience, if I promise you now, I will be with you. What your parents said at noon today, will they not do it in the future? Can you guarantee that they will not embarrass me, no? Will it embarrass my parents?"
"So you want to break up with me? After so many years of relationship, just break it off?" Anyone who can reach the stage of marriage has a deep relationship.
"Just think of me as selfish. I don't want my parents to be wronged because of me. Even... you. I have compared the weight of you and my parents in my heart. I'm sorry." Yu Zi said in a cold voice.
"But what if I don't agree! Even if I'm not as important as your parents, I won't agree to break up!" Yue Jingchen said stubbornly.
Yu Zi took a step back, "That's because you are selfish. You clearly know what your parents did to me and what they will do to me in the future. Since you can't stop them, don't stop me. They are your parents, how do you treat them? , I have no right to say anything. But you can't want to be filial to them and want me to be wronged at the same time. If you don't break up with me, you mean you have to wrong me and my parents, right?"
"no-"
Yu Zi interrupted before he could finish, "My parents and brother have already compromised enough for me. If I really marry you this time, they will definitely compromise even more in the future out of fear that I will be wronged. You Because of filial piety, don’t stop your parents’ excessive words and deeds. And similarly, I also have parents to be filial to, and I can’t let your family suffer for them, you know? They have loved me all my life, and I can’t let them connect the dots because of me. I don’t even have a birthday on my son’s birthday.”
Yue Jingchen knew that he knew everything Yu Zi said.
But he just couldn't let go, couldn't let go.
"Yu Zi, I love you." Yue Jingchen said tremblingly.
"Jingchen, forget it. Your parents are not satisfied with me anyway. Just like my brother said, let them find a daughter-in-law they are satisfied with." Yu Zi took a deep breath, "I'm not saying this out of emotion, really. , let’s just forget it.”
After Yu Zi finished speaking, he turned around and walked back.
Yue Jingchen shouted behind her: "Yu Zi, what am I to you? What is our relationship? Just give up if you say so! Is this the only feeling you have for me?"
"I have worked hard for you for six years. Ever since you took me to meet your parents, you know how they treated me and what I did. But have you done anything for me? Before you With my parents, have you tried anything for me?" Yu Zi stopped and turned to look at him.
Yue Jingchen opened his mouth but got stuck.
Yu Zi sniffed and laughed lightly, "I'm tired. I don't want to keep working hard like this, knowing that there will be no results. You said you love me, then let me go and let me relax. Yue Jingchen , you know me, I have always been very sensible, but only for you, I acted out of impulse, and insisted on being with you regardless of my family's persuasion. But I couldn't hold on anymore. I have paid for you, and I have a clear conscience. Just you Just treat me as a heartless person, and let's break up. Live your life well, be filial to your parents, and stop entangled with me. It's not good for us."
After saying this this time, Yu Zi stopped staying and walked forward quickly. No matter how Yue Jingchen yelled from behind or tried to persuade her to stay, she would not stay again.
Yue Jingchen cried behind him, his voice trembling, "Yu Zi, I was wrong, I will protect you from now on, and I will never let my parents talk so much about you and your family again. I was wrong, come back, Yu Zi, Please, come back! Give me another chance, okay?"
Yue Jingchen chased after him, but Yu Zi didn't stop.