Duan Chengxuan stood aside and didn't speak, and that's right. What he said now would add fuel to the fire. I also hope that he will not speak, otherwise if he intentionally says something to stimulate Duan Qiao, he still doesn't know what will happen.
There are already tens of thousands of fires in my heart about to explode, but in order to avoid the escalation of the war and do not want to wake up Duan's family and neighbors, I took Duan Qiao and walked home without saying a word to Duan Chengxuan, leaving only a back.
At this time Qiao didn't want to leave, but when he saw that I didn't say a word, he turned his head, stared at Duan Chengxuan fiercely, and said to Duan Chengxuan: "Leave Yichu away from now on."
I carried Duan Chengxuan on my back. I didn't know what his expression was. I just heard a sneer, followed by the sound of the engine starting. Knowing that Duan Chengxuan drove away, I let go of Duan Qiao's arm. Anyway, Duan Chengxuan was gone, and Duan Qiao wouldn't rush to fight or do anything. Whatever he likes.
"Don't you need to give me an explanation?" Duan Qiao asked me impatiently as soon as he entered the house. He held my shoulders with both hands and shook my body desperately, as if it could shake out the words in my heart.
For Duan Qiao like this, I feel very tired, and I don't want to see him so much for the first time. I turned my head to the side and said, "Calm down first. Shall we go into the room and say something? Aunts and uncles are all asleep. Are you happy to wake you up in the middle of the night?"
I tried to break away from Duan Qiao holding my hand, "Duan Qiao, you let me go, you hurt me."
Duan Qiao realized that his strength was too great, and hurriedly put down his hands. After being liberated, I went back to the room alone.
Duan Qiao followed up afterwards, hanging his head, like a kid who did something wrong, and didn't force me to ask me anything. I was opening the closet door to choose pajamas, and I knew he had come in, but I didn't pay attention to him. I continued to prepare to take a shower and change clothes, and then went into the bathroom.
Duan Qiao didn't stop me either, maybe he wanted to calm down.
When I turned on the shower, the slightly cold water dripped down the hair on the body, and the wet hair was attached to my cheeks. The temperature of the water was not adjusted too high, and the touch of my body all at once made me shiver. I closed my eyes and asked myself to persevere in silence, and accepted the temperature in a while.
I also hate this kind of myself, and I am obedient to it, even in desperate situations, I have to motivate myself, instead of thinking about fleeing or resisting. I know this is not good, but there is no way. This is Xia Yichu that has been shaped by more than 20 years of life.
I was at home when I was young, because I was a girl, my parents always ridiculed me, even if I didn't do a good job, they even punched and kicked. Too young did not know how to resist, thinking that parents all over the world treat their children like this, and have been silently enduring all this.
Later I learned that this was the so-called domestic violence. After I realized that I had been bullied, I also yelled at them childishly: "You are domestic violence."
But this rebellion only made them stunned for a moment, followed by more violent beatings. He also cursed that my wings are hard, and I will be repaired more in the future. From that moment, I understood that when I don't have the strength to contend against each other, resistance will only lead you to a bottomless abyss.
Thinking of the past experience, I couldn't help but tear down. Fortunately, I was alone. Fortunately, in the shower, I couldn't tell what was on my face.
Once, I did not have the ability to protest. what about now? I thought that the person who had promised me repeatedly would bring me pink love, but why is there a black in this pink slowly? Isn't that, I am a useless weak person? Can only be bullied and manipulated at will
There is really no answer to this question.
Because I don't want to believe that Duan Qiao's feelings for me have changed, I still think he said that he liked me that Duan Qiao that day. His love for me is pure, 100% unconditional trust, and will not change easily and will not give up easily.
But the more I want to get a definite answer now, the less dare I think about it. Looking directly at the various things today, what Duan Qiao did made me dare not think at all. So be it. If you don't know the answer, don't go to the trouble of searching. You may be bruised and bruised on the way you look, and you may get the answer you least want to know.
Coming out of the bathroom, I felt extremely tired. I simply wrapped the bath towel on my body and didn't want to dry my hair. I let the water drip all the way and walked out barefoot, like a lunatic. Duan Qiao looked at me like this, a trace of tension flashed in his eyes, but he still sat there and did nothing.
I sit in front of the dressing table, picking up the hair dryer and blowing my hair snortingly. Looking at Duan Qiao in the mirror, his mouth closed and he seemed to be saying something, but the sound of the hair dryer was too loud. I couldn't hear what he was saying, so I didn't talk to him.
Suddenly Duan Qiao snatched my hair dryer and turned off the hair dryer. There is no hair dryer in my ears and the sound of hula lala is a bit unaccustomed. The world is too quiet, and I want to numb my nerves with the noisy sound.
"I asked you something, why didn't you answer?" It seemed that I didn't have enough time to take a bath. Duan Qiao calmed down. He was still asking me in an anxious tone, without reflecting on whether his behavior was wrong.
"The hair dryer is too noisy, I didn't hear it." I replied nonchalantly while brushing my hair.
"Can we talk about it?" Duan Qiao's soft tone made me feel that I was a bit too compelling. We all did something wrong. How can we make him bear all the faults
I couldn't bear it, I put down my comb and asked him, "What do you want to talk about?"
"Where did you go in the afternoon? Why are you still drinking with Duan Chengxuan so late at night?"
Originally thought that Duan Qiao would discover the problems in our relationship through today's events, we now have a good chat to find a solution. But I didn't expect that Duan Qiao spoke about these issues again and again, repeatedly entangled in this, after all, he still didn't believe me.
"I've already said that I'm out to work. Do you believe it? I said that Duan Chengxuan and I just happened to ran into each other and drank together. Do you believe it?" After being questioned by me, Duan Qiao was speechless. .
"You don't believe me. Since you don't believe anything I say, then you ask me why?" The more excited I was, I could not restrain my grievances, so I chose to get up and not look at Duan Qiao, and went to lie down. under.
After a while, Duan Qiao also lay down, my back facing him, still blocked. Although Duan Qiao didn't ask any more questions, I knew that he didn't come to admit his mistakes and coax me, he just didn't want to understand why we quarreled today.
"I just don't want to see you and Duan Chengxuan get too close." Duan Qiao's words were full of the baby's grievance but the baby didn't say it, but it was this tone that showed that he had no regrets at all.
"Believe it or not, Duan Chengxuan and I met by chance on the road. I really don't want to explain any more."
After Duan Qiao heard what I said, he hugged me from behind. "Okay, I believe you."
I was overwhelmed by Duan Qiao’s gentle embrace, and I relented and explained to Duan Qiao: “Duan Qiao, don’t be so hostile to Duan Chengxuan. He is your brother. How can I have anything to do with him? It’s actually not easy for him. Don’t look at him all day long, but he wants to have friends more than anyone. The reason why he runs on you sometimes is probably because he wants to prove himself in front of his uncle. After all. From childhood to adulthood, you also know that uncle treats you better than him. Although he is the young master of the Duan family, he seems to be unrecognized. How can you say that he is not uncomfortable. So if he does What's wrong, can you not care about so much?"
Hearing my good words for Duan Chengxuan, Duan Qiao suddenly took his hand away from me. "You asked me to treat him as a younger brother, but is he worthy to be my younger brother? If it wasn't his mother who killed my mother, how could there be him? How would you let me treat the son of the man who hurt my mother's murderer as my younger brother? The heart that squeezed me down is so obvious, if I indulge in him, is it because my wife belongs to him?"
Duan Qiao actually said this, I immediately turned around and looked at him and said, "What are you talking about? Am I an item in your eyes? Can your brothers fight for it?"
"Enough" Duan Qiao interrupted me, got up and said, "Don't tell me. I'm going to sleep next time tonight." Duan Qiao took up the pillow and went out.
A person in the room tossed about and couldn't fall asleep, so he opened his eyes until dawn. I always thought I was just angry, but when I got up, the pillow got wet unconsciously.
Very in no mood to freshen up. Although chaos is not as angry as last night. But I have already made a decision, I can no longer be so complacent. In the past two decades, I have repeatedly tolerated, but in return I have only intensified. This time I am going to be myself again. No matter what the ending is, I must first express my anger at the status quo. I must never allow Duan Qiao to evaluate me like this.
This is not only a breakthrough in myself and a transformation in my life for more than 20 years, but also a hope to find the answer through this resistance. Is Duan Qiao the one worthy of my love
If those sweet words back then were only the product of the deep affection of the first love period and could not be regarded as a real promise, then it can only be said that Duan Qiao and I are not in the same world, and what we want to pursue is not the same love. Rather than being tortured to a white head later, it is better to part ways now.
I simply packed my clothes, carried a small box, and quietly left the Duan's house.