How should I put it, especially in the previous paragraph, after the things that I am afraid of in retrospect have happened.
During that period of time until a few days ago, the two of us were banned by the doctor’s order.
So if you are not doing the same thing before going to bed, it will be difficult to fall asleep together, because the rhythm is really different.
However, sometimes if I am particularly tired, I don’t even have the energy to wait for Duanqiao to take a shower. Before Duanqiao comes out from the shower, I’m already asleep regardless of it. Up.
As for when Duan Qiao fell asleep, of course I don't know anything.
Of course, this is only a few occasions when this happens. After all, I am very busy and tired all day long, especially within a month. Most of the time, Duanqiao is still busy and tired.
On the contrary, the night when Duan Qiao was more tired than me would make me feel more sad.
I am not a person who loves to stay up late, and even on the contrary, I am very sleepy.
However, it is often like this. When the sex is lying down, or almost except for a few, I will feel tired. Every other night when I don't let me fall asleep, it is difficult for me to sleep.
For example, Duan Qiao and I often went upstairs from downstairs and played for a while, lay down together, and then Duan Qiao fell asleep, and I didn't even have any pajamas.
Otherwise, I lay down earlier than Duan Qiao, and started to brew sleep early, until Duan Qiao played with this and that, and then lay down very late, but often, Duan Qiao’s steady snoring sound was already on me. It has been ringing in my ears for a long time, and I can only dazedly face Duan Qiao's sleeping back.
This is really an issue that bothers me a lot. I have already taken any healthy sleep aids and medicines, which are of no use at all. I have also talked about this with An Ru before, and she told me completely It was caused by too much pressure in my heart.
This kind of medical treatment will hardly have any effect. I have been taking medicine or undergoing sleep therapy, and it may even disrupt the endocrine balance and cause imbalance, which will make me feel more uncomfortable. The only way is to solve the good heart disease.
Hey, but to be honest, for a long time, although I am now not crying hoarsely or whatsoever like before, it seems that I am not worried about the past at all.
But sometimes, maybe the suffocation that comes from the heart is something only you can feel.
So, sometimes, if it's not because Duan Qiao really loves me seriously, or I know exactly how true Duan Qiao loves me.
Every night between us as a husband and wife, in fact, if we carry it out alone, it will make others think that we are super unhappy.
And the morning of the two of us, there is no sense of husband and wife.
Because at night, people who live in the night cannot fall asleep, and sometimes they can only fall asleep before six o'clock in the morning.
Because as long as I don't feel sick, Duan Qiao will not particularly care about me at night.
So even if I made some subtle noises because I didn't sleep, Duan Qiao would not take it seriously, and would not be awakened by my little voice like when I was uncomfortable.
When I was awakened at most, I would comfortably ask a few words about why I still stayed asleep or something. After I took me into my arms, I kept forcing myself to sleep, but I still didn't fall asleep until the early hours of the morning.
That person's life itself depends on sleep to maintain something.
I couldn't sleep at night, so I had to use the daytime to remedy it.
Although, in the final analysis, I am still worried because I am too idle during the day, and I can't sleep because of a lot of thinking.
Because it was true that these problems became more serious after I left Duanqiao Company.
Or it might be that what happened afterwards caused more and more factors that made me unable to fall asleep, and that's why I became like this.
Duanqiao's daily schedule, itinerary, and time are extremely fixed.
So every time he woke up in the morning, it was when I was drowsy.
So day and night for the two of us hardly overlap.
Not to mention what I did for Duan Qiao.
For example, like an ordinary wife, prepare a simple breakfast for the husband.
Although Duan Qiao and I have almost reversed their identities in this regard.
Or in other words, every morning, while the husband is having breakfast, prepare today's briefcase and computer for him.
Or in other words, before the husband left, he gently stood in the hall, waiting with his coat and bag. After the husband changed his shoes, he handed over the coat just right and before handing the briefcase to the husband. Help her husband tidy up his tie and send a sweet kiss on one side of his cheek.
These are all my fantasies about the married life that I might experience.
However, in the longer and longer life, I discovered that this is something I have never done or thought about.
But today, at noon, or in the afternoon, when my husband forgot to charge his phone because he was too tired last night, he woke up unexpectedly with his wife.
The purest marriage life I ever thought was finally staged bit by bit.
In the past, I always felt that my husband went to work hard, and I slept at home and was raised as I wanted. When I finally woke up, there was a loving breakfast that was placed in the microwave oven waiting to be heated by my husband in advance.
Everything like that is the most ideal life, and will get great satisfaction.
And to this day, I went up the stairs with unspeakable excitement, watching my beloved man eating the food I prepared in the restaurant, and I was going to prepare work supplies for my husband , I discovered that the happiness at this time is the happiness that really belongs to a wife.
At this time, the satisfaction of the heart and the senses is not the kind of emptiness that a person was alone and eating tepid food before, so satisfied and fulfilled.
Perhaps it’s not too late when I finally understand these truths at this time.
Duan Qiao and I have always been two apprentices of love. When we finally stepped into the siege of marriage, we became students of marriage. With devotion to love, when we entered marriage, Together to this day, maybe as long as we are by each other, everything will not be too late.
Only when each other's hearts don't hug each other tightly, will the end become a guest death.
At this time, Duan Qiao and I were living, dying, mad and mad for it.