"I don't have one. I just thought that having a child would help me pass these lonely days." Concubine Xu felt like she was on edge at this moment, but she had to fight for herself. Even if she and the emperor didn't have sex, there was still a possibility. However, if she really took the infertility medicine, her life would be ruined.
"Your Majesty, I have no intention of usurping power. It's just that what my father said is not without reason. As a prince, you are always too weak. If you have some brothers to help you, it will be better in the future."
Su Jing looked at Concubine Xu, who was kneeling on the ground and trembling all over, and suddenly laughed.
"Get up. Don't have such thoughts in the future." Concubine Xu was still uneasy about Su Jing's sudden change, but she could only stand up as he instructed.
"For me, giving birth to a princess would be enough to ease the loneliness in front of me." Concubine Xu said softly, but Su Jing didn't say anything else, just got up and left.
Concubine Xu respectfully saw him off. Looking at her back, tears fell. She had said so much, but she couldn't bear the emperor's silence. She was even certain that the emperor really didn't want her to have a child for him.
Otherwise, how could this period of time...
At night, Concubine Xu waited for the emperor to go to bed. Even after Su Jing had already laid down on the bed, she was still reluctant to leave.
"Go and have rest." Su Jing looked at her with displeasure in his eyes.
"Your Majesty, let me serve you. I..." Concubine Xu's voice was trembling when she spoke. Before she finished speaking, she mustered up the courage to sit on the bed. Obviously, she had made up her mind to sleep with Su Jing today.
"Have you had enough of being a favored concubine?" Su Jing's words turned cold again. He sat up and moved back, as if to keep a distance from Concubine Xu.
“Your Majesty, I…” Concubine Xu felt very aggrieved, but she couldn’t say the words of grievance.
"You rest first. I'm leaving." After he finished speaking, Su Jing stood up and left, leaving Concubine Xu alone, crying.
Now, everyone in and outside the palace knows that she is favored, but who knows that her favor is just for show and the emperor has never let her get close to him. The so-called nights of revelry are nothing more than the emperor sleeping in his bedroom while she waits outside the palace to serve him.
Rather than being a favorite concubine, it would be more accurate to say that she was a maid who took care of the emperor's daily life.
She had had enough of such days. She really loved the emperor and wanted to have a child with him, but the emperor was angry with her because of this.
Concubine Xu felt a little regretful, but she was also certain that the emperor would be back tomorrow. She had become accustomed to the emperor's mood swings. Every time the emperor left in an angry mood, he would come back the next day as if nothing had happened. She felt that today would be the same.
However, she did not expect that the emperor went to Concubine Zhu's palace that night. Early the next morning, Concubine Zhu sent someone to call her to pay her respects, saying that the emperor had said that there should be a hierarchy in the harem in the future.
As long as she is favored by the emperor, the hierarchy can be ignored. If she loses the emperor's favor, she, Concubine Xu, is just a concubine who makes a living behind Concubine Zhu.
When Concubine Xu arrived at Concubine Zhu's palace, the other concubines in the palace had already arrived. They all surrounded Concubine Zhu and talked to her in a fawning and obsequious manner.
Concubine Xu looked at Concubine Zhu's happy face and felt bitter in her heart.
"Sister Xu Fei has been working hard during this period, but the emperor said last night that my Qingque Palace is too deserted and lonely, and he will come here more often in the future."
Unlike Concubine Xu who was reserved, after the Emperor stayed in her palace for one night, she was eager to announce the matter to the world.
Concubine Xu didn't say anything, but she was already panicking in her heart. Although the emperor's temperament has been unstable recently, he always keeps his word. He said he would come to Concubine Zhu's palace often, so he would definitely come. What about herself? Would she still go to Changyi Palace tonight
The original confidence and expectations disappeared in this instant, leaving only endless fear, like waves, washing over my heart again and again.
(End of this chapter)