Tan's father and Tan's mother spent another two days inquiring about the news, and got a clear understanding of the general situation of the city y base, and at the same time, some people paid attention to them. That day, Su Yuanyuan showed off her hand at the market, and everyone saw it. Later, Wan Kun pestered the old man, and Tan’s mother beat him twice. The group of them were all experts at first sight. Naturally attracts attention.
Papa Tan keenly noticed that the superiors had sent someone to watch them, so he went home and drank a few sips of tea and said, "It's almost there, let's go."
Mother Tan nodded, "The strong in this base are respected. We have aroused the fear of the higher-ups in the past few days. They might think that we want to seize power. And Wan Kun is getting more and more shameless. Let's leave quickly."
"I just went to the task hall. There is a task to clear the supermarket. We can take the task and go out." Tan's father looked at his grandpa and grandma and said, "We are afraid that the elderly will be killed if they stay at home." Wan Kun is entangled, so you have to take it with you when you go out on missions, it should be no problem."
"Yes, the superiors are just afraid of us, and it doesn't hinder us when we go out, so let's do it like this."
Su Yuanyuan and grandpa and grandma both agreed. Thinking of Wan Kun's appearance, the two elders couldn't help but sigh, and they have been looking down for the past few days. They are not soft-hearted, but blame themselves. They feel that when they were young, they were busy with business and neglected to discipline their son. Otherwise, how could Wan Kun become such a person? Su Yuanyuan persuaded them several times to no avail, and felt that it was time to leave. The person Wan Kun is sorry for is the second elder. A tiger does not eat its son. No matter how much the second elder hates it, it is impossible for the second elder to want his son to die. Therefore, Su Yuanyuan's attitude towards Wan Kun is to ignore it. She actually thinks that Wan Kun is more painful to live like this. .
After the family discussed the itinerary, they went back to their rooms to rest. The next morning, they took over the task and left the base with the words they thought about. Su Yuanyuan heard someone muttering in a low voice, saying that they were so stupid that they brought two oil bottles for the task, and she suddenly had an indescribable feeling in her heart. These people are also human beings, why are they so shameless? The last days are terrifying, but why can they abandon the elderly and children with peace of mind? Is this still human? They are too indifferent to the people around them, not as good as her monster.
So what is a person? What is a demon? What are zombies? What are Zerg? She has done so many things to help human beings, but why do human beings kill each other? They are full of malice towards the same kind, why should she, a goblin, help them
Tan's father drove slowly on purpose, fell to the end of the line, and then turned quickly at an intersection and drove in the direction of Yanjing. Su Yuanyuan saw the zombies on the road through the window, and she used her mental power to disperse them to clear the way for the car. Suddenly, she saw a wounded fourth-level zombie jumping out from the nearby woods. It grabbed a second-level zombie and took it out. The crystal nucleus was stuffed into his mouth, and then he fought a third-level zombie.
The car drove past, and Su Yuanyuan moved to the rear window to watch them. It didn't take long for the fourth-level zombie to win. It ate the crystal nucleus of the third-level zombie, and its body repaired a lot. Su Yuanyuan's feelings are more complicated. Zombies do not have the complex emotions and desires of humans. They only have one obsession, which is to become stronger.
Eating human flesh and blood is to become stronger, and eating the same kind of crystal nucleus is also to become stronger. There is no distinction between right and wrong, good and evil, they just instinctively keep getting stronger, and they will do whatever makes them stronger, regardless of others. Even zombie sieges are just spiritual zombies manipulating other zombies to attack the enemy, in order to obtain more supernatural power crystal nuclei to upgrade themselves, but also to eradicate supernatural power enemies and make themselves safer, not to protect themselves Race, zombies don't have that kind of thinking.
What's the point of getting stronger like this? Maybe the zombies themselves don't know what the meaning is, they are such a species, they are born like this. Female praying mantises eat male praying mantises, hamsters eat their own babies, elephants rape rhinos, moths jump into flames, whales run aground, cows and horses jump off cliffs, etc. No matter why they do these things, they do, This is the nature of their race.
What about the demon? Most of the monsters want to become stronger, only a small number of monsters are content with the status quo, but all the monsters will transform themselves into human forms when they transform, they are full of curiosity about the human world, and especially want to live with humans. There are also some monsters who are cruel by nature and will attack humans and treat humans as slaves, but they will still transform themselves into human forms. Demons seem to be the only race among so many races that have the same emotions and desires as humans, but some are proud because of their powerful mana, and some feel inferior because they are demons but not humans. The pursuit of love to go to the world is really inexplicable.
Su Yuanyuan thought of herself, wasn't she full of curiosity about the world at first, and always wanted to experience the various aspects of life? She has experienced many kinds of lives in the world for thousands of years. She has seen good people, bad people, and both good and bad people. She has also come into contact with all kinds of bloody things, and she has even helped human beings in various worlds. . She has been very happy and happy, but what is she pursuing? Day after day, year after year, is she pursuing cultivation to become a fairy? What about after becoming a fairy
The ancient people developed into the people of the Republic of China and then developed into modern people, and even interstellar people. There have been too many changes, but human nature is still the same. Interstellar is much more advanced than primitive society, but the relationship between people is still the same. something? Even if she worked hard to become a fairy and went to the fairy world, living in a group of fairy people, wouldn't it also belong to the relationship between people? What's the difference? So what is she after
She doesn't believe in the nonsense that immortals have no desires and desires. A well-behaved person with seven emotions and six desires will have no desires and desires after becoming a fairy? If it is true to see through the world of mortals and suddenly wake up, then what are these immortals doing in the fairy world? Don't you want to do nothing if you don't want to do anything? If they are put in charge of anything, why should they be in charge? They have no desires or desires, what are they doing these things for? Once a person loses pursuit and direction, he will lose motivation and vitality. She absolutely does not believe that immortals do not have emotions and desires.
But she seemed to have only one way to go. If she didn't go, what would she do
Tan's mother made tea for the two old people, and when she looked back, she saw Su Yuanyuan frowning as if she couldn't figure it out, so she sat down and asked, "What are you thinking? What's wrong?"
Su Yuanyuan took a look at her and typed for her on her mobile phone: Mom, the world has become so dangerous and terrifying, what is your pursuit? You say that people will die sooner or later, so why are you living so hard and desperately in the last days
Tan's mother was startled, then smiled softly, and put her arms around Su Yuanyuan's shoulders, "So you were thinking about this, and my mother also thought about this question. When I was fifteen years old, I thought about why I should live. I thought about it again when I was thirty, and I thought about it when I couldn't find you a while ago."
Su Yuanyuan raised her head in surprise. In her impression, Mother Tan has always been a very gentle and kind woman. She is a good daughter, wife, mother, and daughter-in-law. She never thought that Mother Tan would think about this kind of thing three times, but why? Hasn't she always had a good life
Mother Tan smiled, "Actually, not only I have thought about it, your father, your grandparents, and grandparents may have thought about it."
Papa Tan and grandpa and grandma, who heard them talking in front, both responded, admitting that they had thought about this question before. Su Yuanyuan was even more puzzled. Is this a question that everyone will think about? How did they figure it out? Have they all found the pursuit and meaning of life? But... Life has been rushing for decades, isn't it about death in the end? Like she lived for more than four hundred years in the last world, didn't she also die in the end? All the achievements she made benefited others, so what's the use of fame and wealth if they don't bring them to life and don't take them to death? Although they fed back a lot of faith to her and helped her practice, but she worked so hard to cultivate to Nanao, wasn't she almost killed by the way of heaven? Tiandao threw her here as a zombie. She struggled hard to survive and cultivated hard. What if she practiced until Eight-tailed was hacked to death by Tiandao? Even if he didn't hack to death, it would still be like this next time, so what's the point
Tan's mother saw her confusion and doubts, her heart softened, she hugged Su Yuanyuan in her arms, and said softly: "Don't be afraid, life is sacred and wonderful, and everyone can't help but explore its existence." Meaning, mom doesn't know what other people think, but I can share my secret with you, mom never told anyone about these things."
Tan's mother smiled and said: "When I was fifteen, my mother once again took the first place in the age test. My parents, teachers and friends praised me when they saw me, but I have heard this kind of praise for many years, and I don't feel it at all. I I saw some students who didn’t do well in the class go out to play like crazy after class, and didn’t care about the teacher’s criticism and their grades at all. I was curious, why didn’t they study hard?”
"Later, I began to observe all my classmates. I found that everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses, and they all have their own things they are good at. Whether they study well or badly, they all have happiness and troubles. Bodyguards, drivers, and all the workers I can come into contact with, I see them working day after day, no matter how much they earn, or whether their work is decent, they also have happiness and troubles, I suddenly feel a little confused, try hard What is the difference between not working hard and not working hard? Every family has its own hard-to-recite scriptures, and everyone will be unhappy at times, so why am I working so hard?"
"At that time, I deliberately wrote a few wrong questions during the exam, and I got fifth in the whole grade. I thought I would be scolded when I went home, but your grandparents didn't care about it at all, and they made a table of delicious food. Comforted me. The teachers and classmates also comforted me, saying that it was just a one-time performance disorder, and it was okay. I was even more confused. No one cared if I passed the exam. Why should I pass the exam? I was just a student at that time and lost The motivation to study, I was at a loss and felt that there was no point in doing anything. For the first time, I felt that life was meaningless, studying hard, working hard, running a family hard, retiring and traveling around, and then dying, what is the point?"
It was the first time that grandma knew that her daughter had so many thoughts when she was fifteen years old, and she couldn't help but turn around and ask, "No wonder you didn't talk much during that time, I thought you were unhappy because you didn't pass the exam, so what did you think later?" Does it work?"
Tan's mother smiled and shook her head, "It's not really figured out, I just woke up one morning and saw the trees in the yard blooming, very beautiful, and suddenly thought why I was so boring, I was living happily , What do you think about it! It’s like I thought of this question inexplicably, got into a dead end, and suddenly let go of it inexplicably, and didn’t care about this issue at all. I just returned to normal, studied hard, and got the first place in the exam. I liked it Studying, studying is also very easy, and I go to and from school happily without being affected at all."
Papa Tan also couldn't help asking: "Then why did you think about this when you were thirty years old? We were doing well then, our work went smoothly, our parents were enlightened, and our daughter was cute and cute. What did you think about this?"
Su Yuanyuan could hear some nervousness in Tan's father's voice, and laughed, generally thinking that these are all because of unsatisfactory life, is father worried that something was not done well back then? She knew that her mother felt that life was meaningless so inexplicably when she was a child, and she felt a lot more relaxed. She felt that it was not unacceptable for her to think about it. Maybe everyone would think about it. She looked at Mother Tan, and she also wanted to know why her mother thought about this when she was thirty.
Tan's mother squinted her eyes, leaned on the car seat, and sighed: "That year, a good friend of mine died in a car accident."
Su Yuanyuan was startled, she didn't expect it to be because of this. Tan's mother looked at the roof of the car and said: "Obviously I sent her a WeChat chat with her the day before, and made an appointment to go shopping together when she came back from a trip, and to try the delicious food at that newly opened French restaurant. But so suddenly I received the news of her death, and I was immersed in that depressed grief for a long time, probably for about a year and a half."
Papa Tan was surprised and said: "How come? I remember you cried many times, but it returned to normal after a month or two. You... sorry, I didn't find out..."
Tan's father stopped the car and looked back at Tan's mother with self-blaming eyes, and his grandparents also looked over worriedly. It took a year and a half to come out, and that was already depression.