Tan's mother smiled slightly, calm and peaceful, "It's all right now. When I cried at that time, you all comforted me. I can see that you are very worried, and because of my emotions, everyone in the family is depressed, and the atmosphere is relatively depressed. , Even Xuanxuan didn't dare to laugh anymore. I didn't want to affect everyone like this, so I pretended to be okay, went shopping every day, watched TV, laughed and cried with the TV, and worked hard to vent my emotions, so that I could be with you When you get along as if nothing had happened. Occasionally when I am alone in the room, I will think of her and the little things we used to get along with, and I can’t help but cry for a long time, but I just want to bear this pain alone, and I don’t want to bring it to me. family."
"I thought I could laugh along with the TV, so I was gradually letting go, but I couldn't help but think, if I forget her, and others forget her, and start a new life, who will remember What about her? That was the first time I deeply realized that death is like a lamp going out. When a person is gone, there is really nothing. I would think, what if something happened to me one day? You will definitely Immersed in grief, but after ten or twenty years, will you still grieve for me? You also want to have your own new life, and I will only be slowly forgotten and dusty in the depths of your memory. Husband may There will be new wives and daughters who will eventually grow up and leave their parents to live their own lives. Then... what am I living for? Even if it is for myself, what is the point? If life does not bring death, In the end, when I die, there is no difference between something and nothing."
"I didn't want to work at that time. I felt that life was impermanent. Maybe I would die in an accident tomorrow. I might as well spend my time enjoying life. There is no need to be busy at work. There is no shortage of money at home. Why don't I be happy? Playing around? But I feel uneasy, because in everyone's perception, this is a waste of life. I can't find the meaning of life and the motivation to work hard. I struggle every day, very unhappy, feeling My body was weakened, I had no strength, and I was not interested in anything. I tried to persuade myself that life lies in the process rather than the result, but I couldn't persuade myself, I couldn't get rid of that state, and it was then that I realized that I might have depression."
Su Yuanyuan hugged her tightly, and typed to her on her mobile phone: Mom, stop talking, don't talk about these unhappy things, I don't want to expose your scars, I'm sorry.
Mother Tan smiled, and gently stroked her hair, "It's okay, it's been many years, and my mother has come out. Looking back now, it was actually just an experience in my life. Grief, but it was also the grief at that time that made me think about a lot of things and cherish life even more."
"My mother told you these things in the hope that it will give you some inspiration, which may make your journey less detours and less obstacles. Since mother knew that she had depression, she began to actively search for relevant information , find a psychiatrist, and work hard to treat myself. I don’t know what the meaning of life is, but I know that others will not think that life is boring and commit suicide because of the death of a friend. This is wrong, and I should treat it. Then during the treatment , I found a lot of beauty."
"My husband will chat with me caringly after work, and will take time to go shopping with me. I don't complain for a long time. My in-laws will consider my mood and whether I have an appetite for dinner. Every day I can Feeling their kindness. My daughter will act softly at me, call me mom sweetly, look at me with trust, and regard me as her protector. And my parents, when I don’t I was already old when I paid attention, and I needed to be filial and take care of it. Even the job I haven’t touched for a long time makes me unable to let go, and I always want to do something.”
"I have so many things I can't let go of, so I don't think I should let go. Although people are bound to die, since they are still alive, they must live happily until the day they die, otherwise they are really wasting time. From After that, I figured out that the meaning of life is to make myself happy and comfortable. If there is anything that makes me uncomfortable, I will find a way to solve it. After solving it, I will live a comfortable and comfortable life again. I like to go out with my husband Living in a world of two, I like to watch my daughter grow up a little bit, I like to be filial to the elderly and see the elderly happy and happy, and I like the sense of accomplishment after the work is completed. I like so many things, so there is so much happiness, so what I pursue should be hapiness."
Tan's father came over and hugged Tan's mother, and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry, I didn't accompany you well at that time. Fortunately, you came out."
Tan's mother patted him on the back, "You have to figure it out on your own. You are the best companion to drink tea and chat with me after work every day. If it weren't for you to make me feel the warmth around me, I would How could I get out so quickly? The psychiatrist said that I got better quickly, and I was in good condition, probably because I wasn't too sick, after all, I always have you by my side."
"Well, we will always be together in the future. Even if it is the end of the world, it's no big deal. As long as there are people around who want to protect, we can live well." Father Tan looked at Su Yuanyuan and said, "Your mother is here When I can't find you, I think of the meaning of life. I am the same. I can understand her feelings. You are our only daughter and the continuation of our life. When we can't find you, our hearts are pierced every day. Can't sleep, can't eat. Sometimes seeing those monsters, I even feel that it is better to die, and I don't have to suffer. But this kind of emotion didn't last long. We have always believed that we can find you, and we have to take good care of the four They are the parents who gave birth to us, and they are also our closest existence, we must protect them."
Grandma nodded, "Yes, I saw some elderly people commit suicide because they were afraid of dragging their children down. I don't think so. I think this end times is already very hopeless. If we commit suicide because we are afraid of dragging our children down, we will have nothing to lose. Got it, but what about the living children? People like Wan Kun probably hope that we die as soon as possible, but people like your parents will only blame themselves for not being strong enough, and will suffer from the loss of their parents. The world is even more desperate. So sometimes, life and death are not viewed in this way, whether it is meaningful or useful, we humans have feelings, and our family reunion will feel very happy and full of hope for survival. OK."
Grandpa is seventy years old, and he said: "People live their whole lives. When they are hungry, they want to fill their stomachs. When they are full, they want to earn more money. When they earn money, they want to have a good family. A good family hopes that the children and grandchildren will have a good future, and when the children and grandchildren have a good future, they hope that the four generations will live together. In short, people always have new goals, so they don’t have to be afraid of losing their direction, and don’t have to think too much about the future. There is a saying that “the plan does not change. Hurry up, think about it, don’t many planned things always end up with accidents?”
"So why do you think about it in the long run? Now when we encounter zombies, we think about how to defeat them. Don't think about how people with supernatural powers will get along with ordinary people after the zombies are extinct. When the time comes, we will solve the gap between people with special abilities and ordinary people. Don't think about whether there will be a national war if the gap is resolved. The road always needs to be walked step by step. If you don't learn to walk, don't think about the meaning of the 100-meter race. When you really reach that stage, people will naturally have new ideas. The essence of life The meaning is to focus on what is in front of you, and just do the things you like right now, and before you know it, you will find that you have been focused and happy for a lifetime."
Grandma patted him on the arm and said with a smile, "I never thought you could say such philosophical words."
"That is, how many ups and downs have I experienced in my life? I have seen what you said a long time ago. You said that when I was hungry when I was a child, would I have thought of being chased and bitten by zombies now? I was in the mall At the time when the wind and clouds were all-powerful, would you have thought that all the money in this world has become waste paper? There are too many changes in life, it is useless to think too much, as long as you adapt to the new environment, you can do whatever you want, as long as If you don't hurt innocent people, don't think about whether you should do it or not, live happily, and you won't lose money as long as you live."
Grandpa spoke very boldly, and Su Yuanyuan seemed to be able to think of his whole life from his words. That's right, grandpa is one of the biggest bosses in the business world. Let alone doing business now, the industry has turned into a bubble, and he has to flee with his life and death. For grandpa, isn't it a lifetime of ruining his foundation? What's the difference between this and her transformation from a seven-tailed monster to a little zombie? All things that have been worked so hard for a long time are lost. But my grandfather has a very good mentality. He has been practicing spear and knife skills very hard. At an age, he occasionally kills a few zombies to practice his hands and learn the skills to protect himself. This is how my grandfather is adapting to the new environment!
Su Yuanyuan seemed to see herself from Tan's mother's sentiments, and understood the process of her struggle. In her grandfather's words, she seemed to see a guiding light and found the way she should go. In fact, when my grandfather was a child, there was a three-year famine, the college entrance examination was stopped, everything belonged to the public, and private individuals were not allowed to have anything. Could we see the future at that time? At that time, many people were desperate, living in despair and numbness, but after they survived, they welcomed the spring breeze of national reform. Hope always comes unknowingly, and only when alive can there be hope and new and interesting experiences. No matter when, death is really all over and disappears.
Su Yuanyuan suddenly became clear-headed and enlightened. She sat cross-legged, closed her eyes, and took out all the crystal nuclei in the space and piled them up in front of her. Suddenly, her mental power suddenly broke through the barrier and rose to the peak of the seventh level, and her spatial ability also directly rose to the middle level of the sixth level. More than half of the crystal nucleus pile has been consumed, and all of it has been replenished for the spiritual power needed for upgrading. She felt that the boulder that had been pressing on her heart during this time was removed, and she felt relaxed.
Su Yuanyuan slowly opened her eyes and saw the four elders with worried faces, showing a relieved smile, "Grandpa, grandma, mom and dad, thank you for teaching me patiently, it's nice to have you." Yuanyuan was finally able to speak, and they fell into ecstasy.