The dark night is like a pair of invisible hands, tightening people tightly. The depression and pain seem to make people suffocate and die at any time.
Suddenly, a lantern hung on a tree in the distance broke the black night. Although the light of the lantern flickered, it added a touch of warmth to this quiet and lonely night.
Seeing that Yuxi hadn't spoken for a long time, Yun Qing said, "If you don't want to say it, don't say it, don't force yourself." At the beginning, he felt that this was just a dream and didn't care. But as Yuxi's description became more and more detailed, he felt uneasy.
Yuxi was pulled back to reality by Yun Qing's words, and looked at Yun Qing sideways and said: "When the robbers broke into the villa, I happened to be in the back mountain of the village. I just felt that something was wrong when I watched the fire in the village. My mother-in-law’s family is in the village, so she went back to the village, but I didn’t dare to go back, so I went straight out of Zhuangzi and prepared to go back to the capital."
Yun Qing has now put aside the two of them who were talking about a dream, and only followed the question Yuxi said: "As far as you said, there is a turbulent situation outside, how can you be a single woman from Zhuangzi to the capital? "If you change to the current Yuxi, it may be no problem. But Yuxi said that she in her dream was a coward and a coward. People with such temperament, let alone in troubled times, it is not safe to be alone outside in times of peace.
In fact, when Yuxi thinks about it now, it feels incredible: "Maybe people are in a desperate situation, and they will find ways to survive! The village is very remote, I walked for four days from the village to the town. These four days have been relying on wild vegetables. With the wild fruit belly. Because it is a mountain road, there will be beasts at night. In order to prevent the beasts from attacking me, I searched for a fishy herb I knew, and smeared it on my body. My face was also dirty Yes. The smell of that kind of herbal medicine is terrible, not to mention the cannibalistic animals, even insects and flies are disgusted. Those few days have been very hard, don’t say anything to eat, and I have to sleep out at night. It was too bad. At the beginning of the month, the weather was not cold. If it were winter, it would have frozen to death in the wild."
Yuxi, who loves cleanliness, has to be dressed up as a stinking beggar woman in her dream. Yun Qing felt that it was a bit difficult for him to speak: "What happened later? Will you go back to the capital on foot?" Since it is remote, it must not be short to walk back to the capital.
Yuxi nodded and said, "I didn't dare to call a carriage when I was in town. I was afraid that I would die if I was noticed. So I exchanged a pair of gold earrings for a pack of dry food and left the town." After a pause, Yu Xi explained: “Because of the floods in the south of the Yangtze River and a large number of refugees pouring into the capital, the food is outrageous. My pair of gold earrings only got six catties of dry food.” She used up only six catties of food. Mind to keep it. Otherwise, it would have been robbed.
Yun Qing also knew that prices during the turmoil were unreasonably high.
Yuxi remembered the escape experience, and her eyes revealed an indescribable calm: "Because there are too many refugees, all the wild vegetables have been eaten. The six catties of grain will only be eaten for four days. I am too hungry. , I could only dig up the roots and leaves to fill my stomach. In the end, I didn’t even eat the roots. Some of those refugees were so hungry that they began to eat people. Many of the children among the refugees, no I don't have a bad hand." Fortunately, she has a stench on her body, and these people look down on her. Otherwise, it might be eaten by these people too.
Thinking about it now, Yuxi feels that she was actually very tough in her previous life. I was not scared to death when I encountered such a thing, and even walked to the gate of the capital.
Yun Qing has eaten tree roots himself, how can he not know how the tree roots taste? It was bitter and astringent, and it was hard to swallow. But I was too hungry, in order to survive, I had to swallow it no matter how unpalatable it was.
Yuxi said: "I still had a gold necklace and a silver bracelet on my body. I secretly exchanged these things for several times, and I got to the capital. But the gate of the capital was sealed, so I was only allowed to go out and no entry. I can't get into the capital." She made several pieces of the gold necklace, and each piece was changed for food. Otherwise, she must have starved to death on the road.
Yun Qing did not speak, but listened to Yuxi quietly. In fact, only from what I said just now, I knew that Yuxi in the dream was not stupid. If he was stupid, it would be impossible to walk safely from Zhuangzi to the capital. Yuxi in the dream would fall into such a miserable situation because she was raised crookedly.
Thinking about what happened under the gate of the capital, Yuxi flashed hostility in his eyes: "The gate is sealed, and I can only live in the refugee camp. The next day I found the official who sent food to the refugee camp, beg them Send me a message to the Han family, wanting my eldest mother to send someone to take me back to the house. But the officer told me that the Jiang family told me that I had been killed by a robber and that the funeral had been done. I didn’t expect it in the first place. People from the Jiang family came to save me. I just wanted to ask my eldest mother to save me. Unfortunately, I was too naive. The official told me that I might live in the refugee camp and I could only go back to the capital. There is a dead end. Because I have been living outside for half a month, I am no longer innocent in the eyes of those people. Not to mention the Jiang family will not let me live, and the Han family, who is the mother of the queen, will definitely not tolerate me like this. The stain. As the official said, even when I return to the capital, there is only one dead end."
Yun Qing's expression was very ugly: "You mean Han Yuchen was also a queen in your dream? Since she is a queen, why not support you." As a queen, Han Yuchen only needs to take a look at the Buddha. Yuxi would not be so miserable.
Yuxi said very calmly: "I am such a sister who can't be on the stage. She wished she could not live without it. She would still take pictures of the Buddha. But she can't be blamed. I can't stand up by myself. "Yuchen was raised by the old lady, and like the old lady, the most important thing is the gains and losses. Of course, Han Jianming, who was raised by the old lady, is actually the same. It's just that Han Jianming is more humane.
Yun Qing didn't know what to say. In Yuxi’s dream, apart from the Qiu family, there is no kind and innocent person in the Han family: "What do you do if you can’t go back to the capital?" In troubled times, a weak and homeless woman wants to live. It's hard to get down.
The next thing was Yuxi’s deepest pain: "After half a month of hard work, I was hit by such a blow again. My body has reached its limit and I developed a high fever that night. It happened that it rained again that night. Water leaked everywhere in the thatched shed that was not as high as the date. By the next day, the people in the refugee camp saw me in a coma and thought that the person was dead, so they prepared to burn me to prevent the corpse from being left for a long time and causing plague. I I woke up at the time, crying that I was still alive, don’t burn me. But these people ignored my cry and put me together with the other corpses and burned them."
When Yun Qing heard this, his whole body froze: "They burned you to death with fire?" Even if he had never experienced it, he knew how painful it was to be burned alive.
Yuxi gave a hum, and said, "I beg them to bury me. Unfortunately, no one cares. The fire burned every inch of my skin. It hurts so much that I curled up into a ball... "
Yun Qing felt something wrong when he heard Yuxi's detailed description, and immediately interrupted Yuxi, holding Yuxi's face in both hands and said, "Yuxi, don't think about it, it's just a nightmare, not real."
Yuxi burst into tears and said, "I know it is a dream, but the pain is deep into my bones and I will never forget it. Moreover, I have always dreamed of being burned to death by the fire over the years. Experience it again." As long as you are stimulated, you will dream of being burned by fire.
Upon hearing this, Yun Qing shuddered. Being burned alive, I don’t want to have a second experience after having one experience. And Yuxi often experiences that kind of pain, and she can stay normal without going crazy, just because her temperament is tough: "Is there no way to solve this problem?"
Yuxi whispered: "I in my dream, before being burned to death, swore a poisonous oath to repay Jiang Hongjin for the pain that Jiang Hongjin has put on me, and then he will be thwarted."
When Yun Qing heard this, he didn't even want to say: "Then why didn't you just kill him? Maybe he is dead, you won't have this nightmare again." If it was him, even if it was a dream, he Jiang Hongjin will also be killed. He wouldn't even wait so long, he would find a way to kill Jiang Hongjin. In this way, the future troubles are truly eliminated.
Yuxi lowered his head and said, "The things in the dream are not reality after all. In reality, he didn't want my life, so I couldn't deal with him. But when I had this nightmare again, I couldn't stand it anymore. , Let Yang Duoming go and teach him. It can be regarded as revenge for the tortured me in the dream. It is a little unbelievable to say it. I feel the same for all the things in the dream, and I still remember it very clearly. It seemed that it was not a dream, but it was actually experienced." After a pause, Yuxi said again: "But it was because of this dream that I didn't dare to be weaker. When the smallpox was over, I asked the eldest mother to give it away. She gave me a woman who knows how to read. After I, I followed that woman to read."
Yun Qing was stunned: "Are you illiterate in your dreams?" It's not a girl from a big family, they are all carefully raised! How could it be illiterate.
Yuxi’s mood at this meeting has calmed down, and said: "In my dream, because of my dull aptitude, I am not qualified to study and study handwriting with Mr. Song with my third sister. It is also because of the dream experience that made me want to learn more. , Learn something close to you. So even if Mr. Song hates me, I still stick to it."
Yun Qing knew a lot about Yuxi's childhood. In fact, Yun Qing had also had doubts before, that is, Yuxi was too easy to learn, and it was a bit unusual for it to be easy to learn. But Yuxi's words today solved his doubts. R8