The chaotic mental state continued into the afternoon.
Zach reluctantly sorted out Hank's situation. Zach realizes that his attitude towards Hank must be adjusted. Hank is no longer the old human man waiting to die in Grandli, just let it go. Hank is a fellow vampire of the Sabbat and one of the competitors for the head of the Lesenbra clan. It is not a good thing for both of them to continue to have a relationship guided by Grande's continued emotions.
But with Eli, Zach had no clue.
Same thing as Hank's situation. On Hank's side, the core of the problem is that when emotions from the human period are extended to get along with vampires, there will be acclimatization.
On Eli's side, the continuation of emotions from the human period? Zach doesn't remember. No, it's not accurate to say that they don't remember it. It should be... Zach and Eli's emotions when they were humans have already deteriorated.
It is easy to see through comparison
For both Eli and Hank, Zach was the one who became a vampire first. This is the premise. What we are comparing is the difference between Eli and Hank.
Hank became a vampire under Zack's eyes. Basically Zach also contributed to this fact, and then Grande almost acted as a shelter for Hank. Under Zach's movement, the vampire world spread out in front of Hank bit by bit.
Basically, Zack is already standing on the roof of the building, pointing out the way for Hank, so that this human being who was still waiting to die as an old man can walk step by step to the place where he can start to appreciate the scenery of eternal life.
All the feelings Hank had for Grande when he was still human were already filled by Zach when he explicitly asked for his capital as Lesembra's capital vampire.
Contrast that with Eli.
Four centuries ago, what were the feelings of two human beings who were refugees when they faced the drastic change in their fate in front of the noble Toledo? Who is going to fill it out? No one filled it out.
In the long eternity, too many things have been forgotten. The once empty, waiting for satisfaction, and leftover feelings of human emotions have been crowded out by other things. All Eli remembers from his human experience is one summary fact: He sold Zach to Toledo.
This feeling is similar to... Today, you have experienced the greatest grievance in your life, and your worldview has been shattered to pieces. Then, ten years later, you can laugh and talk about today’s story and laugh at yourself about who you were back then. And then, twenty years later, I can no longer laugh at myself, because the myself in that incident feels like myself in a previous life, completely different from myself now, and this story has become 'someone else's story'. Then, thirty years later, someone mentions this matter on some unintentional occasion. You will be stunned for a while, and then, inexplicably ashamed, "Yes, yes, there is such a thing, don't mention it anymore"...
Finally, after fifty years, you have become an old man who knows not to be happy with things and not to be sad with yourself. You will only remember a dull fact. Fifty years ago, your world changed once. Apart from that, there is nothing else you can say about it, only this summary.
We can say that Hank's human emotions have been carefully transformed by Zach... and have undergone a qualitative change. This is a process that seems a bit bumpy, but the results are pretty good now.
At least we got to see Hank move back to the Grand from the living quarters of his own volition, right? He also witnessed Zach's many plans for Hank's Lesembra identity and to find out his own position for Hank. Both parties worked hard and reached final harmony during the morning phone call. Hank was able to talk to Zach calmly, and Zach was able to let go of his selfishness and let Hank act for his future.
This is a success story.
But Eli? Failure cases.
And the fault for this failure probably lies with Zach. It was Zach who ran to Eli and confessed that he was a vampire and 'scared' Eli away.
Zack guided Hank's transformation from human to vampire step by step in Hank's case, and in Eli's case? Zach took the popularity away.
Remember, in Zach's version of the story, Eli was scared away by Zach after he confessed that he was a vampire. In Eli's version of the story, he was pissed off by Zach's showoff. Which version is true is not important; what is important is
This is where the deterioration begins. Zach has gained immortality, but Eli is still a laborer at the feet of the nobles. Eli, probably at that moment, lost all the human emotions he had when he was joking about using Zach's skin to change his fate while giving the last food to Zach.
We don’t know the specific story of Eli after leaving Zach, but we know that Eli has a new goal in life, he wants to live forever. Then he received eternal life.
But what Eli got was not immortality like Zach's. He is Zachary Toledo, one of the foreign vampires who can only survive in the darkness in the eyes of the nobles. He is ruining the reputation of the nobles and threatening the interests of the nobles.
Tell me, is extreme contrast a good emotional fuel? no.
What kind of vampire has Eli grown into? Well, he has grown into a vampire who uses the blood of gluttonous vampires to develop his blood control skills.
Do you need any other proof
The best thing is that Eli's human emotion for Zach turned into what we see today as 'Zachary Toredo was the most right thing I did in my life'. Eli's exact words, right, he always claimed that he 'made' Zach. Eli's summary was not entirely plain, but it contained such a strange emotion.
How does this wonderful emotion come from? There is a theory that I wanted to talk about a long time ago.
We know that Eli jumped on the Sabbat's ship and came to the Federation excitedly to fill Toledo's position and become a member of the Thirteen Clans.
Coupled with the immortality that Eli previously received, can we make a hypothesis: Eli, wants everything that Zach got.
If this assumption is true, Eli's "most correct thing" is easy to understand. His obsession with Zach and Lutrecenbra's obsession with Zach are two completely opposite things:
Lutre Sembula, hate everything about Zachary Toredo! And all this is what Eli wants!
What I want is of course the most correct thing for me!
If everything really develops like this, then Zach is the original sin Zach who made mistakes again and again in Eli's degenerated emotions. It seems that he never stopped, waiting for Eli who was trying his best to catch up behind~
You are eternal life, you are a noble, you are a colonist summoned by faith, you are the founder of a new country, you are an orphan of the clan, you are the guy who plays with the Sabbat by yourself, you are the person who shapes the pattern of the alien race by yourself, Now, you have stood side by side with the gods of other faiths as the guardian of the world...
Having said that, this is a comparison between Hank and Eli. Let’s compare the last thing.
For Hank, getting the capital that fits Lesembra's identity and being a 'player' in the same thirteen clans as Zach. For Hank, that's enough, human life ends and vampire life officially begins.
To Eli.
Human life ended long ago, has the life of a vampire begun? Eli Toredo, a vampire reborn as Zack's grandson, begins his own vampire life?
This is where Zach gets stuck.
After Elaina's phone call 'remembering the past', the gap of four centuries was revealed, and Zach didn't know how to mend it!
How is Zach going to get along with this grandson? Use the past events of humanity that have caused memory errors in both of them to adjust the future, or do they use the emotions that have deteriorated over the past four centuries to figure it out
Zach really hoped it was the latter, because it was easy to control. What's worse is that the other person starts to remember those past human events that really happened! With Zach's...'hypocritical' character, an opportunity arises to make up for old mistakes. Do you think Zach will pretend not to see it
"This is the 15th time you came out of the office and dazed for a while doing nothing, then came out and dazed on the back porch, and then went back to the office and dazed, and so on." Sam's voice recalled in Zach's ears.
Zach curled his lips and said, "How boring are you, thinking about this?"
"You don't allow me to move around freely without you during the day. What can I do if I don't count what you did?" Soul asked.
"When you couldn't move around freely before, I didn't see you having any objections." Zach was unhappy. He was already in a bad mood. No one liked the booing in the backyard.
The soul replies, "I can't. What do I have to complain about."
To use an old example, people who are allergic to peanuts don’t complain about not being able to enjoy the taste of peanuts.
Zach, "Then your complaint comes too early. We will be together for a long, long, long, long, long... time." Zach said 15 'very long', which was also quite childish. But for the meaning of the expression at this time, it is extremely consistent.
Sam was quiet for a while, "I'm not complaining about boredom. I've seen all the boring things you do." For example, counting stars... Zach did a lot of boring things in Grande, "What I'm complaining about is actually It’s why you don’t say what’s bothering you so you can discuss it with someone.”
It's his own business. Zach doesn't like to discuss it with others, and we've noticed that. He typically gets involved in other people's affairs and gets bored when it comes to himself.
"Like who?" Compared to Sam's heartwarming response, Zach seemed a little ungrateful, "You know what I'm bothered about, you heard the two phone calls this morning. Do you have any opinions? What?"
Just speaking objectively, this matter is indeed very personal and an extremely 'private' matter for Zach and Eli.
"For example, me." Sam's voice answered quickly, "I came to Barton to find Benjamin, but in the end I stayed with you. Eli came to the Federation to find you, but you don't need to be his destination. .”
Ignore Sam's choice of words. This guy really understands what Zach is thinking!
Zach was stunned for a moment, "I don't need?" Quote, "Be his 'home'?"
"He said he wanted to live on your skin, but the fact is that he got eternal life without you, right? He is not a member of the thirteen clans, but he is the only vampire in the place of origin who may have discovered the ability of his own blood. , right. Even though he is suppressed by the Sabbat in the Federation and cannot intervene in the politics of the Federation like the real Thirteen Clans, he is also a band with a unique style (Children of the Night) and has huge fan influence across the country. Those crazy fans are all his descendant reserves (mailed blood bottles), right? If it weren't for you, he wouldn't have to give up his own bloodline and descendants. Even if it could only be done at federal night, he would still be able to do it. Very good, right? Even in the Republic, he and Zagar are not too bad, right? With his bloodline, and with Zagar gaining a foothold in the Secret Alliance, can you imagine that in that clean land (referring to (has not been baptized by a vampire), how high can it reach? If you hadn't sent Louise's real Toledo bloodline to him, his cooperation with Zagel would not have been terminated early. Geer is worried that his status will be threatened..."
"Wait a minute." Zach frowned, "Are you saying that I ruined his good deeds?" That's what it sounds like. Zach, is there a positive image in this discussion?
This isn't a backyard heckling, it's a fire!
"What I'm saying is that Eli gave up a lot of things for your obsession, which he thought was good. Good things, for him, are really things he got through his own efforts, things he deserves."
Zach... tilted his head and raised his hand to scratch his ears. Itching, itching for no reason.
The voice in the ear continued, "Just like me, if I hadn't been obsessed with Benjamin, I wouldn't have come to Barton with the wolves I worked hard to save in the middle. We all know the result, my wolf The group disappeared in an instant. And I still can’t blame Benjamin, who I finally found... "
I found the cause of the itching. What did I do for most of the day? Comparing Eli and Hank is ridiculous! The real contrast is here!
"...Does Benjamin have any positive comments about the wolves that I have saved by my own ability? Is it good for you, Eli's descendants and his bloodline, to be in your mouth? Benjamin doesn't care about me at all. What did he do? He personally participated in the action of erasing all my efforts, and then did not say a word of comfort. What about you? When you decided to erase Eli's bloodline, did you ever think about saying to Eli, 'I will give you four centuries All the accumulation has turned to ashes, am I sorry for you'?"
Zach's face was already dark. It's to yourself. Sam was right, there was no way Zach could say sorry to Eli. This thought never appeared in Zach's mind! Now everyone can take the quotation marks off 'hypocrisy'.
"You won't." The voice in the ear continued, "I won't blame Benjamin, and Eli won't blame you. Because, when you are still obsessed, not only do you not think that you have done anything wrong to us, but also we ourselves , and never imagined what we had lost. You cannot be Eli's destination, for the sake of Eli's own future."
Zach didn't scratch his ears, and the expression on his face gradually changed. This is to force us to put the quotation marks back on 'hypocrisy'... Zach said, "What can I do." It seems that he only discovered the real contrast now, it's too late. Now, Eli has Toledo's blood on his body.
"Benjamin pointed me out to you, didn't he? When I was still obsessed and couldn't resist him, he forced me to focus on you who was completely different from him. Then, I began to realize that I My own gains and losses." It felt like Sam clicked his tongue, "You are a person, I should say Toledo, who likes to care about this kind of thing. You can calculate all aspects of a thing clearly and find out what is most beneficial to you. Also I don’t know if I’ve learned something bad through my ears and my eyes, and I’m not as innocent as before.”
Zach's eyes twitched, "Who can I force Eli to see?" According to this trend, could he point Eli to Benjamin?
Not Benjamin.
"The guy in the basement." Sam: "Simon Gangello. Toledo, no, it should be said to be you, the opposite of someone who wants to put himself in the position of a vested interest. Only in this way, Yi Only then can Lai realize what a self-made man like him has lost for someone like you, and then his life really begins.”
"Isn't it too much?" Zach was considering Sam's suggestion seriously. "I don't want Eli to completely stand against me and hate me." This was also Zach's own knot. He used to be , 'scared' Eli away.
"He won't. Eli and Simon are not the same kind of people. Eli has never harmed anyone with vested interests." The last comparison, "Eli treats you because you were once a refugee who was nothing. After becoming a person like Toledo, The vested interests began to shine after becoming nobles. What Eli saw in you was the goodness of the vested interests. It turned into longing and obsession. Only then did he feel that everything he had gained was in front of your achievements. Not really. Before the Thirteen Clans came to the Federation, Eli had not attacked the nobles (if he had, he and Zac had already met, and either Zac had executed him or he had Zac killed). Come on. Federation, Eli didn't rebel in the Sabbat. Eli's achievements were all achieved without conflicting with vested interests. Do you realize how rare this is?" As the other side of comparison, "But Simon is not like this. What Simon sees is the evil of those with vested interests. That’s why Simon became a criminal and went to rob Smith, not through his own efforts, but to take advantage of the vested interests in a malicious way. The desired result is to let Eli sees things he doesn't see and starts to reflect. Simon is the best person to do it."
"You and I are not so extreme."
Zach's ears are itching again, he deserves it
"Aren't you the murderer who personally created the history of wolves preying on wizards for the sake of vampires? Wasn't it you who caused my tragic life experience?" Sam gave Zach time to pick his ears, "You and I can achieve harmony, and you should give a little confidence to Eli, who 'made' you, and to Simon, who was 'made' by your own hands."
Zach... agreed.
The next moment, something horrifying happened.
Eli appeared in front of Zach.
After looking at each other with Zach, Eli smiled, "It seems that he remembered something good again~" He reached out and touched Zach's face, raising his eyebrows, "This memory is so vivid~ I must It's the hallucination caused by the pain of breathing~ Haha, the texture feels a bit..." Eli shut up, turned towards Zach's smiling face, and looked around, "This doesn't look like an hallucination, is this Grande?" The hand on Zach's face pinched Zach, and his eyes returned, "You have a feeling that I don't like, you are suppressed by rank. Are you, really?"
Snapped. Zach slapped Eli's hand away and said with a sullen face, "I'm serious!" Zach didn't even have time to continue Toredo's rare outburst, we couldn't see it. because:
"Is it daytime now?"
Oh yeah, Zach's on the back porch.
Eli faced the Grand backyard, "I didn't start the fire!" Eli walked down the back porch, excited for four centuries: "The sun! Look! It's the sun!! Ouch! My eyes hurt! Ah! ! But look! That’s the sun!! Ouch! I’m going blind! Ah! The sun..."
At a certain moment when Grande's madman was excited, Zach heard, "There was that special breath again, and I confirmed that 'it' was in the sun."