Gu Xuewu was stunned for a moment, and finally sat down in front of the tombstone. Looking at the face in front of him, which was the same as Zhou Ying, he was filled with emotion, but he didn't say anything.
Li Lan took out a tissue and wiped away the tears on her face. Looking at Zhou Ying on the tombstone, she spoke slowly.
Four years ago, Li Lan was a spoiled and spoiled young lady. Parents are busy with business and have no time to take care of her.
She goes shopping, shopping, and having fun. Forget it. In the end, she made some friends, drank, went to bars, gambled, and gambled. She never went home until midnight every day.
The Li family's parents said that she couldn't talk about it, and she couldn't manage it well. After a long time, I just turned a blind eye and let her go.
Then one night, Li Lan, like before, went to nightclubs with a group of so-called buddies and friends.
I don't want one of the "buddies" to have bad intentions, he will touch Li Lan, trying to bully Li Lan.
Although Li Lan can play well, there is a bottom line. She struggled with the man, and finally slapped him and ran away.
The man was not reconciled and chased after him.
Li Lan got into her car, only thinking about running away, but she didn't expect the signal light in front of her to turn red, and accidentally collided with another car.
She was not wearing a seat belt because she was in a hurry to leave. His face hit the windshield, he was scratched all over, and two ribs were broken. One eye was also scratched.
When he was sent to the hospital, there was only one breath left.
The Li family's parents were very anxious, after all, they only had this one daughter. Begging the doctor to rescue Li Lan no matter what.
But he didn't want to, besides the concussion, Li Lan's face was scratched and ruined. There is one more serious problem. The cornea of her eye was scratched by the glass and she couldn't see.
When Li Lan knew for the first time that he could not see in one eye. She has absolutely no control over her emotions. She was very excited. She doesn't cooperate with the doctor at all, she smashes things. Do not take medicine. Calling hysterically every day.
Nurses hide when they see her, and doctors get annoyed when they see her. She couldn't even hire a nurse, and no one was willing to take care of her.
Then that day, she looked at her gauze-covered face. Terrified, she threw all the things on the bedside on the ground again in hatred.
I don't want a cup by the bed to fly out. It hit the door, and a person walked through the door, stepped on it just now, and his foot was cut.
Seeing that she had hurt someone, Li Lan was stunned for a moment, but saw a very beautiful but very thin woman standing at the door of the ward, looking at the debris on the ground, and then at Li Lan who was losing his temper in the ward. Then he made a move that surprised Li Lan very much.
Regardless of the glass scratches on her feet, she squatted down and began to pick up the pieces, and then tidy them up.
Li Lan was stunned for a moment, watching the woman tidy up the pieces, and helped her tidy up the ward before saying nothing. Just left like that.
When Li Lan was still thinking that this woman was simply inexplicable, that woman came again. book in hand. Seeing the surprise in Li Lan's eyes, she smiled softly.
"Are you in pain? If you are in pain, read a book."
"Go away." Li Lan didn't appreciate it at all: "Who are you? Who wants you to meddle in your own business?"
"I'm a volunteer in this hospital." The woman smiled slightly: "My name is Zhou Ying, and they all call me Yingying. You can call me that too."
"Fuck you." Li Lan discovered the name on Zhou Ying's chest: "Who wants you to meddle in other people's business. I hate you guys, so get the hell out of here."
"Why do you do this?" Zhou Ying looked at Li Lan: "How can you get better if you are so uncooperative?"
"What's the matter?" Li Lan gritted her teeth, thinking about her current appearance: "My face is ruined, and one of my eyes is ruined. Look at me. The gauze on this end. I am a monster. A monster."
"At least you're still alive." Zhou Ying looked at Li Lan and said in a very soft voice, "You still have hope."
"What do you know? What do you know about hope? What hope does a woman have when her face is disfigured?"
"But you are still alive." Zhou Ying still said the same thing: "Nowadays, medical science is advanced, and a disfigured appearance can be corrected, and a lost eye can also be cured. As long as you are alive, there is hope."
"Hope?" Li Lan looked at Zhou Ying with disdain on her face: "People like you are the best at speaking the truth. That's because things didn't happen to you. If it was you, you wouldn't say that gone."
"If it were me, there would be no hope." Zhou Ying pursed her lips, and a trace of bitterness flashed in her eyes: "I can live for three months. There is no hope."
After Zhou Ying said this, she couldn't stay any longer, left the book she brought, turned and left.
Li Lan and Zhou Ying's first meeting started like this. Later she found out that Zhou Ying was ill, uterine cancer.
Surgery was performed at first. But the operation failed. The uterus was removed, but the cancer cells were not removed. Those cancer cells started to spread. to her liver.
Doctors say she has at most three months to live.
Li Lan didn't believe that there was such a woman in the world. She was dying of illness, but she still had the energy to help others.
She seems to be very happy every day, she is a volunteer, smiling at the patients in the hospital, comforting them, everything will pass. She doesn't wear hospital gowns, she'd rather wear volunteer clothes. She said that she doesn't like the hospital, and she has to face death and injury every day. But I have to be here.
But she seemed very unhappy. When there was no one around, her eyes were full of sadness. At that time, Li Lan's condition had stabilized, and the doctor was discussing a skin graft for her. And her parents were looking for corneas for her.
Li Lan was very upset, she was afraid that the operation would fail. Afraid that she would not be able to get through it, Zhou Ying came to accompany her every day at this time, always encouraging her and bringing her books to read.
Then Li Lan finally asked Zhou Ying the day before the operation: "Don't you have any family? Why doesn't your family come to accompany you when you are sick?"
"I have no family." Zhou Ying said lightly, "I have been an orphan since I was a child."
Li Lan didn't know what to say at this time. She always felt that she was miserable, but she didn't know that compared with her, there were people in this world who were more miserable than her.
"Then, if you..." died, what would you do
"It's okay, the people in the hospital will take care of it." Zhou Ying didn't care at all: "If you die, you will have nothing, so why should you care?"
Li Lan suddenly felt sorry for this pale woman, she really didn't understand. Under what circumstances, a person can be strong enough to face his own death calmly.
She fell in love with Zhou Ying. Every day, she had to talk a lot with Zhou Ying. She couldn't stand Zhou Ying not coming to accompany her for a day.
Zhou Ying is also fine, and stays with her in the hospital when nothing happens. In just over a month, their relationship was as good as that of sisters.
Li Lan has always been concerned about the scars on her face. Zhou Ying joked: "Anyway, I won't live long, if you want, I'll give you my face."
"Say nonsense." If it was Li Lan from before, she wouldn't think there was anything wrong with using someone else's face. But at this time, she was very upset to hear her say something like this: "You have to work hard. I believe you will get better."
Zhou Ying smiled, at this time she could no longer listen to comforting words. She is so aware of her body that she has even given up on treatment. Because she knows too well that no matter how the treatment is done, the result will be the same.
Those cancer cells devoured her internal organs, and she struggled with pain every night. She has lived enough, but she is unwilling to commit suicide. In their hometown, there is a saying that those who commit suicide cannot be reincarnated. After death, you will be a lonely ghost.
She doesn't like that. So I have been holding on, several times, Li Lan asked her to sleep with him, and then watched her suffer from pain at night. Often have trouble sleeping all night long.
In the next two months, Zhou Ying lost weight rapidly. Her cheeks were sunken, her face was getting paler, but her fingertips were beginning to have blue veins. Li Lan watched her suffer every day, but couldn't do anything for her.
She is still very optimistic. As long as her body is not in pain, she will definitely go to other wards to comfort other patients. Her optimism is admired by the doctors and nurses in the hospital.
In the last month, Li Lan's first surgery went smoothly. But a second, third surgery is needed.
At this time, Zhou Ying was already terribly ill. The great pain made it difficult for her to live every day. She has been holding on.
But make yourself smile every day. Li Lan couldn't take it anymore. She couldn't accept Zhou Ying's departure. In just over two months, Zhou Ying was in her heart just like her older sister.
"Sister, I beg you, please receive treatment. I believe it will be fine."
Zhou Ying looked at her and shook her head: "It's okay. I'm ready."
For her, death is a relief, at least she doesn't have to suffer like that every day and night.
"But I'm not ready." Li Lan cried: "I don't want you to leave. Sister, you are so good and so young, how can you just leave like this?"
"I'm fine." Zhou Ying looked at Li Lan. She was very energetic that day, and she held Li Lan's hand: "I have a story that has been hidden in my heart for a long time. If you really don't want me, just help me busy."
"What do you want me to help with?" Li Lan nodded vigorously: "No matter what you want me to help with, I promise you."
"I have a lover." Zhou Ying's face, recalling Gu Xuewu, was full of happiness: "I love him very much, love him very much, love him very much. But I can't be with him. Li Lan, if I die Yes. I donate my cornea to you. I only have one wish, you go and see him for me. I don’t want much, just a glance at him.”
She just wanted to know if he was living well, whether he was happy or not, that's all.
"Sister?" After knowing Zhou Ying for so long, this is the first time Li Lan heard her mention that she has a lover: "What about the other person? How can I find him? I..."
"Don't worry, I'll tell you slowly." With the help of Li Lan, Zhou Ying sat up. She stretched out her hand and pulled out a necklace from her clothes.
She looked at Li Lan: "Today is my birthday, and he gave me this necklace. I have been wearing it all the time, and I haven't taken it off for a day. Xiao Lan, I have always liked you very much. You are a good girl. This A necklace, I give it to you."
"Sister..." Li Lan broke down in tears, looking at her as if she was confessing her last words: "Don't talk about it, your birthday is today, you have to be happy. I'll go buy a cake. Let's celebrate your birthday happily."
"It's okay." Zhou Ying shook her head: "I don't care about that, I only care about him. He has already spent a happy birthday with me, and I have no regrets."
"sister… "
Zhou Ying talked too much and fell asleep again. At that time, her life was almost coming to an end.
In the following days, she fell asleep more and more and woke up less and less. But she didn't forget the business, she got someone to notarize, and signed the donation letter for donating the body.
Small face year. After she died, she donated her corneas to Li Lan, and she donated everything else that could be used on her body.
A week later, in the hospital ward, Zhou Ying closed her eyes forever, clutching a letter tightly in her hand. It's for Li Lan.
She said that during the three months she had known Li Lan, she was very happy and felt like she had an extra little sister. She was originally an orphan, living in this world with nothing to worry about.
She didn't care about her own death, but there was one thing she couldn't let go of. And everything she couldn't let go of was in that letter.
Li Lan accepted Zhou Ying's cornea, and the other eye regained its light. When she underwent the doctor's second operation, she told the doctor that she would become like Zhou Ying.
Zhou Ying is very beautiful, she is a kind woman, she accepts her eyes, and she also hopes to live in this world with her appearance.
It will be half a year before she fully recovers and undergoes surgery again.
According to the address on the letter, she found a small bungalow where Zhou Ying once lived. There was a small iron box under the bed in her room.
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When Li Lan said this, tears flowed down his eyes uncontrollably. She wiped away her tears, looked at Gu Xuewu who had been stunned and said nothing, and took out the iron box from her bag.
"This is left by my sister. I have been keeping it for her. Now, I will return it to you."
After she said this, she stood up, because her legs were a little numb from sitting on the ground for a long time. Supporting the tombstone to stand up, she looked at Zhou Ying's photo on the tombstone.
"I am a very willful girl, I have always been, but after I met Zhou Ying, I realized that my life is completely meaningless. After she left, I read her diary out of curiosity, and I knew about you."
"I originally wanted to take a look at you instead of him. Just one look. I thought you would stay with me because I looked like her. I admit, I liked you. "
No. Maybe not like it. is love. Li Lan is willing to admit that deep in her heart she loves Gu Xuewu, so...
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Today is the first update, 4,000 words, no update. Continue tomorrow. Be patient with you.
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