"No." Gu Nanyi has been taught by Feng Zhiwei's words and deeds, and now he has a level of back and forth in the matter of conversation, "Daddy can't give it."
Gu Zhixiao turned his head to look at him with doubts in his eyes.
Gu Nanyi was seriously thinking about how to carry out the matter of "persuasion". He had Feng Zhiwei, who was the most eloquent and clever in the world, but he had never been able to learn the tricks of the world, so he gave up after thinking for a long time. , said very directly: "Daddy needs you to be able to control the life and death of many people, and to hold greater power. Others can no longer keep you, but you can keep anyone. This is called freedom."
"No." Gu Zhixiao immediately shook his head, "No one else, no one else."
She tilted her head and hugged Gu Nanyi's neck, pressed her small face against his neck, narrowed her eyes and said, "Daddy take me back."
Gu Nanyi wanted to pull her away to talk, but Gu Zhixiao refused, his little hands were tightly wrapped around her, Gu Nanyi paused in mid-air while pulling her hand, then slowly sank on her back, gently stroking her. The daughter had smooth black hair. After thinking for a while, she also turned her head to her ear.
His movements today are very gentle, as if he is facing porcelain carefully, his gesture of whispering is close to intimacy, but his words are close to heartless, "You don't want to control others, Daddy will, I don't want you."
Gu Zhixiao suddenly raised her head, stared at her father, and was dumbfounded.
Gu Nanyi has already turned his face away, not looking at her, it is rare to speak so quickly, "You promised me, or protect your aunt with your life, or leave me, now I don't want your life, I want you to promise me, stay , Listen to all my decisions in the future."
Gu Zhixiao stared at him in a daze, as if she couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence, but she was an extremely smart child after all, so she asked in a low voice for a while: "Stay here and master others?"
"right."
"But I only want Daddy." Gu Zhixiao's eyes were filled with tears, which flickered and fell to the corners of his eyes.
"You can do it, daddy is daddy." Gu Nanyi looked at her daughter, rubbed her eyes over and over again the almost blank expression on her face, as if she wanted to use that kind of gaze to make that little face suffer from pain for the first time in life. And the wrinkles that appear are smoothed out.
But he didn't know that his eyes were also filled with pain, and when superimposed, it was just the pain of two people.
The little girl in front of him is not his flesh and blood, but it is better than flesh and blood. He has held him in his arms since he was a baby, and raised his three-year-old daughter with his own hands. He is less like a father than all the fathers in the world, because the child He is more worthy of being a father than all fathers in the world. No father can participate in the whole process of a child's growth in such a detailed way.
The persistence and warmth of his life were only given to two women, both of whom were his blood and life, and whoever made him feel that breaking up would mean the world would collapse, that he would never be perfect, that he would lose everything, and that even thinking about it would make him feel painful To the bone, he never thought about it, and he didn't want to think about it, thinking that he could stay by these two people's side for a long time in this life, but when things came to an end, he had to make a choice.
He chose to tear it up with his own hands.
Exile the child who grew up dependent on him and never left his side to a distant country.
Push her around without relying on the dragon chair, alone.
Just thinking about it, a piece of his heart immediately became empty, and the pain was so dense that it was painful to the bone. At this moment, he finally understood that when it snowed that year, Feng Zhiwei helped the coffin out of the palace gate, and saw While waiting for him, there was a piercingly sad look in his eyes.
That's called despair, falling into deep water forever.
This kind of taste is colder and deeper than the eternal night.
Just as he was looking at Gu Zhixiao's eyes at this moment, the little child, there was such pain in his eyes, the first threat and unfeeling for the father who always doted on her.
Gu Nanyi looked away, staring at the half-damaged lotus leaves in the pool water.
He is in pain, but he has no regrets, as long as it can benefit Feng Zhiwei, there is nothing to regret.
After being by Feng Zhiwei's side for a long time, he gradually felt that the help he gave her was not what she needed most. No matter how strong the organization was, it could only protect her personal safety. , the strength of the organization is not enough, and he himself is not as good as Zong Chen's medical skills to cure people, he is not as good as knowing the wisdom of the world, and he is excellent in martial arts, but he will help her get rid of knives and guns when she encounters them. The danger comes from the turbulent plots and frame-ups of the imperial court. He looked at the thunderclouds that were about to come, but he was completely powerless. That feeling of powerlessness was deeply rooted in his heart a long time ago. , but when I think about it occasionally, I can't help comforting myself - she still needs me, and I can protect her.
But now, when Feng Zhiwei's own martial arts are enough to protect herself, when her strong wisdom is enough for her to deal with all dangers, when her status is getting higher and higher, and she no longer needs to worry about her own safety, he feels that, His own existence and strength are so thin.
He is willing to be her simple guard all his life, but he is not willing to help her more.
Now, when he can finally do something for her, but still wants her to give up voluntarily because of him, he can't accept it.
Zhiwei.
I used to think that separation is a collapse, but when things come to an end, I realize that sometimes separation is also fulfillment.
Let go of my flesh and blood, my relatives, and fulfill your biggest and most difficult vow that day.
He pursed his lips slightly, hugged his daughter back to his lap, put his face against the back of Gu Zhixiao's head, and carefully sniffed her milk-scented hair.
Gu Zhixiao, who had been in a daze all this time, finally came back to his senses after being hugged, suddenly turned his head, a drop of tears flew on his face, but she didn't wipe it, she stared straight at Gu Nanyi, and said sharply: "You don't want me Yes! You leave me alone!"
Two lines of tears fell silently from the corners of the eyes, reflecting the shimmering light.
"No." Gu Nanyi wiped away her tears with his fingers, "Daddy is with you."
"Really?" Gu Zhixiao blinked, and tears fell, but there was joy in his eyes, "Aren't you leaving?"
Gu Nanyi hesitated for a moment, and said: "You are too young, Daddy wants to accompany you."