"Lu Hongyi, the worst decision I made in my life was respecting her choice. She knew she wouldn't live long, so she didn't agree to my pursuit. But she said that meeting you gave her the courage to do anything."
He once asked her why she chose him in the end. She said, Mr. Yi, let Chi Zheng keep a little secret.
His heart was hollowed out, but the pain that penetrated his bones was still devouring every nerve in him. He, who was always elegant, bent down in pain under the complicated gazes of everyone, and no longer had any trace of his former magnanimity and ease. He cruelly owed her tears for a year, and now they are all returned.
In the Willow Hotel, jealousy and hatred made him give up the opportunity to take a good look at her for the last time. If he could go back in time, he would definitely take a good look at her eyes and see if, apart from the pain, there was still a little bit of love for him in those eyes, after he hurt her like that.
Only then did he truly understand his wife, and after understanding how shallow and stupid his so-called love actually was, he fell deeply in love with her again.
Unfortunately, it's too late. Just like her name, Chi Zheng. Forever too late.
He suddenly remembered her unfinished words on the rice paper.
"Shen Tuo, help me..."
He staggered forward and asked in a trembling voice: "Shen Tuo, before she died, she wrote down your name and asked you to do something for her. What other wishes did she have that she didn't fulfill? Please, tell me, I will definitely I will help her complete it! I must help her achieve it!"
Shen Tuo glanced at him contemptuously, "What if she wants your life?"
He smiled, "If she wants it, I'm willing to do it."
Shen Tuo laughed loudly, "What did she want from your life! What she wanted me to do, Shen Tuo violated her last wish and completed it for her in other ways."
Looking at the envelopes scattered on the ground, Shen Tuo said softly: "Those are the letters she wrote to you and Xiaoyan, 100 letters, for 50 years. She asked me to send you one letter every year."
"She sent all the letters to me in Lushan. She was still thinking about it until her death. She knew that once the news of her death came out, I would definitely do it for her. She knew that she wouldn't live long."
A letter dated 50 years? Because you're afraid that he and his daughter will be sad? Each letter is marked with a time, like the one in his hand: 49.
Ayi. Her faint laughter seemed to flash through my ears. He was trembling and couldn't wait to open the letter in his hand, but Shen Tuo took out a letter from his arms and handed it over.
Shen Tuo said coldly: "This single letter was written by her to you and Xiaoyan."
More than ten years later, the scene in the mourning hall that day is still so clear that it makes people's hearts palpitate.
Lu Hongyi walked to the small wooden table in front of the window and touched it with his hand. Her breath seemed to still linger on the table. He had memorized the letter written to him and his daughter verbatim over the years.
Ayi:
I was born with a disability and never thought I would have a family in this life. Before I met you, I just wanted to paint more paintings in my limited time, so that I wouldn’t be afraid of you laughing, and my paintings could sell for a little money. By selling the paintings, I will have money to help some people. I had resentment, but when I thought about it carefully, although God deprived me of time, it gave me the ability to paint.
I sometimes wonder if if I paint too many paintings, they will become less valuable. They say solitary pieces are rare. It's not funny, is it? I think so too. Mr. Yi, please give me a nice smile. What I love most is seeing you smile.
Ayi, I know I'm not worthy of you. I heard your friend say that Miss Wang is very beautiful and a real rich lady. I know that even though you married me, you still have her in your heart. She is your first love, just like you are to me.
In this world, there is always one person who is special and unique to another person, just like my mother is to my father, my sister is to my brother-in-law, and Miss Wang is to you.
I heard that she was divorced. If one day, I am no longer here, you can take her over. It's funny even when I say it. I'm actually jealous, but I hope there's someone who can stay with you and take care of Yan and your mother.
Ayi, actually I have always wanted to ask you, do I also have a small place in your heart
Word:
My word, mommy loves you. However, it is a pity that mother could not give you a beautiful appearance and a smart mind.
Mom donated all the money for painting, and there is no wealth left to you, but mom taught you to paint. You are very well-behaved and have a good temperament. These two things are the things that my mother is most proud of in her life. Beauty will fade over time. If you are too smart, you will be careless and you will inevitably feel depressed.
However, no one can take away the skills. You can live by it and use your kind nature to meet someone who appreciates you.
Mom, how I hope that in the future you can meet someone whose first crush is you. You are the only one to him. This is your mother’s deepest and final blessing to you.
Mom: Chi Zheng
Tears fell on the table. For more than ten years, the tears he thought had dried up would still flow whenever he thought of this letter.