Today was sunny and cloudless, and Jiang Xiao was admitted to Happy Tree Private Hospital alone under such fine weather.
This place is not like a hospital, but like a resort, with beautiful mountains and clear waters and fresh air, beautiful, spacious and luxurious wards for one person, with everything you want, doctors and nurses are very professional, and their speech is also nice. If Jiang Xiao followed his previous habits, he must Give this private hospital a five-star praise, and write a rainbow fart of no less than 500 words to encourage it. Finally, I would like to say thank you for entertaining and coming back next time.
It's a pity that this expensive private hospital with good service and good reputation doesn't use any rating app. If it wasn't for a friend's introduction, Jiang Xiao wouldn't be able to get in here with the money, and he probably won't be able to be a repeat customer in his life. When I was in the hospital, I basically went out sideways.
Late leukemia, really unlucky.
Jiang Xiao is only thirty-three years old this year. When he got the result, he didn't believe it, but his physical illness was not dependent on his own will. After switching to several hospitals, the results were all the same.
He has half a year left, at most.
The private hospital of Happy Tree does have a good level of medical care, but Jiang Xiao's situation basically cannot be saved. He lives here, in addition to grabbing some hope of surviving at the end, it is more for his own better life in the last period of time, which can be regarded as hospice care.
When he was not sick, he was always busy, and his life was always worrying. In his twenties, relying on his youth, it was normal for him to drink and stay up late when talking about business. And there were a lot of things a while ago, so I endured the physical discomfort and lack of energy, and never thought about it.
Dr. Liu, who was in charge of him, spoke very gently, telling him some precautions in a soft voice, and finally said that if there are visitors, it is good to let them know in advance, and the hospital will pick them up specially.
"There will be no visitors," Jiang Xiao said with a smile. "I know all the friends I have met before I came here. During the last time, I want to be alone. If anyone asks me, just say I'm not here."
When he smiled politely, he showed a pair of small canine teeth, because he had lost some weight during this period, the wrinkles around his eyes were not obvious, and his pale face was much younger.
Jiang Xiao has the kind of appearance that is easy to make people feel good about. Just during the time of talking, it can be seen that his temper and mentality are very good. Such a person should not be so lonely in the last period of his life.
Dr. Liu naturally expressed his understanding, but at his age, he should have a family. Even if he didn't mention friends, wouldn't his wife and children come to see him
But she had seen too many people and things, and she had some guesses in her heart, but she didn't say anything.
All the people living in the hospital are rich people, and the rich people always have sufferings that they don't want to talk about.
Happy Tree is really a good hospital. Even if it can't save his life, it can do everything possible to reduce Jiang Xiao's pain. Only at this time can he be free, slowly watching twenty episodes of soap operas in the ward, but unfortunately the hospital does not give him potato chips and crayfish now, otherwise Jiang Xiao would be happier.
The bed in the ward was very soft, and he fell asleep to the sound of the TV series.
Jiang Xiao was used to sleeping alone, and didn't recognize the bed, and had a long, long dream at night, just like what really happened some time ago.
That day, he just got the inspection report from the hospital. It just so happened that the Liujiang Industrial Park Management Committee held its annual meeting, and Jiang Xiao, who was always on time, was rarely late.
He was obviously a little out of his mind. When he entered the venue, the staff asked for an invitation letter. He turned pale, smiled habitually, froze for seven or eight seconds, and then hurriedly took out a stack of materials from the file bag and handed it over.
"Sir, this is not an invitation." The young staff member still had a good attitude, and poured a cup of hot water from the side and handed it over. "Look, this is a case book."
Jiang Xiao was stunned for a longer time this time, he took back the case book, and the logo of the First People's Hospital of Liujiang City on it made his head hurt.
He rummaged through the folder but couldn't find the invitation letter, but luckily someone came out from the venue, and that happened to be Jiang Xiao's familiar friend. The two people's factory is very close, and they have known each other for more than ten years now.
"Where does Mr. Jiang need an invitation letter? Are you new here? Why don't you know anyone?" The man greeted the staff and pulled Jiang Xiao up, "You, why don't you call me if you can't get in?" I?"
The meeting was already halfway through, so Jiang Xiao randomly found a seat and sat at the back. The friend who brought him in was named Su, and Jiang Xiao usually called him Boss Su.
Boss Su also saw that he was not in a good state, and asked, "You look so bad, did you quarrel with your family?"
Jiang Xiao shook his head.
"Don't be stubborn," Boss Su patted him on the shoulder, "The family doesn't agree with you selling the land in the industrial park, right?"
Jiang Xiao owns a manufacturing factory that has been in operation for more than ten years. It produces daily necessities such as towels and wool slippers. However, in recent years, the calls for industrial transformation in Liujiang City have become more and more intense. The location of this industrial park is very good, and it plans to build it into a high-tech industry demonstration zone. farther away.
Jiang Xiao's manufacturing plant is indeed a low-end industry. He missed the opportunity to transform. Now that the profit is getting lower and the expenditure is getting higher, it is also a fact that he can't sustain it day by day.
But the factory land belonged to Jiang Xiao, and when he took it over, the land was not worth much, so he just bought it.
Boss Su doesn't quite understand Jiang Xiao's behavior of selling land. This industrial park is a key project, and Jiang Xiao is not short of money. If he keeps it in his hands, he can collect one million yuan in rent every year. Isn't it good
Listening to what he said, Jiang Xiao squeezed the file bag tightly in his hand, in which were the inspection results he just got today.
"Let's sell it, it's useless to keep it," Jiang Xiao said, "... I don't have much time left."
The last sentence was addressed to himself, in a thin, almost inaudible voice.
In fact, the previous procedures are almost the same. He came to cooperate with the final process today. The attitude of the other company and the garden committee is very good, and the money is also very straightforward. Jiang Xiao’s selling price is really not high, and the money is in hand. After that, he took out a large part of it and paid a lot of severance pay to the Bailaihao employees in the company.
Sister Chen, the accountant in the factory, has been working with Jiang Xiao all the time. Now that she is old, she just took the money to go back to support the elderly. She is one of the few people who knows about Jiang Xiao's life. She cares more about Jiang Xiao than the closure of the factory. this person.
"You look really bad recently, did you not rest?" She said, "Why doesn't Xiao Lin come to such a big matter?"
Jiang Xiao didn't answer, he was often in a daze recently.
"He's not free." Jiang Xiao said slowly, "You know, he's busy and hasn't come back for over a month."
"What kind of reason is this?" Sister Chen couldn't believe it, "He..."
Having said that, she shut up again, maybe because Jiang Xiao's face was too haggard, she couldn't say anything to make him feel bad.
Sister Chen took the money and left, Jiang Xiao sat alone in the office for a long time, until it was night, and then slowly stood up, ready to go home.
He didn't drive today, he walked back from the factory, and the wind was as cold as a knife in the dark night. Jiang Xiao passed through the crowd on the street, and a new financial magazine hung up in a small newspaper kiosk on the street. The cover was Lin Chengyu, whom he hadn't seen for a long time. The upstarts in the financial circle seem to be able to win the likes of others easily. When Jiang Xiao passed by, he saw two young girls who bought the magazine with a smile.
Of course it's easy to get Jiang Xiao's likes.
He stood in front of that newsstand for a while, Lin Chengyu on the cover was perfect, but Jiang Xiao was pale, with disheveled hair, like a homeless wandering soul.
No one thought these two would be a couple.
Now he can still clearly recall the past. He met Lin Chengyu when he was nineteen years old. At that time, Jiang Xiao dropped out of school and went to work alone. He was struggling to make a living. The person he picked up in an alley.
At that time, Lin Chengyu had no father, no mother, and no money on him. For some reason, he was surrounded by a group of gangsters and beat him up.
At that time, Lin Chengyu was in tatters, as if he had just walked out of a garbage dump. After taking it home and washing it, he turned into a shining pearl. He was indeed very good-looking, and the scars on his face were completely intact. On the contrary, he seemed more annoying.
He smiled at Jiang Xiao, like an attractive goblin or elf, so the young Jiang Xiao fell in love with him at first sight.
After Jiang Xiao fell in love with someone, he suddenly had a goal and hope in life. He was willing to support Lin Chengyu and let him go to college, but he was not willing to let him suffer a little bit. This factory was burning money to help him win a little chance in the unknown period, seeing him enter the best investment bank, and then climb up bit by bit, to the position where he is now a leader.
After thinking about it, Jiang Xiao realized that it had been so long.
He and Lin Chengyu met for fifteen years. At that time, he mustered up the courage to propose, but the other party did not refuse, and they were together for ten years.
He used to think that he was a lucky person, he had a successful career, and was with the person he liked, and he went from a hard life to a good life now.
Even if it feels hard sometimes, I always hope that I will have time to enjoy the blessings of hard work with Lin Chengyu in the future. It's a pity that he waited to death, and he didn't wait until Lin Chengyu had time, not to mention that he and Lin Chengyu fell in love with each other and couldn't get married. In the legal sense, they were just strangers who had nothing to do with each other. For example, in the financial magazine just now, it was written that he was unmarried, single.
Jiang Xiao is now thirty-three years old. He missed too many opportunities to improve himself due to many things. Even though he has gained some experience through hard work, the limitations brought about by his junior high school diploma cannot adapt to the current trend of high-tech reforms. , the factory was sold, and he had been Lin Chengyu's shady lover for ten years. The hospital bill told him that he had leukemia.
How did the day suddenly pass like this
He was dumbfounded when he got the test results, and he called Lin Chengyu immediately. He called Lin Chengyu more than a dozen times, but no one answered. At night, his secretary called Jiang Xiao back. Listen carefully, every sentence is thorny.
"Boss Lin is in a meeting. There are big orders in the past few days, and the company is also very busy," she said, "If you have something to do, please let me know in advance, and I will arrange it for you."
Jiang Xiao didn't have the energy to argue with Lin Chengyu's secretary anymore, and he didn't call him after that.
The illness was like the last straw, which crushed Jiang Xiao. The closing of the factory was a blow, and leukemia hit him even harder. Lin Chengyu was absent as usual.
Jiang Xiao is a very enthusiastic person, he knows that Lin Chengyu is cold-tempered, so it is only natural for him to be cold in his relationship.
He was the one who fell in love first, and he fell deeply in love. He always felt that it would be okay for him to give more. Jiang Xiao never cared so much about being able to be with the person he likes.
Lin Chengyu is busy, and many normal couples should have a date. Two people have hardly enjoyed it. In recent years, after many of Lin Chengyu's business centers have shifted from the Liujiang River to Binhai City, thousands of miles away, they get together less and leave more, but Jiang Xiao also bears with it. .
Ren Renren, if there is no this disease, maybe Jiang Xiao will continue to live like this. It happened that with all these things, all his pretense was broken at once.
He was on the verge of falling, as if he had reached the edge of a cliff.
It was a week after Jiang Xiao finished dealing with the factory affairs that he saw Lin Chengyu come home.
He had known about leukemia for a long time at that time, and a few close friends around him knew about it. One of them introduced Jiang Xiao to Xingfushu Private Hospital. Jiang Xiao went through the admission procedures alone, and he will go there the day after tomorrow. .
Lin Chengyu probably came back when the work at hand came to an end.
He was wearing a black suit, as if he had just come down from some banquet, stood at the entrance and pulled off his tie casually, and when he looked up at Jiang Xiao, just looking at his face still made Jiang Xiao's heart skip a beat.
He is one year younger than Jiang Xiao. He is thirty-two years old this year. He is in the golden career period. He is of mixed race. His pupils are a little blue-gray, and he is born with peach blossom eyes. His whole face is impeccable. Years have treated him very well. Leaving the slightest mark on his face made him more mature and attractive.
Handsome and successful, if you live with such a person, you will be very happy, right
Countless people thought this way, but Jiang Xiao, who actually accompanied him all the way and experienced all this, had mixed feelings.
Lin Chengyu's coldness has been consistent for ten years, no matter what he does, he can't warm his heart.
He had cooked a bowl of porridge at night, but he couldn't eat it anymore, so he pushed the bowl aside.
Lin Chengyu also looked a little tired. He sat on the sofa and opened a bottle of red wine first.
In the past, Jiang Xiao would sit next to him and naturally squeeze into his arms to find something to talk about. This time, Jiang Xiao was abnormal. He took the bowl and went into the kitchen to clean up. Lin Chengyu waited for a while, and then looked at the kitchen suspiciously. Glanced, but he didn't move.
But it was too silent, and the atmosphere in the room was too strange. After a while, Lin Chengyu took the initiative to speak.
"Secretary Lin told you that I made many phone calls," he said. "I was in a meeting at the time. It was a very important meeting. If you have anything to do, please tell me right now."
He felt that Jiang Xiao was a little unreasonable to be angry because of this incident, maybe because he was in a good mood today, he still took the time to explain.
As long as his tone was a little softer, the light reflected that face, Jiang Xiao never got angry because of such trivial things before, and always lost first.
But today is different, Jiang Xiao came out after washing the dishes, turned his back to him, and responded lightly: "I see, it's nothing, a small matter, it has been resolved."
Secretary Lin is not born with yin and yang. She has been doing this job for a long time, and she deeply felt that Lin Chengyu didn't take Jiang Xiao very seriously, so she just watched people order dishes, and sued Lin Chengyu with Secretary Lin's attitude. Going around and bumping back into the same wall.
Jiang Xiao sat down on the sofa, but did not squeeze into Lin Chengyu's arms again.
"Are you busy recently?" Then he asked softly, "I saw your magazine, there are a lot of things in the company, right?"
"It's okay." Lin Chengyu became more energetic when he mentioned work matters, and poured wine into the glass, "The company has a big order, and we will be on a business trip for a while, Xiaoxiao, you should be happy for me."
Lin Chengyu is having a great time recently, and he has no idea what torture Jiang Xiao has been suffering during this time. He spends a lot of time away from home, Jiang Xiao should have gotten used to it, he used to be very reluctant to hear the news that he would be away from home for a long time, and he would be more enthusiastic. In any aspect, including in bed, Lin Chengyu would always say goodbye before saying goodbye. Enjoying such enthusiasm.
But this time Jiang Xiao didn't show much expression, he lowered his eyes and asked, "When are you leaving?"
"Tomorrow morning."
After hearing Jiang Xiao's short silence, he continued to speak, his voice trembling: "Can't you leave? You can't, take a moment... to stay with me?"
Before, Jiang Xiao would not make such a request. Even if he was reluctant, at most he hoped that Lin Chengyu would come back halfway. If he couldn't come back, he could just make a few more phone calls. He never asked Lin Chengyu to give up anything for himself.
He is one year older than Lin Chengyu, and Jiang Xiao always takes care of him.
But in a few days it will be the tenth anniversary of their official togetherness. Lin Chengyu will know about the bankruptcy of the factory with a little concern. Jiang Xiao's complexion is very bad. Boss Su and accountant Sister Chen can tell at a glance, and they can ask more questions. A few words, but Lin Chengyu couldn't see them.
When Jiang Xiao said this, he tasted the rust in his mouth, and his gums were bleeding, which was one of the symptoms of leukemia.
"It doesn't take too long, a month, a week," he seemed to grab a life-saving straw, "or three days..."
He obviously wanted to talk to Lin Chengyu about this right away, telling the person he loves the most how bad he was during this time, he couldn't see anyone, so he made a dozen calls, but no response. Even if Lin Chengyu felt that there was something wrong at this moment, Jiang Xiao would tell him everything, and after talking about these grievances, he might be able to live a little comfort in the last period of time.
But Lin Chengyu didn't nod, he didn't even ask why, he just pulled Jiang Xiao closer, then interrupted him, pinched his earlobe, and asked, "Is Xiaoxiao still angry? Are you throwing a fit at me?" ?”
Jiang Xiao shook his head stiffly, Lin Chengyu was very affectionate, because he was happy now, as if they were really a couple.
But if he really cared, how could he not know about these many things
The tone of what he said just now seemed to think that Jiang Xiao was joking.
I'm going to die, Lin Chengyu, do you know that
He opened his mouth and wanted to say this, but Lin Chengyu spoke at this moment. He kissed the corner of Jiang Xiao's lips, and then spoke with a tender tone, but the meaning was obvious: "No, this matter is really important. Be good Xiaoxiao, be obedient."
He wraps his arms around Jiang Xiao's waist affectionately, and the words he speaks are like knives piercing one's heart.
Jiang Xiao couldn't say anything.
At that moment, his eyes were stunned, dull, and inexpressibly ashamed.
He couldn't count how many times he had experienced such disappointment and compromise, but this time it was just another expected disappointment. Maybe when it happened for the first time, he would fight, lose his temper and beg, but this happened again and again, and Jiang Xiao had nothing to say.
He and Lin Chengyu have been together for such a long time, it can't be said that there is no happiness, there are still happy moments between the two of them, very few.
But Jiang Xiao clearly realized again and again that he was never the most important one in Lin Chengyu's heart. Partners, work, important evening parties, anyway, Jiang Xiao always sits in the back row, he has received countless times of "no", "next time", "no time", "you have to be good", and then he from the floor How frivolous and ridiculous it is to look for that little joy and happiness in the time that has passed away.
At this time, he would rather Lin Chengyu simply reject him from the beginning to the end. From the time they were together, Jiang Xiao was tricked by that little sweetness to persevere, thinking that Lin Chengyu just didn't like to express, but his personality was just different In the end, the abyss was fully exposed, and he was in great pain.
If love does not have enough expression and action, then it is not love at all, Lin Chengyu never loved him.
Lin Chengyu didn't see these expressions. He drank some wine and hoped that Jiang Xiao would be as obedient, proactive and enthusiastic as usual to please him.
No matter what, the two of them have always been extremely harmonious and comfortable in terms of bed-things.
Although it was a little strange today, maybe it was because of the phone call, but he still wanted to be the same as before, so he always used the previous method, dragged Jiang Xiao who was in a daze, and lowered his head to feed him a sip of wine.
The red wine had a high alcohol content, Jiang Xiao was stunned, and only after swallowing it did he realize that he can't drink now, it's too hurtful.
"I do not want… "
Jiang Xiao refused, he was really unwell today, he couldn't eat anything even though he was very hungry, and he didn't have any energy.
But Lin Chengyu wanted to do it, and he never took his opinion seriously. He coaxed him intimately, but his actions could not be refused.
Neither of them slept that night, it was the most painful entanglement in Jiang Xiao's life, both physically and mentally.
He has always understood tolerance, thinking that he would warm up Lin Chengyu's piece of ice for fifteen years, but Lin Chengyu's heart was not overheated, and Jiang Xiao's heart was cold. He felt that he was like a prop. Pay, and finally be used up, and then leave the stage sadly.
The lover he thought was never his lover, and the marriage he sought was also very inappropriate. A dream that has been sustained for fifteen years by himself should wake up. Little by little desperation accumulated in life, and it exploded in the last days of his life.
"... did you really love me?"
Jiang Xiao asked him during the process.
But I don't know if Lin Chengyu didn't hear it or didn't pay attention, or if he didn't want to answer this question at all, Jiang Xiao didn't get any answer.
In fact, Jiang Xiao also knew in his heart that Lin Chengyu never knew what love was, and Jiang Xiao gave too much, he was used to and enjoyed it, but he would not really fall in love with him because of it.
Jiang Xiao's gums began to ooze blood again.
The next day, he watched Lin Chengyu pack his luggage. He was still uncomfortable and hurt all over, but he was quiet and never said anything.
When Lin Chengyu was packing his things, Jiang Xiao was lying on the bed with his eyes open. If anyone looked at him at this time, they would be frightened by his corpse-like expression.
Lin Chengyu packed up and was about to leave. He had done this kind of thing many times, leaving Jiang Xiao alone at home. He never felt that there was anything wrong with it. Anyway, for him, every time he came back, this person would stay where he was and would not left.
But this time seems to be a little different. Lin Chengyu always feels an indescribable panic in his heart. He always feels that he is missing something, like a kind of warning and induction in the dark, as if there is something necessary in the luggage He didn't take it away, and checked it many times. He was always punctual, and now he was an hour late and still didn't go out. It seemed extremely abnormal. The secretary over there had been urging him for a long time, and the plane was about to be late, so he opened the door and was about to leave. .
When he closed the door, he saw Jiang Xiao got up in his pajamas, he stood there quietly, and then forced a smile to himself, showing those two familiar and cute canine teeth.
He has a shallow smile, the smile doesn't reach the eyes, if you look carefully, it seems to be crying.
Then the door closed, and Lin Chengyu stood there in a daze for a while.
Jiang Xiao... He has lost some weight, Lin Chengyu thought, after I finish this job, I will have time to accompany him.
Besides, Jiang Xiao is the most obedient and sensible, he will understand.
He thought about this in his heart, and in the end, he walked away habitually without looking back, just like before.
When Jiang Xiao left, unlike Lin Chengyu's big bag and small bag, he just brought his bank card, ID card and mobile phone, wrapped in an ordinary overcoat, and came to Xingfushu Private Hospital just like that.
Leaving the "home" where he and Lin Chengyu lived for nearly ten years, Jiang Xiao seemed to have really torn something from himself, like gouging out a piece of flesh.
Facts have proved that the money he earned earlier was much more reliable than Lin Chengyu. At least the Xingfushu Hospital, which charges a lot, tried its best to make him less painful, and tried its best to make him decent before he died. One-stop service.
Jiang Xiao lived in the house, and his condition deteriorated very quickly. Dr. Liu said that he had no sense of survival, as if he was exhausted to the extreme, so he gave up naturally.
After Jiang Xiao came to the hospital, he received a lot of care, but his condition got worse and worse. His mobile phone number has not been changed, and the mobile phone is always on, but as long as he does not call, Lin Chengyu has never taken the initiative to call him, and it is the same now.
He has always been so lofty, waiting for people to hold his sincerity in front of him.
Maybe people really have feelings in their hearts. One day, Jiang Xiao really felt that he was very bad. At that moment, his mind was chaotic and he was not controlled by reason. Various instruments and tubes, Jiang Xiao begged her in a daze to make a phone call.
Dr. Liu couldn't resist, so he had to give him the phone.
She looked at Jiang Xiao, who was already blurry in front of her eyes, trembling her hands, tried to open her eyes wide, and found out the name of that person from the phone screen.
According to the time difference, it should be late at night, the phone rang for a long time, but no one answered, Jiang Xiao persisted in calling, and finally someone answered.
It was a delicate female voice who asked who are you
Before Jiang Xiao had time to speak, he listened blankly, asked a few questions over there, and hung up without a response.
After that phone call, the remaining warmth in the ashes in his heart was quenched.
For the last meeting, there was no need to meet, Jiang Xiao threw away the phone and never called again.
At the end, when there was still the last bit of reason left, Dr. Liu asked him what he wanted to engrave on the tombstone in front of the hospital bed.
Jiang Xiao's parents were long gone, and so was the so-called lover. His friends respected his choice, and he asked him to write the final epitaph. Many people's epitaphs talk about life and achievements in this life. Jiang Xiao didn't want to keep anything, but when he opened his mouth, he inexplicably thought of how he felt when he first entered the Xingfushu Private Hospital.
Dr. Liu had seen this man when he was in the worst state, and he had seen him laughing before he died, his brows and eyes were curved, revealing two small pointed canine teeth, just like when we first met, people couldn't help but feel good about him.
In the end, he was buried in a beautiful cemetery. The location he chose was in the corner of the cemetery. He was alone, but very quiet. It was in line with Jiang Xiao’s idea. All the remaining money was donated, and there were only eight characters written on the tombstone—— Thank you for your hospitality. I will come again next time.
The photo on the stele was also chosen by Jiang Xiao himself. It was when he was young, probably in his early twenties, shining brightly, laughing like a trumpet flower, as if he had no worries in this life.
Jiang Xiao also loved to laugh when he was in the hospital. He was a very good-natured person, but compared with that photo, he always felt that his smile now was very forced, not pure, no matter how you looked at it, it was awkward.
Don't know what made him like this.
Dr. Liu bought a bouquet of daisies and placed it in front of his grave. She had seen many patients, and she had a glimpse of Jiang Xiao's story, but she didn't dare and didn't want to think about it.
Many people are very hideous before they die, especially those who are only in their thirties, who are in their prime, and it is normal to be a little bit unwilling. Jiang Xiao was too calm, he seemed to have been too disappointed, so he was calm about everything.
If there is an afterlife, I hope he has a better life.
The author has something to say: A new article has been opened, there are enough manuscripts, and they are updated every night.
Half-empty modern society, attacking the scum of her previous life, Xiaoxiao was reborn to follow the career line and meet other boyfriends [not a joke, a real talk, more than one], the ending does not change the attack, and those who don’t eat it have time to leave now.