Lin Chengyu actually wanted to talk, but he also wanted to ask what was going on, did he hear it wrong
Are you kidding me? Jiang Xiao is healthy and healthy. He has never had any serious illness in fifteen years, and he rarely has a cold or fever. How could he suddenly get such a serious illness
But he opened his mouth and didn't make any sound. He was momentarily speechless and forgot how to speak.
He went on a business trip for a month and a half, and came back to look for it for two weeks. He and Jiang Xiao lost contact for a total of two months. When I heard his news again, it was Jiang Xiao who confirmed the news of the advanced stage of leukemia.
... Is this some kind of nightmare
He was slightly concussed by Song He before, and he did feel dizzy from time to time in the past few days.
But when he heard the news, he felt more than just dizziness, it was so dark that he couldn't stand upright.
Aunt Chen said later that he didn't even hear clearly, and the voice just slipped past his ears.
It was a kind of fear born from the bottom of his heart, which made him unable to feel anything outside, not even his heartbeat.
Jiang Xiao fell ill.
Advanced leukemia.
He mechanically digested the huge amount of information for him, chewing these words slowly. These words were like blades, coming in from his ears and piercing into his heart. As soon as he chewed, they rolled in his heart. The blade cut his flesh and blood, bringing an indescribable pain.
Then, he thought of something else.
—Such a serious illness, and he still hasn't found Jiang Xiao.
Now he was standing on the verge of collapse, and he was hanging on a bit of reason, thinking of finding Jiang Xiao, but this bit of reason pushed him to see more cruel things.
With the information provided by Accountant Chen, it was much faster for Lin Chengyu to find contacts and look up information.
In fact, he felt Jiang Xiao's accident from Song He and wanted to go to the hospital to look for it. There are many Liujiang hospitals, but not everyone can see the data of the medical system.
Even if the relationship is found, the data is divided into pieces. Each hospital has its own system, and each system has its own authority. Some older hospitals still only have paper records for certain information. He just provided his identity information, and he didn't know which hospital he went to, what kind of disease he was looking for, and when exactly, no one else could find it.
After looking through the past few days, the most I can tell him is that there is currently no record of Jiang Xiao's hospitalization in the major hospitals in Liujiang.
Accountant Chen was different from him. Her purpose was much clearer—Jiang Xiao's physical examination report had a very clear time, so she found it right away.
Following the medical examination report, Lin Chengyu finally got the printed case sheet.
No one lied to him, nor was it an illusion.
It was determined that it was advanced leukemia.
He sat on the floor of the hospital, the expression on his face was frozen there, as if time stood still.
Not to mention him, the friends around Lin Chengyu stopped talking when they saw this, and looked at each other with unpredictable expressions.
During this period of time, no matter what they were doing, they were all brought out by Lin Chengyu to find someone for him. How could they ever see him go crazy like this
Jiang Xiao's friends repeatedly obstructed him, and they all scolded Lin Chengyu bloody.
Isn't it just that the husband and wife are having trouble? Why make it so ugly.
But when the facts were exposed bit by bit, it proved that those people were right in scolding, and even the verbal scolding was considered light.
Just looking at the time, Jiang Xiao was diagnosed with leukemia at the beginning of the year, and now it is almost August.
Lin Chengyu really didn't know at all, and he didn't even find out about this matter. It was the old accountant of Jiang Xiao's company, an ordinary middle-aged woman in her forties who found it out by herself, and then passed it on to him.
It's just that Lin Chengyu has a wider network of contacts, and later found out more in detail, but it's unbelievable that he fell one step behind.
A pair of lovers can't understand him better than a subordinate in Jiang Xiao's factory.
Then think about it, when Jiang Xiao was seriously ill, it was the time when Lin Chengyu was at his best. The company was thriving, and he kept talking and interviewing in various meetings, from the beginning of the year to the middle of the year.
At the beginning of the year, I spent most of my time in Binhai, and later I went abroad. During the period, I went back home, but I didn’t find it.
I don't know how Jiang Xiao felt when he saw this.
... Isn't it strange that there is no distinction
The group of friends around Lin Chengyu were basically worth a lot of money, and some of them were playboys who practiced playing games, but when they heard this kind of thing, no one stood by Lin Chengyu's conscience.
Fifteen years of relationship, and now the other party is terminally ill, a little care will not make it like this.
But apart from what others saw, Lin Chengyu knew more. The truth is more heartbreaking than it appears.
There is a time in the medical record, and he remembers this time.
It turned out that Jiang Xiao called him so many times that day to tell him about his illness.
But he didn't receive it, and asked Secretary Lin to call him back. Secretary Lin revealed his attitude towards Jiang Xiao in front of him not long ago, and his tone must have been very bad that day.
In addition to phone calls, Jiang Xiao also sent messages on WeChat. Lin Chengyu had flipped through them in the past few days, and looking at them now, he finally felt Jiang Xiao's panic and helplessness at that time.
"I have something to tell you."
"It's better to say it face to face."
"When are you coming back?"
"It's urgent."
"Call me back if you're free?"
"..."
He didn't see it right away, but replied an hour later: "I'm busy, Xiaoxiao, I'll contact you later."
Then he asked Secretary Lin to call.
Jiang Xiao didn't wait for him in the end.
How sad his Xiaoxiao must have been at that time.
What he wanted to say to himself, but in the end he didn't have the chance to say it.
But the most useless emotion in the world is regret. What he has done himself, no matter how painful it is now, it cannot be remedied.
…
A few days ago, Lin Mishu's position in the company dropped again and again. To be honest, she didn't understand why. Today, she was suddenly pulled out again and asked about Jiang Xiao. It was more than half a year ago, how could she remember what she replied.
"... He really didn't tell me anything!" She repeatedly emphasized, "I just told him the fact that the company is busy according to Mr. Lin's wishes!"
She really doesn't know what Lin Chengyu is doing now. The basic operation of watching people order dishes is very common for her, and she doesn't feel that she is at fault until now.
Her work was already in a mess, and when she asked today, she knew in her heart that she probably couldn't stay in this company anymore, and she would tear herself apart anyway, and in the end she started talking nonsense to Lin Chengyu.
"Why does Mr. Lin pretend to be affectionate with me here? Jiang Xiao ran away in anger, frustrated in love, and wanted to blame me, an ordinary employee?" She sneered, "What I conveyed to him every time was just your intentions. You called him to confront me and said the same!"
Lin Chengyu was standing opposite her.
After listening to this passage, he was silent there without refuting.
If Jiang Xiao had told Secretary Lin at that time and she had deliberately not told him, she would have been able to give him some explanation, but no.
Jiang Xiao was extremely disappointed in him around that time.
Indeed, the problems between him and Jiang Xiao cannot be blamed on others at all.
It was all his fault, all caused by him, he didn't care about Jiang Xiao, which caused the people around him to not care about them either.
After Jiang Xiao got sick and disappeared, he realized later that I cared about him so much.
It turns out that I love him a hundred times deeper than I imagined.
He realized this fact only in desperation, and now he was at a loss as to where he was going, and he was much sadder than when he had no news before, but he still couldn't see Jiang Xiao.
This is the torture and punishment he deserves.
Lin Chengyu hadn't slept well for more than ten days, and it was the same today. When he got home at night, he didn't dare to go back to the bedroom to look at the empty bed. He took his mobile phone and read the messages that Jiang Xiao sent him at that time over and over again.
In the middle of the night, in the house where all the lights were turned off, with trembling fingers, he dialed the number that couldn't get through again.
"...Xiaoxiao, it's me."
— "The number you are calling is powered off, please try again later."
"I'm sorry, I called you too late." He couldn't help crying, and quickly wiped it off with his hand, trying to make his voice normal so that the other party could hear clearly, "I know you're sick. , don’t be afraid, I’ll come to you right away. Really, everything is less important than you.”
— "The number you are calling is powered off, please try again later."
"It's all my fault. I won't dare to do it again," he continued. "Don't give up. We'll get well. Don't leave me behind."
He was still holding Jiang Xiao's medical examination report in his hand, which was wrinkled by his strong grip before, and now he unfolded it again, and smoothed it out bit by bit carefully.
"Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." After all, he couldn't hold back his tears, and still couldn't make a sound, "I found out too late, you can blame me however you want, but I really can't live without you."
But on the other side of the phone, except for the mechanical shutdown announcement, no one answered him.
The translucent Jiang Xiao sat far away in the restaurant. He tried, and this was the furthest distance he could get away.
He heard Lin Chengyu's confession at this moment, and also witnessed his gradual collapse.
But to Jiang Xiao, these were of little significance. At that time, he didn't say anything and chose to leave, not to retaliate against him, but just to be alone.
In the cycle of karma, someone will always have to pay the price for what they missed. He didn't want to torture Lin Chengyu, it was him who tortured himself.
The hospital has already told Lin Chengyu the truth that it is very difficult to survive half a year after being diagnosed with this disease. Maybe it was because his face was too ugly, so he added a few words.
"Of course, if the patient is in good condition and has stable high-level treatment, it is possible to last for a while. There are precedents before. The person who was found out three years ago is still alive."
It is impossible to cure this disease. No matter how powerful modern medicine is, it can only prolong life.
Although it was consolation, Lin Chengyu believed it.
He had to believe that the doctor's words were not only Jiang Xiao's life-saving straw, but also his. If he didn't have this hope, he would be crazy.
Jiang Xiao's group of friends still kept it from him. Song He's wife was the most tempered person among them. Lin Chengyu went to Song He's house alone that day. In order to avoid him, the couple had asked for leave from the company to not go to work during this period. up.
After he entered, the couple did not expect that he would find their home.
Song He got angry as soon as he saw him, and immediately chased him away with a mop. Lin Chengyu's eyes were blood red and his lips were pale.
"I should fight," he said, "Brother Song, after you finish the fight, please tell me where Xiaoxiao is."
He searched all the big hospitals in Lishi City, Liujiang Shencheng, but there was still no record of Jiang Xiao's hospitalization. Looking for someone at this time, he will suffer ten times more than before.
Song He didn't listen, and stretched out his hand to give him a stick.
It turned out that Lin Chengyu's injury caused by him was not healed, and he was hit on the shoulder again, which brought quite severe pain, but this level could not stop Lin Chengyu from continuing to speak.
If you don't ask where Jiang Xiao is, he won't leave today.
"I know he's diagnosed with advanced leukemia," Lin Chengyu continued, even though he was in pain, he didn't hide at all, and stood and let the other party beat him. "I've asked someone to ask him, and I hired the best doctor abroad for him. The other party flew to Liujiang from abroad today to give Xiaoxiao an examination, and there will be an expert group to come up with a specific treatment plan in the future. I don't hope you can forgive me, and I don't expect Xiaoxiao to forgive me, but the most important thing now is to let him get well cure."
After the illness was diagnosed years ago, Jiang Xiao was still there to deal with the factory affairs, he didn't seem to take it seriously, but Lin Chengyu panicked, he wanted to seize every moment at this moment, and wanted to keep Jiang Xiao.
After saying this, he took a step forward, and then knelt down facing Song He and his wife.
"Xiaoxiao's illness really can't be delayed any longer," he said dryly, kneeling on the ground with his head bowed and his heart twisted into a ball, "he's still young, he can't just be like this..."
Song He's wife saw that it would be impossible to continue beating like this, so she reached out to stop him.
But in fact, he didn't need to stop him. The words "treat the disease well" seemed to hurt Song He. He was suddenly discouraged and threw away the broom in his hand. Without saying a word, he turned his head and went to the study.
After he left, Lin Chengyu still had no intention of getting up. Song He's wife didn't leave, but stood there watching him.
There was a moment of silence in the house.
"Do you really want to know?" She said suddenly, her voice was flat, "Actually, it's been a few days, and to tell you the truth, the two of you shouldn't be together. Go back now and forget about Jiang Xiao." , don’t dwell on this matter, let Jiang Xiao go, and let go of yourself, it might be a better choice.”
The translucent Jiang Xiao nodded violently beside her.
But how could it be possible for Lin Chengyu to forget Jiang Xiao at this time? If the other party said one more word, he would like to kowtow: "Please tell me."
Then he watched the other party find a pen and paper, and wrote the address of Happy Tree Hospital on it.
"Go there and find Dr. Liu, she is Jiang Xiao's attending doctor," she said, "Go if you want."
Lin Chengyu, who was kneeling on the ground, staggered suddenly when he got up, but he didn't care.
The little piece of paper in his hand is like a treasure to him now, and it finally gave him the only hope during the twenty painful days, a little light from the sky in the torment.
But he soon learned that this was not hope.