Jiang Xiao was standing under the ginkgo tree with his back facing him.
He broke away from the memory and looked up. A gust of wind blew, and the golden leaves above were blown off, like golden rain. The leaves passed through his transparent body and fell to the ground, glowing slightly under the sunlight.
It was as beautiful as he had imagined it to be.
I thought it was a pity that I couldn't see the rather expensive Ginkgo Autumn in Happy Tree Hospital, but it made up for it in an unexpected way.
It was too quiet at the moment, there was no one in the yard, even with his back turned to Lin Chengyu, he could hear his broken and suppressed cries.
He has heard Lin Chengyu apologize many times, saying sorry, saying that I really miss you.
Jiang Xiao treated Lin Chengyu kindly, and lived together for so long. He also thought about it when he left. When Lin Chengyu found out, he might not be used to it, or it would be uncomfortable.
But after being reborn, Jiang Xiao has been entangled with him for ten years, and Jiang Xiao is confused from beginning to end, why insist on it like this? He thought that no matter how great the regret was, it would have passed long ago, and no matter how deep the unwillingness would be, it would be smoothed away.
But only now did he know that this person actually loved me.
So he pestered her for several years, but refused to let go.
Jiang Xiao sighed silently.
If he had known about this when he died in his previous life, he would probably not know whether to laugh or cry, he would feel that life is ironic, and he would be emotionally intense at the last moment before he died, thinking how falling in love would have such a result.
But seeing it now, he was calmer.
Jiang Xiao was naturally much calmer than in his previous life. He just thought about it and felt surprised and surprised. Then, a certain dusty place in his heart seemed to be gently swept by a brush, and the dust on it was wiped off. They were all swept away.
After two lives, he seemed to have finally shed all the impurities, and his whole body was completely relaxed.
Dr. Liu said that he had no desire to survive at that time, and Jiang Xiao also admitted it.
At that time, he felt that his life was such a failure, how could he live like this? The career is in a mess, the relationship ends in tragedy, friends are old enough to have families, so it is inconvenient for him to disturb them, and the illness cannot be cured, so it is better not to waste time here.
But after being reborn and going through the second life, his perspective on these things has changed a lot.
Although the factory closed down, the experience he gained in it has not disappeared. He is hard working, and his connections are still there. Lin Taosheng received the most important investment from Infinity;
His friends missed him in his two lifetimes. Accountant Chen in the factory still cared about him even after he retired. After seeing Dr. Liu for only a month, he would complain for him. He has always had a very precious friendship;
As for the emotional aspect, it is relatively not so smooth. But apart from Lin Chengyu's accident, he also experienced Lin Heyuan and Fu Ruoyan, held their hands, and knew what it was like to be loved.
Jiang Xiao originally thought that this failed relationship in her previous life was due to her being too paranoid, forcing Lin Chengyu to be with her, but it was not true, he was never moved by one-sided self, and the pain he suffered was not because of his paranoia.
In fact, I did nothing wrong, Jiang Xiao thought, I have lived my two lives without failure.
He is sincere in love, works hard in his career, is kind to others, and his efforts are rewarded. He has always loved and been loved, and he has always lived a meaningful life.
At this moment, he thought of his mother's words again.
Xia Wanwan told him that falling in love is easy but staying together is difficult. The running-in between people is a kind of metaphysics. If it fits perfectly, it is a kind of rare luck. If it proves not suitable, it is also a kind of luck to break up well.
It's good to live in the moment.
If that trip was caused by the surrounding environment, it was at this moment that Jiang Xiao felt and truly had the indifferent state of mind that Xia Wanwan said.
Because he finally saw clearly all the things he had experienced.
As for Lin Chengyu's unawareness of his love, he still can't let go of anything, only he can feel it himself.
Anyway, Jiang Xiao was quite relaxed at that moment, Lin Chengyu couldn't help crying there, the translucent Jiang Xiao happily lay on the carpet made of fallen ginkgo leaves, although he couldn't move these things, but there seemed to be something on his body. A light touch.
Below is the grass. At this time, no one blamed Jiang Xiao for trampling on the lawn. He lay there and rolled a few times slowly, super comfortable.
After that, Jiang Xiao realized that he didn't have to follow Lin Chengyu all the time.
He can go to other places, Jiang Xiao went to see a few friends, and found that they had lived a good life in their two lives, especially after Lin Chengyu stopped bothering him.
When the new year was approaching, Lin Chengyu still found Jiang Xiao's grave.
The photo of Jiang Xiao smiling on the tombstone completely collapsed his fragile defense line. Jiang Xiao was sent to Happy Tree Hospital after seeing him faint. He has lived here much longer than Jiang Xiao.
On New Year's Eve, Jiang Xiao ignored him and floated home by himself.
He couldn't turn on the lights at home, but the lights in the neighborhood were brightly lit, and Jiang Xiao squatted in the garden looking at the plants he raised.
The house is taken care of at regular times, and the plants are not dead, but others take care of them with less attention than he does. The roses in the small flower house are all blooming listlessly.
He didn't expect Lin Chengyu to come back at this time.
Lin Chengyu seemed to have sneaked back from the hospital, and he was sweating all over in the winter. Jiang Xiao followed him in, saw him turn on all the lights in the house, and saw him running to the kitchen as if seeing some illusion He was in a hurry to make things, but his mind was not clear and he made a mess in the kitchen.
Jiang Xiao saw him looking for himself in the house with a cup of messy hot cocoa. Of course he couldn't find it. He broke the cup on the rooftop and cried bitterly during the New Year's Eve.
Jiang Xiao doesn't like to see people cry.
He turned around and left, and went to the greenhouse to see his little roses.
But after that day, Lin Chengyu still changed a little.
He hasn't taken care of the company's affairs since he came back from abroad. Jiang Xiao's incident was the heaviest blow to him. Under such circumstances, how could he go to work again? What's the point
He couldn't even live anymore.
But on New Year's Eve, after he found Jiang Xiao's handwritten notebook in the kitchen, it was full of Jiang Xiao's traces, so he had a glimmer of hope.
He flipped through the book repeatedly, memorizing every word on it, trying to absorb every bit of Jiang Xiao's shadow here.
He suddenly discovered that there are too many things left by Jiang Xiao in this house, which are very precious.
He has to be taken care of.
After that day, Jiang Xiaonian finally had someone take care of the plants he had planted with his own hands.
Lin Chengyu has never done this, but he knows how to learn, and now he has a lot of free time for him to learn.
In fact, as long as you work hard, you will do well.
Lin Chengyu told Jiang Xiao before that he planted the trees and flowers in the garden of the house he rebuilt on the side of the Liujiang River. Jiang Xiao didn't believe it. Looking at it now, he should have experience.
That is, he stayed in this room for a long time, and rarely went out. Jiang Xiao didn't accompany him, he often slipped out to see friends, and even went shopping and watched movies.
Jiang Xiao is a person who can find fun at any time, he is not bored, he only comes back after playing outside.
He also discovered that Lin Chengyu had developed a strange eating habit. Either don't eat for a day or two, or make food for two people, overeating, which is very unhealthy.
He still doesn't know how to cook at this time, he makes it for himself, and it's fine if he doesn't die from eating it, but after his rebirth, he cooks it well according to the Jiang Xiao recipe he memorized.
But he won't die like this, it's just a way for him to live like a walking dead.
Lin Chengyu searched every inch of this house, more than once, and gradually found many things belonging to Jiang Xiao inside, and every bit he found was like a treasure.
Especially once he saw an old photo in the crevice of the bookcase, which was taken by the young Jiang Xiao at the entrance of the newly built factory building.
He had been looking at that photo for several days, carefully stroking Jiang Xiao's smiling face with his fingers.
But he is still a person, and he will be tired. He couldn't bear it that day, and fell asleep on the bed with his head tilted, still holding it in his hand.
Even Jiang Xiao couldn't imagine how carefully he searched the house. He also remembered this photo, which was quite commemorative, but he couldn't find it later, and it was a pity for a long time.
Jiang Xiao knew that he couldn't get the thing in this state, but he was interested in this thing, and subconsciously stretched out his hand, but he didn't expect that he could pull this photo out of the sleeping Lin Chengyu's hand.
Wow.
The first time Jiang Xiao got it was to go to a brighter place, the room was too dark. As soon as he walked to the window to see clearly for a while, that state disappeared, and the window was open, and as soon as the wind blew, he rolled the photo and ran away.
Jiang Xiao went to touch other things again, but found that it was useless again.
I didn't mean it either, Jiang Xiao thought, and it's mine.
The result was that Lin Chengyu couldn't find the photo when he woke up.
He didn't know why he closed his eyes for a while, and then his Jiang Xiao disappeared again, and he searched every inch of the house but couldn't find it.
Jiang Xiao saw him sitting in the room blankly, talking in a low voice.
"... none left," he murmured, "I don't deserve him."