Jiang Xiao had more than this one photo, he quickly found another one. But this picture of Jiang Xiao's smile is shallower, not as lively and energetic as the big smile, but Lin Chengyu still cherishes it when he looks at it.
He didn't know what to do this time, and he was afraid that like last time, he would hold it too tightly and it would disappear when he woke up, but he wanted to see it again, afraid that he would lose it for a while.
It was just a photo, which made him flustered for a while.
Jiang Xiao saw him hiding in the corner and secretly looking at the photo, stroking him a little lighter than before, as if he was afraid of scaring the people inside. His fingers slowly brushed over the face that made people miss him madly. Every picture of Jiang Xiao was smiling, with bright eyes, looking cute and full of vitality.
He stared at it, and then touched the pair of shining eyes on the piece of paper. He didn't know why, and he didn't dare to stick the photo to himself. Put it in your heart.
His Xiaoxiao can only be seen on pieces of paper in the future.
He's in a bad shape.
Jiang Xiao thought, from spirit to body.
He watched Lin Chengyu get thinner bit by bit, and when he saw him last, he was still radiant and could boast that he turned all sentient beings upside down, and now he didn't cut his beard or hair, so he couldn't see his previous appearance.
Lin Chengyu remembered the photo blown away by the wind for a long time. One day Jiang Xiao watched him clean the house, take care of the flowers and plants, and then stood in the living room for a while.
He heard a little rain outside.
Lin Chengyu seemed to have thought of something, took out an umbrella from the cabinet, tidied it up a bit, and went out.
He seldom goes out, just like he seldom went home before.
He walked in the direction of Jiang Xiao's factory, which was wrong, it was the old factory.
The company that bought that piece was fast, and a new building went up, and it was already in use. After all, it has been several years. That place is quite close by car, about 20 minutes, but it takes two to three hours to walk.
Lin Chengyu walked through the crowd with an umbrella. He seldom walked such a long distance, and he was not used to the crowd and light outside.
The transformation of the old industrial park was very successful. The labor-intensive small factories have basically moved out, the gates have been changed, the roads have been widened, and a bunch of new greenery has been done. Jiang Xiao can't even recognize it.
Wow, this is actually his land.
Lin Chengyu couldn't recognize it either.
The scene in front of him was so different from the scene in his lost Jiang Xiao photo. He was stunned there for a long time. After spending a while, he couldn’t find the factory in his memory. Even the layout had changed. It belonged to Jiang Xiao, and even Jiang Xiao himself had been separated for a long time.
He wandered around in a daze, and could only stand back at the gate of the industrial park. Although it had been remodeled, he could still vaguely see the shadow of the past.
It was off-duty time, and cars and people passed by the gate of the park in large numbers. He carefully identified them one by one, but he didn't find Jiang Xiao's shadow inside.
Seeing that there were fewer and fewer people, the security guard at the gate looked at this man. He was well dressed, but he looked weird with a beard.
"Oh," he called Lin Chengyu, "what are you doing?"
It took several calls for Lin Chengyu to respond.
"I'm here to pick him up," he said. "My lover works here. It's raining today. I want to come pick him up."
The security guard said "oh".
I've been waiting here for two hours, but I haven't seen him waiting for anyone. I guess there was a quarrel, and my wife is angry.
"Why don't you make a phone call," the security guard pointed him, "Ask if you are working overtime. Don't wait here on a rainy day."
I took an umbrella in my hand and didn't prop it up. Although it didn't rain heavily in the rainy season, it was enough to be drenched for so long.
The warm-hearted security guard watched him slowly take out his cell phone to make a call.
Lin Chengyu has been paying Jiang Xiao's number without stopping, but it must be turned off.
"Hi, the number you dialed is turned off, please wait..."
This prompt sound is the most frequent sound that Lin Chengyu has heard during this period. He knows in his heart that it is impossible to get through, but every time he presses the dial button with trembling fingers, there is a slight expectation, and then it is broken again and again. .
Every day, countless facts remind him that Jiang Xiao is no longer here.
"Can't get through?" The security guard shook his head, thinking that his wife must be angry, "Go home and kneel on the washboard."
Jiang Xiao, who had happily strolled around the park, came back, and heard this sentence as soon as he came.
I am not his wife anymore, Jiang Xiao retorted, and he is very reasonable, never letting people kneel down on the washboard.
Lin Chengyu lowered his head, thinking that it would be nice if there was a washboard kneeling before.
Now even if he knelt to death, Jiang Xiao would not come back. He couldn't find the old factory that had been knocked down, so naturally he couldn't wait for the dead Jiang Xiao here.
Jiang Xiao didn't stay there for a long time, he floated home by himself, Lin Chengyu came back very late, of course he also walked back.
No one picked up, but when he got home, he found the TV was on.
Since the last time he touched the photo, Jiang Xiao found that he occasionally has a little ability to touch other things, even if it is light, he can't do anything, but he can do small things, for example, use it to turn on the TV.
He hasn't watched many soap operas yet, even watching the news is quite interesting.
Anyway, don't blow the wind outside, Lin Chengyu can do it himself if he wants to.
"...Xiaoxiao?"
He cautiously made a sound, but still no one responded.
Lin Chengyu was a little at a loss, he walked over slowly, sat on the other side of the sofa, and cartoons were playing on the TV.
He didn't say anything more, but in the next few days, he remembered to turn on the TV at home and choose interesting channels to turn on.
"Xiaoxiao," he still couldn't help asking secretly sometimes, "is that you?"
He didn't wait for Jiang Xiao to answer, but he was sick. He was out in the rain for a long time, and came back with a low fever, but Lin Chengyu didn't plan to stay in bed, and he didn't dare to turn off the TV, so he sat quietly on the other side of the sofa.
A few days later, his partner brought him antipyretics and a psychiatrist.
Lin Chengyu is the chairman of the company, and he quit the company when it was at its peak, which is indeed a big deal in the circle.
He and Jiang Xiao didn't make it public before, but now everyone knows that Boss Lin is crazy because of a man who died of illness, and he doesn't want anything. Until now, he hasn't appeared in front of the public for two or three years.
He doesn't care about the company, but he looks like he's going to die every day and devotes himself to torturing himself, so he still needs to see a doctor. Lin Chengyu went to Xingfushu Hospital before, but he stopped going. This time, the psychiatrist was found elsewhere.
He also refused to leave the house, so the partner brought the doctor to the door, and when he came, he found that the TV was on and cartoons were playing in it.
"You like watching this right now?"
"No." Lin Chengyu shook his head, his eyes showed a little tenderness, "Xiaoxiao might like it."
The partner and the psychiatrist looked at each other, it was obvious that this person was mentally abnormal.
But after testing, the results were surprising. During Lin Chengyu's conversation with outsiders, even if the professional doctor used some method, he changed his way of speaking, and his whole person was too calm.
"...Look, I'm not sick," Lin Chengyu said, "I'm very sober, I know what I'm doing now."
He gradually knew that Jiang Xiao was indeed affected in the first year of his death, and his mind was as confused as a mess. Living in the Happy Tree Hospital at that time, being insane was also a kind of relief for him, otherwise he really couldn't bear that kind of blow.
But after knowing everything and finding Jiang Xiao's tomb, he gradually became sober. The doctor of Happy Tree prescribed medicine, and he took it for a period of time until the problem was gone.
If he is really crazy and confused, it is also a kind of escape, Lin Chengyu doesn't want to escape anymore, he wants to experience all this clearly by himself.
He was just sober and insane.
Even if the TV is suddenly turned on, the partner doesn't need to tell him, his reason can make him think that some TVs with poor connections will indeed turn on by themselves.
"Jiang Xiao has already left," he said, "I am very clear about what I have done and what is going on now... But sometimes I can't help but think that it would be great if Jiang Xiao was still here."
Jiang Xiao is such a nice person, he has never done anything wrong. He thought countless times that it would be good if he was the one who died.
Jiang Xiao lives well, and won't feel sad for being such a bastard, that's great, but things don't always go his way.
Today's so-called psychiatrist is not the focus for Lin Chengyu. The company's affairs have to be dealt with. He wants to sell all the shares in his hand to his partners at a low price, so that he can settle down in peace and give others an explanation.
In order to prove to him that he is really sober and not talking nonsense, he flipped through the company's annual reports last year and the year before. Can point out one or two.
"You are a very good businessman."
The other party sighed.
"I'd rather not," Lin Chengyu said, and he pushed aside the antipyretics sent by the other party, "You took the shares, so don't come to me in the future. Thank you, I want to be alone."
The cartoon on the TV was still playing, Jiang Xiao was really watching it, and he also heard the commotion over there.
Lin Chengyu was really not sick, he was surprised when he heard this, and he didn't know what to say.
After that, few people came to him.
Lin Chengyu was quiet in the house most of the time, and Jiang Xiao's soul state was also an indescribable feeling. He was just a bystander, and sometimes it felt like a dream, and the sense of illusion was very strong.
People don't feel bored in dreams, but everything they see is so clear.
Lin Chengyu will go out later and remember things. Every time he goes out, he writes a paragraph in his notebook, which cannot be called a diary, just like the cookbook left by Jiang Xiao, he is writing his feelings.
He has been to the place where he used to stay with Jiang Xiao, and survived by thinking about Jiang Xiao.
Jiang Xiao looked at the notebook.
Instead, he saw a very different version of himself in Lin Chengyu's eyes.
"... I saw Jiang Xiao for the first time in that small rental house. He rescued me last night, but I didn't see his face clearly. I wondered why there are such stupid so-called good-hearted people in this place.
I finally saw the person clearly the next day. Jiang Xiao’s eyes are so round, they look even rounder when they widen. He wanted to leave, but he said I can stay, but I couldn’t even say a word 'no' Come. "
"He's very cute."
"How can there be people who are full of energy every day?"
"Jiang Xiao is really the most powerful and capable person. He seems to be able to achieve any goal he sets. I am very proud of him."
"On the day he confessed, I have never experienced such joy, and I have to pretend that I am not so excited, deceiving myself and others."
"After being with Jiang Xiao, I am very happy every day, a happiness that makes people jealous, but I didn't realize it at that time."
"Now I often think, when did I fall in love with Jiang Xiao? I really can't tell, but I did love him for a long time. Looking back, the first time I saw him, this person was very different. "
"It's all my fault. Song He is right. He is such a powerful and good person. Without me, I don't know how good life is. I was an extremely lucky person, and I was able to make the best Jiang Xiao love me for a while." , it seems that there is finally sunshine willing to shine on me. If such luck is lost, I will be nothing.”
However, this life also has an end.
He has long-term sleep and eating irregularities, and his mentality is also very poor. Anyone's body always has a limit. If you go on like this, even if you don't commit suicide, you won't be able to live for long.