Lin Chengyu was stunned for a moment, and then felt a sore heart.
The first time they met after being reborn, he was indeed the one who took the initiative. From the beginning of pestering people to say hello to later bringing people to Liujiang to study, as long as Jiang Xiao thought about it, he would think that he was back too.
"Xiaoxiao thinks that if I have no memory, I wouldn't be so enthusiastic, right?"
"It's just one of them," Jiang Xiao said, "There are other little things."
Jiang Xiao has good observation skills, he can often pay attention to some details, and he has a deep memory of everything in his previous life, and when he sees Lin Chengyu in front of him, after comparing them one by one, he can be more sure of his guess.
People who have experienced many things, no matter how much they hide it, they are still different from when they were young.
For example, when Jiang Xiao first met Lin Chengyu, he had lived in Liujiang for a long time. Although Mandarin was standard, some syllables were always influenced by some local dialects. It was a bit like "Ning" at first, it wasn't obvious, but then he went to Binhai City for work reasons, stayed there for a long time, and some pronunciations were subtly corrected, and became very standard.
"Student, I want to go to Houlin No. 3 Middle School."
When they met for the first time, Lin Chengyu asked him for directions and said something like this, the pronunciation of the word "Lin" was quite standard.
For another example, when Lin Chengyu first joined the company after graduation, he also started from a low-level position. He worked hard to achieve outstanding performance and was promoted quickly, but he was also very busy, which caused slight inflammation of the tendon of his thumb. Jiang Xiao would find medicinal wine for him at that time Rubbing, but he didn't take good care of him, and he relapsed after getting better, until he was promoted to a certain position later, and he didn't have so many hard work at the desk. But because of this, once Lin Chengyu met Shangxin When he folded his hands, he would unconsciously rub his thumbs a few times.
These acquired habits and changes should not have appeared in Lin Chengyu at this time. If it is said that the overly enthusiastic attitude made Jiang Xiao realize something when they first met, then these things are the real proof.
Lin Chengyu probably didn't remember or be aware of these changes, so when he heard Jiang Xiao say this, his face was full of surprise.
But Jiang Xiao remembered that he had actually experienced these things. After Lin Chengyu's work shifted to Binhai, the life of the two of them getting together less and more apart began. It took Lin Chengyu a long time to come back, and Jiang Xiao remembered every change in him. The change of accent because of Binhai is only one of them. Jiang Xiao specially learned a few dishes of Binhai for him, just to adapt to his changes. The illness on his thumb is even more serious. Lin Chengyu never knew Jiang Xiao In order to make him feel better, I searched for many kinds of medicated oils, and even went to learn massage techniques.
Even if the deep love is worn away, the hearts he used are not so easily forgotten, so that when Jiang Xiao saw Lin Chengyu again after he was reborn, he didn't pay special attention to these things. He just saw them and thought about them for a while. I understand.
There are not only two small details like this, but many more, so I don’t want to give examples one by one.
He treated Lin Chengyu much better than himself. Jiang Xiao couldn't believe it when he recalled such things. Lin Chengyu only felt that everything was good when he lived with Jiang Xiao. It is love as deep as the sea, and it is exhausting.
"So, the first time I saw you, I knew you were back." Jiang Xiao took another sip of cold soy milk, tilted her head slightly to look at him, and then asked him, "What about you? Lin Chengyu, what about you?"
When Lin Chengyu heard what he said earlier, he was moved and sad, but at the same time he was a little happy. He felt that Jiang Xiao could remember these things because he was still in his heart.
But Jiang Xiao's next rhetorical question instantly made him feel ashamed.
"I… "
Lin Chengyu was speechless.
Jiang Xiao's words were not interrogative sentences, he knew very well when Lin Chengyu recognized him, just now.
He didn't mention the heart-piercing events between the two in his previous life, and he didn't ask why Lin Chengyu was where he was before he died. He mentioned these small things, which caught Lin Chengyu off guard and at the same time really reminded him of the relationship between the two of them. Where are the gaps and differences.
Lin Chengyu didn't have such intentions for him.
It had been a while since he found Jiang Xiao, and he had met him before. He didn’t realize that Jiang Xiao had also been reborn until he heard Liu Jiang’s words out of Jiang Xiao’s mouth. Even an ordinary classmate of Jiang Xiao's would find it quite strange to hear his fluent Liujiang dialect.
Jiang Xiao is also a person who has come back after many years. He looks younger and wears a school uniform, but there must be some habits left behind.
But Lin Chengyu couldn't say it, he couldn't remember anything, it was too late for him to regret it, how could he just recite something out of thin air because of regret because he didn't notice it before.
He can't even remember that Jiang Xiao doesn't like to eat Liujiang cuisine. Liujiang cuisine is mainly fresh and sweet. Jiang Xiao has a heavy taste. Food is his preference, but Lin Chengyu chose a local restaurant after a thousand choices today.
Jiang Xiao is used to this, and now he is even less disappointed.
"My family used to make Liujiang local dishes. I thought, I thought you liked it..." Lin Chengyu explained stumblingly, in a panic, "Xiaoxiao..."
"It's not that I like it, it's that you like it," Jiang Xiao told him, "I did it because you like it."
He is very calm about this matter now, and added: "It won't happen in the future."
I won't be like this again in the future, I have worked hard for an unnecessary person, and I have worked hard to adapt.
"I'm sorry," Lin Chengyu didn't know how to say sorry, he wanted to say that he would change it in the future, but felt that compared with Jiang Xiao's carefulness, his promise paled, "Then you don't like it, let's change it." Is the family okay?"
It's too late to do anything now.
"No need," Jiang Xiao didn't bother to change places, "Eat whatever you want."
When he came in, he ordered a bowl of noodles himself, and asked the waiter to bring a small dish of chili sauce, intending to fill his stomach before talking.
Contrary to him, Lin Chengyu has no appetite at all.
Decades of time, how to make up for it
Every time he sees Jiang Xiao, he can feel desperately that the distance between the two is getting bigger and bigger.
Jiang Xiao ate with his head down and didn't speak, and Lin Chengyu didn't dare to speak. At this time, no words were enough to express his current mood. He didn't know how to explain his carelessness in his previous life, and he couldn't explain it at all.
After Jiang Xiao finished eating, he raised his head to look at Lin Chengyu again, and spoke again, breaking the current calm.
"I'm not saying this to question you. Lin Chengyu, that's already happened in my previous life, and I did these things voluntarily at that time. For me, it's all over," Jiang Xiao wiped his mouth with a piece of paper, and said again , "Actually, you don't need to feel so guilty, and you don't need to do anything to thank me for it. If you don't like me, naturally you won't do as much as I do. It's all my wishful thinking."
The final illness was not caused by Lin Chengyu. After death and rebirth, he thought things clearly enough and stopped chasing things that did not belong to him.
Hate is also a kind of concern, and hate also needs to be thoughtful. His time is quite valuable, and he will not waste any cents on Lin Chengyu.
"We have always been people in two worlds, and it has become even more so after we were reborn. It was always wrong to make a bunch together before." Jiang Xiao put down his chopsticks, "I am living a good life now, and I don't need any help from you." Compensation, if you really feel guilty, don't come to me again, this is the best ending for the two of us."
Lin Chengyu looked into his clear eyes, guilt and panic overwhelmed him, so that he couldn't think about what was appropriate or not, stood up and took Jiang Xiao's hand, and pulled him into his arms.
"No, no, Xiaoxiao, it's not wishful thinking," he said with a trembling voice, "I really like you, I fell in love with you a long time ago, I'm sorry, the previous things are all my fault, you are not satisfied with me I’ll change everything, and I’ll do what you said, caring about you and loving you, let’s start over, shall we?”
Jiang Xiao: "Not good."
He frowned and wanted to push the person away a little, but Lin Chengyu hugged him so tightly that he couldn't push him away.
Lin Chengyu hugged him for the first time after his rebirth, Jiang Xiao's body was always warm, holding this person in his arms, he seemed to have everything, and he refused to let go no matter what.
He had already lost his beloved once, and now it seemed that he was about to lose it again.
"Xiaoxiao, please," he murmured in Jiang Xiao's ear, he was too scared, "I know I was wrong, let's do it again, okay, this time I'll treat you well, I'll be with you, You can vent your anger on me however you want, okay?"
But now, apart from words, he can't show anything to prove that he once loved him too.
"Not good," Jiang Xiao repeated, his patience had already worn off, "Stop talking, it will be annoying."
He was already a little hairy, so he tried his best to push Lin Chengyu away.
"Xiaoxiao..."
"Don't call me by my name again," Jiang Xiao said after he was full. He finished what he should say, and his expression became completely cold. He very much hoped that Lin Chengyu could see his heart clearly as soon as possible. Others talk about sincerity, "You have never treated me sincerely, and you have never respected my opinions and ideas. It was true in this life, and it was even more so in the last life. Find other people to play affectionate games with you."
Before Jiang Xiao left, he did not forget to pick up another cup of cold soy milk on the table and hand it to Lin Chengyu.
"I didn't have time to say goodbye in my previous life. It's probably our only regret before," he said, looking straight into Lin Chengyu's eyes. "I bought it for you. It's a gift for breaking up. It has a beginning and an end. We're done, Lin Chengyu. Don't meet again in the future." gone."
When Lin Chengyu saw Jiang Xiao clearly for the first time, he handed him a cup of soy milk in the same way, his eyes were shining like stars, and he told him, this is breakfast for you, that, if you have no place to go, you can come with me live here.
"Xiaoxiao," Lin Chengyu once again reached out and grabbed him who was about to leave, blocking the door of the small box. Jiang Xiao saw him crying for the first time, and couldn't help it. His eyes were red from the end to the end, and tears fell Like a bead with a broken thread, "But you, but you said at the time, you will always be with me, I..."
"Look, you didn't remember my words. What I said at that time was that I would be with you all my life," Jiang Xiao said here, watching him break down in tears, no longer feel distressed, and even smiled, "I didn't break my promise, Lin Chengyu, I never broke my promise, you see, you have indeed exhausted my whole life."
Jiang Xiao's words were like a thousand arrows piercing Lin Chengyu's heart, and he had no strength to hold his hand. He watched Jiang Xiao push himself to open the door, and walked out of the restaurant without looking back. He covered his face in place.
He originally thought that the pain he experienced after Jiang Xiao's departure in his previous life was over, no, it turned out to be just the beginning.