The weather is getting colder at night, and many stalls have been closed and people have left. During the day, it is warmer to squeeze around, but now there are no crowds. The spring market is full of wind, and the temperature is even lower. It’s really breath-taking. Feel.
Lin Chengyu put a piece of clothing on Jiang Xiao, but he thought it was troublesome to take it off and put it aside, but he really refused to wear it.
As long as his tone is a little tougher, Lin Chengyu doesn't even dare to vent his anger.
He had no choice but to help Jiang Xiao quickly tally the goods, so that Jiang Xiao could go home earlier and get warmer.
After counting the quantity of goods, Jiang Xiao counted the money there, counted twice, felt wrong, counted again, and then thought about it, pulled out five or six hundred-yuan bills on the spot and put them in front of Lin Chengyu.
The hundred yuan is still green these years.
"The account is not reconciled, did you put the money in?" Jiang Xiao said, "Don't think I don't know."
The unit price of the things on Jiang Xiao’s stall is not expensive, most of the things are a few or tens of dollars, and the money is still valuable these days. Customers have to carefully consider the items that exceed 50 yuan. It is impossible for Jiang Xiao to pay every penny during the day. I remember all of them, but he still has a little impression of taking out a hundred yuan in change, not that much.
Lin Chengyu was stubborn at first, and refused to admit it, but this time Jiang Xiao's own account was very clear and irrefutable, and he also admitted it again and again.
Originally, I wanted to stuff more, but I was afraid that the amount of money would be too much and it would be easy to see.
— Next time he will try to stuff in smaller denominations.
Jiang Xiao asked him to take it back, but Lin Chengyu refused to accept it: "Xiaoxiao, even when we first met, the two sides didn't care about the money, did they?"
Jiang Xiao wants to rely on himself to start from scratch. He has an independent personality, and he will definitely be disgusted if he decides everything for him. Lin Chengyu will not interfere, and will fully support him, but giving Jiang Xiao money and hoping that he will not work so hard is not in conflict with this. .
"My money was originally your money," Lin Chengyu sneaked to hold his hand again, "It has always been."
Jiang Xiao's hands were too cold, Lin Chengyu put his hands in his arms to warm him up, trying to make Jiang Xiao feel better, and then he heard Jiang Xiao ask him: "...So, are you doing this because of guilt?"
Jiang Xiao really couldn't understand the change in Lin Chengyu's attitude. This person obviously didn't care about himself in his previous life, and his nature was like this, so he wouldn't change immediately just because he was reborn.
"I came here too easily before, and I can squander and frivolously at will. What I can't get now is the best. Is that what you mean?"
Jiang Xiao stared at him and said these words, his eyes were bright, like a lamp illuminating people's hearts on a snowy night.
"no."
Lin Chengyu immediately denied it, and he said seriously: "It's because I like you, because I love you, I..."
He looked into Jiang Xiao's eyes, and couldn't say what was going on in his heart. It wasn't because of what he said that he felt guilty, but he couldn't find any evidence to prove that he once loved Jiang Xiao.
Love is never something to talk about.
Jiang Xiao stuffed the withdrawn money into Lin Chengyu's pocket. He was silent for a while, then suddenly lowered his head and smiled, and suddenly said something else: "In my previous life, my mother died about three years later."
Lin Chengyu's heart tightened, and he squeezed his hands tighter.
"Don't worry, after I came back, she was in much better health. The illness started from the heart, and it didn't procrastinate year after year. I will take care of it carefully, and she will live a long life in the future," Jiang Xiao changed the past that made her heart ache. , Now that I mention this matter again, I feel calm, and there is a trace of rejoicing, so I laughed, "In my previous life, I was confused when I was in junior high school. My mother asked me to ask two things before she died. I always remember them. In my heart, earnestly implement it, and dare not be reckless and casual."
After Lin Chengyu listened carefully, he felt a little excited. After being reborn, Jiang Xiao seldom talked to him.
Seeing Jiang Xiao paused for a while, he continued: "She said that life is a mirror, and it will be returned to me no matter how people treat it. I treat others violently, thinking that I am protecting myself, but in the end I always have to suffer head.
She knows that my nature is not bad, but I have to change what should be changed. Don’t be so irritable. No matter how life is in the future, you must treat people sincerely, learn to cherish those you like, and don’t be malicious if you hate someone. Hurt, learn to be kind to others. In this way, even if I am alone in the future, it will not be too bad. "
There was no need for Jiang Xiao to prove this point himself, Lin Chengyu also knew that he had indeed performed well.
Jiang Xiao has a lively and sincere personality. After getting along with him for a long time, everyone will praise him for being comfortable.
"Secondly, work hard on the things that should be worked hard. You must learn to fight for and improve what you should own, but you must see clearly that it is not your own. If you should let go, you should let go. Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. Stop losses in time. , don't get entangled," Jiang Xiao said, "The second point, I dare not say that I have completely achieved it."
Because of Lin Chengyu, he was indeed paranoid.
The two were not suitable at all, I don't know if it was because they didn't see it clearly, or because they saw it clearly and they were not willing to let go. In the end, they were in pain for fifteen years, or they ended up lonely.
"Lin Chengyu, I will also give you these two sentences," Jiang Xiao looked up at him, "One must be honest, one must see oneself clearly, and stop wishing for things you cannot get, you will regret it sooner or later."
He drew his hand back.
"But the only thing I regret is that I didn't find out that I love you so much earlier!"
What Lin Chengyu was afraid of was his way of dealing with his ancient well without waves, seeing through the world of mortals, and there would be no more waves.
He suppressed the uneasiness in his heart and hugged the person in front of him in his arms. But Jiang Xiao was exposed to a lot of wind and snow outside, and it was always cold to hold him, and he couldn't get warm no matter what.
"Xiaoxiao, ever since I woke up, I felt that I begged for this life," Lin Chengyu said in his ear, "After you left, I lived in too much pain."
He didn't know how to describe the pain to Jiang Xiao, the pain that was so painful that he couldn't live without it.
Obviously before he left, he thought Jiang Xiao was fine, but after he came back, he was gone, and he didn't see him for the last time. He didn't know how this happened, Jiang Xiao's friends knew a few things, they didn't have a good look at him, they refused to say anything, and some of them deliberately obstructed him. He exhausted all kinds of relationships and searched for half a year before he found Jiang Xiao. Xiao's grave.
Seeing the grave is not a relief, but more painful.
That kind of remorse is heart-wrenching, and every second feels like a year. With Jiang Xiao, life is life, without him, life is life, the one who suffers from the knife.
He wished he could die, but felt that it was too easy to die. He didn't know what to say when he saw the soul. He was so exhausted that he couldn't live anymore. When he opened his eyes again, he found that the world had happened again.
This seemed to be a sweet dream that he could never have dreamed of, so it was right for Jiang Xiao to speak sarcasticly to him when he met again.
"I want to make up for you, protect you, treat you well, and we... can be together again," Lin Chengyu said, and then added in a low voice, "It's okay if you don't love me, but I want to guard you, I want to love you , Xiaoxiao, this is the meaning of my rebirth."
Jiang Xiao broke away from his arms, he was not angry now, and looked at Lin Chengyu with pity in his eyes.
"We are all people who have died once. Pain once is an experience. I couldn't see it clearly in my previous life, but now I finally understand it after living it." Jiang Xiao sighed, "It's just that you are still deeply involved in it, and you don't understand it."
There are many things that cannot be explained clearly in a few words. He calmly talked to Lin Chengyu about these things, and did not deal with them casually like before. He really wanted him to let him go and let him go.
"Lin Chengyu, if I'm a bit cruel and bad-hearted, I can use your guilt to do a lot of things. You can't say that I'm bad, but I'm just repaying grievances with grievances. I have a clear conscience. But I didn't do it, because I remembered my mother's instructions, I can't do it, but you can't push your feet," Jiang Xiao said, and then said to himself, "Forget it, if you haven't really suffered, it's useless to say anything."
For example, when he was in Class 15, many people were curious to see him suddenly start reading. Almost everyone came to ask why. Jiang Xiao also told everyone that if he doesn’t work hard now, he will be more serious in the future. You have to suffer ten times for this, and it’s too late when you regret it. He missed it so he knew that every time he said it was advice, but no one listened to him.
Except for Ye Yingying, it was useless when he said it, but the picture book sparked sparks in his heart, so he really worked hard.
The words are thin, and Lin Chengyu has never heard his words. Only when he understands himself can he really understand.
"You spend it yourself, I'm going back, don't follow me."
Jiang Xiao didn't want to stay here anymore. Before leaving, he left Lin Chengyu with the last sentence of the day: "If there is no result, make more mistakes."
It's a bad fate, it's not clean.
On his way home, Lin Chengyu was still behind him, following him all the way.
Jiang Xiao didn't like to get along with him. When he was busy setting up a stall, he didn't have time to care who was standing next to him, but every time he was free, when there were only two people, he was easily drawn into the old things and became heavy again. Gloomy adults.
He is now a junior high school student, his mother is here, he has classmates, and he has homework. It is hard for him to do it all over again. He should be lively and lively, he deserves it.
After returning home, Xia Wanwan prepared supper for him. He always had no time at the stall, so he ate some whole, and was hungry when he got home.
Xia Wanwan watched him eating wontons, couldn't help but stroked her son's hair, and sighed: "Why is it so hard? I won't go tomorrow, okay?"
But she had promised to come with Jiang Xiao before, and now she can't go back on her word, and she thought in her heart that she was all useless, her salary was low, and she couldn't make a lot of money, otherwise, how could such a young child be needed to plan carefully These.
Jiang Xiao glanced at her and knew what she was thinking.
"Someone helped me, it's nothing hard," Jiang Xiao smiled at her, "Mom, don't worry about this, if you have time at home, just read a book, and I will feel at ease."
Xia Wanwan wants to go on to take the accounting certificate, and Jiang Xiao has also seen it. CPA is not so easy, but it is always a good thing to have a serious goal in life.
But when Jiang Xiao mentioned that someone was helping him, it made her think of that boy again, who was by Jiang Xiao's side again for some reason.
"he… "
When she opened her mouth, she didn't know what to say, after all, she didn't even know Lin Chengyu's name.
"Mom trust me," Jiang Xiao finished eating a bowl of wontons. He rubbed his belly, smiled, and brought the topic to the past, "I will take care of everything."