The dream is a thing of the previous life.
When he and Jiang Xiao lived together for the first year, it was in that small rental house.
When the new year was young, Jiang Xiao spent money to buy two expensive cakes and came back, and when the new year is old, there is no ambiguity.
He was not good at cooking at that time, so he specially packed good food from outside and came back. The two of them have no home. In Jiang Xiao's imagination, they finally got together, and the two of them should be happy on this good day It's just a one-off.
So Jiang Xiao bought Spring Festival couplets stickers and Chinese knots, and cleaned up the small house again, looking a bit beaming.
But unexpectedly, when the Spring Festival Gala was about to start at seven o'clock, the small rental house was cut off.
It seems that there is a problem with the circuit and it is aging. Jiang Xiao, who is celebrating the Chinese New Year, called the landlord. The landlord was a little impatient and reluctantly called the electrician. But at that time, everyone was celebrating the Chinese New Year. Who would come out to do repairs at this point
Moreover, most of the residents in this rental house have returned to their hometowns for the New Year, only Jiang Xiao is still here, and the landlord doesn't care about his family, let him light candles to make do for the night, and come to fix it tomorrow.
After all, it’s not my own house. The landlord has several buildings that don’t care about him as a small tenant. Jiang Xiao doesn’t try to reason with others. After getting off the phone, Jiang Xiao had nothing to say.
no way.
On New Year's Eve, the two of them lit two candles and ate the meal. The Liujiang River outside was bustling with activity, but the house was extremely dark. The old windows were not closed tightly, and the air leaked from somewhere. The big Chinese New Year is also tasteless.
Without electricity, it was almost impossible to do anything, and it was cold inside the small house. Jiang Xiao pulled him and talked a lot. Lin Chengyu was in a bad mood because of this, so he hardly responded. Jiang Xiao talked for a long time by himself, and then leaned against the He fell asleep in a daze, and he was still chanting those few words over and over again.
"I will work hard to make money in the future."
"I earned money to buy a big warm house, and then we lived in it, so we don't have to suffer from this kind of anger anymore."
"You have to believe me… "
Lin Chengyu wanted to reach out to hug him, but he was just a bystander, and he couldn't stretch out his hand no matter what. After a while, Jiang Xiao in front of him disappeared in front of him like smoke.
Lin Chengyu's vision flickered, but the scene in his dream changed places.
The scene flashed to fifteen years later.
Jiang Xiao really did it, he bought a small villa, but at that time Lin Chengyu hadn't seen it clearly, and didn't feel how precious everything he got was.
Then he got his comeuppance.
That was the first new year after Jiang Xiao's death.
Not long after he found Jiang Xiao's grave, the place Xingfushu Hospital found, the cemetery is well-feng shui, with beautiful mountains and clear waters, and a few clusters of small yellow flowers were planted in front of the grave, which withered in winter, and I don't know if they will bloom again next spring.
He only remembered these, and he also saw the words on the tombstone and the photo of Jiang Xiao on it, but at that time his mind exploded, and after waking up, he couldn't remember what it looked like.
He vaguely remembered that Jiang Xiao above was smiling, it was him when he was young.
At that time, Lin Chengyu was most afraid of Jiang Xiao's smile. The last time they met, Jiang Xiao was smiling. He felt a little strange at that time, but he left as usual. He didn't expect that it was the last time the two of them saw each other.
He felt cruel when he saw that smile.
Jiang Xiao's heart is really cruel.
I hated him for doing something wrong, so when he was dying, he was left with such a punishment. No one thought that the two of them would end like this.
After Lin Chengyu came back and knew about Jiang Xiao's death, he didn't believe it. Then he went to Liujiang City People's Hospital to check the case. After reading the case, he still didn't believe it. He had to find someone.
Live to see people, die to see corpses.
Anyway, he never took care of anything in the company. Friends around him said he was a little crazy. They were afraid of provoking him, but they didn't dare to go against him, so they helped him find Jiang Xiao. He felt that he couldn't accept it for a while. It's better after the fact of being dead.
But after finding Jiang Xiao's grave, Lin Chengyu couldn't bear it on the spot and fainted.
After being sent to the hospital and waking up, he seemed to be even more abnormal, and it was winter again, Lin Chengyu was running around outside, the cold wind and rain these days, his fever reached 39 degrees, his mind was not sober at first up.
On New Year's Eve, he escaped the eyes of the nurses, ran out of the hospital by himself, and returned home.
The first thing he did was turn on all the lights in the cottage.
Jiang Xiao likes warm yellow lamps, and also likes sparkling crystal lamps. When turned on, the light refracts, not only has a kind of exquisite beauty, but also makes the room extremely bright, even if there is no one there, it looks warm.
After the lights were turned on, the room was brightly lit, and it really felt like Jiang Xiao was back.
He sat huddled on the sofa for a while, feeling top-heavy, and there seemed to be ghosts in front of his eyes. He seemed to see Jiang Xiao also wrapped in a small blanket, huddled in a corner of the sofa, blinking, looking at himself.
"...Xiaoxiao?"
Lin Chengyu wanted to reach out to hug him, but Jiang Xiao on the sofa shrank back, not wanting him to hug him.
"New Year's Eve, Cheng Yu, I like New Year's Eve," he saw Jiang Xiao smiling at himself, it was the young Jiang Xiao on the tombstone, the little tiger teeth are very cute, "Now I'm hungry, I want to eat. "
He said he was hungry, and Lin Chengyu panicked.
"I'll get it for you right away, Xiaoxiao wait for me," he walked towards the kitchen, "Xiaoxiao is in no hurry."
He hasn't come back for a long time, the refrigerator has long been empty, and there is no new stuff in it.
He opened all the cabinets in the kitchen. There are plenty of rice noodles and various seasoning materials, but he doesn't know how to make them. Because of the fever, his hands and feet were still floating. He washed the rice several times and poured it into the rice cooker. He couldn't hold the flour bag firmly, and the flour fell all over the floor.
There is also a series of whole grains such as millet, barley, black beans, and whole grains in the rice noodle cabinet. When Jiang Xiao is here, he can make soy milk, cook multigrain porridge, and steam multigrain cake. Oh no.
On the other half of the cabinet, he found other things, a bag of imported cocoa powder and condensed milk, which were placed in the same iron shelf, and there was a posted formula on the shelf.
When he opened the bag and smelled it, he felt a little familiar, it seemed to be the smell that Jiang Xiao often drank.
Hot cocoa is easy to make, and Lin Chengyu's mind seems to be a little clearer. He turned on the small stove, carefully made a cup according to the recipe, and then poured the hot drink from the small pot into the cup, like holding a baby. Also go to the living room to find Jiang Xiao.
"Xiaoxiao, would you like some drinks first? I'll make it right away, and there will be something to eat soon."
But there was no Jiang Xiao in the living room.
He panicked and couldn't find it in the living room. He thought that he might be sleepy, Jiang Xiao gets sleepy very easily, so he went to the room to look for Jiang Xiao with a cup.
Not in the room, not in the study, not in the bathroom.
He was the only one left in the huge house.
He stumbled all the way up and found the terrace on the third floor. There was no one there, but the wind was very strong.
Lin Chengyu carefully guarded the cup of hot drink in his hand. On the third floor of the small villa, he could see the tallest building in Liujiang River. The electronic screens around the building began to light up, counting down the numbers. That's the sign of New Years Eve.
New Year is here.
Lin Chengyu seemed to wake up at that moment.
There was no Jiang Xiao for a long time, his Xiao Xiao died of illness for several months.
He suddenly remembered the tomb he saw not long ago, the cocoa in his hand couldn't hold it steady, and it fell to the ground with broken porcelain pieces all over the place.
The wind on the terrace was too strong, his whole body was cold, and his blood felt cold. That cup of cocoa was the only thing he could make. After falling down, he was reluctant to pick it up. in spite of.
After picking up the broken tiles, his hands were bleeding from several cuts.
At this time, it is good to still feel pain.
After Jiang Xiao's death, he often felt at a loss, and couldn't cry, just being at a loss.
Everything in front of him seems to be fake, he hopes it is fake, like a nightmare, he always feels that when he wakes up and opens his eyes, Jiang Xiao will be by his side, this is like a self-protection mechanism, so He wouldn't be in such pain, he couldn't breathe in such pain, as if a pair of invisible hands were strangling his heart.
If he hadn't found Jiang Xiao's grave, he might have been able to deceive himself like this for the rest of his life.
But Lin Chengyu knew this in his heart, but he was still looking for it. Jiang Xiao left, so he couldn't lie to himself anymore.
On New Year's Eve that day, he was alone on the terrace of the villa, and finally cried heartbreakingly.
In the year when he first met Jiang Xiao, he went through bankruptcy and the loss of his relatives. He fell from the favorite of heaven to the bottom all the way. On New Year's Eve, the small rental house still had a power outage, and it was cold, cold and dark. It got worse and worse.
Only now did he know that eating dross is not bitter at all.
At that time, Jiang Xiao was there, the two of them were guarding each other, and there were still thousands of hopes. What was the temporary financial hardship? To meet a person who can support each other and love each other all his life, he already has a supreme treasure.
He lived like this for fifteen years. Lin Feng harmed him before, and after he was capable enough, he also returned it as it was.
He should have turned around and guarded Jiang Xiao, but if he missed it, he missed it, and now he really has nothing.
This is suffering. When that person leaves, he becomes a boundless sea of suffering. When a person dies, he cannot be resurrected, and he has no hope.
Lin Chengyu woke up from such a nightmare.
In the winter, he broke out in a cold sweat. After waking up, he was panting heavily. For a long time, he couldn't tell whether what was in front of him was reality or a dream. But even if he was clear about it, his emotions still couldn't go away for a while, and he was stuffy in his heart, and he couldn't cry even if he wanted to cry.
It would be great if Jiang Xiao was by my side.
But he is not there, he is far away in the thick forest, and he will not be by his side at this time.
I don't know what to do, how much effort I have to put in, before he is willing to come back.
The next morning, people from the Lin family who stayed in Liujiang called him as usual, talking about Jiang Xiao.
"...he played with fireworks downstairs for a long time."
"It looks very happy, very happy."
He finally felt relieved.
Lin Chengyu didn't sleep well during the New Year, but Jiang Xiao was the opposite. He was tired enough and earned money a year ago. This year he lived very comfortably and slept soundly. When he woke up, it was around nine o'clock on the first day of the Lunar New Year. It was the first time since his rebirth that he slept so late.
After waking up, I felt that there was something strange under the pillow, and I reached out to touch it. It was the New Year's money from Xia Wanwan, and there were a few words written on the red envelope - for every year, good health and good luck in everything.
There were five hundred yuan, Jiang Xiao happily put the red envelope away, he got up, washed his face, brushed his teeth and looked outside.
Downstairs there was a layer of red shavings of firecrackers in the snow. It was booming. Xia Wanwan steamed the steamed buns. There were leftovers last night. It was delicious to eat with steamed buns when it was hot.
According to Houlin's practice, I went to my in-law's house on the first day of junior high school, returned to my mother's family on the second day of junior high school, and then began to visit various relatives. The first and second days of the junior high school are relatively busy, and there are still no people on the street. After the third junior high, many people come out to play with their families. At that time, it is more appropriate to go out and set up a stall.
Today he was making up his winter vacation homework during the day, and Xia Wanwan was watching the rerun of the Spring Festival Gala in the living room, and her hahaha laughter could be heard from time to time.
In the second year of junior high school, Jiang Xiao made up his homework for the winter vacation. In the early morning of the third year of junior high school, he brought his things back to the spring market to set up a stall to earn money.