He was more worried about Lin Heyuan than himself.
Even if Jiang Xiao was reborn once, he didn't know that he should solve this matter.
There is no right answer to this question.
He also has no experience in this area. He has lost his mind when going to school during this time. He has been thinking about what to do, but his mind is empty and he can't think of anything.
Now that he is intervening in the Lin family's affairs, no matter what he says or does, it will not alleviate the situation, but will make the situation even worse.
He even wondered if he made the wrong choice. When Lin's mother came to find him, he should agree to her proposal, so that the conflict between Lin Heyuan and his family would not become so intense.
Did his selfishness really hurt Lin Heyuan? In other words, can he and Lin Heyuan really go on in this situation
Lin Chengyu was still accompanying him, seeing him in a trance, and feeling very anxious.
"Jiang Xiao, it's not your fault," he whispered to Jiang Xiao on the way home, "everything will be fine."
No matter what is going on with Lin Heyuan, he can't let anyone hurt Jiang Xiao.
He met Lin Heyuan the next day.
When Jiang Xiao was studying by himself at night and after school, he was standing downstairs panting heavily, his eyes lit up when he saw Jiang Xiao.
Jiang Xiao was also very surprised to see him, or surprise accompanied by fright, and quickly ran over, but after running closer, he found a bruise at the corner of his eye.
"I bumped into it accidentally," Lin Heyuan explained to him, and added carefully, "When I was arguing with my family."
He ran out by himself. If his mother hadn't stopped him, the situation at home would have been even worse a few days ago.
Jiang Xiao wanted to take him home and give him some medicine, but Lin Chengyu who followed behind stopped him.
"How do you explain this to your mother when you go back? Go to my house."
Xia Wanwan is preparing for the accountant exam recently. She has been taking the exam for two years, and there are only two exams left this year. Jiang Xiao hasn't had time to tell him about these things.
After thinking about it, he took people to Lin Chengyu's house.
The wound at the corner of the eye should be carefully applied with medicine. There are other thin bloodstains on Lin Heyuan's arm. I don't know what they used to smoke them. Fortunately, they are not serious. They say his mother stopped them.
Jiang Xiao even thought about whether calling the police would work or not, but now most of the criticism and education of parents is useless, that is Lin Heyuan's family situation, and he can't avoid it.
"Does it hurt?"
Jiang Xiao asked him while applying the medicine.
He himself felt his heart throbbing.
"It's okay," Lin Heyuan said, "I'm worried about you, and I always want to see you. Last time I came back, I didn't say a few words to you. I was in a hurry, and I didn't have time to give you the medal I got back. look."
He took the gold medal out of his pocket.
"I brought it out specially today, for you."
Lin Heyuan was trying to make the atmosphere more relaxed, but Jiang Xiao couldn't laugh no matter what.
From the first time he saw Lin Heyuan today, his heart sank.
He doesn't know how to help Lin Heyuan, can he help him leave that house? Does he have the right to do so? Can it really be done
Jiang Xiao is just a high school student now, and has some money in his hand, but he doesn't have enough money in this matter.
The resistance between him and Lin Heyuan is very likely to be fruitless.
Lin Heyuan also felt his emotions.
"I'm sorry," he took Jiang Xiao's hand, "I came today to apologize to you."
If Lin Chengyu hadn't stopped him, although the school wouldn't let Jiang Xiao drop out because of his grades, it would still hurt him.
Lin Heyuan only found out after the fact, but that's not the end.
Even if he tries hard not to go abroad, he is now an adult, and he can sign a contract to study at a domestic university according to the recommended line, which is the most he can do, but what about Jiang Xiao
Just like what his father said, Jiang Xiao was still in his third year of high school. During such an important time in his third year of high school, if he was affected a little, it would eventually affect the college entrance examination.
He has plenty of ways to deal with his little boyfriend until both parties give up.
Even his mother, who is more accepting, said the same thing when she secretly let him out this time.
"Go and say goodbye to him," she said to him, "If this continues, it will be bad for both of you, Xiao Yuan, you are young now, you still don't understand, when you grow up, you will The right to choose, otherwise you will only hurt yourself and Jiang Xiao.
Think about it when you're a little older. "
How motivated Lin Heyuan was when he resisted, how powerless he felt after hearing this sentence.
Because mom is telling the truth.
He found that he had no way out, and he couldn't protect Jiang Xiao well now.
Take the incident last time as an example, if Lin Chengyu hadn't stopped him, the consequences would have been disastrous.
But this is only the first time, his father has never been so angry, if the stalemate continues, there will always be times when Jiang Xiao cannot be taken care of.
Lin Heyuan's weakness is Jiang Xiao, and Jiang Xiao's weakness at this time is also him.
His hand holding the cotton swab was trembling slightly, wondering why it happened like this? Looking at the shiny gold medal, he felt his eyes hurt, and he already felt an indescribable sense of guilt.
Lin Heyuan is a very good person, he shouldn't have to endure these.
He won the medal, and he should go to the best university in the world, not because he broke up with his family, his future is uncertain, and his face is still bruised.
Besides, Lin Heyuan is really young, if he makes a decision that really affects his life now, Jiang Xiao can't guarantee that he won't regret it in the future.
He has some regrets now.
He brings bad results to the people he likes.
Lin Heyuan also saw Jiang Xiao's silence, he stretched out his hand and slowly hugged Jiang Xiao into his arms.
The two did not speak again.
Not even talking about going abroad, Lin Heyuan who ran away didn't even have a place to live, Jiang Xiao could let him live in his own house, or find a hotel for him, but these were not long-term solutions, he didn't have the ability to go out independently, In this situation, Jiang Xiao didn't have the heart to be with him without caring about everything.
Lin Heyuan has studies and a family, his father is not good, but Lin’s mother is not bad, Jiang Xiao thinks that the eyes she looks at her are really similar to Xia Wanwan’s, Jiang Xiao also has studies and a family, Xia Wanwan is not yet know about it.
Neither of them was wrong, maybe it was just the wrong time.
"When I'm with you, I'm really happy," Jiang Xiao said softly, "Lin Heyuan, you're very nice, but I don't want to keep making trouble like this."
It sounds romantic to abandon the whole world for that one person in love, but Jiang Xiao has passed that period of time, and the courage in love also needs a sense of proportion.
Neither was ready.
"...Jiang Xiao?"
"Because I'm not worth it to you, and no one is worth it to you."
After saying this sentence, Jiang Xiao didn't speak again.
He had already expressed his meaning very clearly, but it was not easy, so he couldn't open his mouth to say it again.
Lin Heyuan said sorry to him again, and it was the first time he heard crying in his voice.
Even if he is unwilling, he has no way to lie to Jiang Xiao, and if he can't say it again, we just promise not to break up.
They borrowed Lin Chengyu's space for temporary use, the place is only so big, and Lin Chengyu actually sat not far away, he could hear everything Jiang Xiao said, hearing this, his ears moved, and his body unconsciously leaned to this side Leaned.
Jiang Xiao saw him out of the corner of his eye, so he thought of something else.
In his previous life, when he was Lin Heyuan's age, he made a lot of immature decisions. He failed in his studies and separated from his relatives. He thought he had met someone who could be with him for a lifetime, but in fact he regretted it.
He was afraid that Lin Heyuan would regret it in the future.
Jiang Xiao didn't fall asleep that night, and he arrived home very late.
Neither he nor Lin Heyuan said the word breakup, but today's direction is always clear.
After making this decision, my heart did not relax, it was still heavy, like being pulled down by a stone.
After he was promoted to the third year of high school, the school's evening self-study lasted until 10:40, and it was 11:00 when he returned home from school. Xia Wanwan's daily biological clock was very accurate, and she usually went to bed around 10:30, so Jiang Xiao came back late. Nor was it found.
He kept his eyes open that night, crying uncontrollably.
The fate of two people being together is always hard to come by. Some of them don't get along, but they don't get along. He has had it. When they were together, Lin Heyuan treated him very well, and that was enough.
His eyes were swollen when he was in class the next day. Lin Chengyu noticed it and thought it would be uncomfortable to keep his eyes open like this. In the early morning self-study, he sneaked out and bought a bottle of ice water for Jiang Xiao. Bought a hot egg from the breakfast stand.
He didn't know whether hot compresses or cold compresses would be better, so he bought them all.
When he sneaked back, he was still caught by the head teacher. Even if he donated money to the school, he still had to abide by the school’s discipline. After a few words of training, he returned to his seat. Fortunately, the ice water and egg temperature are still there.
He secretly stuffed things to Jiang Xiao, thought for a while, and added: "Don't be sad."
Lin Chengyu was not good at comforting people, and he was afraid that he was talking too much and making mistakes, but when he saw that Jiang Xiao was not feeling well, he also felt sad along with him.
"Don't be afraid," Lin Chengyu said again, "You don't have to worry about those people in Lin Heyuan's family. If I'm here for a day, I will protect you. You can make whatever decision you want. You don't have to wrong yourself, as long as... you Just be happy."
He meant it when he said it.
As long as Jiang Xiao is not sad.
Jiang Xiao held the ice water in one hand and the egg in the other. He lowered his eyes and remained silent for a while before continuing, "Leave it alone."
The matter between him and Lin Heyuan, Lin Chengyu had been helped by his ex-boyfriend several times before, and it was already considered chaotic, and he should not be allowed to intervene after this incident.