There is no room for change in things.
After Jiang Xiao made this decision, he met Lin Heyuan once.
Lin Heyuan persisted a little longer than he wanted to, but he soon discovered that such persistence was useless.
Not only Jiang Xiao has a tendency to give up, but his family can't give in, not even a single step, and if it goes on, it will only trouble Jiang Xiao.
The nature of the family problem is that he has not yet had the strength to make his own decision and fully bear the consequences of that decision.
"... If I knew this, I wouldn't go to the competition," Lin Heyuan took Jiang Xiao's hand, he seemed to have grown up a few years, and there was some gloom in his brows, "Jiang Xiao, I'm still very excited." Like you, if I don't take the exam, we can go to the first university and things won't turn out like this."
But at that time, it was because of Jiang Xiao that he worked so hard to win the prize in the physics competition.
But in many cases, liking alone cannot go on. What's more, no matter how deep the liking was when I was young, it lacks support.
Seeing the gloomy expression on his expression, Jiang Xiao felt a dull pain in his heart, which he couldn't describe.
"How can you say that? The grades belong to you," Jiang Xiao showed a smile on his face, and stretched out his hands to rub his frowning brows away, "This is the one thing I don't regret the most."
He still remembers the first time he read Lin Heyuan's physics class notes. His notes in other subjects are very serious, except for physics. His physics class notes are interesting. Some parts are like essays. It can be seen that he is writing down these moods.
Lin Heyuan always liked physics very much.
A good relationship means that both parties become better people during this time.
He also hoped that Lin Heyuan would get through this ups and downs, and still be that high-spirited and super powerful person.
I will get better too.
Jiang Xiao thought.
Although neither he nor Lin Heyuan said the word breakup, they separated in the end.
He also met with Lin's mother later.
"I'm sorry for what happened before, on behalf of my husband. I never intended to hurt you," she said, "I also want to thank you."
If Jiang Xiao was also stubborn, Lin Heyuan would not give up either. The matter fell into a vicious circle, and I don't know what it will turn out to be.
Although she also felt that sooner or later, her husband would suffer in the future because of this rigid and promiscuous character, but at this time, the children hit the south wall with blood, and she was even more unwilling to see it.
Jiang Xiao didn't say anything, she didn't really want to accept her sorry and thank you.
He just still remembers the two words his mother gave him in his previous life, learning to let go of things that don't belong to him.
Maybe Lin Heyuan at this time is destined not to belong to him.
Jiang Xiao was destined to never forget this time in his third year of high school.
Lin Heyuan's resistance was not completely fruitless, and Lin Qingyu seemed to be affected by this incident. She transferred to another school, and the whole Lin family had to move away, to the provincial capital, and never planned to come back.
That girl came to see Jiang Xiao before she left.
"Thank you for sending me so many things. This time it's our family's problem. Jiang Xiao, you are very nice. I hope you will be happy in the future."
She brought Jiang Xiao the last gift that Lin Heyuan prepared before leaving.
a small box.
After the box was opened, there was a note on the top. On the gold-sprinkled red note, there was a sentence written with a calligraphy brush. It was Lin Heyuan's handwriting, and he also recognized it.
——Mo Chou has no confidant in the road ahead.
When he saw this, he really laughed. I also hope that Lin Heyuan is like this, even if we are separated, we can still meet other confidants.
In addition to this note, there was a small box inside the box, which was locked, and the small key was put aside. A note was hung on the key, which said, please wait until Jiang Niannian finishes the college entrance examination before opening it.
Jiang Xiao has always been very obedient. He said he would read it after the college entrance examination, so he put away the box.
Lin Chengyu actually had a conversation with Lin Heyuan.
The two of them really didn't get along all the time, but that day Jiang Xiao took Lin Heyuan to his house to get medicine. After saying those things, Jiang Xiao went home, and Lin Heyuan still stayed there for a while.
"Thank you for helping Jiang Xiao with that incident before."
What Lin Heyuan said was what his father did, if he hadn't been stopped, it would be useless for him to apologize to Jiang Xiao no matter how much he tried.
Lin Chengyu glanced at him and replied, "No, I'm not for you."
Lin Heyuan was silent for a while, and then said: "I don't know what happened between you and Jiang Xiao...but now I envy you."
Lin Heyuan has always had the upper hand in the open and secret fight between the two of Jiang Xiao, because Jiang Xiao has a bias in his heart, Lin Heyuan never thought that he would envy each other one day.
Lin Chengyu transferred from Liujiang to Houlin. He didn't know exactly how he convinced his family, but in this situation, it is indeed enviable to be able to do this.
He can at least not be imprisoned by his family, and he can also keep his family members from hurting the people he likes.
Lin Heyuan thought that this person was a little crazy, but after such a long period of time, even if he is crazy, the side facing Jiang Xiao is always good.
Due to the opposition of his family, others have completed their studies after going abroad, and there will be a day when they will come back. It may not be impossible to continue their relationship at that time, but Lin Heyuan does not dare to imagine this.
Because of Lin Chengyu.
Jiang Xiao has him by his side, is it possible that he will wait for several years just to wait for him to come back? Even if it wasn't for Lin Chengyu, after such a long time, he would always meet someone else.
No matter how good the relationship is, it can't afford to wait for a long time.
"Nobody's going to stand around and wait, are they?"
When Lin Heyuan said this, it was more like talking to himself, he was trying to accept the unacceptable reality.
Lin Chengyu was also poked by this sentence.
This time I will always be with Jiang Xiao, he thought silently.
After Lin Heyuan left, he also knew that Jiang Xiao was uncomfortable.
People like Jiang Xiao, who don’t want to disturb my studies, would be in a trance during the last semester. In the final exam of the second year of high school, I got the third place in the city, and in the first month of the third year of high school, my grades slipped to eleventh in the grade. , fell out of the top ten in the grade.
Lin Chengyu had read his papers, and the mistakes were all very simple questions.
The teacher also felt that he was not in the right state, even if his grades fluctuated, he shouldn't be like this. He talked to Jiang Xiao a few times, and his tone was very good, but Jiang Xiao couldn't speak.
"It's okay," Jiang Xiao said to the head teacher, "I'll make adjustments myself."
But he didn't.
Houlin No. 1 Middle School usually holds parent-teacher meetings on the Saturday after the results of the midterm exam. Xia Wanwan also knows that Jiang Xiao is not in the right mood recently. She is more afraid of something wrong with her son than her grades.
Regarding the matter of Jiang Xiao and Lin Heyuan, although Jiang Xiao never said anything about it, Xia Wanwan can guess a little about it now.
The presents he gave Jiang Xiao every year on his birthday, the fight with Jiang Cheng and his gang last time, and now, after Lin Heyuan left, Jiang Xiao's mentality about his grades has changed. How could Xia Wanwan have no idea at all
But Lin Heyuan has indeed left.
After the parent meeting, Xia Wanwan led Jiang Xiao back home.
Jiang Xiao kept his head down, and after entering the house, he said sorry to her in a low voice.
"I'll pass the exam later," he said, "I..."
He couldn't say anything, so he curled up on the sofa and remained silent.
Xia Wanwan rubbed his hair, and then asked him: "Do you like boys every year?"
Jiang Xiao shivered all over, and he shrank himself back on the sofa.
"I like Lin Heyuan, right?"
After waiting for a long time, Jiang Xiao slowly came out of the curled up state, and replied with a hoarse voice: "Yes."
Xia Wanwan reached out to hug her son, and patted his back again and again, as if she was coaxing him to sleep when she was a child.
"Blame me," she said, "I should have found out earlier."
"Aren't you angry?"
Jiang Xiao asked her.
"It's not Niannian's fault," she said, "Why are you angry? Xiao Lin left. If Niannian is not feeling well, you can tell your mother."
Jiang Xiao buried his head on her shoulder.
"I'm just..." he choked up a little, "I'm just a little uncomfortable."
When he was studying at school and taking exams, he couldn't control himself and was always distracted. Sometimes he can't help but wonder if there is something wrong with him
But what did I do wrong
Many people told him, Jiang Xiao, you have no problems at all, Lin Qingyu said, Lin Heyuan said, even Lin's mother told him.
But the result is always like this, like some kind of curse.
"It's not every year's fault," Xia Wanwan told him, "It's hard to talk about this kind of thing."
She slowly told her son about her experiences when she was young.
Xia Wanwan is good-looking now, and she was even more beautiful when she was young. Before she got married, she also met a few people, some good and some bad, and finally met Jiang Xiao's father, Jiang Hai.
"...after meeting your father, I thought this was the way it should be in this life, this is the person, but it still backfired," Xia Wanwan sighed, "When your father just left, I couldn't figure it out for a while."
Later, it was her son who gave her courage and allowed her to survive.
"Regardless of men and women, no matter who they are, it is always fate to be together. When I was younger, I felt that the relationship is to stay together for a lifetime, but now I understand that the relationship of being able to stay together for a lifetime is of course very good. But that's very little.
When two people are together, they face too many uncertain factors. It is a great blessing to be able to get it forever, and it is often with regret. "
She rubbed Jiang Xiao's hair, and continued: "It's the same when you grow up, every year, maybe you will meet other people, they may stay or leave, every year, you have a clear conscience. Okay. You will always understand in the future that the important thing in a relationship is not only the time spent together, but what the other party leaves for you after separation is also important. If your father left you for me, it is already very good. "
Jiang Xiao had nothing to say in response, he just listened carefully.
He thought about all the happy past when he and Lin Heyuan were together. Every time he went to Liujiang to buy goods, he went there with expectations, because he could bring Lin Heyuan back with things, and every time he went to self-study with him, he would With the feeling of two people moving forward together, he was a little more motivated to study.
During this period of time when he was studying, he always felt that something was missing, and it was easy to get distracted.
He muffledly responded, and after Xia Wanwan found out and said these words, he seemed to be unable to hold on any longer, buried himself on his mother's shoulder, and cried for a while, unable to hold back his tears.
The first love of his life just passed away like this, there was always discomfort and grievance, but such emotions could not last, after crying a lot, one still had to look forward.