Lu Xiuwen's face turned pale.
Why did things still become like this? In the last life, he carefully loved this person, but this person betrayed him, and his true love couldn't keep this person... In this life, he doesn't want to make that kind of mistake again, and he will do whatever he can. The man was in his own hands, but in the end he still had to leave him.
Did you really do something wrong
Lu Xiuwen knew that his actions were not upright, because he chose a shortcut, and he did everything for this, but things eventually got out of control like the previous life.
The human heart is probably the most difficult and unpredictable thing in the world to control.
Lu Xiuwen's hand clenched tightly, trembling slightly, he was afraid that he would do something more extreme because of impulse.
Just like what the devil in his heart had wished for in the dead of night, he would take Ye Ming back and lock him up, so that he could never leave his side, and could not escape his sight... But he couldn't bear to see Ye Ming in pain and sadness. eyes.
After a long time, Lu Xiuwen let out a long sigh. He took a step back, looked down at Ye Ming deeply, and said in a hoarse voice, "Okay."
After saying that, he turned and left.
Maybe he was too hasty, and if he continued to stay, Ye Ming would only feel that he was using means to force him to fool him, right
Once he is no longer trusted, whatever he does is untrustworthy in Ye Ming's eyes.
Lu Xiuwen realized this, and the dullness in his heart was indescribable, but in the end he lied to Ye Ming first, he couldn't blame him, he was the one who made the mistake first.
[Ding, Lu Xiuwen's blackening value is -5, the current blackening value is 15]
Ye Ming looked at the back of Lu Xiuwen's departure, went back to the bedroom without saying a word, and closed the door. As soon as he raised his head, he met Hu Lei's embarrassed and curious eyes.
Ye Ming didn't say anything and climbed onto the bed silently, facing the wall clutching the pendant on his chest tightly, tears streaming down his face.
In fact, he is not willing to drive Lu Xiuwen away at all, he loves him so much... But if he doesn't let Lu Xiuwen go, is it possible that he will continue to come back to him and be a fool who doesn't know anything
He can't.
Hu Lei looked at Ye Ming's shoulders slightly shrugging, and knew that this kid was not afraid to cry again... He didn't know what was the conflict between him and Lu Xiuwen. The usual soft-hearted style has rarely been tough.
But the more this happened, the more Hu Lei felt that Ye Ming was afraid that something big might not happen.
…
Ye Ming fell asleep in a daze. When he woke up again, it was already the next day. He didn't have to go to class to sleep as he wanted. Moreover, the happy days when people came back to feed from meals were coming to an end, Ye Ming was sad. sighed.
[Ye Ming: If Wei Weicai hadn't reminded me, I would have forgotten about my lack of money...]
[888: Good reminder.]
[Ye Ming:…]
[Ye Ming: Uncle 5555 just left, I'm really sad, I told him to get out and he actually got out. He didn't even persuade me anymore, and left me alone and penniless at school. .]
[888:…]
[Ye Ming: Uncle doesn't want me anymore 5555]
[888: If you cried like this when he left yesterday, instead of crying when you are full, it might look more realistic. Just a little advice, not directed at you, I hope you don't think about it too much.]
[Ye Ming:…]
Ye Ming slept until noon, and Hu Lei brought him back with lunch. He silently ate his classmate's loving lunch, thinking that he couldn't go on like this anymore, otherwise his personality would collapse.
Ye Ming had eaten, and after hesitating for a long time, he finally said to Hu Lei, "The part-time job you found for me before, do you still need someone now?"
Hu Lei was stunned. They did part-time jobs together during the summer vacation, but wasn't that for social practice? Afterwards, everyone knew Ye Ming's identity, so he never looked for it again. He didn't expect Ye Ming to suddenly bring up this matter.
Besides, now that the school starts, there is not so much time in the summer vacation, and it is a bit hard to work part-time, so there is no need.
Hu Lei hesitated for a moment, and said, "There is always a need for people at the tutoring side. You can go anytime, but what are you asking about?"
Ye Ming looked at him, suddenly showed a very light smile, and whispered a little embarrassedly: "I want to find something to do, but it's not good for you to spend money all the time."
This is the first time Ye Ming has shown a smile in this period of time. He seems to have recovered a lot, but Hu Lei knows that he must still care about it in his heart. Otherwise, why should he work part-time to make money? The Lu family is not short of this money, but they are determined to draw a clear line with Lu Xiuwen!
Why didn't I find this gentle boy so stubborn before
Hu Lei scratched his head and said, "Do you still mind Wei Weicai's bastard words? You have to calculate this amount of money so clearly with me? What's the matter with how many meals you have, you really can't eat enough for me."
Ye Ming paused, looked into his eyes and said seriously: "I know you are my brother, and I don't care about the money for these meals, but I still can't keep asking you to pay... Besides, I need a job, You can't help me with everything in the future, can you?"
Hu Lei saw that Ye Ming was really insisting, and remembered how he was determined to drive Lu Xiuwen away at that time, he sighed in his heart, and finally said, "Okay."
It's really hard to think of a good young master from a wealthy family who wants to work part-time to make money.
Ye Ming's life is back to normal. He goes to school during the day and works part-time at night, and he is busy all of a sudden, but because of the previous farce, more people pay attention to him, and there seems to be someone pointing at him wherever he goes...
In the past, Ye Ming was most concerned about these things. He was afraid of other people's bad opinions, so he alienated his classmates because of escapism. Now it seems that he has seen a lot more, and he doesn't mind what others say, even in the face of maliciousness.
It's like a greenhouse flower that has endured hardships and finally learned to grow, and it does.
After leaving Lu Xiuwen, he can no longer be so stupid and naive. He has to learn to rely on himself. This process must be difficult and painful, but he can't turn back, he must learn to grow up.
That day, Ye Ming returned to the dormitory from the student's house. It was past ten o'clock in the evening. He collapsed on the bed tired and quickly fell asleep.
[Ye Ming: Why am I suffering, why should I be so distracted! ! !]
[888: The death that I do, I have to do it even when I kneel down.]
[Ye Ming: I miss my uncle. If my uncle was here, I would be reluctant to work so hard QAQ right, what about my uncle? Why haven't seen him for so long, does he really want me?]
[888: emmmmm]
[Ye Ming: ... You don't really care about me, do you? impossible!]
[888: No, I look at you every day, you know what to ask yourself? Indifference jpg] If it was him, he would never care about this spicy chicken. Human thoughts are really elusive.
Ye Ming breathed a sigh of relief, and he just said, how could Lu Xiuwen, who is 100% favored, really ignore him? It's just that the real crisis has not yet reached, and Lu Xiuwen felt that he was angry, so he didn't dare to show up. Is it because he wanted to follow the stocking policy, or he felt that he could not escape his grasp.
Although Lu Xiuwen got his love in this life and eliminated a lot of blackening values, the final knot in his heart is his betrayal and those words in the previous life. To eliminate those blackening values, he still needs to wait for a key person. appeared, and if he didn't temporarily leave Lu Xiuwen's side, and if he didn't find a chance to open those scars, this knot would never be eliminated.
Ye Ming thought of this and sighed, why hasn't his assist come yet? ?
He wants to go back to his uncle's big house, and he doesn't want to go to school and work anymore. Poverty is his biggest enemy!
…
A fulfilling life just goes by so slowly! It was almost like a year. After more than a month, Ye Ming felt that he had lost a lot of weight. When he looked in the mirror, he felt bad for himself. He couldn't believe that Lu Xiuwen didn't feel bad!
The student Ye Ming taught was a rude boy. He was disobedient, had a poor foundation, and was especially rude to him. Ye Ming wanted to beat the rude boy to death countless times with his sleeves. He taught him how to be a good person and realized the cruelty of society. But in order not to collapse his simple and kind-hearted little white rabbit's character, he held back his temper without losing his temper, and he had to be patient with repeated teachings. When he came out at night, he felt that he was about to have a myocardial infarction.
This job is much more difficult than playing in front of my uncle, at least it doesn't need to be so suffocating, this is too suffocating!
Ye Ming, with a gloomy expression on his face, rode his bicycle back to the dormitory at night—yes, he didn't even use it to save money, so he switched to a shared bicycle! Is it easy for him? ?
Ye Ming, who was riding a bicycle like a gossamer, was so depressed and sad that he didn't see the pit on the road. All of a sudden, the bike overturned on the side of the road and hit a flower bed on the side of the road. He fell and grinned.
[Ye Ming: Wow, ah, ah, it hurts, is the skin broken? ! Brother, what about my pain shield? !]
[888: Oh, I just went to the game and didn’t notice it. Since I took you to lose so many times last time, I vowed to get my face back in front of my colleagues. mind.]
[Ye Ming: ... ] A word of slang choked in his throat.
[888: Is there anything else? All right, I'll continue?]
[Ye Ming: ... I'm bleeding, you don't feel bad QAQ]
[888: Hurry to the hospital! Go to the hospital before the wound heals! The bleeding stopped when it was late!]
[Ye Ming:…]
Ye Ming sucked in a breath of cold air, his eyes were flushed, and tears of sadness almost flowed down. He felt that 888 was intentional. Not only did he not feel sorry for him anymore, but he even worsened the situation. Thinking of this... The sadness in his heart turned into a river, and he couldn't help but raise his head. Look up at the deep night sky.
Lu Xiuwen followed far behind, sitting in the black car, watching all this.
He didn't want to make Ye Ming miserable, didn't want him to feel that he was persecuting him, so he left the school that day, but how could he really ignore him? So these days, people have been looking at Ye Ming, and as long as he has time, he will come over in person, even if it is just a glance from a distance.
It's just that this process is much more painful than he imagined... Looking at the child he spoiled in the palm of his hand, slowly becoming stronger, Lu Xiuwen didn't feel any gratification in his heart, only distressed and helpless, but he couldn't appear.
Because Ye Ming doesn't want to see him now.
He wanted to take care of Ye Ming for the rest of his life, he didn't want him to see too much cruelty in society, he didn't want to see him too strong, he could have depended on himself... And Ye Ming was like this before, unconditionally trusting him and relying on him, Live by him.
It was he who screwed up all this. He could have used more gentle means, but he chose the most despicable means because of his unwillingness in his heart, so he lost the trust of this child.
The harsh reality finally made him grow up.
Lu Xiuwen clenched his hands tightly into fists and put them on his knees. He watched Ye Ming come out of the students' house very late at night. He rode his bike back to the dormitory by himself in such a deep night. He was probably too tired, and he lost his mind and fell down. He didn't get up from the ground for a long time, and his eyes were red as he sat there, and it seemed that he might cry at any time.
Lu Xiuwen used all his strength to restrain himself from rushing over to hug that person. If he rushed out now, Ye Ming would know that he had been following him, and he would hate him even more.
Lu Xiuwen closed his eyes in pain, but what was even more painful was that he knew that Ye Ming was still carrying the necklace he gave him.
You say so decisively, but you don't want to throw away the necklace I gave you, why
Such a simple question, Lu Xiuwen would not fail to understand, no matter what happened in the last life, at least in this life Ye Ming truly loved him and believed in him. his love.
He could have gotten this love in this life, but it was destroyed by his own selfish impulse.
Seeing Lu Xiuwen's appearance, Uncle Li, the driver, couldn't bear it, and persuaded in a low voice, "Mr. Lu, why don't you bring the young master back, he is childish, and he made trouble with you because he was too shocked and unexpected. Seeing that he also cares about you in his heart, that's why he is so sad."
Lu Xiuwen slightly pulled the corners of his mouth and said, "I know..."
He knew that Ye Ming still cared about him, but he couldn't forget the scene of Ye Ming's decision to let him go. There had never been one thing that made him feel so difficult. He loved that person, but couldn't let him come back.
This child... is more stubborn than he imagined... appearing now will only push him further and further away.
Ye Ming sat on the side of the road for a while, but he still didn't cry. He stood up and patted the dust on his clothes, then pushed his bicycle and left.
Lu Xiuwen followed slowly and watched Ye Ming go back to the bedroom. He sat downstairs almost all night, and didn't leave until it was almost dawn.
…
Ye Ming returned to the dormitory and lay down on the bed tiredly. Tomorrow weekend, not only could he not be able to sleep in late, but he had to work two more jobs. He tried his best to survive. This world is really cruel! Under the pressure of hunger and cold, he was almost out of the mood to fall in love!
After another two weeks, when Ye Ming was about to lose his patience, he finally got the news of 888. Song Qin came to him, and Ye Ming almost cried with joy when he heard the news!
In the last life, Song Qin came to look for him a little later, but in this life it was earlier, and Lu Xiuwen's rebirth still had an impact on the course of events.
This time, Lu Xiuwen guarded against Song Qin in advance, attacked him, directly excluded him from the bidding, and targeted him everywhere. Song Qin hated Lu Xiuwen even more. I heard that Lu Xiuwen liked Ye Ming, but Ye Ming had a relationship with Ye Ming. When he was in conflict, he finally hit Ye Ming.
Everyone knows that Ye Ming is Lu Xiuwen's weakness. Even if he can't move Lu Xiuwen, he will never let go of the opportunity to block Lu Xiuwen.
However, although Lu Xiuwen was not always by Ye Ming's side, he had been sending people to follow Ye Ming, and he did not intend to make the mistake of the previous life, so that Song Qin would have another chance to deceive Ye Ming, so if Ye Ming did not cooperate, Song Qin would not see him. to his.
On Saturday afternoon, Ye Ming came out of the cafe to work, his eyes moved, and instead of going to the place he frequented for dinner, he went straight to the subway.
Because it was the rush hour for commuting, the subway was crowded with people. Under the instructions of 888, Ye Ming successfully got rid of Lu Xiuwen's people, and then got off the bus at an intersection, while Song Qin quietly followed.
Ye Ming entered the old city and went to the cemetery in the north of the city alone, where his mother Gu Xueya was buried.
Soon it will be Gu Xueya's death day again. On this day every year, Lu Xiuwen will take him to pay homage to Gu Xueya... In the past so many years, Lu Xiuwen was his relative. Although he had no parents, Lu Xiuwen treated him well Love made up for it, and he wasn't alone.
But after losing Lu Xiuwen, he realized that he was helpless. He was an orphan without a father and mother. If his parents were still there, they would definitely protect him, take care of him, and wouldn't lie to him, Lu Xiuwen... Not after all. his relatives.
He is alone again.
Ye Ming missed his parents very much, and his uncontrollable desire brought him here. If he came earlier, he would not have met Lu Xiuwen, right
Ye Ming squatted down in front of the tombstone and cried again. He knew that he was so useless and fragile, but he couldn't control it... He really felt very painful and sad, and he couldn't hold on for countless times.
He wanted Mom and Dad, but Mom and Dad died.
He misses Uncle Lu, but why did Uncle Lu treat him like this... He was so kind to him and raised him, why did he treat him like this
why…
Mom, Dad, why did you leave me... I miss you so much, I don't want to be alone...
Just when Ye Ming was crying, a sigh suddenly sounded next to him: "It's so pitiful."
Ye Ming raised his head blankly, and saw a strange man standing beside him. The man looked at him with pity, he took out a handkerchief and handed it to Ye Ming, and said softly, "Wipe it."
Ye Ming didn't know him, so he didn't take his handkerchief, but wiped his face with his sleeve and said, "No, thank you."
Song Qin didn't force it. He folded the handkerchief again and put it in his pocket. He looked at Ye Ming deeply, and said, "Lu Xiuwen is really going too far towards you."
Ye Ming didn't expect this stranger to mention Lu Xiuwen's name, and even said such a thing, took a step back and looked at him coldly, "What do you mean?"
Song Qin smiled slightly: "Don't be nervous, I don't have any ill will towards you, I just happened to pass by here, I can't read it and said a few more words... Lu Xiuwen knows a lot about what you did, after all, he went to the school. , I know it's not surprising. I can't stand him bullying you, a child without parents, if you need help, you can come to me, this is my business card. "
Ye Ming hesitated for a while, but still took Song Qin's business card, turned his head and was about to leave. He didn't plan to talk about his personal affairs with strangers.
But before he could take two steps, Song Qin said quietly, "Speaking of which, don't you want to know why Lu Xiuwen did this to you?"
Why
Ye Ming's footsteps stopped, why? Even he can't understand this question, is it possible that an outsider can know it
Song Qin looked at Ye Ming's back and said, "Lu Xiuwen never told you that he loves Gu Xueya, right?"
Ye Ming suddenly turned to look at Song Qin, his lips trembled and his face turned pale.
Song Qin was very satisfied with the effect of his words, he said slowly: "Everyone knows about Lu Xiuwen's love for Gu Xueya, and only you young people don't know much about it. It wasn't a secret back then, after all. When Gu Xueya got married, he, as Gu Xueya's younger brother, made a big fuss about the wedding, and even forced Gu Xueya and his wife to leave this place. At that time, the city could be riotous. Although it was a bit reckless, this infatuation... everyone It's obvious to all... I just didn't expect him to be so infatuated. Twenty years later, Gu Xueya is dead, and he still misses her, raising her children and keeping them by his side."
Ye Ming listened to Song Qin's sentence, his brain was congested, and his eyes were dizzy, as if the whole world was turning upside down, it's impossible... it can't be like this...
It can't be like this...
Song Qin looked at him with pity, "If it's just raising you, that's all, it's a good thing, and we have to praise him for being infatuated... But he took you as Gu Xueya's stand-in and did anything to get it. , even the children you have raised are not spared, which is not as good as a beast. You are right to leave him, although the truth is more cruel, but it is worse than being kept in the dark, and it is also a good thing to know earlier. "
Ye Ming looked at him with red eyes, his eyes were fragile and collapsed as if to the limit, and he said hoarsely: "You lied to me!"
Song Qin shrugged and said, "I have no grievances with you. What's the need to lie to you? Besides, there are a lot of people who know about it. Even if you don't believe it now, you will listen to others sooner or later."
Song Qin knew very well what it means to stop in moderation, but talking too much made Ye Ming suspicious, so he turned around and left.
Looking at Ye Ming's appearance, he obviously believed it. After all, he didn't tell any lies. Song Qin's mouth twitched, Lu Xiuwen, if you can't get along with me, I'll cause you some trouble, aren't you very capable? Can't even handle a child
After waiting for Song Qin to leave for a long time, Ye Ming was still standing there without moving.
It was a little late, and the chill penetrated through the thin clothes and invaded his body, making him shudder... The tombstone beside him stood there, reminding him that his parents were buried here, and the gentle picture of the woman on the tombstone seemed to be there. smile at him.
Their eyebrows and eyes are very similar, and at a glance, they know that they are mother and son. Ye Ming looked at his mother, his eyes were a little dazed, and gradually, a sad color appeared in his eyes.
So... is this why Lu Xiuwen wanted to treat him like this
He raised himself because he loved his mother. He said he loved himself, but in fact he saw his mother through him. He did anything to get him, or because he was like a mother.
Because he was just a substitute for his mother, Lu Xiuwen was gentle and ruthless towards him.
It's all because of my mother...
The answer to which he couldn't even figure out why, was answered in an instant, but he would rather not know, because the answer was too cruel, too cruel to bear.
The person he loves the most, the tenderness he has treated for nearly twenty years, is just another person who he looks at through him.
This is the truth.
A big lie.
Ye Ming's body trembled slightly, he slowly raised his eyes, and saw Lu Xiuwen striding forward anxiously, this person he once loved deeply, and still loves deeply, but it was the one who hurt him the most. people.
Lu Xiuwen learned that his subordinates had followed Ye Ming, and quickly located his location through the necklace. He learned that he had come to Gu Xueya's cemetery. He could no longer pretend that nothing had happened, and when he heard that Song Qin had met Ye Ming, he finally couldn't control himself to see Ye Ming!
But as soon as he came, he saw Ye Ming standing in front of the tombstone, looking at him with an unfamiliar gaze he had never seen before.
Ye Ming saw Lu Xiuwen appear here, his eyes were indifferent...
He was very surprised why Lu Xiuwen appeared here. He didn't have any advance plan for his actions today, and he didn't tell anyone. It stands to reason that Lu Xiuwen couldn't find his trace so quickly.
If it was before, he would have been shocked, but at this moment, under the extreme grief, his brain was surprisingly calm.
Everything Lu Xiuwen does has a purpose and a reason. It must not be a coincidence that he can appear here. Why is that
The pendant on his chest was attached to his skin. This was the last thing he had left, and Lu Xiuwen gave him the last thing he couldn't bear to throw away. But at this moment... it seemed to burn his skin and scald his heart...
Lu Xiuwen wants to control him, possess him, and keep him as a substitute and an item in captivity, he can find himself, if he tracks him... Besides the necklace, what else
It turned out that from then on, he began to calculate himself.
The gifts he sent affectionately, entrusting their mutual love, turned out to be just a tool to follow him. He once looked at him with eyes full of love and anticipation, and said that he hoped he would wear it and hope he liked it.
He just wore it stupidly, and didn't want Lu Xiuwen to be sad, even if they were separated, he was reluctant to throw it away, because looking at this necklace, he would remember that Lu Xiuwen once loved him so much, and he wanted to cherish this love, assuming Lu Xiuwen still loves him follow him.
But now it's all just like a joke, mercilessly mocking his stupidity.
Those affectionate love words don't belong to him at all, they belong to his mother, only this cold tracker belongs to him...
There really is nothing more heart-wrenching than this, like a ridiculous farce.
Lu Xiuwen strode over, grabbed Ye Ming's wrist, and looked at him worriedly: "Why did you come here?"
Ye Ming looked up at him, his eyes nostalgic and sad, this time, he really should give up... It is the stupidest and most ridiculous thing to expect this person to love him... Ye Ming grabbed the necklace around his neck with one hand, Pull it straight off! Even if a bloodstain is pulled out from the neck, he doesn't care at all!
He threw the necklace hard on the ground, raised his eyebrows, and sneered: "What? Can't I come?"