Looking at Ye Ming's reaction, Lu Xiuwen finally had no way to deceive himself. Before that, he was still holding on to his tiny fantasies, eager to get a different answer from Ye Ming, but he didn't.
There are no other answers.
Ye Ming's fear, Ye Ming's surprise, Ye Ming's panic, every subtle expression and movement of Ye Ming... all proved his conjecture and forced him to face the cruel truth that he was most unwilling to accept.
His own life - for Ye Ming, it may just be an irrelevant game.
He lost his love in that world, and let regret and pain torture his heart day after day. He even thought of suicide countless times, thinking if he died like this, would he have another chance to be reborn, would he? There is still a chance to save it, is it that nightmare that will never wake up... you can wake up.
Now that he is finally dead, the dream has indeed awakened, but it is not liberation and rebirth that greets him, but another more absurd result.
When he drew a dungeon into a prison for a person, that person was living his own life recklessly, and he didn't even remember him at all.
The boy he loved with all his might, deceived his heart with a harmless appearance. He thought the love between them was unique in the world, but in fact Ye Ming had 'loved' many people, and these people were called Yang Gan, Ming Chong, Qin Yi, Jiang Ci, Li Zechen... They all love him deeply without exception, live and die for him, and have no idea that their world may be just a game for others.
I am no different from those people, just one of them.
If it wasn't for his chance to have the memories left by these people, he would still know nothing about it.
But now he finally understood that it was because Ye Ming was their 'lover' that Ye Ming knew them like the back of his hand... It was because Ye Ming was Gu Ran, so when he asked that sentence, he was afraid.
He was terrified of discovering it all by himself.
Lu Xiuwen stood there, it seemed that some blunt weapon was cutting his body little by little. Even if the sky was torn apart, his face was calm. At this moment, he was almost shattered under extreme pain, but he still endured it, not wanting to imagine a Like a fool who threw away his armor, he showed a sad side.
The more frightened Ye Ming behaved, the more intense the pain in Lu Xiuwen's heart, which proved that Ye Ming was only deceiving and fooling him, and he couldn't even deceive himself... Does Ye Ming have any difficulties
Sometimes living too awake is not a good thing.
Sometimes knowing too much is not a blessing.
Because I'm just an irrelevant game to you, so you can leave so ruthlessly, from beginning to end, you didn't even tell me the truth.
All that love and dependence is just a well-planned performance.
Lu Xiuwen laughed when he thought of this. In his life, he thought that he had lived soberly and clearly, that he could control everything, but he was actually the stupidest person. He couldn't even tell whether a person was sincere or not. .
Ridiculous.
"Xiao Ran..." Lu Xiuwen glanced at Ye Ming's room, seemed to be a little emotional, and said softly, "You have a good life in this world."
If there is anything to be thankful for in this cruel truth, it is probably... The person he loves is still alive.
Not only live, but also live happily.
As he had imagined in his dreams...
Ye Ming stared blankly at Lu Xiuwen, although Lu Xiuwen's expression was calm, even smiling, as if his long-lost friends were gossiping, but a chill appeared in his heart, and this kind of Lu Xiuwen made him even more terrified and elusive.
If Lu Xiuwen had already guessed his identity and had the memories of the previous few people, he should have known that he had lied to more than one person like him. With Lu Xiuwen's character, how could he be as indifferent as he is now
Think from another perspective, if the person you love with all your heart dies and suffers for many years, only to find out that you are just a game of others and have been fooled and deceived all the time. The other party has not only never truly loved you, but has many lovers... With one exception, they tricked them around in circles, and they murdered them out of rage!
The more Ye Ming thought about it, the more frightened he became. To save others by himself, he trembled even more, and even wondered if he was going to call for help, but he didn't want to do anything, and he didn't want things to develop to that point. He finally rolled his eyes and thought There is a way.
Ye Ming's eyes were suddenly covered with a layer of water mist, as if he had just recovered from the shock, he looked at Lu Xiuwen with inconceivably complicated eyes, and trembled: "Could it be... that dream is true..."
"You, are you Uncle Lu..." Ye Ming looked at Lu Xiuwen excitedly, "But, isn't that a dream? How could you..."
That's right! Never admit that you are a liar! I just happened to have a dream about you, I just experienced Gu Ran's life in the dream, and I happened to fall in love with you. This is an unexplainable supernatural event... Although the ending is the same, the active and conscious crime, and the unconscious There is still a difference between accidental injury, it is a matter of attitude!
"Uncle, is it really you?" Ye Ming looked at him with emotion, as if in disbelief.
Ye Ming, who has experienced many battles, is certainly not the same as before. With this moving expression and realistic performance, even Lu Xiuwen can hardly see any flaws... He couldn't help but recall everything in the past. .
But the more this happened, the colder Lu Xiuwen's heart became, and his hand clenched tightly.
In fact, he had no intention of arguing with Ye Ming. There was nothing to scoff at, but his life was not good. Just like a character in a game, there is no reason to reason with the player, and there is no reason to blame the player for being dishonest to him. His existence is so sad.
It's just that he shouldn't be in the real world.
However, being fooled by his beloved as a fool, and still trying to deceive him, this is an insult to him! It's not enough for this person to put his love on the ground and trample on it, and he will continue to lie to him even now!
Lu Xiuwen's eyes suddenly became fierce and full of hostility, and his whole person exuded a chilling aura. He stepped forward abruptly, bent over and pinched Ye Ming's chin, the corners of his lips twitched, and he said coldly, "It's me, Surprised isn't it?"
Ye Ming saw that Lu Xiuwen, who was calm and indifferent just now, showed such a fierce expression in an instant, as if the calm sea caused a storm without warning! Really scared! It seems to have the opposite effect!
Although he was very scared when he was exposed before, Lu Xiuwen didn't look angry and wanted to hurt him. In the end, Ye Ming was still a little bit fearless. No matter how conscious he was, he subconsciously thought that Lu Xiuwen would not hurt him, and he was lucky... At this moment, when Lu Xiuwen was really so angry, he was very cowardly again. Ye Ming blinked and thought a lot, and felt that his life was the most important thing! When he opened his mouth to call for help, Lu Xiuwen responded faster and covered his mouth with one hand.
Ye Ming's eyes widened, and before he could resist, Lu Xiuwen grabbed his hands and pressed them hard on the top of his head.
Lu Xiuwen knelt down beside him on one knee, shrouded in a tall and oppressive body, his stern and well-defined face was only cold at the moment, and his dark pupils were filled with terrifying emotions that he could not understand, as if The rainstorm is about to come, and everything will be torn apart!
Help!
If 888 was still around at this moment, he might have heard a system prompt like: Ding, target Lu Xiuwen's blackening value is +10000, the current blackening value is 10000... Master 8, woohoo, I miss you! ! !
I am dead. It is estimated that tomorrow my parents will wake up and knock on the door and find that there is no answer. When I push the door, I will find that my son died tragically at home. The murderer died with him. The scene is very bloody and cruel. It's love murder!
Then this incident was on the news, and the majority of netizens attacked him again after coming out with the truth: a third-rate little star was actually a rich and powerful family, but because of the chaos in his private life, he stepped on many boats, and finally it was revealed that he was killed by his boyfriend at home. Before his death, he was covered in red fruit and was suspected of suffering from blablabla... Wait! Where did he think he went!
No, no, you must save yourself now. Since that method just now doesn't work, and instead stimulates Lu Xiuwen even more, there is only one last resort left. Use sincere remorse to impress the people in front of you, and don't play tricks!
Ye Ming thought of this, his eyes showed pleading eyes, and he looked at Lu Xiuwen sobbing, not to mention how pitiful and pitiful his appearance was.
Lu Xiuwen looked at him, his expression still cold, without the slightest wave, as if he was not moved at all.
But in fact, his heart was not so calm, his palm touched Ye Ming's lips, his hand grabbed his, his lover was still alive, and he was in his control at the moment, unable to resist or escape .
That year, night and night, he could only live alone in an empty house, facing the empty house, recalling the existence of this person.
Never really touched him again...
He thought he had lost him forever, but in fact the one he loved didn't die. Not only was he alive, but he also lived a good life, living a happy life with both parents. This is his true destination... Lu Xiuwen felt the saddest The thing is, even if this person has been lying to him and doesn't care about him at all, he is still grateful for everything in front of him, hoping that this person is okay.
But Lu Xiuwen won't show it, just because he doesn't want this person to know that he still loves him.
"Do you know how painful I was when you died?" Lu Xiuwen's voice seemed to have no emotion.
Ye Ming's body froze, he couldn't answer, and he couldn't answer.
The corner of Lu Xiuwen's lips twitched, and his sharp eyes fell on his face, revealing a self-deprecating arc, "That death was not an accident, it was designed by you, right?"
Ye Ming suddenly shook his head desperately! Although he knew that he was going to die within ten days, that was really not designed by him, it was a random death gift package given by the main system, so he should not choose such a low death method! It's definitely not a lie this time!
Lu Xiuwen let out a sarcastic chuckle, "Isn't it? Yes, that method is really bad to design, but... even if it didn't happen, you would have left, right? It's just like the first time you left me."
"Since it's just a game destined to end, then you must have a purpose. Let me guess, what do you want from me?" Lu Xiuwen's voice was indifferent, he paused, and then said: "You want me to love you, don't you?"
Ye Ming's pupils shrank a little, he was really a little panicked this time, but from such limited information, Lu Xiuwen could infer so many things, if he gave him a little more time, he would find out the truth. impossible…
"It seems that I guessed right, you want my love..." Lu Xiuwen lowered his eyes, his bottomless black eyes stared at Ye Ming's face, that calm expression made Ye Ming's heart skip a beat .
Lu Xiuwen leaned down slowly and looked at Ye Ming from an extreme distance, so that he could clearly see the fear in Ye Ming's pupils.
Ye Ming felt that the hands that were holding him were getting harder and harder, and he almost hurt his bones, and the man's ruthless face was slowly approaching, and finally realized that even if Lu Xiuwen really killed him, it didn't seem impossible...
No one can save him this time, this time is his real world, not a game that can be restarted.
Unprecedented fear made Ye Ming close his eyes, like a prisoner on the execution ground, waiting for the final sentence, the unknown danger made his body tremble slightly, just when he thought that Lu Xiuwen might do something extreme. , and suddenly heard a faint sigh in his ear.
"You win, I love you."
Lu Xiuwen slowly let go of Ye Ming's hand. In fact, he didn't want to let go and was not willing to leave, but he did it anyway.
Even if this person deceived him like this, after experiencing the heart-wrenching despair, after losing this person once... How could he still hurt this person
When you left for the first time, even though you were not by my side, I knew that you were still alive in a certain corner of the world... I couldn't control my unwillingness, I tried everything to save it, and I didn't want to be betrayed again, even if To get you in a controlled way too, I swear to change everything.
I had hatred in my heart at that time.
But the second time you left, when I realized that you disappeared from my world forever and never came back, I finally understood a truth.
That is - there is nothing more important than your good life.
No matter what the truth is, no matter how cruel the reality is, it will not be more painful than parting from life and death. If you are destined to face that kind of pain, I would rather you live in a place I don't know.
Compared to being the one who was left alone again, staying forever in that endless cycle of reincarnation... Revenge seems to have become meaningless, so it's better to just leave like this.
Just let yourself become your dream.
What's more, Lu Xiuwen had a hunch that he would not stay for long. Fate brought him here, probably not to let him and Ye Ming die together, but to give him an answer.
Now that he has this answer, there is nothing left to miss.
"Don't be afraid, I will leave." A faint smile appeared on Lu Xiuwen's face again, as if the terrifying man just now was just an illusion, he took another deep look at Ye Ming and slowly turned around.
Ye Ming put his hands on the ground, propped up his upper body, and stared at Lu Xiuwen blankly.
What's going on... He just, let him go like this
I just said a few words, and finally left without doing anything...
Why
Ye Ming looked at Lu Xiuwen's back, the tall and heavy back seemed to be covered with a tragic color, and he was slowly getting farther and farther away from him, just like this, he wanted to leave his world.
He couldn't deceive himself any more, saying that he didn't know the reason why Lu Xiuwen left.
In fact, he understands it better than anyone else, doesn't he
Even if you know the truth, do you still choose to forgive me... This time there is no so-called whitewashing, what is presented to you is the naked truth, so are you still willing to forgive me...
But what is there to forgive for someone like me
I'm scared, scared, scared because I know what I'm doing is wrong, I know the truth is ugly, I know very well that the beginning of my promise to do that task is to trample on other people's love to get what I want, I know this You don't deserve forgiveness.
So I lied to you and left in such a ruthless way to make you hate me... I just want you to know, stop loving a liar who will never come back.
Why can't you do what I want
Ye Ming's eyes were sore, and he didn't know where the strength came from. He got up from the ground, rushed over and hugged Lu Xiuwen's arm, his voice choked: "Where are you going?"
Lu Xiuwen's footsteps stopped abruptly. His body was as straight as a stone statue. After a long time, he said lightly, "Aren't you afraid of me?"
afraid? No, I don't know, I don't know if I'm afraid or not, I just know, I don't want you to leave like this.
Ye Ming tightened his arms and hugged Lu Xiuwen tightly. It seemed that only in this way could he feel a sense of security. He pursed his lips tightly, unable to speak, and didn't know what to say.
Finally, Lu Xiuwen sighed, and there was a hint of helplessness and gentleness in his eyes.
Thank you for letting me know that you don't care about me at all, of course, maybe you only care about the original owner of my body, but that doesn't matter anymore... For a person who may be illusory, a little ruthless , is not actually a bad thing, you are very clear-headed.
People are selfish, I don't blame you.
Lu Xiuwen raised his hand and stroked Ye Ming's head as he had done for many years in the past, with a gentle expression: "Xiao Ran, since you have made a decision, don't be indecisive."
"I, I don't understand what you mean..." Ye Ming forced a smile.
Lu Xiuwen didn't give him a chance to escape, and said slowly, "I've already decided to let go, so don't act like you're reluctant. Let me think you like me, don't... let me look down on you."
When Ye Ming heard this, the blood on his face completely faded, his lips trembled, and his throat seemed to be stuck by something.
All the sophistry, all the retention, all the lies seemed extremely pale and ridiculous at this moment.
He is the most unqualified person to keep him.
Lu Xiuwen slowly pulled his hand out of Ye Ming's arms. He glanced at Ye Ming with some nostalgia, but he still turned around and walked out firmly. If he could, he didn't want to say so utterly without leaving a retreat, but...
He can't stay.
It was an indescribable premonition, as if he was just a passer-by in this body, maybe he would disappear when he closed his eyes the next moment, and his last tenderness towards Ye Ming was probably just that he didn't want him to see him with his own eyes. Just disappeared.
I don't want this child to feel more sorry for himself.
Lu Xiuwen thought like this, but the short distance was so difficult, and before he reached the door, a flood of exhaustion flooded the sky and instantly drowned his consciousness...
Just like that, Ye Ming stared blankly at Lu Xiuwen falling down in front of him.
The man who was still as strong just now fell down after a moment, closed his eyes, and made no sound.
Ye Ming rushed over without thinking, and hugged Lu Xiuwen's body, his voice trembling, "What's wrong with you, don't scare me!"
This has never happened before. Each one is replaced naturally after falling asleep. Why did Lu Xiuwen suddenly fall into a coma? Ye Ming couldn't help but think of the time when Yang Gan couldn't wake up for a long time.
He didn't know why this happened or what would happen in the end.
who wants you to...
Who asked you to come, why did you come to my world without warning, and leave without warning... Have you asked for my opinion like this? !
Too much, too much.
Ye Ming blinked his eyes, and hot tears fell on the back of his hands.
Why make me feel guilty and sad, what I wanted to forget...
I want to forget...
This game is actually not fun at all. If I have a chance, I will complain to you about it. What rubbish games and what experience points are all deceptive things! It took so much effort to pass the level, and that's the result
In fact, I can't keep anything, and I can't get anything, because all the people who love me have left me.
I'm so useless, no one can save me, no one's fate can be changed, so I messed everything up like a temperamental child, smashed everything I couldn't keep, and threw everything I got. I thought that I could fight against the world and the supreme rules, but it was actually ridiculous... In the end, nothing changed, it was just hurting the people who love me...
I finally had to realize this and chose to compromise and leave you guys one more time in a more ruthless way...
Because I still have to save the only person I can save, but after I come back, he is no longer there.
Even if you come, so what? In the end, it's not like you just leave, it's no different from the beginning...
Ye Ming hugged Lu Xiuwen and knelt on the ground motionless.
I don't know how long it took, until his legs were numb, the man in his arms suddenly moved, and then slowly opened his eyes.
Kesen opened his eyes, and the light slowly filled his field of vision. Under the backlight, he saw the face of an unfamiliar young man. At this moment, the two looked at each other.
Cosen didn't know why he woke up or where he was at the moment, but the people in front of him made him feel inexplicable, so he involuntarily reached out his hand, gently wiped his tears, and asked, "You ,why cry?"