Those two words were like some kind of spell, draining all his strength, Ye Ming stood there without turning around.
But even so, he seemed to be able to feel the icy cold gaze behind him.
The thing he regrets most in his life is that he took the child away at the beginning. At first, it was just for revenge, and he wanted Jiang Sheng to experience the pain he suffered. So he stole his child, vented his despair and hatred of his inability to do anything in this world on an innocent child, hurt him and abused him, as if all this was revenge on Jiang Sheng...
Five years later, he suddenly woke up one day and looked at the little skinny child looking at him timidly, as if he had suddenly woken up from a long nightmare.
He questioned his heart, what the hell are you doing
From the moment you started studying medicine, you vowed to save the dying with conscience and dignity, dedicate your life to the medical cause, and help those in need.
But the cruel reality finally defeated him, and hatred turned him into a rat living in the gutter that he hated even himself.
Cut off from the world, imprison your soul in the depths of hell.
At that moment, he suddenly thought that he couldn't go wrong any more, he hated Jiang Sheng, but all this had nothing to do with this child.
Finally, he took the child out of the door and wanted to let him go. They came to the station... He looked at the child's small face, the child instinctively grasped his hand tightly, and his dark eyes were all about this strange world. of fear.
He doesn't know anyone but him.
Even if he hurts him like this, he still doesn't want to leave him, because he is the only one in his world.
He stared at him blankly, thinking that if my son is still alive, he should be this old... If only my son was alive...
He knew he should let go, but in the end, he couldn't let go of that little hand.
The two men, one big and one small, held hands tightly together and returned to their home again.
He made a selfish decision to raise this child as his own.
He named him 'Ci', which means to say goodbye to the past and start anew. His life is no longer barren. He can also raise a child of his own. He is the only medicine for terminally ill patients.
In this way, revenge turned into mutual dependence. In those most desperate and painful days, when he wanted to give up and liberate countless times, it was this child who kept him alive and persevered. He looked for the meaning of his existence in his eyes.
He selfishly kept him by his side, deceived himself and occupied things that did not belong to him, and indulged in the false illusion of happiness.
Because hatred and selfishness go wrong over and over again.
When Jiang Ci was sixteen years old, he bought him a birthday cake, and when he saw this child call him Dad, and said with extremely dedicated and sincere eyes that we were going to be together forever, he finally couldn't continue to deceive himself. Almost to tears.
I am not your father.
I am the one who stole you, hurt you, deceived you. You could have a wonderful family, loving your biological parents, and a life full of sunshine, and I ruined it all, desperate to drag you into my dark abyss.
I let you live as a substitute for my child, giving you so-called tender care, and taking everything that should not belong to me.
When you know the truth one day, you will hate me.
But I can no longer regard you as only the son of the enemy. I love you like my own child. It has penetrated into my bones and blood, and some things are so hard to be clear... You gave me a chance to be reborn, And the only thing I can give you is to let go.
This sixteen-year revenge farce should come to an end, and you should return to your true loved ones.
Just because I don't want to hurt you again.
I will never forget the hatred for Jiang Sheng in my life, but it has nothing to do with you, you are one of the people I love the most.
Ye Ming held the patient's hand very hard, his fingertips turned white and trembled slightly.
The painful memories that were sealed in the bottom of my heart burst out in a frenzy at this moment.
He came to this distant city, fled far away, and even put down his hatred and forgotten the past for this reason, probably just because he didn't want to face the hateful eyes of this child, so he ran away like a coward.
But I didn't expect to meet in the end.
Jiang Ci's right hand tightly held his left hand, and a few bloodstains were pinched on the back of his hand. The pain made him calm and sober.
Even after eight years, no matter what this person looks like, he can recognize him at a glance!
The darkness in Jiang Ci's eyes began to accumulate, and the pain and unwillingness came to his heart again. He opened his thin lips slightly, and spit out a cool voice: "It seems that you are not happy to see me."
I'm thinking about you like this, but what about you
You just turn around and walk away.
Ruthless and ruthless as eight years ago, leaving no one behind.
"Why don't you look back, because you don't dare to face me?" Jiang Ci said looking at Ye Ming's back.
Ye Ming finally turned around slowly. He looked at the young man on the hospital bed and finally looked at him carefully. It turns out that you have grown like this...
I'm actually so eager to see you, but I can't, I shouldn't.
Jiang Ci narrowed his eyes slightly, his pupils contracted, and he fixedly looked at the man in front of him.
The man's appearance is still handsome, and time has made him more calm and restrained, like fermented wine, the precipitation of the years, the invisible tenderness is fascinating.
He was wearing a white coat, holding a case in his hand, and his identity was ready to be revealed.
Looks like it's been a good few years.
It's good that you are still alive.
This was Jiang Ci's first thought. When he was abandoned, he didn't want to believe this fact. He thought that Ye Ming had a last resort or had an accident, so he waited for him at their former home without giving up. Even if he knew that he was the one who stole him, he still humbly wanted an explanation.
But he couldn't wait.
Then he thought that eight years had passed, maybe the person was dead, otherwise why didn't he show up? If he really cared about him at all, why did he leave without saying goodbye? Could it be true that the ten years of living together were all false
And now all these doubts are gone.
You're alive and well - so I can't fool myself anymore, you just had an accident.
This was Jiang Ci's second thought.
If you really care about me, why are you willing to disappear like this? When you lived well in another faraway place, did you ever think about all the pain I went through when I was left alone
What a selfish and cruel person.
A liar, a criminal, after giving away your tenderness, he ruthlessly took everything away and forced me to accept the cruel truth.
[Ding, Jiang Ci’s blackening value is +30, the current blackening value is 90]
The corners of Jiang Ci's lips raised slightly, but there was a cold look in his eyes, "Long time no see, don't you have anything to say to me?"
Say it, as long as you say it, I'm willing to listen.
Give you a chance to explain.
Ye Ming's lips moved slightly, what could he say? From the moment he left there, from the moment he left him, today's situation has been expected, all this is twisted and wrong.
A look of guilt flashed across his eyes, and finally he just said, "I'll ask another doctor to see you."
Turn around and leave here.
Jiang Ci suddenly had blue veins on his forehead, clenched his fists tightly, and let out a cold drink: "Don't go!"
The bodyguard at the door had just realized that something was wrong, and immediately blocked the door, looking at Ye Ming with cold eyes.
Ye Ming looked at the tall bodyguards in black suits, took a deep breath, and measured the difference in their strength. Finally, he turned around and said, "What do you want to hear?"
Oh, you are so calm.
Doing such a despicable thing, even without a trace of remorse, and still living a free and easy life, why
At this moment, the hatred in Jiang Ci's heart was like the hissing sound of a poisonous snake, circling along his internal organs. The hatred was unwilling to make his eyes dark like an abyss, and he did everything to restrain the violent impulse in his heart.
Jiang Ci looked at the nameplate on his chest and said slowly, "Is that how Dr. Chen treats patients? It's really disappointing... But a person without a conscience like you probably won't be a qualified doctor."
His dark and cold eyes stared at him, "You say, if I report to the hospital that you were once a kidnapper, do you still have your current job and everything?"
Ye Ming's face finally changed slightly, but he still didn't say anything.
No matter what the reason is, he can't erase the fault he committed. If Jiang Ci insists on reporting him, then it is also his retribution.
He has no unwillingness to do so. To say that the only unwillingness in this life is that Jiang Sheng did not get the retribution that belonged to him.
Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's slightly pale face, and finally a smile appeared on his lips, and said meaningfully: "But this matter is not completely non-negotiable, after all, you also spared my life and showed mercy. Let me go. So... as long as you come to see me once a day while I'm in the hospital, I'll keep this a secret for you, what do you think?"
This time, Ye Ming was a little surprised. He looked at Jiang Ci in confusion.
He treats him like this, doesn't he hate himself? Just need to visit him once a day and not report him? Just let him go
Ye Ming faintly felt that things might not be so simple, Jiang Ci's eyes seemed to be swallowing him alive, but... How should he refuse this request? Doesn't he want to see him
This is not a threat to him, but a bait, allowing him to step in willingly.
Ye Ming said, "Just like this?"
Jiang Ci said, "That's all."
Ye Ming gave him a fixed look, lowered his eyes and said, "Okay, I promise you."
Jiang Ci smiled, his expression seemed to have returned to calm, and the hatred in his eyes disappeared, but he was like a long-lost friend who reunited, and said with a chuckle, "Don't forget, Dr. Chen."
After speaking, he gave the bodyguard a wink.
The bodyguard York got Jiang Ci's permission to open the door and let Ye Ming go out.
Jiang Ci saw Ye Ming leave, his eyes darkened, and the smile on his face disappeared.
The bodyguard York has been with Jiang Ci for several years. Although Jiang Sheng sent him to Jiang Ci at the beginning, he was already subdued by Jiang Ci. Now he is his confidant and is absolutely loyal to him.
York closed the door cautiously and said to Jiang Ci: "Master, what's wrong with the person just now?"
Jiang Ci's eyes were complicated, and the color of pain and struggle flashed past, and said: "You have someone to investigate his experience over the years, and watch him, don't let him escape, he is likely to try to escape. ."
York responded that he had always been serious and said little, and when he was about to go out, he heard Jiang Ci stop him.
Jiang Ci looked at him seriously and said, "This is a little personal grudge of mine. Please help me with this matter. Don't tell my father for the time being, understand?"
He knew how much Jiang Sheng hated Chen Zhao. If he knew of Chen Zhao's whereabouts, he would definitely destroy him by any means.
York nodded and immediately went out to make arrangements.
Jiang Ci lay down tiredly. In fact, even he himself didn't understand what he was doing. The moment he saw Ye Ming, he was probably more excited and happy than hatred. It's a pity that this person still let him down. .
He shouldn't expect anything from him at all...
Even so, he was unwilling to send him to jail to see him die. He knew that it might be right to leave this matter to his father, but he concealed it.
Before he figured out how to get revenge on this person, he just wanted to trap him by his side so that he couldn't get out of his control.
I won't give you another chance to abandon me.
…
Ye Ming went back to his office, made a cup of tea, picked up the newspaper and started reading.
[888: Did he just let you go? ? ?]
[Ye Ming: What if it's not like this? Could it be that the bodyguards beat me up and then turned me over to the Public Security Bureau?]
[888:…]
[Ye Ming: You don't really think that way! (⊙v⊙)]
[888: I just simulated the way of thinking of normal human beings.]
[Ye Ming:…]
[Ye Ming: My good son wouldn't treat me like this! He is not a hot and cold-blooded person!]
[888: Hehehehehe]
Dr. Liu came back the next day. He had a successful date with his girlfriend. He happily said that he wanted to invite Ye Ming to dinner, but Ye Ming was not in the mood, so he had to shirk and say that he was not feeling well.
Dr. Liu asked him with concern whether he was sick or not, and Ye Ming said it was fine.
Ye Ming promised to visit Jiang Ci every day, struggling and hesitating, knowing that this was wrong, Jiang Ci must hate him, but he couldn't help agreeing to his request.
He really misses him.
After taking him away from his biological parents for so long, is he doing well now when he returns to Jiang's house? Is Jiang Sheng good to him? These are what he desperately wants to know, but unfortunately, from the moment he let go, he no longer has the qualifications to care for him.
Jiang Ci was not Ye Ming's patient. Ye Ming could not see him every day, so he lied that Jiang Ci was the child of his former friend, so that he would visit occasionally, and others would not be suspicious.
In the evening, Ye Ming hesitated for a long time before stepping into Jiang Ci's ward.
Jiang Ci sat quietly on the hospital bed, with a laptop on the table in front of him, as if he was working.
Ye Ming couldn't help but think of the past, this child has been overly mature since he was very young, and the past eight years seem to have made him even more arrogant and difficult to get close to, with a cold aura of refusing others thousands of miles away.
Jiang Ci turned his head when he heard the voice, tapped his fingers lightly on the table, and pressed the lid of the notebook.
One day is enough for him to inquire about Ye Ming's current situation. He came to work in this hospital three years ago. He is serious about his work and has a good relationship with him. It is said that he is Li Xu'an's junior. Time to find out.
After all, after he stole himself, he was hiding in Tibet, and he had to avoid the pursuit of his father and the police, so he would definitely hide his identity and eliminate his traces.
If I hadn't met him here, I'm afraid I would never have found him.
Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's uneasy appearance, and sneered in his heart. It seems that you are really afraid of seeing me? Are you still a little ashamed
He said lightly: "Sit down, feel free."
Ye Ming sat down on the sofa next to him, he was silent for a long time, and said, "What do you need me to do?"
Jiang Ci seemed to think for a while, and said, "Cut an apple for me."
Ye Ming was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect Jiang Ci to make such a request. Does he still lack someone to peel apples for him? But he didn't ask more, just picked up the apple and lowered his head to cut it.
Because he lowered his head, he couldn't see Jiang Ci greedily watching him.
Jiang Ci looked at the man who was focusing on cutting the apple. When they were still together, when he was sick, he would take care of him in a disorganized manner, so gentle and attentive, as if he was really his child... He would sit on the hospital bed Qian asked him with a smile, does Xiaoci eat apples
Jiang Ci was in a trance for a while, but his heart felt like bleeding.
Those things that will eventually become flowers in the mirror and the moon in the water are things that he can no longer desire. From the moment the truth is exposed, he can no longer have that kind of tenderness, and now he wants him to cut an apple for himself. With commands and threats.
If you're not going to want me, why are you being nice to me later? Why not just be cruel and cruel to the end
In the past eight years, reason and emotion have been fighting in Jiang Ci's heart.
His emotions made him unable to let go of this person, and he always wanted to make excuses for him, wanted to see him, and longed for him to come back. But rationally and constantly laugh at him, this man is a liar, he abandoned him ruthlessly, and he is not his child.
He was reluctant to accept the cruel fact that this man might not have loved him at all.
Ye Ming cut the apple, raised his head and handed it to Jiang Ci silently.
Jiang Ci's expression had returned to indifference. When he took the apple, his fingertips touched Ye Ming's fingertips. A terrifying throbbing instantly circulated throughout his body, making him almost tremble and drop the apple. .
Jiang Ci quickly took the apple back, but didn't eat it, just stared at Ye Ming.
He hadn't touched him for eight full years.
Ye Ming couldn't face Jiang Ci's gaze, as if he was questioning and blaming him, so he turned his head slightly and sat there with his hands folded.
Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's uneasy look, and suddenly laughed: "You can go, come back tomorrow."
Ye Ming raised his head in astonishment, what was he doing
Jiang Ci lowered his voice, looked at him meaningfully, and joked: "Don't you want to leave?"
Ye Ming suddenly stood up and went out without looking back.
Jiang Ci looked at the back of Ye Ming's departure, then lowered his head and stared at the apple in his hand, hesitantly picked it up and took a bite, and then his face changed suddenly, as if he had done something stupid, he threw the apple heavily. smashed to the ground! The apple rolled to the corner and covered with dust, like a discarded piece of garbage.
His eyes are full of pain, is he crazy? To this day, he is still begging the man to peel him an apple like a poor fellow.
No, this is not what he wants at all!
The apple was obviously sweet, but he only found it bitter, disgusting, and disgusting.
He should get revenge on him! hurt him! Let him also try his own pain, let him pay for his actions and be punished!
That's right!
But his feet seemed to be stuck in a swamp, unable to turn or walk away, cocooning and sinking gradually.
He can't forget everything he once loved.
York walked over and silently picked up the apple and threw it into the trash can. Because he helped Jiang Ci investigate Ye Ming, he already knew Ye Ming's identity. It turned out that Ye Ming was the one who kidnapped the young master.
Looking at Jiang Ci's painful expression, he should have hated that person, but he didn't do anything.
Although the young master is young, he has always done things neatly. This is the first time York has seen such an indecisive side in Jiang Ci, and York feels incomprehensible.
What's the hesitation about such a person? If someone dared to steal his son, he would definitely kill him directly.
"Master, do you need me to help you deal with him?" York volunteered, his thick-boned hands clucked together, his eyes showing a cold light: "Make sure your hands and feet are clean and you won't get into trouble."
He has a way to kill and maim a person.
Jiang Ci closed his eyes: "I have my own considerations, you can help me look after him."
York is very sorry, he is still ready to show his skills, it seems that the young master can't let go of the kidnapper... Could it be the legendary Stockholm syndrome? Or is it cultivating feelings? I heard that when the young master first came back, he kept running away from home, and then he finally stopped messing around, which gave President Jiang a headache.
York felt that if he really couldn't make a move, it would be fine if he didn't care about it directly. This kind of thing would not let go and would not do anything.
Really why.
After a while, Jiang Ci opened his eyes and said lightly: "Tell father that there are some twists and turns in the business here, and I may have to postpone my return for a while."
York shrugged, "Okay."
…
Ye Ming basically went to Jiang Ci's ward to sit for a while every day. Jiang Ci didn't need him to do anything. He only needed to pour him a glass of water occasionally and cut an apple. But never drink the poured water, never eat the peeled apple.
The two maintained such a strange atmosphere of getting along.
[888: No progress at all.]
[Ye Ming: Hmm.]
[888: Why don't you tell him the truth directly, the blackening value can be eliminated faster.]
[Ye Ming: Inappropriate. First of all, my character design should not know how Jiang Sheng told him, so it's not good to talk about it rashly, and even if I tell the truth, it is difficult to verify it. After all, there was no evidence to settle the matter twenty years ago. . Secondly, although this method was easy to drop in the early stage, Jiang Ci would alienate me because of this, resulting in a situation where the two did not owe each other. After all, this does not erase the fact that I abandoned him. It can only mean that I have difficulties. Difficult, now is not the best time to throw it.]
[Ye Ming: First find a way to reduce the blackening value, and then wait for him to find out for himself. This is the best way to make it easier first... And it's actually not that difficult. After all, a good son won't really do anything to me, he Dad is the one who can be cruel.]
[888: This method is easy for you, but not so much for him. It seems that you don't really like him much.]
[Ye Ming: ... Who said I don't like him anymore!]
[888: Really?]
[Ye Ming: Am I not seriously thinking about how to eliminate the blackening value? First of all, I have to figure out how to calm him down. Now he doesn't even think about it himself, and I can't act well, so I can only continue to observe. Grievance jpg]
[888: Hehe.]
After a few days like this, once Ye Ming was working overtime, Li Xuan came to see him with a late-night snack.
Ye Ming was very happy to see that he was eating. He thought that this brother is not bad, he is a good friend who is caring, and he is very satisfied with him!
Li Xu'an is one year older than Ye Ming. He is a very mature and attractive man. He is personable. Even if he is a single father with a son, he is also the fifth diamond king in the eyes of all women in the hospital. Addicted to women's sex, so many people sigh.
In fact, they got it in the wrong direction. Li Xuan didn't like women. At first, his wife was desperately forced to marry by the family.
Li Xu'an met Chen Zhao by chance three years ago, and it took a while to recognize him. He had vaguely heard that this junior seemed to disappear shortly after graduation, but he didn't pay much attention to it because he didn't know him well, and he just kindly arranged a temporary job for Chen Zhao.
Although Chen Zhao is taciturn, he works very hard and has good ability. Gradually, Li Xuan felt relieved, let him officially work in his hospital, and occasionally invited him to dinner at his home.
Chen Zhao doesn't have anything else, but he likes children very much, and he is also very attractive to children. Li Siyang likes him very much after contacting him a few times.
Gradually, there were more exchanges between the two sides.
I don't know since when, Li Xu'an gradually took this person into his eyes, thinking that if it was Chen Zhao, he would indeed be a very suitable person to live, and his son also liked him.
Gradually, I was a little moved. Recently, I heard that Chen Zhao has been working overtime, so he came to visit him with a late-night snack.
Li Xu'an has always been a gentle and considerate person. He smiled and said, "You are not young anymore. You don't need to work so hard. It's better for those young people to do more overtime work."
Ye Ming couldn't say that he didn't like to work overtime either. He wanted to stay and watch Jiang Ci, so there was nothing he could do. After all, it was more appropriate to watch at night.
He showed a shy smile and smiled, "It's nothing, I'm alone anyway, unlike them, I have no family to accompany."
Li Xu'an saw Ye Ming's relaxed words, but it was a little sad to hear it. At their age, being alone is not something worth showing off. After all, people want a company after all. It's just that I haven't met the right person, and now there are too few people who can calm down. After the age of play, I just want to find someone who can live and who my son can accept.
But what about Chen Zhao? Why have you been alone? Don't even have children
Li Xu'an didn't want to ask too much. Chen Zhao was very reluctant to mention the past. He was probably injured. He smiled and said, "It's up to you, don't get tired, and eat while it's hot."
Ye Ming immediately went to eat happily, but he still paid attention to keeping his restraint, and yawned after eating and drinking.
Li Xu'an noticed and smiled helplessly: "I said don't be too tired, or you can rest for a while, I'm here to help you watch, I'll call you if you have something."
Ye Ming said embarrassedly: "Is this bad? Li Ge, you should go home early, Siyang will be afraid at home alone."
Li Xu'an smiled: "I'm not a primary school student anymore, so there's nothing to be afraid of. Besides, if he knows he's with you and isn't messing around outside, he won't say anything."
Ye Ming still had to refuse, but Li Xuan was very stubborn, so he had to rest on the reclining chair with his eyes closed.
Li Xu'an was sitting on the side playing with his mobile phone, looking very relaxed and comfortable. This way of getting along is a bit like an old couple who have been in love for many years.
Ye Ming closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.
[Ye Ming: Oops, I was so happy just now that I forgot to see my good son, who knew that Lao Li would not leave when he came.]
[888: ... Do you still remember the business?]
[Ye Ming: QAQ]
Li Xu'an looked at the phone as if nothing had happened. After a while, he saw that Ye Ming seemed to be asleep, so he turned his eyes to look at him with a somewhat explicit look in his eyes.
In the past few years, he has been single and no longer likes to have fun like those young people. It seems that he can live a good life by himself, but once he is attracted to a person, he suddenly gets out of control.
Li Xu'an looked at Ye Ming's well-defined face, the neat and thick eyelashes cast a light shadow under the eyes, and the lips were pale pink, which looked very soft and should taste good.
If you look closely, his skin is still very delicate. Although he doesn't have the strong beauty of those teenagers, his eyebrows and eyes are like trickling water, very attractive, and he is very comfortable to get along with. If his partner is this person, he may not get tired.
Now that this person was sleeping in front of him, Li Xuan suddenly couldn't control his feelings of wanting to get close to him. He had been worried that Chen Zhao would not accept his feelings, so he suppressed the feelings in his heart, but now his feelings began to stir again.
Li Xu'an bent down slightly and stared at Ye Ming's face from the extreme distance. Seeing that he was fast asleep, he couldn't help but gently kissed his forehead with a gentle look in his eyes.
Do you know that I actually like you
When Jiang Ci came to the duty room, what he saw was Li Xu'an kissing Ye Ming tenderly.
He had been waiting for Ye Ming to come over in the ward. Although he hated this person in his heart, he couldn't help but look forward to his arrival. It seemed that a whole day had passed just to wait for that short moment.
But today Ye Ming didn't come on time.
Jiang Ci thought that he might have something to do, and waited for a while, but Ye Ming still didn't come... He finally stood up and left the ward on crutches.
Who would have thought to see such a scene
Ye Ming slept peacefully on the chair, so warm and peaceful, while the other man looked at him with pity and kissed him, as if they were a loving couple... This scene is so beautiful and enviable that his eyes are drooling. Bleeding.
Heh... So that's why you didn't come to see me? Because you have other people in your heart now.
What am I in your eyes? !
Jiang Ci clung to the crutches in his hand, the jealousy and hatred in his eyes were almost as real, he just wanted to rush in and do anything to separate them!