In fact, Zhang Hang is not as ignorant as Lu Chengye imagined. At least when he was studying abroad, in that open environment, even if he was blind and couldn't see it, he had heard a little about it and probably knew a little bit about it. As for the matter between men, what Zhang Hang has fumbled about by himself is a bit scary to think about. When he confessed, it was not that he did not know what would happen to the couple on behalf of the couple in the future, but he thought too much. If he wants Dahei, Dahei is the only bottom line in his heart. He has experienced all the betrayals, but Dahei has not. Zhang Hang wants Dahei, and he wants all of Dahei, no matter what method he uses.
Zhang Hang is just ignorant, but that doesn't mean he can't distinguish other people's feelings. Because he is blind, he is more sensitive to the emotions displayed by others. Because of his relationship with Da Hei, he couldn't tell whether Lu Chengye's relationship was love or family, but he could sense the emotions of Lu Xincheng and Bai Xiyu, at least in the eyes of others, Lu Chengye liked him.
Friends will eventually have their own families, relatives have betrayed him, children... Even if they do have them, let them go and let them fly. The only one who can accompany him for the rest of his life is his partner. Companion, Zhang Hang once described these two words on paper, Companion, his understanding of this word is that without the person by his side, he is only half and incomplete. Zhang Hang wanted to get Lu Chengye's complete feelings, so when he wasn't sure if he liked this person, he made the first confession and got the expected response.
Every day and every night in Lu's house, there was someone to accompany him. Zhang Hang finally felt that he was a complete person. In this case, it didn't matter whether his feelings for Lu Chengye were love or not, he just had to wait for the rest of his life.
At that time, Zhang Hang thought so.
He also thought so when he wanted to use himself as bait to protect Lu Chengye.
He knew that he was a despicable person, used Lu Chengye's feelings to bind him, concealed his dark heart and calculations, only showed the side that Lu Chengye liked five years ago, and tried to use a mask to treat him for the rest of his life.
However, what happened last night broke Zhang Hang's cognition.
When he noticed Lu Chengye's intention, he was slightly afraid; when he gritted his teeth and accepted it, he was determined to die bravely; when the clouds were swaying, he couldn't think of anything, and his eyes were occupied by his big black, and he finally understood himself. That cowardly and humble feeling.
There are three most sincere relationships in the world. Before the age of sixteen, Zhang Hang still enjoyed the beautiful family relationship. Now he can clearly distinguish that the relationship between himself and Lu Chengye is not family relationship; he has contact with Xiao Ren, Shen Mingfei and others , He understands this kind of bland but profound feeling, which is usually not obvious, but can lend a helping hand without hesitation when the other party is helpless. It is friendship, and it is not the relationship between him and Da Hei before.
So what else could it be
There is only love, a feeling he has always had but is too humble to admit. If Lu Chengye was a big black, he perfectly restrained this budding in the company of his family, without the slightest misconception, they were pure family and friendship. However, the five years of losing Da Hei and the joy of meeting Lu Chengye again made Zhang Hang's repressed thoughts burst out. He absorbed the nutrients accumulated over ten years, and instantly grew strong and deeply ingrained, occupying his entire penis. heart can't be moved.
But he personally witnessed Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Qiming's righteousness and never turned against each other, witnessed Zhang Jianguo and Zhao Xiaolian's so-called true love turned into their own calculations, and witnessed the brokenness of Zhang Jianguo's family, the woman who did her best for her family, and her young The daughter became the victim of Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Jianguo's willfulness. Zhang Hang has paid attention to Zhang Jianguo's family. Later, he seems to be divorced. His wife is very powerful. .
Zhang Hang didn't know that he was subconsciously afraid of love, to be precise, his own love. He was afraid that he had the blood of Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Jianguo's unkind love, and regarded love as an excuse for pleasure and a means of gaining interests. He dared not admit that he loved Lu Chengye. In this relationship, he seemed to take the initiative, but in fact he was afraid. He was afraid that he would not be able to love Lu Chengye forever. He hoped to use family affection to maintain the relationship between the two.
But now, he had to admit it.
The morning sun shone on Lu Chengye, Lu Chengye opened his eyes and found that Zhang Hang had already woken up, his beautiful eyes were wide open, as if he was trying to look at himself. He naturally put his hand on Zhang Hang's cheek and asked, "When did you wake up? What are you doing?"
"I'm looking at you," Zhang Hang rubbed Lu Chengye's hand with his face, "I want to see what you look like."
Lu Chengye's heart was sour and unbearable, and he almost shed tears for Zhang Hang. He wouldn't cry for himself, but he wanted to cry many times for Zhang Hang, a distressed child. It is not that he is crying, but that he is crying for the injustice of fate for this stubborn and strong child.
Putting Zhang Hang's hand on his face, Lu Chengye said softly, "Touch my face well and use your hand to see and feel it."
"I can't see it." Zhang Hang shook his head. The person he loved the most could never see his face.
"If there's anything you can't see, touch it, and tell me what I look like in your hands." Lu Chengye squeezed Zhang Hang's hand and encouraged him.
Zhang Hang touched Lu Chengye's face again, he touched Lu Chengye's eyebrows little by little, and described with his own feelings: "Your eyebrows are straighter than ordinary people, you are a very decisive person; the corners of your eyes... Why are there a little crow's feet? Is it too much work? The forehead is very light... No, there is a tiny mole on the left eyebrow, which cannot be felt without careful touch; the nose is very high, the lips are very thin, the ears... The earlobes are big, it is a Fortunate people, the whole face is well maintained, and there are no pitfalls, which means that you did not pick the acne on your face when you were adolescence, and you are a person who can restrain himself at a very young age."
Zhang Hang was stunned for a moment as he spoke, then put down his hand and said, "Sorry, I'm used to using some features to understand others, because I can't see other people's eyes, so I can only try to understand some of his features first, and then we can learn from the language. And the action analyzes his opponent's hidden intentions under politeness."
"Well said." Lu Chengye smiled slightly, "Do you know what the first impression is when others see me, Lu Chengye?"
"What is it?" Zhang Hang asked cooperatively.
"People who don't know my identity, when they see me for the first time, will only say, wow, so handsome! (♀) Or all those who are more handsome than me will die (♂). After a period of contact, others will say I look like a dog, how can people be so cold-blooded. People like Lu Xincheng who have been with me for a long time will also think that I am a person who is good enough to be compared to others, but not bad. But Hanghang, only What you 'see' is different from others."
Lu Chengye said warmly: "I don't seem to have mentioned my mother to you. She was a very gentle lady, with some traditions, but also very gentle, but she was a little unfortunate and died at a young age. I remember her when I was young. He would hold me and say that the mole in the center of the left eyebrow is Wangfu's mole. How can a boy have such a mole. Big ears, straight eyebrows, and thin lips. So many people who come into contact with me, only you, even if I can't 'see', but I can tell all my characteristics and personality. You are not blinded by vision, not because I like me with this face, but because of who I am. Among so many people who are close to me, you are the only one The feelings for me are to throw away all external conditions and only like myself."
"No, no..." Zhang Hang said with some difficulty, "I like you, and I have a purpose."
"Oh?" Lu Chengye raised his voice slightly, "What purpose?"
"I want to find someone to accompany me."
"Then why don't you find someone else, there are too many people who want to accompany you."
"...Probably because I can only accept you to accompany me for the rest of my life." Zhang Hang thought for a while and said.
"Stupid Hanghang," Lu Chengye couldn't help but put him in his arms, "this is the best love story I've ever heard. If you really have this kind of purpose, then please stick to this 'purpose' for the rest of your life. Don't give up your purpose easily."
Zhang Hang smiled and leaned against Lu Chengye's arms. He felt that he was not afraid of anything at the moment. At this time, Zhang Hang was the most powerful. Because he is no longer alone, there is someone who accepts everything he has and must always be with him.
Love talk is not very hungry. After the two stick together for a morning, they find that they are hungry. Zhang Hang's house has been unoccupied for a long time. He wants to call to order food, but Lu Chengye feels that the ingredients made outside are too heavy and not suitable for Zhang Hang. For people with a sensitive taste like Hang, he called Lu's house to have the chef cook it, and ordered Baixiyu to get it quickly.
After such a toss, the two didn't know whether it was breakfast or lunch until after ten o'clock in the morning. Lu Chengye frowned and said, "Let's stay at my place in the future, it will be more convenient."
In fact, he vaguely didn't want Zhang Hang to live in this room, so he couldn't live in the past forever.
"Okay," Zhang Hang nodded obediently, "It doesn't matter where I live with you."
"Then prepare to move today." Lu Chengye said happily.
Zhang Hang agreed with a smile, suddenly thought of something and reached out and touched Lu Chengye's eyebrows, and then said with a wicked smile: "Speaking of which, everything has changed for me since I met the big black. I won the lottery, bought a house, bought a house, I made a lot of money in stocks, I also opened a bar, became a shareholder of the company, and now I have to move to such a nice villa. Wangfu Mole, it’s pretty accurate.”
Looking at Zhang Hang who is a little naughty now, Lu Chengye...
What else can I do, continue to work hard to become a "husband".
Since he is prosperous, there are some people who will bring bad luck to Zhang Hang. It is time to clean up.
President Lu's expression sank under the convenience that Zhang Hang could not see.