I don't know how long I sat there. From dawn to dark, Zhang Hang's body was frozen and unconscious. Lu Chengye knew that he couldn't let him go outside like this. , let Zhang Hang go home.
Although that house probably won't be Zhang Hang's home in a few days, at least there will be shelter from the wind and rain, and people can't be outside in the winter. Lu Chengye understood Zhang Hang's feeling that he didn't want to go home. He had also experienced this proud age, and he would rather starve to death than bow his head. But no, people always have to live, no matter how difficult and painful, as long as you get over it and then look back on the past, you will feel that the pain and difficulty at this time are just a simple footprint on the road of life, deep or shallow, depending on how you are look at this. Maybe Zhang Hang would rather be blind outside than go back to that house, nor accept the gifts from Zhang Qiming and Zhao Xiaolian, but now, he must go back, for the not far future, and himself.
Every step is taken by oneself, it may be painful, it may be embarrassing, but it must go on.
Lu Chengye almost bit Zhang Hang's butt and walked forward. Zhang Hang rubbed his almost unconscious hands and whispered, "Da Hei, I don't want to go back."
Ouu bit Zhang Hang's buttocks, but didn't bite the meat, just hooked the cotton pants outside. Lu Chengye tried his best to drag Zhang Hang, but there was a hint of helplessness in the confused expression of the young man.
"That's right, I have to give you something to eat." Zhang Hang rubbed Da Hei's head. This is his dog, and he followed him from childhood to adulthood.
One man and one dog walked back slowly, the snow was getting heavier and heavier, and the sky was so dark that it was almost impossible to see clearly.
Under the street light, a familiar car stopped in front of Zhang Hang. Zhang Qiming's still sober face stuck out from the car window and said to Zhang Hang, "Get in the car."
Zhang Hang froze on the side of the road, Zhang Qiming left him in the hospital, and now he came back to pick him up, but he didn't know how to face this familiar and unfamiliar man.
"Get in the car!" Zhang Qixian was obviously a little irritable. He returned to his parents' house from the hospital and fell asleep. After waking up, he decided to go home and talk to Zhao Xiaolian, but there was no one in that family, and neither did Zhang Hang.
At this time, he suddenly thought that he had left the child in the hospital, and he, like himself, knew that the two were not biological father and son, and he could still bear it as an adult, but Zhang Hang was only sixteen years old after a year. Is such a small child, can he bear it
After regaining consciousness, Zhang Qiming could not wait to slap himself a few times, so he drove out to find Zhang Hang.
However, at this moment, Zhang Hang was looking at him with a strange look, full of distrust in his eyes.
Yes, how can Zhang Hang be trusted by what he has done these days.
Zhang Qiming got out of the car and wanted to reach out and hug the child, but saw Zhang Hang take a step back, and Da Hei ran between the two of them, looking at him with a grin and a fierce look on his face.
Zhang Qiming took a deep breath and said softly, "I always thought that you were not born at full term. You were born in less than nine months. You were only five pounds. You were small and wrinkled in your arms. My body is half that long. I thought I had a deformed child at the time, so I stood silently and didn't even dare to touch you, thinking about how to comfort your mother and how to comfort my grandma. Fortunately, the doctor told me at this time that the child The skull is soft. It is normal for a child born naturally. It will be fine for a few days. I look at you and look at you every day without turning my eyes. I can't bear to look away for a moment. Just open, round head, tender skin, not as ugly as newborn at all."
While he was talking, he tried to hug Zhang Hang again, but Zhang Hang rubbed his feet, but this time he didn't step back. Lu Chengye gritted his teeth, threatened Zhang Qiming, stepped back a few steps, and let Zhang Qiming hug Zhang Hang.
"When I watched you, I was reluctant to close my eyes to sleep at night. When I woke up the next morning, my eyes were dry, but I couldn't help but look at it. You were so cute, cameras were a rarity at that time, and I took all my family's The money bought a camera to take pictures of you, I think, I will save all your photos of each period and paste them, I don’t want to miss any moment of your growth.”
Holding Zhang Hang tightly, Zhang Qiming's voice contained a hint of choking: "Hanghang, why are you not my son? I am willing to take off the stars and moons for you, but why are you not? How can you not! "
"Dad..." Zhang Hang couldn't control himself, hugged Zhang Qiming back and cried bitterly.
Even if they are not biological father and son, even if the damage is irreparable, but the relationship for more than ten years, every day of happiness is accumulated by them together, how can such a relationship be released because of blood.
However, there is no going back. Even if the feelings remain the same, even if they both love each other deeply, such a thin blood relationship is enough to decide everything.
Zhang Qiming sent Zhang Hang and Da Hei home. When the boy and the dog went to take a bath, Zhang Qiming boiled ginger soup for Zhang Hang and cooked a warm meal. Zhao Xiaolian has been favored by Zhang Qiming since she got married. She has never been in the kitchen once. Zhang Qiming has always been the father and mother since childhood.
Zhang Hang came back from the hot bath, drank the ginger soup in gulps, lowered his head and didn't look at Zhang Qiming, and didn't know what he was thinking. Lu Chengye wanted to secretly go to Zhang Hang's room to show Zhang Qiming the outpatient diagnosis record, but he didn't know if it was the right thing to do.
This man is in love with Zhang Hang. It is a deep fatherly love. For Zhang Hang, he would rather endure the anger in his heart to maintain a complete family for him, but because of this deep love, he is even more unable to bear the two There is no blood relationship. Lu Chengye can understand his contradictions and his pain, but he cannot forgive him.
The slap and mother Zhang's merciless scolding that day were the scars in Zhang Hang's heart, bleeding and pus. In the days of waiting for the results of the paternity test, they have become irreversible scars.
Moreover, even if he loves Zhang Hang, Zhang Qiming may not be willing to raise Zhang Hang after the divorce. It's not that I don't want to spend that money, but I can't face it. The more I love it, the more I dare not face it.
Lu Chengye didn't know whether he should let Zhang Qiming know that Zhang Hang was destined to be blind at this time. He also wasn't sure whether Zhang Qiming would choose to fight for custody because of this disease. , whether they can maintain the past relationship with Zhang Qiming, and whether they can face the difficulties of Zhang's father and mother. It is better to miss seeing each other. Sometimes, instead of choosing this love and letting it be wiped out by time, it is better to precipitate this love and turn it into guilt, so as to have an extra bargaining chip for the future.
Probably doing business, he likes to analyze the pros and cons of everything, regardless of feelings, choose the one with the best results.
So Lu Chengye didn't move, silently watched Zhang Hang finish the meal, and was relatively speechless with Zhang Qiming, and walked into the room silently.
Divorce is not a simple matter. In the era when there was no prenuptial agreement, property was a big problem if you wanted to divorce. Zhang Qiming is definitely unwilling to give half of his property to Zhao Xiaolian, and Zhang Hang's paternity test is a strong evidence for the division of property. However, in this way, Zhang Hang is destined to follow Zhao Xiaolian. If Zhao Xiaolian is not given money, with her character, Zhang Hang will have to drop out of school in a few days to beg for food.
Deep love, concern, these feelings, in the face of interests and money, eventually turned into naked tit-for-tat.
A few years ago, Zhang Qiming went to a lawyer, but Zhao Xiaolian still did not go home.
It was a cold and lonely New Year. It was the first lonely New Year in Zhang Hang's life. At this time, he didn't know that he would spend every new year like this.
He bought a lot of fireworks and firecrackers. At that time, the opening of the market had not yet banned fireworks. In the sky of fireworks, only Da Hei accompanied him to watch the lonely fireworks.
A new year, sixteen years old, in the growing years, pain also comes quietly.
The colorful fireworks wrapped in blue paper were placed by Zhang Hang next to the Christmas tree in the yard. When he went to get the fireworks, he touched it several times. Lu Chengye felt that something was wrong, and looked at Zhang Hang with concern, but saw the young man looking at him with a bewildered expression.
"Da Hei, I, I... I can't tell the difference..."
It's not that he can't see clearly, but he can't tell the difference. The green pine tree and the blue cardboard are placed together, and he can't tell the difference.
Color blindness has begun to appear.
Lu Chengye put his head on Zhang Hang's leg, as if to give him enough strength to support him. It doesn't matter, he's still here.
Even if he didn't mention it or think about it, the facts were cruelly reminding Zhang Hang that his eyes were getting worse day by day, and modern medicine was helpless. He gradually moved towards blindness, cruel and ruthless.
The fireworks in the sky illuminated the night like day. Zhang Hang squatted in the yard. In this bright night, he only felt that the future was dark.
At some point, he will fall into this darkness forever and never see the light again.
After the new year of 2006, Zhao Xiaolian received a letter from a lawyer, Zhang Qiming filed for divorce, leaving Zhao Xiaolian only an old building in the 1980s where they lived when they got married, and Zhang Qiming's willingness to pay Zhang Hang's alimony every month until he graduated from college. .
If Zhao Xiaolian does not agree with Zhang Qiming's approach, then the paternity test will be brought to court.