Jiang Ning didn't know how she got back that night. She seemed to be caught in a self-protection mechanism, and her mind was blank.
Fortunately, Zheng Ruonan was not at home on a business trip, and Jiang Fan was always careless. Seeing her pale face when she entered the house, he thought she had a cold, so he quickly made her a cup of cold medicine.
Jiang Ning didn't say much, and poured cold medicine with shaking hands, kicked off his shoes tiredly, lay down on the bed, and wrapped himself in a quilt.
"Sister, I'm right outside, call me if you need something." Jiang Fan touched her forehead, but what he felt was not scorching hot, but a bone-chilling coldness.
Jiang Ning nodded strongly.
Jiang Fan didn't notice the difference, the straight man didn't know what to say except "drink more hot water", scratched his head, and backed out.
The door was closed.
The room fell into boundless darkness and silence.
Jiang Ning's hands and feet were cold, and he curled up uncomfortably, curling himself up like a shrimp.
She closed her eyes, tears flowed uncontrollably from the corners of her eyes, the salt made the end of her eyes burn and hurt, her headache was splitting, it was really like experiencing a bad cold.
…
Jiang Ning was having nightmares over and over again.
For a while, Yan Yixie failed to go abroad as she wished, and lost the chance to stand up again. Many years later, when he learned that she was the butterfly wing that affected his fate, he looked at her with the coldest eyes, Said that he would rather never meet her in his life.
For a while, Yan Yixie finally left on April 1st in the same car as in her previous life, but when he was leaving, she couldn't control herself and rushed over to stop him, only for a minute, and finally It made him fall into the 99% tragic ending.
For a while, they didn't break up at all, and the nonsense that the seaside said was a nightmare, and the timeline was still stuck on the day when she confessed. Yan Yixie was lying on the hospital bed, with an imperceptible joy in his handsome face and indifference. He held her hand, and the two looked at each other silently. In the end, she couldn't control her increasingly heavy eyelids, and fell asleep holding his arm under his quilt.
For a while, the young man was unwilling to break up. He waited for her all night in the chilly spring night, and a layer of frost slowly condensed on his body. look at her.
These shattered dreams turned upside down, Jiang Ning's temples throbbed, his limbs throbbed with pain, but he was dragged and entangled, unable to wake up.
…
When he finally broke free from the sinking dream, Jiang Ning broke out in a cold sweat.
The whole sheet was soaked.
Like a stranded fish, she stared at the ceiling with her eyes open, panting heavily.
It was early in the morning, Jiang Ning looked at the window, and a faint gloomy light came through the drawn curtains. She actually fell asleep for several hours in the extreme confusion.
Jiang Ning sat up with her forehead propped up, wiped away the dry tears from the corners of her eyes, stared blankly at the wall, trying to clear her mind.
There is simply no turning back now.
Yan Yixie has suffered so much because of his disabled legs since he was a child. What a proud and high-spirited young man he should have been, but since then he has to be confined to a wheelchair and bear the strange eyes of others everywhere. The family abandoned him, no one loved him.
He fell down again and again in despair, and no one cared about the sweat rolling down his black forehead.
When everyone saw him, the first thing they saw was never his background, nor his handsome appearance and outstanding talent, but his disabled legs.
It shouldn't be like this.
Jiang Ning felt bitter.
He should have all the best things, stand on the top position, become dazzling, accept the envious eyes of everyone, and become a legend passed down by word of mouth among the group of people in the former seaside town.
— This was his fate in his previous life.
And I can't destroy these.
Now that I have contacted Chen Sen and asked him to prepare all the matters for going abroad, and let Yan Yixie leave at a fixed time and in the same form as in my previous life, I can't regret it, and I can't fall short.
Not much time left.
During this last period of time, I have to make up my mind not to see Yan Yixie again.
Cheer up, Jiang Ning.
Jiang Ning said to himself.
But no matter how hard she tried to persuade herself to use reason to overcome emotion, she still felt throbbing pain in her heart, and she didn't know when this pain would end. She buried her head in her knees, hugged her knees, and sat in dead silence for a while.
The darkness was suddenly frightening, and her throat felt like it was on fire.
Jiang Ning climbed out of bed with weak hands and feet, went to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and took out a bottle of frozen mineral water.
She leaned against the refrigerator, unscrewed the mineral water bottle, and drank it in one gulp.
The feeling of suffocation finally eased slightly.
Jiang Ning walked back to the room holding the mineral water bottle.
She glanced at the curtains that slightly leaked the dark sky light. Suddenly, she walked over, opened the curtains, and glanced downstairs.
With just one glance, Jiang Ning froze in place, and the mineral water hit the ground.
Her mind went blank.
It was not a dream.
Sure enough, a familiar car was parked downstairs.
The boy in the wheelchair was wearing a scarf, his body was covered with a layer of frost, and his jet-black hair seemed to be frozen.
Unlike in the dream, with such a long distance, he became a small black spot. Jiang Ning couldn't see his face clearly, let alone his eyes, and felt it was hard to breathe.
And at this moment, as if feeling something, Yan Yixie suddenly raised his head and looked towards the window.
At a loss, Jiang Ning hurriedly closed the curtains, slid down against the wall, and sat on the cold ground.
Jiang Ning didn't dare to look any more, and just sat on the floor like this until the faint light came in through the gap in the curtains.
The long night passed.
It was finally full light.
In the past, Jiang Ning would go downstairs and jump into Yan Yixie's car at 6:30 in order to avoid the eyes of the commuters in the community, so that they would not look at Yan Yixie with strange eyes. She would also go downstairs, but this morning she dawdled and didn't go down until eight o'clock.
Yan Yixie didn't know if she understood her silent refusal, but after eight o'clock, Jiang Ning mustered up the courage again, went to the edge of the balcony, and looked down, the familiar black car finally disappeared in place.
Jiang Ning didn't know if he could go to school in this state.
She asked the class teacher for a day off.
inside the car.
The phone vibrated, finally slightly breaking the frost that had condensed overnight.
Yan Yi sat with Xie Ku all night, his face was pale, he stared at the ringing cell phone with an unpredictable expression, he didn't know what he was thinking.
The butler didn't know what happened, but thought that the two had quarreled again, but they had never had such a fierce quarrel before, and the young master waited downstairs all night without saying a word.
He glanced at Yan Yixie hesitantly, and said in a low voice: "Master, the phone..."
Yan Yixie looked like a piece of expressionless sculpture, only then did his eyelashes tremble slightly.
Like a patient waiting to be sentenced to death, he finally reached out to pick it up.
"Young Master Yan." Said over there.
"Say." Yan Yixie said in a deep voice.
The other side hesitated for a while, and then said: "It's been found out, Jiang Ning hasn't seen anyone these days, Chen Sen and your father did not look for her again, besides, her mother and her brother also There was no sign of any threats. The only difference in her activities from usual is that she went to the hospital, but we questioned the person responsible for the medical examination, and the other party said that Jiang Ning's mother's medical examination report did not have any health risks... By the way, Jiang Ning I also saw someone in the hospital."
Yan Yixie held his breath: "Continue."
"This man's name is Ouyang Bo, a university teacher. He accompanied his newlywed wife to the pregnancy test. He should be an old friend of Jiang Ning's mother. There is nothing special about it. When Jiang Ning met him, judging from the hospital surveillance, it was just a few ordinary greetings. "
"... After checking this way, it is true that no one threatened Jiang Ning..."
After the man's voice fell, he could only hear that he was suffocated. After a while, there was a beeping sound, and Young Master Yan hung up the phone.
Yan Yixie clutched the phone tightly, his knuckles turned blue with all his strength, as if he wanted to crush the phone.
His face was already ugly, but now it was even paler, and there was a broken feeling in his whole body that was on the verge of collapse.
So what Jiang Ning said is true...
Not because of threats or anything else.
It's just... Her liking is very shallow, and this liking is not enough for her to walk with him.
That being the case, why bother to give him hope, why bother to promise him.
Give him a life-saving rope first, pull him out of the abyss, then let go, and watch him fall heavily, is it fun
If he hadn't tried so hard to hold Jiang Ning's hand and walk together, and was given hope, Yan Yixie wouldn't be so desperate at this time.
He felt that he was a complete clown. He was only making a joke for three minutes, but he thought it would be a lifetime, fantasized about giving her the best life, and repeatedly begged her on the phone to persist for a while.
Yes, he has disabled legs.
Who in this world would sincerely want to go down with him.
The past few years have been like a dream. Jiang Ning has given him enough. When he was the gloomy and weird boy sitting in the wheelchair on the second floor of the villa, he once wondered why Jiang Ning was willing to accompany him even though he was hurt by the thorns all over his body. By his side, now it seems that he has already overused his luck, so now it is time to end.
Yan Yixie lowered his head, staring at his crippled legs.
The housekeeper hesitated to speak.
He said in a low voice: "Go out and leave me alone."
When the boy was finally left alone in the car, he gritted his teeth tightly, not letting himself show any signs of fragility and collapse, but his eye sockets were still slowly turning red uncontrollably.
He seemed to fall back into the abyss again, feeling the bone-chilling cold.
…
Jiang Ning didn't go to school that day, didn't go the next day, and still didn't go the third day.
She turned off her phone and took three days off.
Every evening, the black car would appear downstairs, and it would not leave until dawn the next day. Jiang Ning knew this—even if she didn’t know, Jiang Fan told her the words, but she still never went downstairs .
Yan Yixie was unwilling to accept the reality and was still waiting for her.
Jiang Ning didn't know how a young man with such a strong self-esteem waited downstairs night after night. He knew she had given up on him and she didn't want him anymore, but he still put down all his edge and stubbornly hoped that she would change her mind.
One night, it suddenly rained heavily. Jiang Ning could not sleep all night listening to the sound of pouring rain.
Yan Yixie came downstairs to wait for someone day after day, of course Jiang Fan also saw the clues, he stuffed an umbrella for Jiang Ning, and asked her to go down to deliver it to someone, but Jiang Ning locked the door behind her and escaped. Hide in bed. Jiang Fan couldn't understand at first, why her sister was the one who liked Brother Yan the most, why would she be so cruel once she became ruthless. He was so guilty that he was at a loss, he hurriedly ran downstairs with an umbrella, and persuaded Yan Yixie to go back first.
Jiang Fan promised: "Brother, it's okay if you wait any longer. Once my sister thinks about it, I'll tell you right away."
But Jiang Fan didn't expect that he didn't wait for the opportunity to help Jiang Ning and Yan Yixie reconcile.
On the fourth day, Jiang Ning finally cheered up and went to school, but the seat next to him was empty.
The housekeeper called several times, begging Jiang Ning to visit Yan Yixie.
"You can't do this, Jiang Ning." The housekeeper choked up and said, "Young Master, he... has locked himself in the room for a long time. He got caught in the rain and had a little fever. He kept me outside and refused to take medicine. Although his tone He said indifferently that he never wants to see you again, but I know he still wants to wait for you to come, can you come here, even if you lie to him for a few days, let him take the medicine... "
Jiang Ning leaned on the table, feeling the dagger piercing her heart repeatedly, she listened silently, but in the end she didn't go.
When Yan Yixie finally recovered, it was already a week later.
The two hadn't seen each other for a long time. When the boy came to the school again, his whole body had been reduced for many years. His fair skin was even more abnormally pale, which made those dark eyes more and more lifeless, as if the light couldn't shine. go inside.
Jiang Ning reads, does homework, and takes exams as usual, but still avoids him.
Jiang Ning didn't know how he got here during that time.
Time passed very slowly, and every minute and every second was suffering.
The winter jasmine flowers on the campus are blooming one after another, and the weather is getting warmer, but the withered and haggard leaves that have been hanging on the treetops in the deep winter have been blown away by the wind.
The sky is still gray, and there are not many signs of spring, but lifeless everywhere.
Yan Yixie's young self-esteem was trampled by Jiang Ning's day-to-day escapes, and his heart gradually withered.
…
Jiang Ning applied to the homeroom teacher for a change of seat, and no longer had any contact with him. When he saw him from a distance in the corridor, he turned around and left.
Xu Mingyi was the first person in the class to discover something was wrong between the two of them. Xu Mingyi remembered the day he saw Jiang Ning walking back while crying at the seaside. Jiang Ning might not have noticed that day, but he found out that there was a black car following him all the time. In the back, until Jiang Ning was sent home.
Now that he has matured a lot, Xu Mingyi thought that Jiang Ning might want to talk to someone, so he tried to talk to Jiang Ning as a friend.
But Jiang Ning didn't want to talk to him more.
To her, every bit and every drop of the matter between her and Yan Yixie was like a treasure kept in a box. She even took it out and wiped it carefully, let alone mentioned it to others.
In this way, day by day passed.
Dead trees grow new leaves, and the yellow leaves are swept into the garbage dump by the cleaners. The school is no longer just gray, but the color of trees and flowers.
But for some people, the real spring has never come.
On April 1st, Jiang Ning got his wish and watched Yan Yixie leave in the crowd.
That day, Yan Yixie's shirt was straight, his face was handsome and white, and his expression was indifferent. When he got into the car, Yan Boang called.
"Welcome back to the family, son, and hope to have a happy cooperation."
Yan Boang's tone was cheerful, but the young man clutched the phone with a gloomy and cold expression: "You'd better not regret your welcome."
The car passed by Jiang Ning.
The young man lowered his dark crow-feather eyelashes. Although he tried his best not to let himself look at Jiang Ning again, he still raised his head uncontrollably, his cold gaze fixed on Jiang Ning.
In the crowd, the two looked at each other.
The black Pagani inadvertently overwhelmed the winter jasmine flowers at the school gate.
On that day, Jiang Ning did not chase after him. In the end she let go of his hand.