"Xiaoyuan, if you want to say anything, just say it, don't hold it in your heart." Tan Ruikang chased after him, looking sideways at his face from time to time.
Yuan Yuan took a deep breath, his heart was overturned, and he just wanted to shout a few times or find something to vent, but Tan Ruikang was very anxious, for fear that Yuan Yuan would do something unusual. Walking and walking, Tan Ruikang turned around, stepped backwards in front of Yuan Yuan, and said, "Xiao Yuan, it's not necessarily what you think..."
It's not too sad to say that Yuan Yuan is sad. This kind of thing has been over and over in his heart for countless times. Although he can't accept it, he is already mentally prepared. Seeing the short moment of that scene was more shock than sadness.
Zhao Guogang didn't mention anything to himself, so the phone number must also belong to that woman.
The emotions in the distant present are only shock and anger, and the troubles arising from the inability to change the status quo are transferred to the hatred of his father. Zhao Guogang must be with that woman every day without telling himself. They couldn't talk on the phone when they got home, so the two avoided him, for fear that he would get angry, so they didn't even hide it from their own son. What is this? !
what is this! !
"Am I so annoying?" Yuan Yuan said.
"Xiaoyuan..." Tan Ruikang was just trying to find a reason to reassure him, when he heard this, he couldn't help but startled.
Yuan Yuan said: "Am I annoying?! Very unreasonable?"
"How come?" Tan Ruikang said, "Why did you say that all of a sudden?"
Yuan Yuan shook his head, and Tan Ruikang said, "You're fine, Xiao Yuan. Don't think wildly, maybe it's not what you think at all."
"He betrayed my mother!" With tears in his eyes, Yuan Yuan shouted at Tan Ruikang: "He's sorry for my mother! My mother gave him all her money to start a business! Come here with him to fight hard! His Company! His money! His home! Without my mother's support! He is nothing!!"
Tan Ruikang was quiet, sighed and said, "Xiaoyuan, you don't understand, don't worry about it, this is not something you can manage."
"You don't understand!" Yuan Yuan roared irrationally: "Do you understand what it means to be forever! Do you understand what it means to end from the beginning! You are the one who doesn't understand!"
Ten years of life and death are boundless, without thinking, since it is unforgettable.
Yuan Yuan wiped away his tears and walked on the street in a trance. He used to like this song Jiang Chengzi very much. When he read it in junior high school, he was almost shocked. He not only lamented the helplessness of the eternal separation between heaven and man, but was deeply touched by Su Shi's emotions. move. He always felt that Zhao Guogang's feelings for his mother were the same as Su Shi's mourning for his deceased wife. I also believe that Zhao Guogang was in a difficult situation. Except that Wushan is not a cloud, there is no one better in this world than his deceased mother.
Zhang Zhen's girlfriend and another girl waited at the entrance of Lianhuashan Park, and gave directions to friends who came to wait for the sunrise, saying: "Zhang Zhen and the others are drinking on the hillside, you go in and go straight, turn around behind the small shop selling kites, and walk along the road. You'll find them on the trail."
Tan Ruikang nodded, Zhang Zhen's girlfriend saw that Yuan Yuan's expression was a little wrong, and asked, "What happened to the milk boy?"
Yuan Yuan waved his hand to indicate that it was okay, they went to the classmate's meeting place. At three in the middle of the night, everyone was very excited. Those with girlfriends hugged their girlfriends in the corner, chatting quietly under their jackets, and those without girlfriends gathered together to drink and eat. peanut.
"What's wrong?"
"Milk boy, are you not happy?"
"Bullied?"
several people asked.
Yuan Yuan waved his hand and sat down. Qi Huiyu came over to take his shoulder and whispered, "What's the matter?"
Qi Huiyu, Tan Ruikang, Zhang Zhen and Yuan Yuan were sitting next to a small iron bucket. The iron bucket was burning with charcoal bought from a kite shop, and the fire reflected on the faces of several people.
Qi Huiyu guessed it as soon as Yuan Yuan said it. Several people didn't speak, and looked at the barrel of fire quietly.
"Everything starts from the beginning." Qi Huiyu said casually: "It's all fake, don't take it to heart. Su Shi also married his sister-in-law. Our teacher just said this in class a few days ago."
Everyone laughed, and Yuan Yuan also smiled.
Tan Ruikang did not speak, but shook his head.
Zhang Zhen said: "Across from our community, there was a girl when I was in the first year of junior high school. I didn't dare to say that she had cancer. I was afraid that my family would not have the money to treat it. Quarrel with her husband, jumped off the building and died."
Yuan Yuan said, "What's the noise?"
Zhang Zhen said: "It's a trivial matter. Her husband didn't know about it until she died. He felt sorry for her and cried for a long time. Later, it was time to eat, sleep, and get married again on National Day. It's only been two years. More, there are children. The original child and the dead mother's mother's family were taken by the old man. Fortunately, the man gave all the money to the children's grandparents, otherwise the mother's family would not know what to do."
Qi Huiyu said: "I asked you to come to No. 1 Middle School early, but it's great that you came. We live in a dormitory, and we can't see it."
Yuan Yuan said: "Can I still transfer schools now?"
Tan Ruikang said, "Xiaoyuan, don't do this."
Yuan Yuan sighed, his grades rotted into this virtue after only half a semester, and he couldn't pass the exam even if he wanted to transfer to another school. For the first time in his life, he had so many troubles, just go to sleep, just take a nap.
He was lying on the grass, and Tan Ruikang took off his jacket and covered him. After a while, the security guard came over and told them not to start a fire. Zhang Zhen put out the fire and got up to play fireworks with his girlfriend.
The sparks of the fairy stick are shining brightly, drawing arcs in the night sky. This place has almost become the base camp of the third middle school. The high school and junior high schools are all here. Qin Yao was also jokingly chasing and fighting with a girl, running very fast.
Yuan Yuan woke up, Qi Huiyu didn't know where he went, Tan Ruikang was still by his side, a fish belly white appeared in the east, the dawn of the rising sun shone on the mountainside, and the first sunshine of the new century arrived.
On the same day, Yuan Yuan had a good time and had a good morning tea. Everyone said goodbye outside the park. They made an appointment to go to the beach for winter vacation, and then went home. Yuan Yuan was still thinking about that, and when he returned home, he saw Zhao Guogang’s door was closed. , has come back to sleep.
On New Year's Day, he slept all day and woke up at four in the afternoon to see Zhao Guogang and Tan Ruikang talking at the dining table. Zhao Guogang said: "Baby is up? Go brush your teeth and wash your face, wash the paint from your hair, and take you to Xiaomeisha to eat seafood and pigeons at night."
Yuan Yuan said: "Who else is going?"
Zhao Guogang said, "You know all the uncles and aunts in the company."
Yuan Yuan didn't mention yesterday's incident, nor did he make trouble with his father. After changing clothes and taking a shower, Zhao Guogang went off to drive, but Yuan Yuan packed up a bottle of spray disinfectant and followed his father to the parking lot.
After opening the door, Yuan Yuan started spraying disinfectant on the passenger seat.
Zhao Guogang stood quietly, Tan Ruikang dared not speak.
The smell of disinfectant is similar to the smell in the hospital. Yuan Yuan first sprayed all the visible areas on the passenger seat, then wiped it with a dry cloth. After squatting on the side of the car and wiping the seat and wiping the front panel, Zhao Guogang's expression changed. very ugly.
"What are you doing?" Zhao Guogang said.
"Someone else has sat in my mother's seat." Yuan Yuan said seriously: "It's just a disinfection, let's go."
The air was filled with the smell of disinfectant and the low air pressure of Zhao Guogang and his son. Tan Ruikang sat in the back seat of the car and did not dare to move or say a word. Zhao Guogang breathed out from time to time, as if he was very bored, while Yuan Yuan leaned on the window of the car and looked at the scenery outside with an expressionless face.
That day, Zhao Guogang invited his business partners and old friends to have a meal. He glanced at him from afar, but did not notice the woman who was sitting in the car yesterday. In front of his father's friends, he had returned to his appearance as a good student.
Most of my uncles and friends have known each other from afar. They have met with their father more than once, and they are familiar with each other and have something to say. Zhao Guogang introduced his nephew again.
It was the first time that Tan Ruikang participated in this kind of occasion. After saying a few words, his position was insignificant, so he was not mentioned much. After all, there is a difference in kinship. Even if they follow the faraway side, Tan Ruikang is just a nephew, and they don't know Tan Ruikang's father, so naturally no one cares about him.
The adults were drinking and blushing. An uncle from Guangzhou was an educated youth from the same farm when Zhao Guogang went to the countryside. He smiled boldly: "Xiaoyuan, I told your father that I will come after you graduate from college. When my secretary, you have to study hard!"
That uncle is the general manager of a listed company. When he said this, Zhao Guogang smiled and said, "Xiaoyuan, don't you thank uncle?"
Yuan Yuan doesn’t feel much about his future and work, although he knows that when he says this, he has finalized the future, career, and life that countless people are envious of, but he doesn’t care much about it, and said with a smile: “And my brother, I Let’s help him find a job by the way.”
Tan Ruikang: "..."
Zhao Guogang couldn't help laughing.
The man was drunk and said with a smile: "No problem! You and Ruikang's work are covered by Uncle!"
Tan Ruikang hurriedly said thank you, thank you, so he was exposed to the distant light, and his expression was very sad. During the banquet, several people were talking about going to the countryside to farm. They also talked about the construction and development of the past few years. The secretary of the municipal party committee, there is a business opportunity in such a place, and he left after dinner and went out to watch the sea picking shells.
"Xiaoyuan." Tan Ruikang said, "Thank you."
"What?" Sitting on the beach and smoking a cigarette, Yuan Yuan said, "For them, it's very easy to help arrange a job. Besides, you study so well, you won't be sure who will depend on whom in the future. If you go to Peking University Tsinghua, going to work in their company is simply cheaper for them."
Tan Ruikang sighed and said, "No, Xiaoyuan, this is very important. I understand that no matter how hard you study these years, it's all for the sake of having a good job in the future."
"How can you say that?" Yuan Yuan gave Tan Ruikang a cigarette, and the two sat side by side on the beach, the waves surging.
Yuan Yuan said in a trance: "Knowledge is the eyes of the soul. Although what we have learned is indeed not knowledge, the learning is not entirely for a future diploma, right?"
Tan Ruikang was a little surprised. He didn't expect Yuan Yuan to say such a thing. He had also read books about Drex, and they were on the bookshelf at home, but Yuan Yuan said this, and suddenly a feeling of admiration arose in his heart.
"You always have so many novel ideas." Tan Ruikang sighed.
Yuan Yuan was still thinking about the incident of Zhao Guogang. He suddenly wanted to give up on himself, stop studying, leave home to work, wander around, and go to Tibet, Yangon, and Inner Mongolia as described in Baby Anne's book.
"What do you want to do in the future?" Yuan Yuan asked Tan Ruikang.
Tan Ruikang thought about it and said, "Like my uncle, open a company, make money, and live a good life."
Yuan Yuan's heart is really a vulgar ideal, but Tan Ruikang smiled, looked at Yuan Yuan, and said, "Xiao Yuan, how about you?"
Yuan Yuan was still thinking, Tan Ruikang said, "You must be a great person in the future."
The corners of Yuan Yuan's mouth twitched, and he said, "Don't hold me like that, you'll get goosebumps."
Tan Ruikang hurriedly said: "No, I mean it seriously, your future will definitely be broader than mine in the future, because your ideals are also wider than mine, and the things you are exposed to have more room for development."
Yuan Yuan recalled that once Zhao Guogang asked him if he wanted to study abroad, but he had no interest at all, nor did he want to leave home.
"I want to be a painter in the future." Yuan Yuan said, "Or a singing singer, wandering around."
"The painter is not bad." Tan Ruikang said with a smile: "Forget the singer, it's too hard, I support you, and I will make money for your travel expenses in the future."
Distant: "… "
Yuan Yuan just thought it was funny, but Tan Ruikang really still couldn't understand Baby Annie, the wandering complex of Hai Zi and San Mao, the sunset in the Sahara and the sea in Greece.
Although Yuan Yuan had never seen them with his own eyes, even if he was given a ticket now, Yuan Yuan would never have the courage to get on the plane and leave.
But he always had to seek something to change his mind, especially after he had this kind of almost hopeless emotion towards his father, last night he tossed and turned and wanted to do something, but he didn't have a good template. In the end, he could only see The simple imitation in the past books, imitating baby Anne's legacy and independence, imitating Sanmao's smile - of course not really doing, many things are just talking.
But why are the travelers Xiaoqing all women
This question troubled Yuanyuan for quite a long time, until he bought a copy of Zhuang Yu's adaptation one day, of course, this is a later story.
Tan Ruikang finished talking about his ideals that day, and Yuan Yuan didn't mention these things much, because the achievability was too difficult, and he was lazy.
Zhao Guogang had just finished drinking and asked the company driver to come and drive them back, but Yuan Yuan and his father did not mention the woman again. On the second day of New Year's Day, Zhao Guogang also had a holiday. He went to buy a plate after finishing the exercises in the far distance. He lay on the sofa and watched it with Tan Ruikang, while Zhao Guogang bought vegetables and cooked for the two children.
A cry at the beginning of the movie attracted Zhao Guogang.
Cheng Dieyi's extra finger was chopped off, and Tan Ruikang was stunned.
"Didn't you see this movie?" Zhao Guogang asked casually.
"I want to see it again." Yuan Yuan said, "My brother hasn't seen it either."
Tan Ruikang said, "I don't mind, uncle, look, I'll go wash the vegetables."
Zhao Guogang signaled that he might as well, and said, "Uncle read it several years ago."
Zhao Guogang just drank two cups of tea and went into the kitchen to cook, but the sound from the living room still came, and the moment he saw Cheng Dieyi drawing Duan Xiaolou's eyebrows, Yuan Yuan couldn't help his eyes red.
The subtitles appeared after the finale, and Yuan Yuan sighed.
Tan Ruikang's expression was very strange, and after a long time he said, "Xiaoyuan, they are..."
distant:"?"
Tan Ruikang frowned in disbelief: "They turned out to be gay?!"
Distant: "… "
"Is homosexuality so disgusting?" Yuan Yuan couldn't help asking.
Tan Ruikang didn't dare to speak, with an expression of eating flies on his face, he thought for a while, sighed, and said, "It's really touching, hey, homosexuality is indeed... It can only end up like this."
Yuan Yuan said: "This has nothing to do with homosexuality, okay? The important thing is Cheng Dieyi's words and the kind of relationship that lasts a lifetime. You didn't listen to him? A lifetime is a lifetime, a day less, an hour, a minute, not a lifetime. ."
Tan Ruikang said: "But it's also related to the fact that they are all men. If Dieyi was a woman, there would not be so much trouble."
Yuan Yuan couldn't argue with him at all, Zhao Guogang said, "It's time to eat."
Yuan Yuan at the dinner table is still saying, "This is just... a representation of same-sex love resistance and contradiction as a means of expression. Well, forget it, you don't understand."
Zhao Guogang said: "I have a Chinese film on my bookshelf for 40 years, and Ruikang can take a look at it."
Tan Ruikang nodded, Zhao Guogang gave them two drumsticks, one for each, and then took the fish to draw out the belly meat for Yuan Yuan, and the other side of the fish belly was sandwiched out for Tan Ruikang.
"The final exam is coming soon, do you have the confidence to catch up?" Zhao Guogang said.
Distant: "Yes."
Tan Ruikang: "Xiaoyuan can definitely do it."
Zhao Guogang: "Xiao Yuan is as smart as his mother. Your Tan family is very good at studying. It's a pity that Rui Kang's father went to the army to take care of the two old people, otherwise he can get into a good university."
Tan Ruikang said with a smile: "The eldest grandmother also said that he is not material for reading."
Zhao Guogang sighed and said, "Don't listen to her, everyone in your family is smart."
Zhao Guogang can level a bowl of water just right every time, even praise, and after a while he said casually: "Xiaoyuan, if Dad finds you a mother someday, are you willing to accept it?"
The dining table was quiet, Tan Ruikang didn't dare to speak, got up to add food, thought for a while, and said, "Yes."
Zhao Guogang watched his son silently.
Yuan Yuan said again: "This is your freedom, I am against
It doesn't work, as long as she can't live with me and can't come into my house, because this house was left to me by my mother..."
Tears came down Yuan Yuan's words as he spoke: "I respect your choice, you can go get married, but I won't say a word to her, so don't take her to the door..."
Distant tears rolled in her eyes: "But don't mention her in front of me, I'll take it as if I don't know."
Zhao Guogang said, "If you don't agree, just tell Dad that you don't agree. What do you say?"
Yuan Yuan wiped away his tears, but Zhao Guogang couldn't help it, he sighed, his eyes were flushed, and he said, "I see, baby has the final say."
Yuan Yuan put down his chopsticks, put his fists in front of his nose, heaved a long sigh of relief, tears streaming down uncontrollably, and finally lay on the table, gasping for breath, and burst into tears.
Tan Ruikang came over and touched Yuan Yuan's head.
After eating, Yuan Yuan went back to his room. Tan Ruikang cleaned the table and washed the dishes. From the balcony of the kitchen, he heard Zhao Guogang calling in his room.
Zhao Guogang: "Yes, Xiaoyuan is too young to accept it. He loves his mother very much..."
Tan Ruikang stood quietly and listened.
"Don't wait for me anymore, no, I'm not worth your wait... It won't be possible in a few years, even after the college entrance examination... No, I figured it out... I can't delay you."
Zhao Guogang talked for a long time, very embarrassed.
"Okay, wait a minute and talk about it later." Zhao Guogang ended the call and said the last sentence: "I love you too."
The smell of smoke floated up, a red dot dissipated in the night, the starry sky outside the window was brilliant, the winter night gradually woke up in the bustling lights, and it was a new year.