The weather is getting colder, and college life is not as uncomfortable as it was at the beginning. Yuan Yuan began to think that going to college is still very fun. You can go to the next dormitory to chat all over the world, or you can go to Guangdong students to hoe the earth. All of his classmates knew all of them, and the senior sisters often teased him and joked about pairing him with You Zeyang, saying that they were a couple, and Yuan Yuan only laughed when they heard it.
His circle of friends has gradually expanded, he can chat with anyone, draw and joke to make girls laugh, help classmates with emotional problems, advise them on gifts, and bring snacks and snacks when they go to other people's dormitories Drink over to eat, everyone likes him very much.
University and high school are very different, each has its own nightlife, it is simply a variety of living beings.
In the evening after school, some people go to self-study. In several dormitories, they are connected to the LAN to play Interstellar and Empire. Some people turn on the amplifier and play rock and roll in the dormitory. The diagonally opposite dormitory is playing cards and gambling for money. I went to bet a few times in Yuanyuan, and the entry and exit were too small. It was boring to win. It was only a few dozen dollars to come and go for a night.
"Zhao Yuanyuan." Zhang Jun smiled and said, "Do you play Legend?"
Yuan Yuan remembered the legend that Qi Huiyu asked him to play with before, and said, "Okay."
Zhang Jun said: "I've spent my living expenses this month, you lend me money to buy a point card, and I'll show you."
Yuan Yuan knew that this was the case. He didn't want to pay Zhang Junbai back the two hundred he borrowed last time. He used to treat guests comfortably. After all, Zhang Zhen, Qi Huiyu and others liked him very much, and they could feel each other sincerely. Friendship, treats are not in vain.
But in college, I always felt that there was not so much friendship in it. Zhang Jun and the others gradually lost their arrogance and character at the beginning. They would ask him to borrow money and eat his food. Yuan Yuan was not a big man. You can eat and drink mine. As long as you treat me as a friend, I will be happy to eat as much as you want. Friends who have a bite to eat will not be hungry. Like You Zeyang, he often finds Yaoyao to eat, but if there is something good, he will take the initiative to call him, and also introduce his girlfriend from his hometown to him and add QQ friends.
But things like Zhang Jun and HNA are different. Yuan Yuan didn't want to buy him a card, and said, "I'll try it myself first, if it doesn't work, I'll call you."
Zhang Jun said, "Should I sell my account to you? It's worth several thousand. I've been playing for three years."
When Yuan Yuan heard this, he was even more glad that he didn't pay for it. Others regarded him as a water fish and said, "No, I'll start learning to play at level zero first."
Seeing that there is no money in the pit, Zhang Jun simply said generously: "Let you play with my account. If you are bullied, you can kill it back."
Yuan Yuan replied, downloaded the legend client, and looked for Qi Huiyu on QQ.
Qi Huiyu usually hangs on QQ, but he is a little indifferent to Yuan Yuan, and Yuan Yuan does not take the initiative to find him. It would be bad if Qi Huiyu said something that should not be said later.
Qi Huiyu is quite busy in school in Hong Kong, and the courses are almost incomparable with those in the mainland. He packs his backpack and gets out of the way with three C's in one semester, and he doesn't dare to take it lightly.
As soon as Yuan Yuan looked for him, Qi Huiyu gave him the number to let him play by himself first, and told him: [If someone asks you online, you can just say it's my wife, and I'll come back to accompany you after the exam is over after a while. ] When Zhang Jun saw Qi Huiyu's number 42, he was taken aback immediately, his face full of envy, and there was something to show off in the distance, so he changed from Zhang Jun to Yuan Yuan to play with Zhang Jun in Yuan Yuan. .
Zhang Jun went down and bought two point cards, took the initiative to give one to Yuan Yuan, and asked Yuan Yuan to operate Qi Huiyu's account to upgrade him. So Yuan Yuan used Qi Huiyu's account to bring his own trumpet and Zhang Jun to the cave to kill monsters and play.
As soon as I played Legend, I fell into it immediately. The sand city master, PK, leveling, killing, explosive equipment, brushing money, all kinds of gold coins, and gods were flying all over the sky. Yuan Yuan first played Qi Huiyu's account for a while, and after he figured it out, he started to play his own trumpet. He has been immersed in the game since elementary school. Once he got started, he was familiar with various operations. The gold coins go to disperse wealth - anyway, Qi Huiyu said that he spends whatever he wants.
Yuan Yuan asked Qi Huiyu a few times how his number came from. I never saw him addicted to games in high school before, and Qi Huiyu replied that he was cheated by a ladyboy. This account was originally the husband of Qi Huiyu's shemale account, but it turned out that he was a man and suffered a major blow. He even gave him the account and never played the game again.
Yuan Yuan was completely speechless. He used that number to roll over and over. Many of them were Qi Huiyu's good friends. They usually took care of him. They also met a lot of people in the game. I bought instant noodles from Hainan Airlines every day, and stayed in the bedroom.
"Gaoshu give me a name, DAI..." Yuan Yuan said tiredly, "I don't want to go."
Derpy Glasses said, "Is it so fun to play games? I don't even want to go to class. It's only seven o'clock."
Yuan Yuan said: "Then I'll sleep a little longer..."
It was already 8:30 when I woke up again, and I was half an hour late. It would be better to be late than never. Forget it, don't go. Yuan Yuan rolled up the quilt and continued to sleep.
When I slept until 1:00 noon, Tan Ruikang texted: [Brother, have you eaten yet?]
Yuan Yuan got up and took the instant noodles from Hainan Airlines, put two dollars on his table, glanced at the labels on the box, such as "Simmered Chicken Noodles with Mushrooms", and replied with a text message: [Eat, Stewed Chicken with Mushrooms, Braised Beef, Shrimp seaweed.]Tan Ruikang: [Have your cafeteria changed the menu? Take my brother to try it next time, have you done your homework?] Far away: [Yes, what did you eat for lunch? No, many won't.]Tan Ruikang: [Which ones won't? I'll come and teach you on Friday.]
Yuan Yuan: [Let me ask someone first, I have an appointment with a friend on Saturday and Sunday.]
Tan Ruikang didn't reply to the text message anymore, Yuan Yuan did make an appointment with a friend, a friend in the game.
From autumn to winter, Yuan Yuan always told himself that he must go to class tomorrow, but every time it ended in failure.
Why is college so painful? Do you want to get a seat in advance? ! Every time I go, Yuan Yuan finds a pile of books on the table. It’s not good to throw it away. I have to go to occupy a seat in advance, but I don’t want to move. Those who are in love can't concentrate.
I finally got the front row one day, my spirits improved, and I couldn't understand the scriptures full of blackboards.
You Zeyang was also taken with him to play Legends. He opened a trumpet and followed Yuan Yuan's ass, hid the trumpet in the crevices of the rock and waited for Yuan Yuan to fight monsters and level up to gain experience for him. He came to the dormitory and sat beside him and watched him use his notebook. Killing the monsters and saying, "Hey, it's alright, just review it after the exam, everyone is like this. Be careful! Someone killed you!"
"Really?" Yuan Yuan threw a few talismans at random, brushed them with poison, dragged a soldier around like a monkey, drained him to death, and said, "Are you sure?"
You Zeyang: "Wow, you did a great job! I'm pretty sure!"
So Yuan Yuan reassured and made an appointment with You Zeyang. One month before the final exam, he started quitting games and went to the evening self-study, so he didn't go to class.
Tan Ruikang's FLASH also pops up every half an hour. It was very interesting at the beginning. In the end, even You Zeyang got bored. It took up the whole screen. There is no way to crack it. I want to find an expert in the computer department to change the cycle of this FLASH jumping every half an hour, or temporarily block it.
However, the master said that there is a sky outside the sky, there are people on the people, and the program written by the fairy brother of the remote family starts automatically when the computer is turned on. Even the seniors of the computer department can't do it. If you want to change the program, you can only uninstall all the programs. It takes more than 1,430 years to find a password every cycle, a password of sixteen digits, and brute force cracking.
Yuan Yuan could only feel pain and happiness. He was stimulated by Tan Ruikang's FLASH about his studies every half an hour, reminding him that he would be dead if he continued to play, and then Yuan Yuan closed the program and continued to play his legend.
In December, it's getting cold, and it's even harder to get up this far morning.
Tan Ruikang still texts three times a day, asking for lunch and dinner, and saying good night.
From the beginning, every text message must be returned, gradually becoming less, and then returning to only dinner and good night. There is really no way, Yuan Yuan is used to night activities, because there are few people playing in the middle of the night, and he is not afraid of grabbing monsters, so he can level up to the fullest. He slept from morning to noon, and slept until afternoon. Tan Ruikang sent a text message and he couldn't get up at all. After about 11 o'clock in the evening, he started to level up. By the way, he returned to Tan Ruikang's text message and told him good night.
Yuan Yuan was distracted by the game, and he no longer had the bitterness that he loved and desired as before. Only when he went to bed in the middle of the night or at 6 in the morning, when he flipped out his mobile phone and saw the news of Tan Ruikang, he couldn't help but feel sad. I think I've fallen.
He didn't want to say anything to Tan Ruikang. After all, they have no way out. Keep a distance. If you can't afford it, doing your own thing is also a solution. Maybe indulging in games can forget his feelings for him.
The winter is getting colder, and the Christmas event in the legend is very rewarding. It is far away at 4 o'clock in the afternoon to get up, brush your teeth and wash your face, the first thing is to start the game and prepare to play the event online.
While playing, my ear was pulled by a hand.
Yuan Yuan immediately realized that something was wrong. When he turned his head, he saw Tan Ruikang wearing a sweater, jeans, a scarf, and his hair was cut very short. He asked, "Why don't you answer the phone? No class today?"
Distant: "… "
"My phone is set to vibrate." Yuan Yuan got up to get the phone, and found that more than a dozen missed calls were all from Tan Ruikang, and said, "Why are you here?"
"I'll spend Christmas with you." Tan Ruikang smiled and said, "What are you playing? Let me see."
Tan Ruikang couldn't play the legend, he died after a few clicks, and asked, "Why is it grayed out?"
Distant: "… "
Yuan Yuan's heart was over, and a lot of equipment must have exploded after being killed, but he couldn't be angry with Tan Ruikang, and he didn't dare to say that the game was very important, so he could only say: "No... It's okay, I'll turn it off."
Tan Ruikang took out a paper bag with Baleno's scarves and sweaters in it, and said with a smile, "Brother bought it for you, wear it and see."
The style is exactly the same as that of the distant one, but the colors are slightly different. Tan Ruikang's is dark black, and the distant one is dark blue. The two scarves are both white, and they feel very warm after they are wrapped around. The boy-like Tan Ruikang suddenly had the urge to hug him tightly, bury him in his neck, or put his arms around him and let him bow his head and kiss him.
However, if you think about it, you can only think about it. After changing clothes in the distance, the two of them are like lovers and go out to eat.
"How did you spend the night?" Tan Ruikang asked.
"I don't know." Yuan Yuan asked, "Have you thought about it? I don't know where to go."
Tan Ruikang said, "Where are your roommates?"
Yuan Yuan said: "The one with glasses has gone to the elective course. Zhang Jun and senior sister went out to open a room. Yu Haihang didn't know where to go, so he didn't say anything."
Tan Ruikang smiled and said, "Don't you have a place in particular that you want to go today? Brother skipped an afternoon of class and came to accompany you."
Yuan Yuan thought that skipping class was serious? It is estimated that only Tan Ruikang would feel very serious... The more he looked at Tan Ruikang, the more uncomfortable he became. When winter came, people were afraid of the cold and wanted to find someone to warm him up. Yuan Yuan was in high spirits when he indulged in games every day, but when he turned off the computer, he returned When it comes to reality, there is an indescribable loneliness.
What's worse is that this loneliness has nowhere to solve, and it can't even be said.
Otherwise, let Tan Ruikang go back earlier, and go back to play games himself, at least he can be happier with Christmas activities.
"Xiaoyuan." Tan Ruikang asked in confusion, "Are you unhappy?"
Yuan Yuan smiled and said, "No."
Tan Ruikang frowned slightly and looked into his eyes with a serious expression, and the meaning in his eyes was also very complicated.
Yuan Yuan recalled the past, and it seemed that it was the first time he saw Tan Ruikang showing such an expression in front of him. They have been together for nearly five years. Five years is enough for many people to go from falling in love to talking about marriage, the love fades away, and then they become each other's relatives. They had a family relationship at the beginning, but because of the distance from him, this relationship became more and more distant, but he couldn't do anything about it.
"You're unhappy." Tan Ruikang said, "I know. As long as there is something uncomfortable in your heart, I know it. But I don't know why you're unhappy. Can you tell me?"
Yuan Yuan shook his head, and Tan Ruikang said, "Don't take it to heart, tell me, it's Uncle's business to solve it together?"
Yuan Yuan waved his hand, and Tan Ruikang said again, "Are you in love?"
Yuan Yuan fluttered and laughed and said, "No, I'm happy now, let's go eat."
Tan Ruikang is a little confused about Yuanyuan. On Christmas Eve, there are almost always couples on the road, Yuanyuan and Tan Ruikang are also like a pair.
They sat down in a McDonald's outside the university town, and Tan Ruikang said, "I'm going to line up to buy food. Think about what you'll do."
Yuan Yuan hummed, and absently played with Tan Ruikang's mobile phone on the desktop. Since the third year of junior high, their mobile phone has not been changed. In high school, Zhao Guogang bought a very expensive V70 for Yuan Yuan and Tan Ruikang, but Yuan Yuan thought that he couldn't send Chinese text messages, so he didn't want it. Tan Ruikang didn't dare to ask for it either, and both of them were still using Panasonic.
All of their things looked like couples, couples clothes, identical mobile phones, couples card numbers, Yuanyuan picked up the mobile phone, read Tan Ruikang's short messages, and wanted to make a ringtone for him.
By the way, he opened Tan Ruikang's information mailbox, which contained distant text messages: eat, braised pork, beans, steamed ribs, fish soup; eat, how about you? ; eat, mushroom stewed chicken...
Dozens of text messages like recipes are stored in Tan Ruikang's phone, and I miss you, miss you, brother, I miss you, I miss you, brother... Dozens of over and over again, separated by those recipes.
The last text message "Brother, I miss you" was a month ago, when Yuan Yuan started playing Legend.
At that moment, all the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time erupted again, like a mountain torrent collapsed, earth-shattering, and instantly submerged all the reason in the distance.
He tried his best to rub his forehead, eyebrows and eyes with his palms, straighten out his breath, and use this action to suppress his grief.
The phone rang, a short message.
Yuan Yuan pressed the button and glanced at it, the sender was "Gu Xiaoting", and the content was:
[Tan Ruikang! ! Why do you think I am alone for Christmas! ! The old lady wants to create opportunities for you and her! ! Your girlfriends have given you away, but you still don't want it! ! You dead horse! I love looking for your brother! Why don't you fall in love with your brother! Go play with your own eggs, you guys! ! !]Distant: "… "
Tan Ruikang is in love? ! Yuan Yuan couldn't believe it, but she thought it was expected, no, it wasn't a relationship, she said "creating opportunities", it should be that she hasn't gotten married yet. Was it introduced by this person named Gu Xiaoting? Yuan Yuan understood that Tan Ruikang was not with others and didn't like her.
Yuan Yuan didn't dare to say more, so he deleted the text message. After a moment of silence, Tan Ruikang came over with a plate and said, "Have you made up your mind?"
Yuan Yuan said, "I joined a film association when I started school. Let's go to the movies later. It's free."
Tan Ruikang smiled and said, "Okay, the movies you watch are always tasteful."
After eating, they entered the auditorium rented by the Film Association. When they entered, the broadcast had already started. Tan Ruikang bought a drink and said, "What are you playing?"
Yuan Yuan: "No... I don't know, I haven't seen it yet, Leslie Cheung's." Yuan Yuan had seen it, and when he sat down, he was terrified, thinking that the film association is really serious. Otherwise, Tan Ruikang doesn't know if he will vomit the front row.
No... The Chinese mainland version should have been cut out. I hope he doesn't feel too disgusted with the content of the two men dancing together.
Tan Ruikang said: "Leslie Cheung's, isn't he gay again? Why does he like playing gay so much?"
Far away: "See?"
On the screen, Tony Leung is incomparably handsome in a black trench coat, standing outside the bar as a doorman.
"Forget it, look." Tan Ruikang said: "Liang Chaowei, my uncle also likes his films."
Yuan Yuan: "He's a straight man."
Tan Ruikang: "What is a straight man?"
Yuan Yuan said: "He's not gay, no, I mean, he's not gay, but he's gay in this film."
Tan Ruikang said: "How to play this kind of film well, Leslie Cheung is too, he looks so good and doesn't act serious..."
Yuan Yuan said: "Leslie Cheung is gay himself."
Tan Ruikang: "!!!"
"Leslie Cheung is gay?" Tan Ruikang was very surprised.
Yuan Yuan said: "Yeah, did you know? His boyfriend's surname is Tang."
Tan Ruikang had a somewhat "this is not the world I know" and said, "No wonder he always likes to act in this kind of film, do you still watch it?"
"Look." The distant lips trembled a little, and he said to Tan Ruikang, "Everyone has come in, don't see where they can go."
Tan Ruikang frowned and adjusted his posture uncomfortably. His left ankle rested on his right knee. The light and shadow of the big screen changed. He could see Tan Ruikang's face from time to time. On the screen, Leslie Cheung and Tony Leung were dancing in the kitchen wearing flip-flops. As if pinning some kind of emotion from a distant self.
The auditorium was almost full of young couples, only he and Tan Ruikang were two boys who came to watch the movie. The distant heart is both melancholy and sweet. When he secretly watched Tan Ruikang, he secretly guessed what he was thinking.
Will he be moved by the love between Li Yaohui and He Baorong? Yuan Yuan prayed in his heart that he could accept such feelings, but what if he accepted it? Apart from the same sex, they are still cousins... Yuan Yuan fell into an infinite loop again and sighed.
He wanted to snuggle up to Tan Ruikang, and he didn't want to endure it any longer. Every time he was with him, the crazy love kept accumulating, like the water in a waterfall in a movie, which made him always want to do things beyond reason.
Lie down a little farther, leaned on Tan Ruikang's shoulder, and watched a movie with his head on his shoulder.
In the dark theater, there was a pale light on the screen. It was the happiest moment in his distant life. He didn't dare to ask for more. If the movie never ended, then he could lean on Tan Ruikang's shoulder for the rest of his life.
But the movie always has to end. Liang Chaowei recorded a wind sound in front of the lighthouse at the end of the world, and when he sent it to Zhang Zhen, Zhang Zhen listened quietly.
"Is it his cry?" Tan Ruikang turned his head sideways and asked Yuan Yuan in a low voice.
"Yes." Yuan Yuan whispered, "Do you understand their mood?"
Tan Ruikang said: "I understand a little bit, but why did Leslie Cheung find a lover with such difficulty, and he still has to find someone else... That? I don't understand this feeling."
Yuan Yuan said: "I don't understand. If I were him, I would never do this. I finally found someone I love and live so happily, how can I do such a thing? Someone loves him so much, even if he can only It's worth it to die if you love each other for a day."
"Yeah." Tan Ruikang murmured while looking at the big screen in a trance.
"They kept arguing." Yuan Yuan added: "Look, the landlord is also arguing, and Wong Kar Wai may be trying to express that love is full of quarrels. The more people love each other, the more they like to hurt each other, and in the end they are very unhappy. "
The image of the waterfall poured down, and at the end of the play, the music played slowly, the tango played by the viola ensemble formed a beautiful piece with the sound of the water, and the cast was reflected in the distant eyes, and he could see it.
Tan Ruikang stretched his back, put his distant head back, yawned, and said, "Let's go."
Yuan Yuan took him to the station, and Tan Ruikang said, "Review well, don't keep playing games, it's time for the exam."
Yuan Yuan said: "I see, long-winded."
Tan Ruikang smiled and said, "Are you in a better mood?"
Yuan Yuan hummed and bought him a bottle of hot milk. Tan Ruikang shook the milk and said, "Milk boy, I wish you a Merry Christmas."
"You too." Yuan Yuan smiled.
Tan Ruikang got on the bus, and was stunned for a while, watching the bus leave, and when he turned back to the dormitory, Tan Ruikang's text message came.
[Brother, you feel like you have grown up.]
Yuan Yuan sat on a bench on Christmas Eve, staring at his phone.
Tan Ruikang: [You have a lot to say, and you don't want to tell my brother, what's the matter. ] Yuan Yuan replied to a text message: [I like someone, but I dare not say it.]
Tan Ruikang: [This is a good thing, are you in love? tell her. Who do you like?]Distant: [You.]
Tan Ruikang: [Hahaha.]
Tan Ruikang: [I see, which girl do you like and what's her name?]Yuan Yuan looked up at the night sky, took a deep breath, his eyes were red, he bowed his head and smiled bitterly, and turned off his phone.